Treatment terminated

[bucko1976]

Just had the most s**t day I could have hoped for. Went to the hospital for my scan to see if the follie fairy had been and was so looking forward to being told all was going well - big mistake

The scan showed I was not responding well to the drugs - despite being on top wack. Only had one visable follicle which was only 6mm. This with a blood test result that showed my ostragial (not spelt right I know!!) has made my consultant decide that we should stop this cycle.

I feel completely crushed abd can no longer see a light at the end of the tunnel - will I ever become a mum?

I was wondering if anyone else has been in this situation and whether there is hope for me. Before starting the cycle I was warned that we may not get to EC (but everything seemed to be going well until today - so I thought) and there was talk about egg donars. If anyone has had a treament stopped because of poor response I was wondering if anyone has gone onto to have another cycle of treatment that then went onto to EC and ET.

Can anyone give me a glimmer of hope?

[DebraP]

Jaqui, so sorry about your bad news today.

I've not been in your situation but wondered what caused them to warn you ages ago that you might not get to EC? was it a specific warning for you or do they say that to everyone?

My glimmer of hope for you is one you might not want to hear right now. You're young compared to many undergoing fertility tmt and have at least 10 years to get this sorted. Your clinic may have ideas for how to counter this non-response or alternatives. At least you've got a good amount of time to explore your options without the clocking running out on you.

Again, sorry you had such disappointing news today.
Debra

[Jackie S]

Hi

Don't post over here much now but felt I should reply to your message.

I had my first IVF attempt cancelled due to lack of response and like you I was devestated.

That said I was given the go-ahead to try again on different drugs as soon as I felt ready. I take longer to 'cook' but by the time of egg collection I had over 20 follicles but the sizes were still small. The injection you have 36 hours prior to egg collection boosted these and they harvested 17 eggs. Unfortunately although 10 fertilised the quality wasn't brilliant so only 2 were usable. I DID get pregnant though!!! (I had an early miscarriage).

I had to wait for various reasons approx 7 months between this and my 3rd attempt. We used the same drugs but this time it took 19 days of stimming until I was ready for egg collection. Each time I went for a scan I was so anxious that they would abandon again BUT I finally made it to egg collection. This time they harvested 10 eggs of which 8 fertilised. I had a day 3 transfer (and we even managed to freeze the other 6 embryos). I am now 32 weeks and 2 days pregnant!!!!

SO don't give up, remember that each cycle will be different and the doctors will learn from each one. I still can't believe I am pregnant and know it will be your turn soon.

Good luck

Jackie

[LittleP]

Jaqui

I am so sorry about your news - I was so hoping things would turn out well for you today.

I know at the moment you feel crushed, empty and disappointed but please give yourself time - there's plenty of reasons to believe that it can still work and you will become a mum.

Take care, big hugs and tons of PMA

Little P

[Sand]

Hi Jaqui ... I'm sorry you've had such bad news today, and can imagine how it's knocked you both for six. Take some comfort from Jackie's experience, and believe that it can work - it will work - next time. It will still take you some time to get over this cycle. Make sure that you take it slow, treat yourselves and be kind to each other.

Sandra x

[Joanne104]

Jacqui

Just read your post and can understand you must be devastated, but like everyone has said take some time out and hopefully someone will be able to give you some answers and even better some possible solutions.

Joanne x

[NickiMark]

Jaqui,

I am sorry to read that, life is so cruel isn't it. But hang on in there dear, it'll happen.
One way or another you'll get there it's just these s***y days that dont help. Hope that dh is there to hugs you.

[bucko1976]

Thank you for all the best wishes and possitive outlook on my bad news.

Jackie - it was good to hear that sometimes things do go on to work dispite things going wrong so early on. Congratulations on your sucess and all the best for the future.

SInce our devistating news DH and I have been to see the consultant - needed to hav something to focus upon. However, things were not good. We were talked through the results of tests during stimming and were told that the poor response can only mean one thing - I have a very low egg reserve and the consultant thinks that what I do have left is poor quality as they did not respond despite being pushed to the limits (it loks like an early menopause is on the way ). This means that our only hope now is for an egg donor - luckily I have a very supportive sister, who has got three children of her own, who is offering her services. We go to see the consultant on Sunday!

It still hasn't quite hit me that I will not have a child who will have my genetic make up but I guess my sister will be better than a complete stranger - life certainly deals some cruel blows, but I guess there are people worse offf than me.

[DebraP]

Hello Jaqui....I can imagine you must feel life is being pretty cruel right now. Truth is, it can be.

I'm not sure I understand your comment about a baby not having your genetic make-up, if this is your blood sister vs. a sister in-law / step / half / adopted / foster sister etc. who is offering her egg, then the genetic make-up will be identical to yours.

Your final observation is spot on though. There are people on this board waiting years for a egg donor, or who must go abroad as their countries don't allow donor eggs, so please appreciate what you've got. A sister, already proven to be fertile, is about as good as it gets as a donor - you should be thrilled. Many people on here wonder about loss of physical resemblence, family traits etc. you'll have none of those concerns

You have a very special sister there.
Debra

[LittleP]

Jaqui

I am so sorry about your news. I'm afraid I don't know anything about donor situations, but know that you will get loads of information here because there are girls who have been through it or who are about to.

I wish you loads of luck in the future.

Hugs

Little P

[Sand]

Hi Jaqui ... Wow .. I'm pleased you've found a way forward, and so soon .. As D said, your sister must be one of those 'one in a million' woman. Hope your mtg tomorrow is positive.

Sandra x

[NickiMark]

Hi You want to get in touch with Taylorjools (Big J) she's just got a BFP from a donor egg.

Good Luck! x x

[bucko1976]

Thanks again for the support and advice. Had a good cry today and am starting to feel able to move onto the next stage of trying to become a mum.

DH has been so supportive and possitive, but i still envy the fact that he has already got 2 children to a previous relationship and will be a prime contributor to our next voyage.

I know I should be greatful that I have a sister who is willing to be an egg donor and that it is my best possible match to my genetic make-up but it still hurts that it won't be my eggs that help make up my and dh baby.

I know I can love the baby (if all goes well) just like my own, but I will still know that the egg that made it wasn't my own. It may sound selfish when other people are not as lucky as me to have this chance, but when you are not even 30 and find out your eggs are useless it makes you angry and hurt.

I am just trying to have a PMA towards this treatment and hope that we will be able to start it asap because I need something to focus upon, as I'm finding it hard to get motivated at the moment.

[Sand]

Jaqui .. We can totally relate to what you're saying and how you are feeling. You have every right to feel angry. There's so many things in this life that are so unjust.

I hope you can get moving quickly.

Sandra x

[lumi]

Jaqui

My heart goes out to you at the moment. You must give yourself time to grieve the loss of the plans you had and then you will be up for the next stage!

Best wishes with your next move - I am sure things will seem better with time and once all the meds are out of your system. Then you can concentrate on making that baby!

Love Lumi xxxx