Jemima, Cheer up

Don't worry, they are doing ICSI so there is still a good chance. I'm sending you good vibes!
Well I went to my FET consultation yesterday. When AF starts I'll go on BCP, a few days after that I get Lupron shots (new med for me), then PIO shots. After ET I'll start estrogen pills and patches. That's it. Should be be pretty easy. I'm very happy I won't have so many hormones this time.
My step sis told me today that she and her BF are having unprotected sex and if she get PG great, if not that's fine, what ever happens, happens.

Just a little history, She's 36 and has had endo. for over 10 years and had been on BCP for years to keep it under control. She stopped BCP a year ago and has been off the pill since. Just recently her AF started again. She had a BF last year that she really wanted to marry and have a baby with but that did not work out. He got cold feet right after proposing. About 6 months ago she started seeing a guy that she has actually known since high school. Anyway they are very happy together and they are having unprotected sex and would be fine with getting PG. They have a long distance relationship, but hope to be living together next year. I asked her if she is trying to get PG and she said she's "
not, not trying to get PG". So basically she's trying to get PG, except she also has fertility issues so may not get PG so easily. She's wanted a baby for so long but has never had the right relationship. I'd be happy for her if she gets PG because that's what she wants, but If she gets PG right away, I'm not sure how I'll feel about that if it takes me many more tries at IVF. Now I feel like I'm in a race. She has been the overachieving child in the family. Sometimes I feel less than average next to her. I feel like she's competing with me to get PG first. Which is really probably not true. Ughh. I don't want to feel like I'm in a race! My feelings are so mixed.
