Awaiting Treatment

[CarolynB]

Thanks Rachel and Gill

Gill - great that you are back reunited with your lap top! It must have been so frustrating to read all the stuff and not be able to post. I am jigging as I type for you. Hope that AF comes very soon. Know that the tests are frustrating and expensive but hope that they will help provide some answers. Don't think that dh and I can have a holiday this year. Just a tmt holiday to Harley Street! Told people at my clinet that I was on holiday this week and they are all asking where I am off too! It is the most expensive holiday that dh and I have ever had!

Rachel - Thanks for being such a great support. Hope that AF is not too rough for you and that she will soon be on her way. Are you weighing in today? Hope that it is a good week and that you have managed to drop even more lbs.

Jen1d - where are you? We are worried about you. Hugs. Have mailed you but concerned that is not working or are you just ignoring me & hoping that I wil go away!!!??

Jackie - Thinking of you every day and hoping that it is getting a little easier each day for you

Shantala - hope that you are doing ok with the down regging and it is not making you feel too headachy. Let us know how you are doing. Did you tell your Mum how fab we thought her post was?

Aunty - how is your house coming along? You must be busy as you have been rather quiet of late

Becky - hoping that Wales is coping now that you have arrived! Ha Ha Hope that you are having a great time

Hugs to everyone else.

Well had bloods first thing and trying to pass time until they call me. First time that I have started to stress and keep looking at my phone. Expecting call in next hour or so to see what I do next. Pretty sure that they will want me back for another blood test and may be another scan. At least my acu place is like 5 minutes around the corner from the clinic. Having acu at 2.40pm.

Will keep you posted as the saga unfolds.

Love to you all.
Carolyn
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[lara312]

Carolyn hope things have setteled down today but at least you will be relaxing when your having your acu no i not weighing today i'm doing it on a sat now has i was forgetting in the week .I hope your taking it easy and not rushing round like a mad woman (like you have been) i know you said you were having the week off work so hope your relaxing a bit.
lots of love Rachel x x

[beachbaby]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry i've been MIA, I am trying to keep up with all the posts. I am trying to sort out my parents flat for them at the mo as they live in spain and the tenants have just left. got to get it decorated and then re let, my sister is supposed to be helping, but she's more of a hindrance to be honest, and she's off work on long term sick at the moment. DH is going crazy about it all, good job i'm not in treatment.

shantala, i read your mums post at work and was nearly blubbing, what a sweetheart she is.

Carolyn, hang in there it's nearly time. Youv'e done great so far.

Jen, stay with us all, i know its hard but we all know the pain you are going through.

Rachael, so glad you have got your week off with DH, and you finally got your new car, Are you impressed with it?

Becky, i know i missed you but hope your having a great time on your hols.

To everyone else i'm sorry i missed you but my thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Will try to post more later.
Jayne

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Just feel confused and worried. Scared to use a 'you know what' from Big B now its coming close but know its my only option. I'm definately grieving for my own eggs and maybe dh is right, we have probably taking this route to fast without counselling. After my last bfn i just wanted something to focus on and as i'm not getting any younger, i wanted to crack on and get things moving. I suppose i'm just scared that if we manage to have a child, its the 'how much of me is there', that will be the hard bit to deal with. I'm not bothered about the bonding bit, as i've said before, i have looked after lots of kids and could easily have taken a few home for keeps. Just have to look at my ex-key child to see that.

I called about counselling yesterday and we can get an appointment on the 10th Aug thats no bl**dy good, it will be over by then. They are putting me on the cancellation list---told her that was done 6 weeks ago and still nobody has called. I explained our situation and they recommended i call Thursday morning and talk to the caounsellor personally, she might squeeze us in---doubt that. Shouldnt be surprised really, the NHS wont fork out any money for ivf and they desperately need more counsellors but they dont care.

Anyway, just wanted to say thanks for being there and sorry its all about me today but i AM thinking of you all.

Carolyn - I have sent you 2 emails but they are on 'delay' dont know why, its so frustrating. Your the best for keeping my pecker up, thanks babe. Glad everything is going ok with you, hang in there, it will all be worth it. When you back to work, can email you there?

Gill - Thanks for your email hun, your so kind to think of me. Hope your ok, hows the planning going for your next step?

Speak soon

Love Jen x

[gill12]

Hi Girls

Well af has arrived!!!!
Came this afternoon on time for a change. I am going to email Barcelona tonight to let them know that I will be starting the patches tomorrow and they will give me a date as to when I will be going back for the doppler and hysteroscopy. I think it will be the 2nd of August but I will put it on my ticker as soon as i know for definate.

Rachel- Hope your af is not being too much of a b**ch, I knew mine was on her way Ive been having pains and feeling tired for the last 3 days but I was glad to see her this time. I cant believe how well you have done with your weight I just seem to keep piling on the pounds.

Carolyn- Hope things went well for you today and that you are feeling a bit better, hope the acu did the trick. It wont be long now till you get that BFP!! Your jigging worked she came on time for a change. I know what you mean I never thought an easy jet trip to Barcelona would cost sooooo much!!!

Jen- I hope you are ok, I am worried about you too. Please come back soon ((Big hugs)).

Becky- Hope you are having a fab time here in lovely Wales!!

Jayne- Sounds like you are very busy at the moment, dont work too hard.

Sorry to everyone I have missed, hope you are all well.
Take care
Lots of love
Gill xxx

[gill12]

Jen sorry just seen your post, you must have sent it as I was writing. Glad to hear from you, so sorry about the counselling its just so unfair. Take care of yourself we are all here for you.

[lara312]

Morning ladies

Carolyn hpe everything went well yesterday and are back on schedule cant wait for you to get your BFP any way hope your taking it easy hope you had a good accu session yesterday

Jayne hope your sis pulls her wait in order to get your parents flat readywhere in spain does your parents live my inlaws live outside alicante but were not going out this yr could do with a bit of sun dont let your sis take advantage let her do some of the work .

Gill gald af has arrived hope she wont be to and on time thats good now full steam ahead for you.

Jen it must had to have been a hard descion for you to come to i hope you can get a cancellation pretty sharp for counselling but we will listen to you if you want to talk about it thats what we are all here for jen when you get preg the baby is going to be yours its going to be growing in you and feeding from you so that has to start the bonding and from what you have said about your key child i think you will make an excellent mam {{{big hugs for you}}}

Well no work for me today got up and ws sick has a pig then the migraine started so have spent all morning in bed its now easing off so thats good but going back to bed for now catch you all later
lots of love Rachel x x

[CarolynB]

Jayne - hope that your sister steps up to the plate to help you sort out the flat. Why is it everything falls on us when we have lots to deal with already!??

Jen1d - I hope that you are feeling a little more optimistic today. Hope that they can sort out an appointment for you. Sounds like talking would do you go. I am with Rachel. It is going to be your baby. But you need to come to terms with that rather than hearing it from all of us! Big hugs hun

Gill - so glad that AF is here and now you can really get started. Congratulations on being on your way. Hope that you are ok with the patches and they don't have any strange side effects. Becky can update the list when she is back from hols. What tests are they going to run? (Sorry if you said already)

Rachel - sorry that you are feeling sick and have a migraine. At least it got you a day off work Hope that you have managed to get some sleep and now feel better. Will you go to work tomorrow?

Becky - come back from your hols. We miss you

Shantala - hope that down regging is going ok and the evil headaches have not kicked in for you.

Aunty P - we miss you too. Look forward to reading news about your new house soon

Hugs to everyone else.

Well days all merging together for me. Progesterone dropped on yesterday afternoon's reading so they were less concerned about me ovulating naturally. I am on cetrotide injection in the mornings as well as the nasal spray to stop that happening. Scan today showed that the follies are a good size. Biggest 19mm. I would say about 8 per side. Which I am thrilled about. But now they are concerned that my oestrogen has rocketed. 26,000. They are worried it is so high that if they do retrieval then I might get OHSS. OMG - this is such a balancing act. I just want to do the trigger shot & get to EC. I am so knackered. 13 days of getting up to go to the clinic at 7am ish. Now 5 days of two blood tests and a scan every single day. I am happy with the monitoring but it is taking it's toll. Blood place is really struggling to find places to take blood as my arms are black and blue. Tummy looks like a war zone too.

Thankfully not working this week. Not sure it would be possible to hold down a job and go to the clinic at least twice every day.

All they have suggested is that I try to up my water from 3 litres a day to 4/5 litres. I'll never leave the loo now!!!!

Awaiting the call to see whether trigger is this evening or whether I have the joy of double bloods and a scan again tomorrow and have to coast for another day.

Please please please let them be able to get a good number of follies from me after all this effort!!!!

I will keep you posted.
Lots of Love
Carolyn
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[gill12]

Hi Girls

Carolyn-Your follies sound great!! Im so excited for you. I can imagine that you are knackered it sounds like you have been in the wars, but just think its not long now, hang in there hunny Its a good job you are not working you need to look after yourself.I hope you got the call for the trigger tonight.
I will be having a doppler scan and a hysteroscopy when we go back on the 26th, so I cant say Im looking forward to this next trip

Jen- It took me a while to get my head round the whole ed thing but if its the only way then so be it, we have been approved for adoption now for the past 2 years for two children up to 3 years of age but we havent had any success there yet either up till now, thats why we decided to try the ivf again.I am desperate for this to work because, I want to be pregnant, to feel what its like, to feel that I am normal and most of all to give birth to my baby, and it would be, my egg or not. The whole thing is just so unfair , but I think we will make the most of which ever one works for us.

Rachel- I hope the migraine has gone and you are feeling better tonight , I dont suppose af helps much on top of a migraine!

Hope everybody else is ok, where are you Its so quiet here at the moment.

Well as you can see from my ticker we have an appointment in Barcelona on the 26th for the doppler and hysteroscopy, I started the patches today, so far so good. We have booked flights and hotel so we are all set, cant say Im looking forward to this next trip but if it gets us a bfp then bring it on!!

Take care everone
Lots of love
Gill xxx

[Angie65]

Hello Ladies, I just wanted to drop in say hello and also wish Carolyn the very best of luck with this cycle. It's sounds like it's been so tiring but you are almost there. Hang in there matey.

And hi to everyone else, Shantala, Rachel, Becky, Aunty and Jen and the ladies I don't know.

Here's to us old timers eh? I want to see BFPs for all of us (the IVF more than once/twice/three/four times girls.

Take care girls.

[CarolynB]

Angie - Thank you for popping in to see how us 'old' timers are doing. I posted on your herbs thread and have been watching the replies. You should come and hang out here with us.

Gill - thanks for cheering me on. I had a hysteroscopy this time. I was sedated and knew nothing about it. A bit of spotting afterwards and a bit of AF cramp but not too bad at all. It cleans us up and also means that they will know exactly where to pop them back in when the time comes as they take all sorts of measurements. I am with you. You carry the little one. You nurture it. You deliver it. = YOUR BABY. I am now in the camp of whatever it takes......Sounds like you are really organised for your trip - bring it on.

Becky - really quite without you around! Hope weather in Wales is better than here - was hoping to sit in the garden but like Autumn rather than summer

Rachel - hope that you are feeling better today. Have you gone to work or are you still off?

Jen1d - we will not allow you to run away and leave us. Come back. That is an order!!!!

Hugs to everyone else. Well they let me trigger. Did not get call til 6.30pm. Was out to meet a mate here from the US (special treat as have not been out for weeks) when I took the call. Was cheering. How mad is that! Just could not face the thought of another day of two bloods and scan and trips back and forth to the clinic. So shot up in the loo at the restaurant at 9.15pm. We need to be at clinic for 7am tomorrow. No shots today. Yippeee!!!! Plus a lie in. Woke at 6.30am obviously but could turn over and doze rather than reaching for the nasal spray.

Please let me get a good crop of eggs tomorrow. Off to update my ticker.

Love to you all.
Carolyn
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[beachbaby]

Hi ladies,

Carolyn, congratulations, no morre being a pin cushion! hope you had a well deserved lie in and feel refreshed. good luck tomorrow, is DH going with you?

Jend, glad your feeling a little better, i can understand you feel you've jumped into yhis as we all feel helpless when we have to wait for what is so easy for most people. Hope you get to speak to the councillor even if its just by phone i am sure it will make you feel much better. I am sure the nerves are very normal as the time gets close. I admire you for what you are doing as if we do not succeed with our own its the end of the road for us, as DH will not entertain doner of any sort. And we will not adopt, maybe thats selfish on our parts, but thats our comfort zone.

Rachael, hope your feeling better, don't return to work too soon! I am doing well on the diet lost 6lb's in 10 days. will have a little cheat at the weekend as all in laws coming sunday for bbq/lunch (depending on weather)for FIL's birthday. hope your enjoying your new car. My parents are in Benidorm, DH and i went out for 5 days in December, not really our cup of tea but did like the surrounding area. my neice is out there at the mo for 4 weeeks.

Gill, your on your way, glad youv'e managed to get everything booked and ready to go. you must be getting excited.

Well i'm having a very lazy day off, keeps raining so the gardening i had planned has been cancelled. Sis has gone to stay with friends until Tuesday, but promised me the jobs she is in charge of will be sorted this week!!! I am at the accupuncturist at 2.30 for my first consult, DH follows me at 3.30 for his back, then we will go for a nice long walk on the beach. come rain or shine.

better go do some housework.
take care ladies
jayne

[lara312]

Carolyn oh yipeeeeee i cant wait till tomorrow i bet your going to have loads of eggies (lil pep talk to eggies now listen up you have to all come out nice and easy and then have some fun with daddy tadpoles ) i bet your so egcitced no more injections and you got to have a lie in hope you had a good time with your mate you always get to shoot up in the most unusual of places you will soon be posting your BFP .

Jayne you done well 6lb in 10 days hope you have a good weekend and enjoy we are allowed a treat now and again .Hope your accu goes well enjoy your walk on the beach

Gill well done on getting everything booked and ready to go .

Angie nice of you to pop in and i agree we need loads of BFP's

Jen how are you feeling today

Aunty where are you

Shantala hows the down regging going

Becky hope your enjoying your holiday you must have brought some sun with you

Well back to work today for me i feel marvellous today bloody migraines any way better do some house work
lots of love Rachel x x

[gill12]

Hi Everyone

Carolyn- I am so pleased for you , I am sure you will get lots of lovely eggs!!!! I bet it was bliss today not having to go to the clinic, I will be thinking of you tomorrow please post as soon as you feel up to it and let us know how you get on. Thanks for the information about the hysteroscopy, I am worrying about it but you have helped put my mind at ease a bit.Good luck for tomorrow x

Jayne- Hope the acc appointment went well. Did you have a nice walk on the beach?I hope you have had better weather than us it hasnt stopped raining here all day . Well done on the weight loss, you put me to shame !

Rachel- Im glad you are better Hope you are not doing too much housework

Becky- Hope you are having a fab time and that you are having better weather where you are .

Jen- where are you? are you ok? Have you heard off the IM yet?

JenB- Hope you are ok, not long now till you go to spain I hope you have managed to get in touch with them.

Aunty- Hows the house? Have you finished painting?

Hope everyone else is ok

lots of love
Gill xxx

[lara312]

Carolyn good luck today cant wait to see how many eggies you get hope it goes smoothley for you and they are gentle good luck
lots of love Rachel x x