Confused Ramblings !!!!!!!!!

tshepher · Post by **tshepher** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 8:42 am

Hi all Saw my consultant last and the fertility nurses at the clinic hadn't passed-on the news that our IVF had failed. She was absolutely gutted, literally almost in tears as she said she was so sure it would work for us. Not sure if that makes me feel better or worse really. We discussed when we can go again and decided that Jan/Feb would be best although she did go on about the fact that women were super-fertile after IVF treatment so she wouldn't be surprised if we managed to fall naturally. Not pinning my hopes on that one though. She seems most definite that neither of us need more investigation to see why it's failed. We had two grade one , 8 cell embie put back in and it still didn't work so I can't help thinking there must be something wrong with me that needs fixing. She won't have it though and says I've had all the tests and it all comes down to percentages and timing so again don't know if that's a good or bad thing. She's a lovely lady and I do trust her, but you can't help thinking DO SOMETHING !!!! Might feel better if she said "Oh yes it's because of this and we can fix it" but of course it's never that easy is it. DH really down after seeing her and really p'd off that she tries to raise our hopes about the natural method. I have been pg twice before "au natural" but MC both times, so it's not something I associate good feelings with. Really tough time at the moment as well because December last year was the last time I was pg (MC in Feb)so got all those memories to contend with. Just to complicate things, we have a close friends wedding in Scotland on the 1st March next year and I can't possible miss it as i've been the wedding planner. We are now disappearing up our own backside trying to work out dates and whether to start in Jan, Feb or put it off until we get back from Scotland mid-March because of how I reacted to the Buserelin this time (I was injecting for 9 weeks!!)we just can't guestimate how long the next cycle will take, Sorry to ramble on like this but just needed to clear my thoughts out. Hope everyone's doing ok. LOL all Terri xxx

Loonpants · Post by **Loonpants** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 5:27 pm

Terri You can ramble away as much as you like, that's what we are here for. For support and to talk to as we are the people that understand the most. Only you can decide whether to go for it again and when. I had breaks between mine but like my hubby always says sod everyone else and timing if we get what we want. I have been worrying about finally getting PG as I am to be a bridesmaid for a friend in May but like we have discussed it would be the greatest thing for us so if it happens I'll deal with it then. I am currently trying out ovulation tests to see if that will help as we have low sperm count and irregular ovulation. I am trying different things to see if we can bypass having to do ICSI again. Maybe miracles do happen. It must be very frustrating not having a specific reason to focus on and improve. Keep your chin up and ramble till the cows come home. Lisa (Loonpants)

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 7:50 pm

Hiya Terri - sorry you're feeling down after the "post-match analysis" - I've found those depressing too. Just wanted to say to try not to worry too much about whether the timing is going to interfere with your friend's wedding. Its so difficult to predict timescales (for you more than most!) and sod's law e/c or e/t or the 2ww will come round at an awkward time, but in the end this comes first and I'm sure if on the day you can't make it she'll understand. Look after yourself Alison x

tshepher · Post by **tshepher** » Thu Nov 21, 2002 11:55 am

Thanks Girls, Feeling a bit calmer now and have a plan to get fit, lose some weight and deal with it all calmly in the New Year. THANK GOD for this site !!!!!!!!!!!!! Hugs to all :-) Terri xxxx [Edited by tshepher on 21-Nov-02 11:56]

Wicked Lady · Post by **Wicked Lady** » Sat Nov 23, 2002 5:50 pm

Dear Terri How kind of you to reply to my 'where to next' after what you are going through. I am so sorry that your IVF attempt failed you and your partner are obviously devastated.Don'worry about anyonelses plans always put yourselfs first everyonelse can fit in around you two not the other way round. Easy for me to say I know it is not happening to me.Feel free to ramble as much as you like everyone on this website will be there for you. Dear Lisa Loonpants What ovulation tests are you trying, are they blood tests or pee sticks. We tried pee sticks as my partner has low sperm count and my periods are between 28 and 35 days. We had a pack that was third generation the other two owners had become pregnant. Sadly it didn't work for us but good luck to you and you dh. Lots of love and luck to all xxxxxx Nicola.

Loonpants · Post by **Loonpants** » Sat Nov 23, 2002 6:50 pm

Wicked Lady I am trying the Acon One Step Test Devices, you have to put three drops of pee on them with a pippette and then wait for the red line to appear. So far no joy and I have already been testing for ten days. I am all over the place with the old AF's just wish it would all get back to normal. It's worth a try. Lisa (Loonpants)