Hello again!':D'
Yes it it quite amazing how fast time goes by, I have my day 10 scan after starting to take FSH tomorrow, and then again on Monday. they still haven't given me a date for my egg collection yet... more needles...I have lots of minute scab holes on my belly, and whoever said you will get used to injecting is a liar, Its getting worse, I have to now push my belly into the needle,apposed to the other way around, as when i go to put the needle in, it just will not go in,its like my tummy turns to leather or something, un-injectable leather skin. ewww. but once its in, I leave it there for a bit, just to say to myself 'Ta Dah'
I am taking 150 on the dial of the pen, what ever that is.. is that a lot?
I have so many questions...!
like whats a DH, I am thinking darling husband?!! but am probably wrong..
and whats a BFP? beautiful friendly person ?!!
My DH is a DP, darling Partner!! and is being so great, but am starting to feel super bad.. I have totally gone right off 'ahem... sex. not the idea of it, just the doing it.. I have read all the small print of my injecta drug manuals, and it does say that this is normal, it just doesn't feel normal,I mean i really don't even think about it, I just read my book and then sleep when its 'bed time' I have no idea if this amount of non sex drive I seem to have is actually what the small print is talking about, lack of sex drive.. blimey.. I never thought that would happen, I mean.. not completely.
haaaaaaaaaaa thats out of my system.. shall I post this or delete this? haha, I have deleted so many of my pre-posts, Little miss sunshine does not feel so sunny so much at the moment, but I am thinking after reading my manual for the 50th time, that I may be going to have my eggs collected next week if all goes to plan I could be a mum of two in 9 months... If it does not work I don't think I could do this again, If I do, I will have to get a new job. I'm just to stressed, and depressed that everyone else is preggers and pretending i dont give a damn..
I really hope it works out for you my dear, I hope it works for everyone on this site, Every woman should have the choice, and not have to go through this. Its a bloody nightmare. Apart from my wardrobe looking the best it ever has.. weekly treats you see...thanks whoever suggested that..
I do not want to do this again. Perhaps I will look into fostering, there are lots of children out there who could do with 'some sunshine' in their lives... I have to go, I am talking to much! x
Thank you once again for your letter.

31 years young, 4 attempts at IUI failed now on my first Cycle of IVF.