Hi guys,
I've been off-line for a bit and was really touched to see you were all still thinking of me. My darling boy died last Saturday. It is a horrible story and I'm not ready to go into details. The very same day we went and found Winnie. He is a 2 1/2 lb pomeranian and would have made his brother very proud! He seems very smart and we see alot of our Wolfy in him. My acupuncturist said he will bring great "yang" energy. He is quite a handful, but well worth it.
Susan - I've not been posting after the loss of Wolfy. Still recovering. But, I was completelyt thrilled to read your news! That is so fantastic. My chest leapt with joy when I read about your bfp! How wonderful. Speaking of big bbs, I've had to were larger bras since last IVF in April. My (.)(.) have not "recovered". They are even a bit sore now and I just started stims....!!
Jovigal - I so understand your fear of feeling joy. My dh and I joked that until the baby is talking, we won't quite believe it! I'm sending extra prayers for your scans. I know I would get sick to my stomach before each scan after so many mc's. Pamper yourself tons and be really gentle with eachother. Your beta looks great! (btw, I would have loved to have seen that concert!)
Christine - Sounds like you were blessed with a wonderful dad. We are praying for him to meet your amazing little baby on the way.
Vicky - I just started stims last night. So we will only be a few days apart.

I had to do 4 shots!!! OUCH! (growth hormone, menopur, follistim and lurpon) Poor belly. I had to ice twice because it would thaw on one half before I could get done with all the shots! Good luck on your scan Monday. I think we'll either have Pisces babies or Aquarius. Sounds nice!
Geckogirl - Your drinks on the beach sound lovely. Have one for me? I have an open bottle of dessert wine in the fridge calling my name and it will go bad soon. But, the nazi stim leaders say "no". So, we'll see if my will power holds out or maybe just a tiny sip would be OK... I'm sorry to hear you are sad. I've also had such sad moods since my last bfn. Time does help, but it sure goes by slowly. Where in Northern California are you?
Charlie - I am exhausted too. I swear I could sleep 24 hours a day! This is really making it tough to keep up with a very spry puppy! I was hoping the stims would give me a boost last night. They did help me sleep better, but I still had to peel myself out of bed! I hope your headaches are improving. I snuck in an occasional latte here and there and it did help some. I read it was fine, especially during down-regging. My RE and his partner swear the Lupron really tends to improve egg quality. Let's hope it does the trick for us.
Karia - Sending you a huge hug. I just hate bfns. I hope you are finding some comforting things to do. I know we went to Disneyland after my last bfn, and I was even sad there!!! That's pretty bad. When do you see your RE again?
Donna - Sending you a big hug. I totally feel the same way. I much prefer a bfn to a mc. Not sure there is a good reason for it, but it's alot easier on me emotionally. I could see it being very different if we had never been pregnant before. When do you start up again?
Ok, puppy is wanting to stop the "watch mommy type on the computer game" He has typed mult lines himself that required quite a bit of editing. So, I will feed us both and get back to work. Thank you all for thinking of me during this sad week. I was thinking of you as well. It's really nice to "see" you all again.
xoxo