Hi Everyone-
I am hoping all of you can shed some light for me and help me, not so much to make a decision, but to guide me on a path, if that makes any sense. I am glad to be here, and I have read some of your stories, and I wish you all nothing but the best wishes and many baby blessings.
As someone on the outside looking in, so-to-speak, I wish all of you could have as many babies as you wanted. I am sorry things have not gone as planned or intended. I am sitting here crying and typing, overcome with emotion, empathy, and compassion. You see, my husband and I chose not to have children. It was a personal choice, among other things, and so here we are. The thing is, is that my sister has been trying to conceive for about three years now, unsuccessfully, sad to say. My sister is 45, and I am 38. She has asked me to be a donor, which I find to be the upmost honor. Helping her have a child she so very much wants would probably be the greatest thing I could ever do on this Earth.
I am also scared to death. Of the whole thing.
What if I produce the same results-i.e., old eggs that will not mature, or mature too much? Will it hurt (I am a wuss)? What about the high stress job I have (that I am trying to change)? Will that affect my ability to let my body do what it's supposed to naturally do monthly? I also smoke and drink a little (socially). How will that effect things?
If I go through with this, I want to make sure I take every precaution to provide the best possible results. And my sister has said politely that she is under a time constraint. So I feel a little pressured, and rightfully so. My sister is at the point of, if this is going to happen, let it happen, or we'll do something different. I guess maybe it's simple of me thinking in terms of performance, as in, I have one shot to get it right. Is this impatience talking? I don't know. I just want to help my sister if I can.
Thanks for listening. I hope I didn't post to the wrong thread. I know how frustrating that can be.
Anyway, I look forward to any comments and suggestions you may have.
Peace, Love, and Baby Dust,
LadyBug
