Awaiting Treatment

[Welshgirl38]

Ladies, Ladies, Ladies

Im so sorry for being away from the boards - there has been so much going on here that i dont know if im comming or going! Im so tired for a start and cant shake this dam cold that i got over 2 weeks ago now!!

Today was my Auntys funeral - which i couldnt get to, being here and not in Wales is really difficult at times, all my family were there for her, i sent flowers but i know its not the same. I know this is going to sound so selfish, but i feel really alone here knowing that all my family are together there having a good ole sing song prob, and giving her a right good send off and im stuck here on my own with no-one - yes i know i have Brian and the girls,and Brians family too, but at times like this it really isnt the same as having my brothers and sister around me - Brian doesnt know what we went thru as kids with my Aunty and my mum, and its not fair to put it on him all the time either - i just wish i could have gone to pay my respects, she was a lovely wee woman....
I then vented off to Brian earlier saying that i hate living here, and i dont really, i was just so upset as my brother had texted me to say that it went well and that the place was full of people and even outside the crematorium was packed etc - then i cried in work (My boss - the one who is pregnant hugged me and let me vent to her too) - and then i cried on way home - and i cried when i got home - i just feel so bloody down that i want to scream!

Work is mega busy as we are closing down for 2 weeks in July (roll on!!) so we are trying to get everything done before then - i have booked the boat to go home to Wales on the 7th July - another reason why i couldnt jet off there for the funeral, just cant afford it now - also i tht i was doing so well with my weight, i have been really good - and even felt thinner - but i weighed this morning (first time in 2 weeks) and im still the bloody same!!! So i went all out and had a drifter at work and a big bag of cheese and onion crisps - anddddd im going to the chippy for me tea - sod it lol!

Big Brother is doing my head in - why isnt Charlie up for eviction yet - ooooo i could poke her in the eye she gets on my wick so much! Wot a shit stiring cow - if i was in there and she spoke to me like that, i would have to slap her, and Big Bro would kick me out - but it wud be worth it just to slap her face lol! Think of all the praise i would get from people on the outside lol - do people actually like her??? She is soooooooooooo big headed - arghhhhhhhh the tart lol!

<Big Sighs>

Gawd i so tired....... Ok

Shantala: Hello hunnie Great to see u back with us, and starting so soon,wow - will have to update the list, i feel so bad that ive let it go for so long - will try and get it sorted later. Glad ur all sorted for time off with work leading up to you EC and ET - you seem to have everything all sussed this time Good Girl xxxx

Carolyn: So glad ur feeling better hun, and glad that the blinking cold has passed - i wish mine would hurry up, sore throat and sinus that i cant seem to shift. I cant beleive u've been sniffing for this amount of time already, i suppose it goes past quick for everyone else, just not you. Lol @ leaving interview to sniff up, i hope ur eyes wernt watering when u returned, people will think they are being employed by a drugie lol.

Angel: Bummer about the wait Its not fair that IVF is a postcode lottery - that really shouldnt be allowed, and the goverment need to change their issues on this - it shouldnt be happening because of where we live!!!! And im sorry too that your DR was insensitive, sometime i dont think they realise how this whole process effects us, i dont think anyone does - only women who have been thru it, or are going thru it fully understand - u can rant here as often as u wish, we are all here for you hun xxx

JS: How are u feeling? Hope all is well and that ur wee embies are snuggling in nicely

Hello to everyone else, ive not forgotten about u ladies, im just so tired at the moment, i do think of u all everyday and keep reading ur messages, someone kick me up the arse to get me up and running agian .... i just need a cuddle right now ......

Becky Xxxxx

[shantala]

hey everyone

carolyn - thanks for welcoming back hun and about us posting at the same time!! yes, it has come round really quickly and i really hope its your time too. wouldnt it be great if we were preggo together in a couple of months!!! i'm praying that its our turn!!! really surprised that they wont tell you what meds you'll be on until monday....hhmmm...i wonder why? you'll have to let us know as soon as you know! oh, didnt realise you had to sniff 3x a day. not sure why i only sniff 2x, maybe you're right, maybe it's because i sniff longer. i think it works out i sniff for over 3 weeks!!! about the interview, nice cover though!! glad you havent found the sniffing too bad. i remember i got terrible headaches and was terribly, terribly emotional but i'm hoping that it wont be as bad this time as i know what to expect. anyway, good on you for drinking so much...it's something i definitely want to improve this time round and i think it definitely makes a difference with side effects. thanks for thinking about me with work. you're very right, i definitely need to be careful i dont over-do it and look after myself!! oohh, so excited about your scan tomorrow, let us know as soon as you know!! (sorry for the long post!!)

angel - it's disgusting isnt it, the way the NHS speak to us. i must say that i havent had much luck when it comes to sensitivity with our private clinic (we're not entitled to NHS treatment) either and i think its partly because they try and distance themselves and not get involved. not that i'm excusing them coz trust me, i'm not!! they could still change their manners and ways. sorry you've had to go through that but at least you have your private go to look forward to for the time being and you do have another NHS one to fall back on. hugs!!

welshbugger - aawwwww, hun, i wanna come up there and give you a big hug!!!!!!!!! i know how hard it is when you miss family as all my family live in germany. i'm lucky in the respect that i have my mum and my smaller brothers here but everyone else is over there. so i have had to miss funerals too (like my grandads) and it's heartbreaking and you feel guilty. it is hard, i know. and to top it all you've had this rotten cold and the whole IF thing, etc, i'm not surprised you feel run down!! dont worry about the list too much hun. you did make me laugh about me having it all sussed and being a good girl. that sounds like the welshbugger we know!! anyway, **big hugs** honey!!!!

hi to everyone else...can you tell i'm back....

xxx

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Becky - Sorry but when you were shouting and venting i couldnt help but laugh. Think it was the way you were jumping from one subject to another and god i know how you feel at the moment. You scream all you like for as long as you like, we are hear to listen.
And no we dont like Charley but she has to stay in and argue with Billi or the house will be boring. People always vote the loud ones out then there is nothing to watch. She is so big headed but at least Billi sorted her out. She never listens to anyone and thinks she is right the whole time. She definately will get a poke in the eye from someone when she gets back into the real world.
A big hug is flying over to Ireland for you

Carolyn - Yep you are definately back, please just leave some pages for us to write on-------------saying that Shantala is coming a close second, think she wrote a book on Wednesday

Angel505 - The Docs or this government dont have a clue. We should be helped to have family but we're ignored. Imagine how much money is being made from couples like us who are having to pay a fortune to have children, it sucks big time. Rant away whenever you like

Shantala - Brilliant to have you back, now no creeping away again for weeks at a time ok

Have been trying to study all day and feel i got very little done, its doing my head in and i've just started Sod doing anymore today am going to paint my nails

Love to you all as always

Jen x

[CarolynB]

Angel - I am so sorry that you have to wait a year and it was handled so badly. I sometimes think that the people at the clinics have no clue but then that is unfair as some of the people are so sweet and so helping us to try and make our dreams come true. I am not surprised that you burst out in tears. Hope that you are now feeling a little better. Not much else to say other than nhs help over here totally sucks

Jen1d - good on you with your studies all day. Sure that you got more done than you think. I am sure that it is hard to knuckle down now but guess that you'll get into a routine. It should help take your mind off tmt

Beckster - I am sorry that you are having such a rough time. I am so sorry aboit your Aunty and missing her send off. That is hard. Then you have a cold which does notr want to b****er off and then you are dealing with the whole IF lark too. You have a lot on your plate. At least you did not put weight on. If you feel like you have lost weight then it will show up on the scales in due course. I found that my weight could alter depending on time of the month

Rachel - any better news at work for you hun

JS - Hope that you are doing well with your 2ww

Gill - hope that you are reading us and not going too mental without being able to post

Shantala - Great to have you back as the others have said. Please stay hun. They told me that they will not tell me the meds until they do the blood test on Monday. Depending on the levels - progesterone and ostrogen and LH level (think) - then they will decide whether I am on Puregon or Gonal. Then it might alter each day as I will have a blood test every day. OMG. What a carry on!? I have been a bit weepy but am quite busy and that seems to have taken my mind off it. I think that as you said, you have a better idea of what to expect so it is less stressful and daunting than 1st time. Honest!

Aunty - hope that you are busy with the house and not forgotten us

Jayne - hoping that you will get good news on the appeal soon

Hugs to everyone else.

Was so laid back about scan tomorrow first thing that I forgot to say that I might be into the office late tomorrow. Whatever. I am not that confident as with the cold I worry that not all the down regging will have got through to my system. We will see. I will have to carry on down regging over the weekend anyway so guess the only issue is whether I get the hysteroscopy on Monday or later next week. Moved a meeting from Monday to Tuesday so bound to be on Tuesday!!!! I shall try to sneak on at work & let you know news from the scan.

So 1 more day and then its the weekend. Let's hope for some better weather than of late (especially in the UK).

Love to you al.
Carolyn
xxxxxx

[AuntyPebbles]

Hey Lady's...yoohoo only me

phew been so busy im so tired...yeah im covered in paint, primer so far..i have tons of pics for you all but now hubby lost my camera...if it wasnt his birthday id smack him...thank you for the anniversary wishes you guessed it we spent the day painting the walls but the evening sammy cooked and we had a few beers so was nice.

Carolyn nooo i could never forget you...hugs... im so pleased your feeling better..ooo be right back mother of all storms right over head...dont want to blow another pc...

love to all...Aunty

[lara312]

Morning ladies just q very quick 1

Becky you know that we are all here for you to rant or cry sorry your feeling upset but i'm sure your aunty would know if you could have been there you would have cwtches for you .

Carolyn good luck with your scan today its moving along nicely for you now we will soon be celebrating your BFP

Shantala now where have you been i had excuse to be missing its good to have you back oh and start sniffering again soon thats come round quick (well seems like it prob not for you )

Well better go got to get ready for work catch you all later
lots of love Rachel x x

[Jen1d]

Carolyn

Hope everything goes well with your scan this morning, am thinking of you.

Let us know all the info as soon as poss

Love Jen x

[Welshgirl38]

Nimble/Jackie...Blessed with a BFP
17th May..First scan ..beanie was hiding
19th May..Beta Results ... 773!!..
21st May..b/w results 2000!!!!
23rd May..2nd Scan – Saw one beanie – 5weeks
3rd Scan …..6th June ... Saw Perfect Heartbeat
Midwife Appointment….19th June
Beanie is 7 weeks (12th June)
4th Scan …..??
19th June …. Appt with midwife


Marsxp...BFN - So sorry hun, your in our thoughts and prayers Xxx

Lady’s on 2ww

JS200632......... 3 Perfect embies snuggling in … Testing July 3rd


Lady’s Having Treatment


CarolynB...…18th June - Started Nasal spray… Scan June 29th ...Hysteroscopy – Monday 2nd July
Jen1d... Started Tablets June 26
Shantala... 30th June start Down Regging

Lady's in Waiting...

Curlydoo...10th May..AF Due?..do we dance or sing?
JB(Jen)...Appt…3rd August in Barcelona
Rachel/Lara312... Lost 18lb Well Done 
Geckogirl... Nov/Jan - Donor egg
Gill12... Aug
AuntyPebbles... Saving for ivf#4...get house key's 16th June…Decorating
Welshgirl38/Becky... July
ShazB...Sept?
Karia …Sept
Melissa112... June Start Clomid
BabyBlue (Kim)…Waiting for Donor…June?
Green... July
BeachBaby …Acc July 12th
Charlie78... August
Nannybear...August
Sassynlv...August
Pequele...I.U.I - Oct
6Yrs (mom20)…Jan 08
Angel505... ?
Lee... ?

[CarolynB]

Real quickie as at client and need to work as only just got here. 10.30am. Gave some rubbish about break light on my car........need more excuses.

Scan was fine. Good to go. WOW. Was brave and asked for a perscription rather than rip off prices at the clinic. They gave me perscription for start off stimmie meds - so many different types! OMG OMG Dh off trying to buy them at a good/cheap price away from the clinic. Bloods done too. They'll call me later to tell me what drugs I start with. Gave me lesson on mixing drugs - oh the fun of it all.

Awaiting call to tell me what time I am in on Monday. Then start stimmies Monday evening. Daily bloods start on Tuesday. I'll get a call each day to tell me what meds to take each day and need to be available to go back to the clinic at anytime.

Let the chaos commence.

Will catch up with you all tomorrow.
Lots of Love
Carolyn
xxxxxx

[Jen1d]

When you have a spare minute, explain all the meds again, sounds googlllllieegobb. Whay do you have to buy your own, is it not all included in the price?

Anyway sorry if i am being dumb, must be having a blonde day

Glad everthing went well, you sound like your life is more chaotic than usual. Now slow down, thats an order

Catch up soon

Jen x

[AuntyPebbles]

Hey Lady's...

Jen you would think the meds would be included right...nope they arent how are you?....hugs

Carolyn OMG OMG with you, wow im so excited....they really are watching your cycle very closely arent they, i like the sound of that, are you off work now? or will you be soon...praying hard for you both...come on follies wakey wakey.....

love to all Aunty

[Ems1971]

Hi all

A quiet minute at work (for a change!) so I was having a scout about and noticed there are a few of my old Dec/Jan buddies on this thread. Just wanted to say I'm routing for you, Shantala, Welsh! And a "Hi" to Aunty and a Happy Anniversary for the other day... CONGRATS!!

I will thinking of you during your treatment and will keep an eye out for your BFPs!

Sending lots of love

Emma xx

[Jen1d]

Hi

Still no news from Carolyn, will check up later.

Aunty - Shocking about the meds, even in Big B they are included.
I'm fine thanks, just plodding along with my medi until told to stop, might be in about 2-3 weeks, then its off for a scan then up up and away for ET

Thanks Becky for updating me on the list, its massive now eh.

Weather man said it was going to rain all day and its gorgeous us here. The sun has been out all day and my garden is now beautiful----but i'm exhausted

Catch ya all soon

Love Jen x

[CarolynB]

Oh Lordy

Clinic just called me. They want to do the Hysteroscopy tomorrow based on my blood test and levels. Stimmies will likely start tomorrow evening.

WOW. Have you ever heard of a cycle that goes faster than they told you!!!! Must have down regged enough.

And it is on Saturday so I have Sunday to recover. Perfect. Only thing that it messes up is dh's round of golf! SHAME

So no food/drink after midnight. In for 7am. Should be home before lunchtime.

Will check in with you all afterwards. Thanks for the support.
Lots of Love
Carolyn
xxxxx

Aunty - still at work. Saving time off for end of stimmies - EC and ET. So I can 'save' Monday too and have more days down the track. Thanks for keeping an eye on me hun

[lara312]

Oh carolyn things seems to be flying for you now good luck for your hysteroscopy in the morning you must be a model patient this is all good so let the fun commence you will soon be posting your BFP dont forget to check when you feel better after it

Ems i cant believe how far along you are already are you finding out what your having

Jen i know what you mean about the weather should have rained here to today but was beautiful big black clouds coming in now though hope that your course has gone well have you heard any thing from the big b yet you also soon will be posting your BFP and i cant wait to read them all

Becky how you feeling today

Aunty have you finished all your painting now

Well ladies i weighed this morning and yes i lost 2 lb so feel better for that

Hi to everyone else
lots of love Rachel x x