Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

So gang, where you all at??

Got my medi sent out yesterday and dh nearly died on the spot. I have 40 injections--praying i don't need all of them--and its not a ready made pen, we have to draw them all up and put it in the needle. Yikes i need Doc Lola here right now plus a ton of Emla

Still not feeling any symtoms but am tired---nothing to do with the 7 days shift i have just finished eh???

Have got my godson and mum visiting this weekend from Liverpool so might be missing for a couple of days. Have a good weekend

Come back soon girlies

Love Jen x

[little R]

Dearest Octofriends.... don't have time to post or read.... snows awaits... celebrating DH's 35th tomorrow and our 5th wedding anniversary (same day) in a chalet with friends....will be back in Dubai next week (sniff!)...

I hope you are all well... have been thinking about you all and hoping you're all smiling...

Trust all is well with you Jen....

Will post once I am home again...

Much love,

Littles

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey Tuber noodles

Jens- am cheering you on... got the lovely needles.. all a go for BFP trek! High Kicks and Pom-Pom salutes for ya... Go Baby GO!

Loos- You ask for the goods and you get the goods.... Faith is fantastic babes. She sleeps lovely at night.. she is kinda crankpants when awake during the day.. she likes to be walked around alot.. but I would rather have devil during the day and angel at night than the other way around anyday.. so no complaints. Hubby is awesome dad and does most of the work when he is home in the evenings. Of course since he is working and I am not right now, I do the night feedings. ... which are infrequent.. usually 2am and 6am.. not too shabby.

I wish you girls were watching the same season of Greys that I am.. would love to discuss last nights episode!!!!! I guess you will have to keep watching.

Littles- busy little bee.... have fun celebrating!

Walshy- miss ya luvs!

All good energy for Jen
Steph

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

well had another hectic weekend with my godson up from Liverpool.

We had a tarot card reading on Friday night, which was my birthday (37, have decided to stop counting now). Anyway there was 5 of us and it was very spooky as she told us so many things that noone would have known about. The best news was that this is my year and my lucky time is up to May. I will recieve good news on April the 18th and not to give up as she can see me with a baby and it will all work out fine. I must say i was a bit "ye ye", but hey, you never know.

My treatment is still the same, nothing new until i go for my scan on the 28th Feb, will then know more about ET etc. Only thing is i feel like i'm putting on weight and i hate it, it can make me quite depressed.

ok will be back soon but off to work in a couple of hours and want to go out walking first.
Love to you all

Jen x

[Jen1d]

oh girls i do hope its not the end of the Octo Chicks, we seem to be getting further down that list every week.

Come back i need your support. I am having my baseline scan on the 28th then the injections should start if all is ok.

Love to you all, hope you will be back soon

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

I'm sorry Jemla! I'm useless but I've been checking in on you most days.
Your cycle seems to be taking a billion years! Does it feel that way to you?? So we have a scan date to focus on now - grow follies grow! I must admit I'm still confused about your cycle but the one thing I do know is the Big FAT positivo at the end of it - you will get your dream come true my sweet - you have to!
How are you feeling anyway? Have you been an emotional thunderstorm?

As for me... I am supposed to start my 4th go next week after delaying it a month but.... oh man. I feel so down about the whole ivf game, the worst I've felt I think, don't know why. Took the extra month so I could get well and i've just had one thing after another (now have gastritis or an ulcer or something) and work so darn busy. I may leave it another month - need to get my head straight. Meanwhile the clock ticketh... its hard. If I were younger I'd leave it 6 months.
Well enough yawning on, yadda yadda, lets stay pos for jen. woo hoooooo!!!! I hope you're remembering your positive daily chants young girl...? I'll do some for you too, just to make sure.

The others... hola! Hope you're all well. Steph good to finally get the gen! We miss your sunshine around these parts!! Grey's - would love to be up to speed with you - uk is way behind godamn.

Okaly, take it easy lovelies
Love, Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

yiippeee a friend to chat to

Yep Loops this cycle is taking a trillion years but don't worry about understanding it all cause i don't either
All i know is they are doing this cycle differently to try and get more eggs from me. I start the nasal spray on the 29th if all is well with the scan and then the injections (Menopur) on the 30th and thats all i know so far. Have decided it maybe best not to know so much and just plod along. You should see the needles though---ouch----i'm going for my Emla today, will need a bucket load this time

So your feeling a bit low-----one swift kick coming your way as our Loops is made of tougher stuff. Yep the clock is kicking in so i think you should just take a deep breath and go for No 4. Its just going to get harder anyway so may aswell tackle it now---right?. There thats you sorted out
Am i being to harsh with you? Believe me we all know how hard it is but we just have to find the strength from somewhere and keep trying. I think this will be my last cycle though so i have to stay positive and pray this will be the one I know its difficult babe but hang in there, am here for you anytime

Hi to everyone else, hope your all doing ok especially Littles and Walshy, drop us a line soon

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Just checking to see if anyone is about----

Oh well, will check back tomorrow after my scan to give you an update

Love to you all

Jen x

[lolajones]

Jemla - GOOD LUCK for your scan tomorrow!!!! Hope everything is tip top and you can then (finally!) give us more info about your EC and transfer. You will be start of positivity tsunami here on the octo05 thread - I demand it!!!!
Also, thank you for the swift kick in the bottom - just what I needed, you're right! I am tough! So, I have done a complete 360 and am starting down reg tomorrow!!! GO OCTOS!!!!!!
Let me know how you got on at scan sweetcheeks
Love, Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Waahhhooo, way to go Loops
Brilliant news about your cycle starting, i feel good things heading our way. How you feeling about it all?

My scan went well, the ovaries are all fine and the lining is A OK and nice and thin, yyyiiiipppeee.
Start my nasal spray tomorrow and the Menopur injections on Friday night. There is no pen this time, we have to draw the injections up and shoot

Looks like EC will be around the week of the 12th??????

Will keep you all posted, love to you all

Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi

So i started my nasal spray today and the injections are tomorrow. I am a little worried and scared about them this time as there is so much fluid to go in---ouch---i just know its going to sting oh i am such a wimp, wish i could just get preggers the normal way----us ivf babes SO deserve a wee bundle of joy

Loops - How you feeling about this cycle? You on the same treatment and medi?

Littles and Walshy - Thinking of you both as always, would love to hear how your both getting on.

Steph - The photo of Faith is gorgeous but still waiting on one with her Mummy----you to Loops---photos please

Ok off to chill as work has been hectic thanks to a selfish boss

Jen x

[Walshy]

Hello Gorgeous Ladies,

Well I had to pop back in and see how your all going with your cycles to find that there is only two of you trying to keep the Octo 05 from ending up on page 2.

So Miss Jen - I really hope this is the one for you. I am crossing everything for you. I truly hope whatever glint of hope I have that this IVF works I am sending to both you and Lola. I like your strong determination and your courage to continue trying. I also liked your kick arse attitude to tell Lola to start again . Good for you. Maybe I need some of it my way. I will pop in again to see how your egg pick up went. Are you going to blast or and how many are you transferring this time?

Same goes for you Lola I really hope that you get your BFP. There has to be a happy ending to the Octo crew. Are you doing a fresh or frozen cycle? I hope that you and Jen really succeed this time you both deserve this. I am thinking of you both. I am waiting for my photo by the way and I can't wait another 9 months for you and your baby photos.

Steph thank you so much for the photos of your beautiful girl and as Jen has already pointed out where is your photo. There is really no excuse now is there as you must be taking some nice family photos all the time. So how is work and when are you getting onto baby wagon number 2 I always told my DH that if we did have kids when the first one was 5 months I would be trying again.

Has anyone heard from Littles? If your reading this I hope your doing OK and that everything is going well in your study and for life just in general.

As for me I don't think there is a day gone past that I do not think of not being able to have a baby or doing another round of IVF. I know call me crazy. I think emotionally I can't admit that I will be childless and that that is it otherwise I wouldn't be able to get out of bed in the morning. I have slumped into a deepened depression I will admit and nothing I do has got me out fo it so I may go to the Dr if it doesn't lift to see what he says about it. I have sent my DH to counselling as he won't talk to me about his feelings as he doesn't want me to get upset. He deosn;t talk to anyone about it not even his close friends or family. I talk to my friends and you ladies have been a godsend. We are taking it one day at a time and hope that the future will be brighter for us a couple. To make matters worse my SIL is getting married in a few months and then she said she is going to get pregnant on her honeymoon which will send me and DH into a spin again. It is our 6 year wedding anniversary tomorrow which will mean that we had been on trying to have a baby for nearly 7 years.

OK ladies better go before I start obsessing about it take care and I miss your company and mad antics. I wish you luck and am thinking of you always, take care Walshy

[Jen1d]

Hi

Walshy - Its great to hear from you but i felt so sad reading your post. IVF can be so hard on some couples but i think you have done the right thing and send dh to chat with a councellor, he must be in so much pain bottling it up and thats so frustrating for you. I desperately hope you can both work things out.
Know what you mean about the "childless" thing. A few people have said to me "but at least you have each other", SHUT UP, they don't have a clue. I prefer not to think about that stage yet and try to focus on WHEN i get my baby. Yes i have to say the more cycles we do the more i think it won't happen but then i read all the other threads and see people going through so much and they get BFP's. So hang in there babe. The good thing is you have already been pregnant so you know it can happen, i have still to get that
Please don't stay away so long and we are always here for you to chat whether its on the thread or personal email.
Love and a hug are flying over to you.

To answer your question, we are only allowed to transfer 2 embies by law in Britain and going to blast??, well we have to wait and see how they develop but my hospital usually prefers putting the embies back after 2 or 3 days at the lastest. They say they are better in their natural environment than a lab.

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey Crazy Bananas!!

Well, I knew it was a risk.. sending a picture of Faith and you would all be shouting for a picture of me.. will get right on that! wink, wink.
Loops- I tried to send you the pictures too. but they bounced back to me. Have you changed your e-mail? Send me an e-mail so I have your address. Please!

Jens- yahoo, cycle sounds tops so far.. can't wait to get word of bfp! What are you doing to relax and keep that great attitude? Is it the drugs? you sound Fab-U. thatta girl! I see you with cape, great speedy car and helpful sidekick.. oh the power of Jens. I am going back to yoga this weekend, so will send all "yoga joy" your way. Can't wait to get that high back.

Walshy- you made my day luvey.. seeing your smiling words back on the thread. Missed ya! Please don't give up on mummyhood.. you deserve it, anyway it comes. You sound like you need friends who understand what you are going through.. we volunteer for the job! We luv you most afterall..

Loos- I likey the change of spirits.. go after it with the Loolers Gusto we have come to know and luv! Shake that groove thang! By the way.. my friend hopped her flight to London yesterday.. she is officially in your neck of the woods. miss her already! take care of her for me.

As for me.. back to work in three short little weeks.. oh craps! I am not looking forward to that even a little bit. I am sure my boss has managed to crap all over everything I was working on. Plus, his supervisor is retiring.. the one that we like and keeps our boss' stupidity in check.. I hope someone good takes his place. But the good news is I will be able to check in daily during your cycles.


Take it easy cheesy
steph

[little R]

Hello there Octopals.... yes, I have been MIA for a long long time...

To be honest, I couldn't face posting because I just didn't want to think about it all for a while...I just wanted to put it all on the back burner!
However, that does NOT mean I wasn't thinking about you...

It's super news about Loops and Jen.... wow, so close again... it has GOT to be your turn now...
Jen, you sound VERY upbeat and I am thrilled for you... hang in there...it looks like you are doing a great job. No worries about the injections...you'll do great... Have no fear Get DH to help with the mixing... it's a group activity

Loops...glad you have finally decided to start again but can relate to your feelings though...well done for finding the courage and energy to get back in the IVF game! Yipppeee

Steph...feeling left out....although I probably deserve it. I didn't get any baby pics I know I haven't been a model Octopal but still...in fact, I still haven't clapped eyes on you yet (photowise)...Lola neither...she's a secretive young lady! Please send me your email.

Walshy....I can relate is all I can say... I feel empty half of the time... we celebrated our 5 year anniversary and I kept thinking about it all...it's not fair, is it? I can only say that I feel for you and understand what you are going through...wish that wretched magic wand would just work....damnation!!

Things have been VERY busy since I got back from Switzerland 2 weeks ago and DH and I are going away again in a few days.

The news...I am physically well which is great news because it seems that I have been experiencing the backlash of IVF a year ago (UTI, vaginal infections...the whole nine yards)...

Emotionally however things have been difficult...I guess I have reached the end of my tether and after more than 5 years have decided to take action. It's been too long and I realise that I do need to talk to someone objective as I feel so isolated and want to find tools to get out of this rut....
I have decided to talk to a councillor and see what happens
I am not sure whether she will provide me with the ideal solution but it can't hurt to try
I just realise that I am making the people around me that I love the most unhappy and I can't deal with that.... My mother hates babies and loathes other grandmothers and my brother stated that he is not having one until I do which doesn't make my future SIL like me much
Anyway...it's long overdue...I'll keep you posted if you're interested.
I have only been to one session and came out feeling completely drained...the councillor hinted that perhaps I was numb... no kidding

Regarding treatment...well, I am starting again.... this month so will join Loops and Jen It's a walk in the park compared to you girls though...as I am going to do a completely natural cycle for my 2nd FET. I honestly don't put much stock in it but at least I won't have the hormones to contend with

Must dash...please don't be mad at me for my time away..I will try and post more often...

MUCH love,

Littles