Hello there to everyone I've been keeping an eye on you all and am sorry to see so many negatives. I had my follow up meeting on Friday fro my failed cycle. Doc said there is not much different to try the only significant thing is the fact that I only got 4 eggs althought 3 fertilised and 2 8 cells were transfered. He said its probably just my age. Was determined not to cry but did anyway, but at least i said my piece about sniffing so long hr agreed that s was extrememly long and to put me on a shorter one next time if we wanted a next time.......we do of coarse we get 2 Nhs goes and this would be our second one. I sort of dread it because i only just feel like I'm becoming normal again after the last one.
But the good news is I went back to the Chinese doc after the last failed attempt and shes had me on dried powered herbs and after years of sufferng from very painful AF they are now pain free. She says it takes e months to really work so perhaps I will give it until the end of Sept before I go for another IVF. I think thats what I have decided.... anyway finding it a bit difficult with all the school kids of at the moment there seems to be kids everywhere.
Sorry to hear you didn't get a very useful answer from your clinic. I really know what you mean about starting to feel normal and finding it hard to get back into treatment. I was starting to feel great myself and it was so hard to knowingly subject myself to these stupid drugs again, the whole stress of the 2 ww, etc. I wasn't until a few weeks after my -ive when I started to feel like myself that I realized how messed up I had actually been! It was very tempting to just put it off for longer but, unfortunately, age is such an issue with this whole thing and I already regret the many years that DH and I just kept plodding along trying to convince ourselves that there was nothing wrong before we started looking into things.
I think at least waiting until the end of Sept. sounds like a good plan. I remember you had the longest downregging session in history last time! It seems odd that they would tell you your age is an issue yet, at the same time, keep you downregging for such a long time. I don't know how old you are but everything I've read says that they normally do not keep women over a certain age (I think 35?) on a very long downregging protocol because it can hurt the quality of the eggs.
At any rate, guess I've rambled on long enough here! I hope you have some success with the herbs you are taking. Sounds like promising results so far!
Staci
Me 35/DH 41
TTC 4 years
Diagnosis: MF infertility
IVF/ICSI April 2004: -tive
FET Aug. 2004 (canceled due to cysts)
FET Jan 2005: -tive
FET Aug. 2005
Sorry to hear you did not get too many concrete answers from your follow up but not suprised as they rarely can tell us much - I guess if they knew for sure the results would be sky high!
Not sure how old you are but I am 38 now and started tmt at 36 and that was not an issue - I know it depends on FSH etc. The hardest thing is getting your head around doing it again- it's rahter like staring up at a ruddy great big mountain to climb and you think - nooooooooooo way!Once you get going again it really is not too bad - says she having gone through it 5 times.
The chinese doctor sounds like a good thing for you to do - My thoughts are with you and I wish you all the luck in the world for when you are ready to go again.
Love
Tracey
xxx
ttc 9 years. 38 yrs old, dh 8 hrs younger!First IVF in Aug 2002 and had ectopic.2nd IVF neg.3rd FET and negative.4th FET and positive but sadly lost our little boy at 20 weeks.5th FET and Alice Isobel and Emily Charlotte born 5th Aug 2004!
Bronagh,
Have you been tested for endo, I've heard that it can cause painful AF.
Good luck on your next try. It's so hard sometimes to start treatment again, I've been there many times. Suddenly at 35 I feel like I'm running out of time.
You're seeing kids everywhere, I see pg women..haha. I started counting at the mall yesterday and gave up.
Me - 35 Unexplained DH 37
TTC#1 since '97
5 IUIs
1st IVF 5/04 - transferred 2-neg
2nd IVF 7/04 - transferred 3-pos but MC at 8 wks.
Glad you've had your appointment, although I know it can be upsetting. I know you are just getting your system back to normal, but at least that means you will be on good form when you're ready to go again. Especially with the Chinese meds working so well! That sounds really positive and can only be a huge benefit when you do cycle again, just take your time, I think it's a great idea if the chinese herbs are working so well to get full benefit first..
With regard to your long down reg, have you asked about being on a different down reg medication too? Not sure if this helps much, but the only part of my cycle I wasn't happy with was the down regging, like you, so I have requested to change to the syranel spray this time, but there are the daily injections and the long acting one too? Not sure how much difference it makes, but I feel much happier knowing that part will be different..
Anyway, Take Care and hope it all goes well,
Kel X
Bronagh,
Hope to see you on here in Sept then as a cycling buddy ... we will all support each other through it. I know what you mean though about trying to survive the ivf .. I think I went a bit mental for a while and basically lost my personality. Me and dp (its df really but just keep on forgetting!) went to a pub yesterday. There were 3 newborn babies with Mums who were all under 20.... I only finished a 1/3 of my drink and had to leave.
My best friend is also due to give birth in 3 weeks ... I went round her house yesterday and saw the nursery .. god it hurt so much. But then I went round dp boss's house and they have twins through ivf (4th attempt) and this gave me so much confidence and courage to keep on trying.
All the best ... ps I have read great statistics about chinese medicine and fertility - increases ivf success rate by loads apparently so keep it up. I was doing acupuncture and chinese med but I just can't afford to continue .. its added £300.00 to both ivf cycles and I just can't afford it anymore.
From Sophie-jane
Me 33 dp 30
me tubal damage
ist ivf Feb04 -ive
fet July04 -ive
ivf Nov04 +ive twins, but sadly one twin died at 10 weeks gestation. Freya born 21st July 2005. She's amazing!
Just checking in on everyone ,thanks for all the kind words and in answer to your questions I'll be 38 in Oct and like many of you have been surrounded with people having babies all summer . Its particularly hard I think during the summer everyone has kids off school and I just go to the pool on my own.I seem to be in a breeding spate at the moment with lots of people getting pregnant except of course me. My Chinese doctor is so sweet she has had 2 people get pregnant this month and recogn I will be her lucky third . I think I need more than luck.
I have had a laparosphy (sp) and said I had one tiny bit of endo however the doc said it was not anything to worry about.
Anyway I really dont think I could do his 6 times it would turn me into someone that I dont want to be and I've worked too hard becoming who I am to let all this drag me down.
