October buddies??

[jeck]

Jen1d

I have never had a flare cycle but I have read on here of several people having it... It is where they don't give anything to suppress you before starting stims and while on stims they have you take a low dose of suppressant to keep you from ovulating till they want you too... I think jenn from this thread is going to do that next cycle since she did not respond well to the stims... Might be something you can look into!!

Good Luck!!!

[Charity]

Jessica...You're too funny. I told my husband about your declaration. He laughed. All I'm knowledgeable about is using Google...Otherwise, complete idiot here, who doesn't know the first thing about...well, anything... I hope you are doing well, my dear friend. I think of what a wonderful person you are, and only wish I could possess half of your kindness and thoughtfulness towards others. You're always there reaching out a hand and your heart to those in need, and I admire you for that.

Jen1d...I'm so glad to hear you a dh are giving it another go round. You are going to make such a wonderful mommy...And that baby is going to be so loved. Just keep your eye on the prize, and try to push through the rest of the pain on your journey there. I know you will...You have already...I only wish I had some of the strength you obviously have. I wish you every ounce of joy that motherhood will bring, as you so deserve it.

Take care my dear ladies...You are inspirational...As are all the women on this board. Such strength and perseverance can only be found in women who carry such great burdens. Sweet dreams & hopes the Sandman sprinkles baby dust over all of us as we slumber.

[jenn]

Jen1d - I was so sorry to see your results, but I am glad to see you have decided to go again.

I will be doing the flare cycle in Feb./Mar. I think. Everytime I decide on a month, a few days later I push it back a month again. Anyway... since my ovaries did not produce a ton of eggs (we only got 5, out of those 3 mature i think) my Dr. wants to try again with a totally different protocol. Instead of BCP's for a month and then a big shot of Lupron then stimms a couple of weeks later, I will have a shorter cycle. Not so much suppression of the ovaries.
Now I will call on day 1, start microdoses of Lupron Day2, stimms start day 3. She told us that the big shot of Luporn I got suppressed them too much, but if Lupron is given in small doses everyday while stimming it can make them really produce more eggs. I am only 28 so she was pretty dissappointed in the number of eggs we got. I will also be on a higher dose of meds. Hope this info. helps!!

WELL, I have been out of town and only able to pop in and read quckly. We have not had a good time of it lately have we? And I am so sorry for your losses girls. I can't imagine it. Take care of yourselves everyone. As always you are in my prayers and thoughts always.

Like I said I can't decide when to start over with IVF. I'm trying to concentrate on the holidays. I DO have a lot to be thankful for, as I'm sure you all do too! Have a great week everyone! I am having the family over for turkey day so these next 2 days will be full of cleaning and cooking before everyone gets here Wed. I'm cooking my first turkey! I feel so grown up!!

Take care!!

[nictor]

Hey Ladies,how are you?

Well girls,my babies are back on board,we transfered day 3,ive got a 7 cell and an 8 cell both grade one embies,this is first time ive had a 3 day transfer its usually a day2 with 4 cell embies,so im so very excited,ive been in bed all afternoon,praying like mad and talking to them and begging them to stick around!! So here we go AGAIN the dreaded 2ww..

Will post later when i can,i hope this finds you all well my friends

AS always Take care Nicola..xx

[thook]

Nicola- Glad to hear your little embies are back with their mama... make sure to keep them warm and safe at all times. I will be saying a prayer for you daily that they stick around for the long haul.

Tasha

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Thanx for all your help, advice and good whishes, your all fab.

I went back to work today and was not looking forward to it but everything was fine.

Flare cycle here i come--- you girls were right with your advice,
I called the Doc to make an appointment only to be told the first one would be 18th Dec. However she then rang back with a cancellation for today at 3pm So i scived off work and met the Doc. Spent quite a bit of time and she was very positive saying we get ok eggs and great fertilization so there is no reason not to try again. So on number 4 its going to be different though. They will give us an ovulation kit then put me on hrt and only give me limited nasal sprays then start the injections the day after the sprays start. This apparently triggers the ovaries and boosts the eggs so hopefully we can get a few more. If i get a low amount this time then it probably means my eggs are deteriorating so that will be our last go at ivf unless i use a donor but we wont know this until the cycle and as the Doc said i'm looking far too far ahead, my eggs might be ok for a couple more years. Just like to keep her on her toes

So am feeling a bit better now i know i can start again IN FEBRUARY and praying it will work as it might be our last or 2nd last try.

Oh ye and she said i could have more pessaries so i don't bleed early as this always makes me worried and terrified to go to the loo. Just means i won't (or shouldn't ) bleed before my test date and can take the test as normal. Yeeeehhhhhhhhhh will finally get to my first test date

Nictor - You put those little feet up and rest. Your embies sound great.

Charity - You do have great strength. Thats why we have to go through this journey to get our little ones because as him upstairs knows we are made of tough stuff. You hang in there.

Ok will check on you all soon

Love Jen x
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[jeck]

Hey Ladies!!

We mailed in our paperwork for the homestudy last week and they called this morning and set up our first meeting... It is this Saturday!! Holy Crap!! This meeting is at the agency and the next 2(which we are going to combine into 1) will be at our house!! Now we have to come up with some money, the sooner we do the sooner we can get a referral of a baby!!! Holy cow I could be a mom this time next year!!!

Jen1d
WooHoo, I am so glad they are doing a flare cycle next time, hopefully that is just what you need!!!

nictor
so glad you got those embies back on board!! Hope they are making themselves comfy

jenn
Good luck on your turkey!! Let us know how it turns out... I have never cooked a turkey before... If we have turkey, hubby always deep fries ours yummy! I usually cook for hubby side but his brother is coming home in a couple of weeks so we are combining thanksxmas! So all I have to do for my side is fix green bean cass., sweet potato cass and deviled eggs...

Hope you all have a wonderful thanksgiving!!! Keep me in your prayers that God will provide us the funds to adopt a child waiting for us!!!

[Ophee]

Nictor, it's nice that your embies are back on board ... safe with mommy. It's very nice that there are in very good grading. Wish you a good 2ww and a BFP!!

Jeck, I am praying for you that everything goes well for you and you will be mommy before this time next year!! Am so excited for you.

Rachel, Jeck, thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. It's so nice of you to show concern to people like me despite your own worries, I greatly appreciated that! It's so touchy!!

I started a little spotting again since yesteday and still having it this morning. I will go in to the doctor in a few hours. I guess may be one of the beanie really didn't make it ... really hope that the others are doing well.

[Believebaby]

Hi Ladies,

I haven't posted since early last week, I guess I just needed some time to collect myself and deal with everything that's happened. I posted to the BFP's Awaiting Scan girls which some of you visit but for those that don't, a lot has happened this last week for me. We went in early last week to see the heartbeat and the doctor couldn't find it for the 2nd time. He had me retest my BW and the news wasn't good. Long story short, I went in last Friday and had to have a D&C. I'm back at square one.

It's been difficult to accept that this has happened to me again and I had a couple of days of crying to let it all out. I wasn't sure what we were going to do, whether I could put myself through this again. I was feeling very confused and alone. But, a few days has done me good and I am feeling much better now. I had a really good talk with my doctor and we've decided we will go for it again as soon as we are able, probably in mid-January. I was really torn as to go to a different clinic or try a different protocol but my doctor explained to me that as far as the IVF went, I was a total success both times. He said that this was due to natural causes which most likely were genetic and couldn't be prevented.

I certainly wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, it has been the most emotional rollercoaster ride of my life. That said, I am going to use this time to build back my strength and focus on my health. We've been consumed with our infertility for the last 7 months and I feel like I've lost a piece of myself during it all. It's been hard physically as well as mentally and I just feel icky about myself. I gained almost 20 pounds over the last 6 months and my self esteem is at an all time low. I have been so worried to do anything physical that would put the pregnancy at risk so I just let everything go. This last weekend, I went on a complete cleaning frenzy and it really helped me feel better. I also started working out again (just 2 days) but already feel a difference. I've decided instead of asking why me, I would make the most of the holidays and cherish all the blessing I do have in my life which are many. The biggest being my DH. He has been so wonderful to me through this entire ordeal and I am truly blessed to go through this with him by my side. I know there are a lot of single women my age out there that would trade places with me in a second so I need to be greatful for what I do have, problems and all. This experience can be enlightening and empowering if you try to look at the positive aspects. We are such strong women and God will not give us more than we can handle. I pray for all the ladies here, that we all gain strength from this and realize just how blessed we are!

Sorry to ramble, I guess I needed a safe place to vent my feelings. I hope that you all have an abundance of things to be thankful for this Thanksgiving and that we all remember the reason for the season! Thanks to all my friends here for your wonderful love and support, I'm thankful for each of you!!!

Happy Day Everyone!

[jeck]

We've been consumed with our infertility for the last 7 months and I feel like I've lost a piece of myself during it all. It's been hard physically as well as mentally and I just feel icky about myself. I gained almost 20 pounds over the last 6 months and my self esteem is at an all time low.

I feel exactly the same way... I am so glad that you are going to do IVF again... Good Luck honey!! I am so glad you have a plan and are getting back to you!!! I will be right here cheering you on!!!

Are you going to do anything different with your next cycle, like PGD? My Re would like me to do Heprin along with the baby aspirin next time and to think about doing PGD on our frozen embies... I just don't know, I am just focusing on adoption right now and the embies will be there when I get ready... I like you want to get my body and mind back in shape!!!

I hope you have a wonderful thanksgiving!!! Enjoy!!

Take care!

[Believebaby]

Jeck my friend!!!

I need to tell you that you inspire me to have a PMA. I am trying to follow your lead and a wonderful leader you are!! Thanks for your kind words, I too wish you a world of blessings. You are definitely one step closer to your dream and I am cheering you on all the way!

As for my protocol, I spoke with the doc about changing and he said he would be happy to do whatever I felt was going to help but he really thinks what I was doing was fine. I responded well to my stims although we didn't have any eggs left over either round so maybe I will see if we can stim a little stronger in order to have more eggs but he said that's not necessarily the best thing. It's the quality not the quantity and my quality was never a problem (speaking relatively of course). Something was a miss with the quality since I ended up the way I did but he really doesn't think that is anything we can control. It's really hard to know what is the best thing to do. In one aspect, everything went great...I got pregnant. Also, I didn't have a problem with implantation so it wasn't even that. It was the embryo that just didn't develop correctly and most of us know that is God's way of sorting the strong from the weak. I hope and pray that next time will be a different outcome but of course, there is no guarantee. We are all so different, who knows why some make it and some don't. Everything does happen for a reason, we just don't know what that reason is. Usually though, it's always for the best.

I'm so glad that you are moving forward with your plan. There is a beautiful, needing child out there that is going to be infinitely blessed to have you for a mother. I think it was Racheal that said it, a mother is a mother whether you gave birth to the child or the child gave birth to you! I can't wait to see you get your happy ending, you deserve it!!

My thoughts and prayers are with you all!

[thook]

Jeck- Wow your adoption process is sure moving right along... that's great news. I wish you all the best with your meetings. Please keep us posted on everything. I'll also make sure to keep you in my thoughts and prayers for a smooth ride!

Aimee- It's great to hear your doing better sweetie. I'm also so happy to hear that you have decided to give it another try. I hope that everything works out for you this time... and I'll be checking in all the time to see your updates.

Tasha

[jeck]

Amiee
Thanks, you are so sweet... Believe me I don't always feel very strong... I have just come to realize that life is like a moving train, sometimes you fall or even get throwed off the train... but the train of life keeps on moving with or without you... Its up to you to decide if want to jump back on and sometimes we jump and miss but the important thing is that we keep trying to jump back on...

I agree that everything happens for a reason... My clinic suggested that we do the PGD but it is an additional $4000 and I am not totally sold on it... I know it has helped some ladies achieve their pregnancy but I guess I just can't get past the cost... Its a shame there is such a high price on motherhood, especially when there is so many lovely ladies that would make excellent moms...

thook
Thanks for the support!! I too am shocked on how fast everything is moving... Maybe it is meant to be... I hope that santa puts a big fat check in my stocking to pay for the adoption!! LOL!!! That is the only thing that will slow us down... Thanks for the prayers, never can have too many... just pray that if adoption is what is meant for us that he will provide the means to do so...

Also I set up a thread called Thoughts and Prayers, I would love for both of you to join...

[Believebaby]

Jeck,

I don't know why but that made me think of that saying "there is a light at the end of the tunnel....I just hope it's not a train!" It just totally made me laugh!! Isn't life crazy?! I wonder a lot what's it's all about but that's what it's all about, just riding that train and trying to stay standing. You are so right my friend. At least we have some great friends to take that ride with!

I put my time down on the prayer list, what a great idea!! Thanks for thinking of it! I think the fact that you decided to adopt and that it is happening relatively fast is a huge sign of what is meant to be. I couldn't be happier for you and I hope that you are able to find the means to do it. Our prayers are working so keep the faith!!!

[jeck]

"there is a light at the end of the tunnel....I just hope it's not a train!" It just totally made me laugh!!

Oh my gosh Aimee, that is so funny!!! I had to read that one to my husband... we both got a kick out of that!!

I am so glad you joined the prayer group and like the idea... I have been wanting to do it for awhile but didn't know if anyone would respond and then with the time difference, I wanted to word it in a way that wouldn't be confusing... but I think it is cool since we are from all over that if we picked 1 time zone and filled up the times that someone is praying 24 hrs a day and I thank that is cool...