just to be a little dramatic.....{again}

JackieT · Post by **JackieT** » Fri Nov 07, 2003 11:59 pm

hi all well. we have just come back from our scan. and once again the roller-coaster ride was on, while we were waiting for scan the nurse said to us, not to expect good news that because of the baby size last week that it might not have devoloped any furthur{it was 5.4} and the other one was{5.0} so just to prepare ourselves.... well. as you can imagine we just sat there staring at her and then she gave a big smile and told us to wait in the waiting area.. john ran out. he thought he was going to throw up again. i just sat numb. we went into scan, and i asked the guy what was going on, told him what the nurse said, and he could see how distraught we were, basically, he said. how can she say that? has someone scanned you? so he did the scan, baby has grown to 12mm, which is just on the borderline of the scale, the heart beat is healthy, we seen it and we heard it, he even gave us a picture, but.. the little twin has not developed and he could see alot of blood, so now we are on knicker watch for either implantation bleed of "BOB" or the loss of the little fella. he recons if we get through the next 7/10 days we have a good chance, he also said we might miscarry, so plenty of rest.. we then went back to see the dr in the clinic and she had not expected us to make it this week as the baby was so small, she said she is a little more hopeful now that it has got a little bigger, so they are going to scan us on monday week, and the EPU will scan again in 4 weeks. i am now afraid to feel pregnant, i cant relax with it and will be watching everything, so i am going to be calling on all your support for awhile. i hope you are all o.k and i will talk soon. love jackiexxx

Wibbs · Post by **Wibbs** » Sat Nov 08, 2003 12:22 pm

Oh Jackie. Please do not despair, unfortunatly some Nurse's do NOT understand what we have been through....(just to get this far)they see this kind of thing all the time so feel that they have to be complacent about it all. We lost our little twin at 6 weeks, but the other one is doing very well and heard the heartbeat and seen the scan, so we are thankful for that. Keep your sprits up, and relax you wont be able to stop thinking about it so no matter what anyone says. All I can say is take each day one at a time and for every day that pass's it gives that little glimmer of HOPE. Take it easy kido and put your feet up..............I'm keeping an eye on you. Love Wibbs xxxx

suzanne · Post by **suzanne** » Sat Nov 08, 2003 1:49 pm

Good luck Jackie, I have everything crossed for you and hope that everything is ok at your next scan. Try and avoid Nurse Ratchett though! Wibbs is right about their matter of fact attitudes, it's just another day at the offuce for them, so they don't realise just how big a deal it is for us. Take care of you and your little charge. Suzanne.x

Di · Post by Di » Mon Nov 10, 2003 3:55 pm

Hi Jackie, What a rough time you and DH are having - my heart goes out to you both. Hope you are managing to rest plently. You know where we all are if you need us! Di

JackieT · Post by **JackieT** » Tue Nov 11, 2003 1:28 pm

hi girls thanks for the support, we are def taking your advice wibbs and as each days ends and starts new we say thank-God, as like you say, it means we are one step closer, we have a scan on mon 17/11 to see if baby has developed more and by then we will be 9wks6days, i have had a couple of days of real bad period type pains and backache, and i took to bed with parceptamol and hot water bottle. but all seems to have settled again. as for nurse ratchett, i think she wil be avoiding us as i gave her a right piece of my mind and the doctor told her off also, it seems like i have been resting for months and i am sooo bored, i really miss my tennis, gym, walks e.t.c and of course i would have this urge for a lovely glass of real cold pink champagne,{normally dont like it}both D.H and i have been off the alcohol since july,surviving it but wish the shakes would stop[omly joking!!!} i'm suing m&s for their stupid bra's and stupid fitters, they are all killing me under the boob and riding up my back or elce the boob's are down in their own world which is nowhere near my chest!!!! now here is a question for you all. what kinda coat do we buy to keep warm?, cover the bump?, and look good at the same time, oh yeah and also wear with jeans and skirts? i have bought some maternity bottoms, but am waiting until after next scan before opening them. so still look like a tramp with nothing to fit, have got some bottoms so thats fine, just in need of tops. sorry about the moaning.... this nausea has stepped up a bit now and that taste has started in my mouth.. all good signs. still tired. and the house is still a tip.. so... everything is fine.ha! ha! ha! oh well, hope you are all doing well, do you think nikola has gone to ground or just avoiding us? speak soon love jackie xxx

rachel r · Post by **rachel r** » Tue Nov 11, 2003 5:15 pm

Jackie Excellent news that your feeling rough! Like you said, its all good. Ive been having the same coat dilemma myself - im really reluctant to buy a coat for the sake of it for 2/3 months' use. Have been wearing DH's gilet which makes me look like a michelin man and only going shopping to undercover shopping centres so I don't get too cold! I haven't actually seen any maternity jackets/coats as such - im sure they exist for a daft amount of money though! Good luck with your search! Love Rachel x

Nikola · Post by **Nikola** » Wed Nov 12, 2003 2:02 pm

Helllloooooo Jackie I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you when you had your scan dilema - nasty piece of work your nurse! I'm glad you had words with her, sounds like she deserves it. Silly @rse. I'm glad that you are taking it seriously and resting and not doing housework or exercise, its not worth it. I've had real trouble with the sickness and dehydrating etc and was put on bed rest for 2-3 days. I read that the nausea can be brought on by tiredness, which would explain why I feel sick in the morning (cos I can't be bothered to get up) and at night when I'm ready for bed! You just take it easy girl and no burning the midnight oil. A few trips to bed by 9pm will do you good!!! Bugger the housework, I've hired a cleaner, she is pretty useless but at least I feel like something is getting done! Each day means the babies are getting that bit stronger. when I had my 8 week scan they measured my two and they were 19mm and my hospital said this was fine, so try not to worry!! Honestly sometimes they make things worse by getting you all panicked and in a state! Sometimes a bit of ignorance is a good thing. As for period pains and back ache had them too. I was told it was the uterus changing position, flipping over or something (I obviously wasn't listening to the explanation - just relieved it was ok!) I take a hot water bottle to bed each night now and it helps me get to sleep. Get through the next few weeks and you can treat yourself to a glass of pink champagne - you'll deserve one!! I reach the great 12 weeks stage next week which is very exciting and hoping to start blooming instead of looking like a tramp dragged through the hedge backwards. Like you nothing fits. On the bra front, if they are riding up at the back it means they are too big, perhaps you need a smaller back size but a bigger cup. M&S should measure you properly! I'm very lucky with coats, because they are my passion, I hate shoes (can't bear putting my feet in things other people have had their smelly feet in!!)....but coats - lovely. Could shop for coats all day long. I have this fab Max Mara Cream Swing Caot that I bought when I was holiday in Nice (on a boiling hot day decided to try on winter coats - told you I can always shop for coats) and no matter how big I get I reckon cos of the shape it will fit! Lucky me. Right enough wittering on, jackie take very special care!! Lots of love to everyone else too. nikola.xx

Di · Post by Di » Wed Nov 12, 2003 3:27 pm

Hi Jackie, Glad to hear you're feling so ill - all good signs so go with the resting, early nights etc. I've just got a load of clothes from ebay auction site and at last feel comfy in clothes again. As for a coat I'm still wearing my fleece but its a bit tight when I fasten it up!!! Think I might just visit a charity shop for a large coat that will do me the next few months and then I can do my bit and hand it back in to make more money. You're not having much luck with the bras are you? As Nikola said - go back to m&s and tell them they mis-measured you! Di

JackieT · Post by **JackieT** » Wed Nov 19, 2003 9:41 pm

hi gang back again, we had our scan on monday, so far so good, our little one is now 23mm when we were 9wks6days, they say this is still borderline but its there and a lovely heartbeat!!! we actually saw him/her do a little turn over for us.. which was lovely. i am now 10wks1day and am counting to our 12 weeks, we have another scan booked for then. i have bought the sea-bands and they have taken the edge off the nausea, not doing too well with the water, i will have to make more effort as my lips are cracked to bits. anyone having eyesight trouble? i have gone short-sighted, but i have read this is normal{imagine.. me normal}. i have finally managed to give my kitchen a spring- clean. now we can eat in peace.. DH is still not breathing properly, he says he cant until the 12 weeks are up. he will be pretty blue by then... my ovaries are still massive, and there is still blood flaoting around there, but baby looks fine, so im not going to worry{not really}. any one elce know what size their baby was at 10weeks? anyway enough of me.. how is everyone doing?? anyone found miracle cures yet for morning sickness? i am also taking vitb6 as this is supposed to be good. gotta go now, as im hungry AGAIN, speak soon love jackie xxx

Dagny · Post by **Dagny** » Thu Nov 20, 2003 1:30 pm

Hi Jackie We are a day apart as I am 10wks 1day today. I had my scan on Tues and our blob is 26mm. He/she did a little dance for us which I got so excited about. Where have you got blood? I have had a bleed and are still bleeding (brownish and clotty). You can see where from on the scan which does worry me a bit. R.e sickness, I found being sick helped me. If I held it I felt worse. So out it comes and I feel better. What does vit b6 do? Keep up the drinking -Water I mean! Lol Dagny x

JackieT · Post by **JackieT** » Thu Nov 20, 2003 6:42 pm

hi dagny now that ive seen your baby size i feel a lot better,mine is not too small as i was worrying it would be, but only 3mm in the diff of yours is nothing, so thank-you for that. i have had no bleed, just inside, they can see it around my womb, what are they saying about your bleeding? are things o.k? i am afraid to actually throw up as with my other pregnancies i never left the toilet floor for the 9 months, i literally slept there as i was throwing up so much!!! so i dont want to start all that again. vit b6 is supposed to ease the nausea as we have a lack of it our bodies while preggers, think the baby takes it or something and it balances the hormones a little{i think this is what i read}. have you tried the bands yet? i find they are taking the edge off a bit, and we all know that every bit helps... i have now got most of my house back up to scratch, DH is painting everywhere and im cleaning{thought all this was to happen nearer the birth???} i am doing a lot of my christmas shopping on-line also which is great as no heavy lifting also sainsburys are delivering, so dont know if i will ever leave the house again... anyway speak soon love jackie xxx

beckym · Post by **beckym** » Thu Nov 20, 2003 7:28 pm

Jackie Glad to see your baby is progressing as have been watching your drama. Must be so great to see it actually move on the screen. When is your next scan date? Did you have scans at 6,8 and 10 weeks? beckym xxx

JackieT · Post by **JackieT** » Sat Nov 22, 2003 12:05 am

hi all thanks for replys.but...................... i do hope that you all did not think the drama was over............... last night finally convinced DH it was safe to resume to what he is best at...as well as hoovering, washing up, cooking. will i go on or do we all understand each other? well i wont give you all the details but.. there was alot of blood and clots and screams. off to casaulty until 5.30a.m to be sent home, nothing to worry about.. back at 11.30a.m for scan to be confirmed, there was nothing to worry about, baby is fine.. very active..28.5mm. good heartbeat...so basically this was either implantation bleed, other little one going away or elce it was just unexplained, and it was the internal bleeding they seen on the scan last week... what makes me think that this roller-coaster is on going? 2ww? that 2ww is nothing compared to all this...and i didnt believe you all who said that. so thats my up date, dont say i dont keep you lot on your toes.. have to go , speak soon love jackie xxx

Dagny · Post by **Dagny** » Mon Nov 24, 2003 5:23 pm

Hi Jackie I know exactly how you must have felt when you started bleeding and passing clots. Even though it happened to me while I was in hospital the time between the bleed and the scan seemed to last forever. you poor thing you must have been going out of your mind. When I passed a clot it was so big it was like passing a lung (sorry to be so graphic)it was so scary. I am still passing a brownish discharge and clots and having slight pains around the scar where I had my tubes removed 2 weeks after my threatened miscarriage - Yuk! I think we have both jumped onto the same roller coaster ride from hell. The worst ride I thought I had been on was thr Detonator at Thorpe Park but this IVF one has topped it. I am really thinking of you at the moment and keeping everything crossed for you that you don't have anymore scares. We have an 11 week scan tomorrow so it should set our minds at ease for another week. Take care much love from Dagny xx

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