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Post by MissSunshine »

Hello Angela,
I am sorry to hear you are not feeling to good. You have been an inspiration for me and have in the short period of this conversation been a god send for my emotions.
I really hope you are feeling better, I do not know what happened
on your first cycle but I am sure that you will be fine, a good sleep, a hot bath, and a cuddle normally sorts me out if I am feeling a bit under the weather.
Why did they stop your cycle?
I hope they dont do that for me, I am so weak with head nonsence over all this IVF, I am hoping that only once is necessary. My partner makes me think like this, without him, I would be a mess, and not here either!
Someone else is pregnant in my office now, not counting or anything but thats 3 people that I work with who are now' up the duff'plus the girl on the way in to work so thats 4..
My boss just saw me on this site, and now I am para that he thinks I am insane, with all the baby stuff going on. Which I am not, I am very happy for everyone. I just bloody wish I never told my boss I was going through this.Blame the hormones again.
I truly truly hope that you are ok, and I am sorry if I have nothing of any sense to cheer you up, I have no idea about all this you see, this is my first time, and I really hope the last.
I am going to have two embro's placed. God its only next week...
shit.
I am quite scared.
there I go again, me me me.
xx Hope you are ok...
31 years young, 4 attempts at IUI failed now on my first Cycle of IVF.
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Hi,

Isn’t is amazing how fast time has gone when you look back and how suddenly things can become real very quickly one more week to go – I’m excited for you !!!!!! you must be having a scan soon to see how your eggs are growing, do you have to have blood tests also..

I am feeling a lot better now. I think it was my body working the medication out of my system or something….. I’m feeling pretty much back to my normal self – thank goodness and thank you for your kind words – they made me smile and feel good !!!

My cycle was stopped because my estrogen levels went too high once I was on the FSH.
Apparently it happens to about 10% of people. Once they started rising they made me stop taking FSH injections and tried to coast me to bring the level down. After 5 days my estrogon level was still double what it was supposed to be so they cancelled the treatment. It was something the doctor had warned me I could be a risk of – I just didn’t expect it to happen because I was feeling pretty good.
Fortunately they are going to let my start the process again next month and will give me a much lower dose of FSH. Fingers crossed it will all go ok. We always thought is was just my DH’s vasectomy we had to deal with but in the back of my mind I have always had this niggling worry it could be a problem with me also. But we are in expert hands and I hope this time will go the way we wish.

I was doing the same thing at work also - checking this site – and quickly changing screens if interrupted….. it is hard not to make all this IVF stuff the centre of your life – it is for something we have all been wanting for a long time. As for letting your boss know what is going on I think you have done the right thing – if your boss is an understanding person it will give you a lot less worry than always being concerned that they think you are not performing 100% or away a lot while all this is going on.

Also all those baby vibes at your work must be in your favour – perhaps there is some thing in the water….. maybe you should sit in their chairs or some thing….. anything that works !!!!! It is great you feel good for them also and it isn’t too hard for you.

Have a good day at work – keep in touch and let me know how things are going – I’m excited for you – I can’t wait to see your BFP and hear you have twins on the way!!!!
Me 37 DH 54
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March 08 FET BFN
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Hello again!':D'
Yes it it quite amazing how fast time goes by, I have my day 10 scan after starting to take FSH tomorrow, and then again on Monday. they still haven't given me a date for my egg collection yet... more needles...I have lots of minute scab holes on my belly, and whoever said you will get used to injecting is a liar, Its getting worse, I have to now push my belly into the needle,apposed to the other way around, as when i go to put the needle in, it just will not go in,its like my tummy turns to leather or something, un-injectable leather skin. ewww. but once its in, I leave it there for a bit, just to say to myself 'Ta Dah'
I am taking 150 on the dial of the pen, what ever that is.. is that a lot?
I have so many questions...!
like whats a DH, I am thinking darling husband?!! but am probably wrong..
and whats a BFP? beautiful friendly person ?!!
My DH is a DP, darling Partner!! and is being so great, but am starting to feel super bad.. I have totally gone right off 'ahem... sex. not the idea of it, just the doing it.. I have read all the small print of my injecta drug manuals, and it does say that this is normal, it just doesn't feel normal,I mean i really don't even think about it, I just read my book and then sleep when its 'bed time' I have no idea if this amount of non sex drive I seem to have is actually what the small print is talking about, lack of sex drive.. blimey.. I never thought that would happen, I mean.. not completely.
haaaaaaaaaaa thats out of my system.. shall I post this or delete this? haha, I have deleted so many of my pre-posts, Little miss sunshine does not feel so sunny so much at the moment, but I am thinking after reading my manual for the 50th time, that I may be going to have my eggs collected next week if all goes to plan I could be a mum of two in 9 months... If it does not work I don't think I could do this again, If I do, I will have to get a new job. I'm just to stressed, and depressed that everyone else is preggers and pretending i dont give a damn..
I really hope it works out for you my dear, I hope it works for everyone on this site, Every woman should have the choice, and not have to go through this. Its a bloody nightmare. Apart from my wardrobe looking the best it ever has.. weekly treats you see...thanks whoever suggested that..
I do not want to do this again. Perhaps I will look into fostering, there are lots of children out there who could do with 'some sunshine' in their lives... I have to go, I am talking to much! x
Thank you once again for your letter. :D :D :D
31 years young, 4 attempts at IUI failed now on my first Cycle of IVF.
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Hi Miss Sunshine,

I'm so sorry you aren't feeling good today - I 'm just heading out the door it is 10.10am over here - but I'll reply when I get back - and answer all your questions :D

Just remember it is the drugs that are messing with your mind and making you feel the way you are feeling - underneath all that medication is the same wonderful you !!!!

DH - Darling Huspand DP darling partner
BFP - what we are all looking for "Big Fat Positive."

I'll catch you later today, take care and curl up with your DP - tell him you need a cuddle as you are finding it hard going at present - he is there to be your rock and support - also ask how he is feeling - this is hard on them at times also - I am sure he is feeling out of his depth a little in that he cant make it all go away or make you feel better

Take care and I'll catch up with you when I get back

Angela
Me 37 DH 54
3rd IVF/ICSI Nov 07 BFN
March 08 FET BFN
June & Aug 09 DI BFN
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Post by MissSunshine »

I am not to bad, honest. its just good to get things off your chest.
Big fat positive.. thats so cool, well, 2 out of 3 aint bad .. who sang that?
We have red nose day going on over here at the moment and every advert that comes on, I am in sheds of tears, I want to adopt the world..
I skived off work today and went to the gym... (actually just sat in the bubbles for an hour..) then I treated myself to sushi, thinking this will probably be the last time i get to eat this if this all works out, and then I got two dvd's. I am drinking so much elderflower presse at the moment, It like I am having my cravings before i get the BFP!
No alcahol, no nothing, so why is my tummy so swollen it should be sunken? My boobs are gigantic.. and they are sore.. growing pains I think.. jeeez honestly. they a blooming massive.. I just hope that they return to normal if this does not work out...I reckon people will start thinking I am preggers soon what with my new boobs and my mood swings,crying at adverts, my interest in sex but lack of sex drive...WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEEE, plus I fantasize about Orlando Bloom??? I am 31 for gods sake.
On a more normal note, is it not just so amazing that you are starting your day and I am off to bed, to read my book(!) yet we have managed to help one another, in a way, to start and to end our day. and others too I hope. thank you x
31 years young, 4 attempts at IUI failed now on my first Cycle of IVF.
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Hi !!!
Have you had your scan yet? If so how did it go I hope all your eggs are behaving and growing nicely – just think sometime next week they will be collecting them – making your babies and putting them back to snuggle in for the next nine months – how exciting !!!!!

Now you mention it I found I had to push harder and harder to push the needle in towards the end. I guess it is because at the time we are all swollen and bloated. I swore I looked 3 months pregnant - trousers that are usually loose on me were very tight fitting towards the end and also my boobs grew a lot (DH liked that…) and I probably put on about 4 kg – most of it has dropped off now but for a couple of weeks I was worried it was there to stay. Your sex drive - it will come back – I promise…. Just repeat after me “it is the drugs that are making me feel this way” Mine went up and down – I had a heavy workload at the time working 7am to midnight some of the time and a couple of other stressful things going on and I was feeling bloated and unattractive so jumping into bed was the last thing that excited me !!....Saying that DH has just popped in to say he is off to bed…..it is usually him finishing something on the computer and me trying to get him to come and join me….

I took 150 units also – I think this is the normal dose they give everyone – with your scan and blood tests they will be monitoring everything is doing what it should – I tried to hold onto the fact that they deal with this every day and know what they are going.

Hey – you have been a bad influence on me today….. Your comment about shopping got me thinking that I deserve a little retail therapy also – and all the new season stuff has just started to come out. I had a good time and spent way too much money. I found a lovely deep red jacket, 3 tops and a handbag and a couple of necklaces (yes I did go a little overboard….). It is silly I know but with everything I was thinking will I still be able to wear this 4 or 5 months down the track if the next round of IVF goes according to plan….

Stay strong, you are getting closer. The next few days is when the going gets a little tougher – but you are almost there – by this time next week you will be telling me how many eggs they collected or that they had just put your two lovely babies back into their new home for 9 months. Be kind to yourself and don’t beat yourself up too much. That is an order……
Plan to do something special this weekend with your DP – a picnic, a movie, a meal out, a surprise night away or just a candle light dinner at home. While ivf isn’t the ideal way to create a family I think it is important to do some special things to make it a close and memorable time together do it is not all injections, doctors and scans..

It is hard with everyone else having babies – I am sure you will be next in line – and if by any chance it is not your or my turn in the next couple of months we will get there some how – like you say there are so many children out there who need loving homes.
I like to think there is a child with our name on it – we just have to be patient for the correct time to come along because when we finally get our child we will not be able to imagine it being any different from who they are.

Well I am off to bed, sorry if I have gone on a little to long. Have a good day – remember it is the drugs making you feel this way!!!!!! and hang in there you are past the half way point.

Take care, talk to you later,

Angela
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March 08 FET BFN
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Oh my goodness, the doctor has just phoned me to tell me that I will be having my eggs collected on Monday Morning at 7am.
Late night injection on Saturday at 10.30pm, keep taking the drugs till then, then horay.. stop.
then.. under ONLY A LOCAL.... I cannot believe they are not putting me under for this... and then they get my eggaroonies.
then... I just wait to see if they ' gel....'
jeezz.. I am now excited... wow.
so quick. then they put them in, I cant imagine that hurting much....
blooming nora. I have done it. nearly...!!!
At work, best go.. speak soon.. x
31 years young, 4 attempts at IUI failed now on my first Cycle of IVF.
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Congratulations on getting to the next stage - I am so excited for you !!!!

Good luck with the trigger on Saturday night - you are almost there. Well done. Only a couple more injection to go!!! in a few days you will start to miss those twice daily jabs !!!!

They generally do EC (egg collection) with only a local in New Zealand also unless you specifically request to be put under fully. I'm interested to see how you find it and I cant wait to get there myself and see if my DH's boys surrive the thaw and are up to the task !!! (they are on ice at present)

Do your family and friends know you are going through all this or are you keeping it between yourselves (and your boss). My DH told almost everyone for our first try but I am trying to be a little vague with when it is happening next time.

Once again - congratulations to you and your DP on getting your trigger date and EC time. Have a good weekend, you have an exciting week ahead.

Angela
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March 08 FET BFN
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hello Angela, you know what, this morning before even reading what you had written, I was in the kitchen injecting my final jabs, and I actually thought, I am going to miss doing these.. how strange. I wont. I have put it down to one of the many drug related feeling's I am experiencing!
Anyway the last injection is in the fridge awaiting my tummy at 10.30pm tonight. It is my tummy that I have to put it into, the Doctor was a bit vague, and i was to excited to ask 'real ' questions, I was just saying, goodness, thats so soon.. will it hurt, I am going to have a baby, and stuff like that!
When i was going through IUI the late night injection was horrible, it had a dirty great big needle, and they told me to stab it into my leg. It hurt so much..I am not going to think of that.
Fingers, toes and everything crossed for your DH's 'boy's' to survive the ..winter..I have a positive feeling for you, I really do x
As for telling other people, the first time, i told far to many people, I did not mean to, I am just a bit sensitive anyway, and needed to, I don't know, but this time, I kept it a secret until I started to take the FSH and when It in twice, I dont think I told you about that did i, on my first go at FSH i span the dial round and injected, and pushed down, but because i did not feel anything, I did it again.. I actually only put an extra 75 I think inside me, who knows but I kind of freaked out and phoned the hospital, who told me not to worry, all this was at work, so thats when I told my boss, and my assistant, and then I told my other work collegue yesterday when i got the news about EC,I am terrible at keeping my secrets, other peoples I am great, but my own.. no.
I am off to spend, hopefully my last non pregnant weekend with my DP.
Have a great weekend yourself missy xxx
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Post by arizonakiwi »

While I never made it to my trigger injection the nurse had told me that it goes in my stomach at a 90 degree angle and to hold it there for a few seconds so it all goes in. (mines sitting in our fridge waiting to be used in a couple of months I hope !!!
Let me kinow how it goes - you are in new teretoiory for me now !!

Enjoy your last non pregnant weekend with your DP.
You are on your way - I am excited for you !!!

It is sunday morning here and it has been raining all weekend - I think it is a sign summer is gone :( Day light saving ended last night also so it will be getting darker earlier also. Have a good sleep and enjoy a sunday with no jabs !!! I am starting a new job tomorrow - excited but also a little nerveous.

Have a good sleep,

Angela
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Just a quick note incase I don't get a chance at work tomorrow to wish you all the best.

Good luck on Monday morning I hope it all goes well and they collect lots of eggs. You have done really well, stay strong your babies will be home with you in a few days. :D :D

Angela
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Hi,

I hope EC went well and you are feeling OK. Just think a couple more days and your babies will be back home.

Angela
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Post by MissSunshine »

Hello!
I am back, sorry been a bit sore and sleepy!
I had the EC yesterday at 7am, well it was more like 10.30 I think... all went well, I like a woos and cried when i was in the operating theatre, but then woke up and everything was fine, Its a bit weird, you know when you have locals / generals, you just lose track of time, anyway, its all done, They took 8 eggs from me on one side, the other side had a cyst in it, yuk.bit worried about that even though they said not too,
so I go in tomroow to have them put back in!!
At work at the moment and its all a bit weird and sore.
not to sore... just a bit. glad its nearly all over though..
how are you doing? its nearly the end of the month , again!
... you will be injecting soon... ewww!!
xx
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Post by arizonakiwi »

Congratulations and well done. Sorry I have been MIA - I started a new job on Monday and felt I really shouldn't be sending personal e-mails while at work......but you have been in my thoughts and I hope you have been feeling good

I can understand how it must all have felt a little strange at work. You are sitting there at work and somewhere in a building downtown your babies are growing!!!!! Isn't science amazing!!!!!

I'm guessing that by the time you read this your babies will be back home - you have done really well and they will be snuggling into their new home for the next 9 months. Take it easy - as they say on this site you have now reached "princess status"
Make sure your DP takes good care of you and you take it easy. I hope you aren't feeling too sore and tender.
Plan some special things to do over the next 2 weeks to help the time pass- you are starting a wonderful adventure.

Take care,

Angela
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3rd IVF/ICSI Nov 07 BFN
March 08 FET BFN
June & Aug 09 DI BFN
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Post by MissSunshine »

hello!
I have been really busy at work what with my two days off I have had doing this...
You know what... I am feeling really dizzy, I have been all day, Do you know if this is normal? My tummy is still sore from the op too, and I cant walk fast. writing this is quite hard work, I may phone the hospital if this carries on tomorrow, sorry Ange, I dont know what is going on, could be these drugs I am taking (up me bum!).
who knows!
let me know how you are doing wont you...I cant be talking about me all the time!
How is your new job? I can't wait to get the results.. Its going to be on Monday 2nd, until then I dont know if you have heard that it is snowing here, I am going to be keeping warm.
xxx speak soon
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