GHOST beta # dropping

[jenice]

Hi Ghost- my 1st beta # of the 24th was 88. I found out today b/c from 27th was 48. The nurse said it isn't a viable pregnancy and I'll have a miscarriage soon. Would I need a D/C for a 5 week pregnancy ? I'm awaitng my results of todays b/c still probably won't get it till tomorrow. I guess there in no way the # could go down and it could go back up again ? This sucks

[to_have_fun08]

Jenice - Sending tonds of ((HUGS)), I lurk every once in awhile and was so happy to see your BFP. I am so sorry that this doesn't look viable. i don't know what to say. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Chris

[me2009]

ohhh big hug to you and your DH! Im sorry for your loss!

[jenice]

me2009 and -to have-fun08, thanks you guys for your support ,this sucks and I'm not even sure what I am doing I guess I'll continue my meds for tonight since my RE didn't ever tell me what to do. Just more torture for nothing


Welcome to the Land of IVF

Tons of needles
Bruises galore
Can I take much more ?
Scattered hopes
Shattered dreams
Of a baby I've never seen
Will this ever end ?
Stim cycle,down cycle
Cancelled cycle, failed cycle
Please God, give me strength
As the tears roll down my face
And sting my skin
Only to know I have to do this
all over again................

I wrote this poem after my last failed cycle, if I only knew it was going to get worse than this

[Ghost]

Hi Ghost- my 1st beta # of the 24th was 88. I found out today b/c from 27th was 48. The nurse said it isn't a viable pregnancy and I'll have a miscarriage soon.

I'm very sorry to hear that.

Would I need a D/C for a 5 week pregnancy?

Typically not.

I'm awaitng my results of todays b/c still probably won't get it till tomorrow. I guess there in no way the # could go down and it could go back up again ?

Possible, and I have seen it once, but it's rare. But the one I saw was not as extreme as yours, nor was it this early.

Another very (very, very,...) unlikely possibility is the mixup of blood samples. Of course, it must have been mixed up with another at roughly the same stage of a pregnancy to get a 48...

The chance that your clinic is correct is high. However, if you wish, you can ask your clinic if it's ok to continue the luteal support meds until they are 100% certain, and the loss is confirmed by another blood test.

Since it's an FET, discontinuing the progesterone should end it (I assume it was not a natural cycle FET, so there is no other progesterone source).

Of course, your clinic just may say no because abnormal hCG titers tend to suggest a failure or an ectopic, and not a viable pregnancy.

Again, I am sorry to hear of this.

[jenice]

Ghost - Thanks for answering my questions and support. I'm annoyed @ my RE they never answered about taking the meds tonight or not. I'm going to continue tonight with my meds, I don't have much luck as you can see so maybe someone screwed up somewhere I hope

[heidi b]

I'm sorry Jenice. I was lurking and excited for you as well.
Keep praying and the PMA
xoxox
HB

[amysbabies]

Jenice.... you were my beta buddy and I was so happy to see you get your bfp and 88 was such a safe number too. I'm so sorry that this pregnancy isn't viable...I know how you feel and I cried when I read your poem.

I don't think you will need a d&c..unless your #'s don't go down to 0 on their own and an u/s shows something in your uterus. But by the decrease in your 2nd beta I think it should go down w/o any problems.

Stay strong and healthy so you can work on your next cycle.

God bless.

[jenice]

amysbabies- Thanks for your support, I felt soooo bad for you when your #'s were low and your loss as well. I might try to cycle in January if I EVER hear from my RE. It just felt like I got kicked in the face. It has been a long time since I lost a pregnancy and it just sucks. I keep reminding myself @ least I was pregnant, my body figured out what to do again. I'm sure they will say it was the embryo. I transferred 2 embies a 2-cell and a 4-cell.They were only a 2 day. I have insurance so we could cycle again we might have to start to put money out for meds though. I have a DD and had to tell her mommy not having a baby anymore. She was upset and said " I won't be a big sister ?" Again I felt kicked in the face !!!!! We were so excited I felt we needed to tell her, she went on so many RE appts and for b/c she knew we were trying for so long. We have only told our parents about the miscarriage. We still have to tell friends I don't regret telling people because I was pregnant and happy which has been a long time for both.

[tortillachip]

Hi Jenice,
I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I had a chemical pregnancy as well. It's devastating. We're here for you if you want to "talk" as we know what you're going through. Stay strong!

[gi]

Ah jenice my heart breaks for you after you going thro. so much, and that lovely poem brings back some memories for me too. I am sooooo sorry for your loss and wish i could give you a big (((hug))), i know how painful it is for you and your little girl will help you get thro. it she will be a big sister soon dont give up hope. You are in my thoughts and prayers during such a difficult time and if you ever need to talk i am here xxxx

[jenice]

Tortillachip - Thanks, this does suck !!!! Just when I get done telling EVERYONE !!!! It just seems like a cruel joke, I feel like an ass

Gi - I was thinking about you today. Well we might be cycle buddies once again. Why do we need to go through so much heartache. I'm sorry if my poem seems depressing, I was very frustrated with all the IVF crap when I wrote it. It does seem therapuetic @ least to get some of those crappy feelings onto paper. I don't know how you keep doing it, picking yourself right back up. YOUR IRISH, is that the secret. I'm irish too, were very stubborn don't like "NO" FOR AN ANSWER. We will start running out of insurance and when we do, I'll be done. I feel like these precious years with my DD will be gone and I don't want to be miserable throughout them. i'm just glad to stop those PIO shots, I hate them with a passion

[2010]

jenice, just wanted to say how sorry i am... hang in there