stressed during Stims - trigger tonight

[WaitingAgain]

Hi- II am returning to this board under a new username. I am desperate to talk to someone who knows what I am going thru! I've read a few posts and it seems like a great group of women on this board these days, as before. I hope it is OK if I barge in and impose myself and ask for your ear (eye?)! I am trying for child#2, I hope it is ok to mention children on this board - one some boards you are not welcome if you mention that you have a child already.

I am in Day 9 of stimulation for my 3rd IVF. I have elevated FSH and stage 2 endometriosis and had my left tube removed this fall. My FSH was 14 at baseline (was 20 last month so it is an improvement). It shot up from 9.9 last year. I have felt like my worst day of PMS for about 7 days (but immediately prior to stims, felt healthier than I had in years!). I do acupuncture 2x a week and see chiropractor 1-3 times per week and I exercise every day. My son (conceived by ivf in 2007) is in a really defiant and difficult stage of toddlerhood and my husband has a cold and our washing machine broke this weekend. Very stressed! Doc told me again this morning to stay relaxed but I feel like the deck is stacked against me! How can I relax when my estrogen is near 2,000! I have worked so hard and devoted so many resources to making this work and it is the last attempt that our insurance coverage will pay for. After this no, only aobut $2K of coverage left. I'm also have money in the back fo my mind as all the time off work has been unpaid FMLA . .. and xmas coming up! I had to cash in a small IRA to make ends meet this month.

Looks like I am to trigger tonight and retrieval on Wednesday. I have had nothing but confidence and good feelings about the outcome until the last 3 days when teh hormones seems to really start to make me nuts - I am WAY not myself - crying and having meltdowns and unable to be consistent with my difficult but wonderful child. But work is busy and no time to fit in a massage or extra accupunture appt.

Please share your thoughts about staying calm and thinking positive and keeping perspective! I'd be grateful to share in your collective wisdom. Thanks!!

Helen

[patatina]

Well, for what it's worth, I had an amazingly stressful stim period (in terms of work and family) and my estrogen soared to over 5000 very quickly. I suddenly started driving wacky, ripping things apart with my teeth and banging pots and pans together. It was probably the worst possible choice of times to do an IVF cycle too. But it worked. We're 23 weeks pregnant with a daughter.

Best of luck to you.