2ww slowly going crazy!!!!!

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Post by gbnut »

Hi all thank you all for your good luck messages. Not sure they will help though as i was so convinced that i was postitive because off all the symptoms i have the same as last time and got a bfp. yesterday was official test day but the blood clinic we use is only open 6 days and i got a bfn . Was not sure to go and get blood drawn today but James said i better Spoke to the dr this am and told him my symptoms and he said well we will have to wait and see but not holding out much hope.

I will get the results back after 4. yesterday i was ok about things and James and i had an ok day looking at holidays and went for w walk but today i feel an emotional wreck. It is just that this is our last try and it just feels so hard now. Looks like i will be off for 12 weeks in novemeber now!!

Anyway thank you all so much and i will let you all know as soon as.

Susan x
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Post by AMck »

Hi Susan, have everything crossed for you. My hpt was neg on test day but bloods showed BFP. So hang in there, it ain't over yet.
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OK have result and it is inconclusive!!!! With a huge number of 12. he thinks that I am losing rather than growing . To go back for another blood test on Wednesday. This really is crap!!!!!!!

Susan x
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Post by daly »

Oh Susan, I'm so sorry. I had that exact number once on a clomid cycle. I remember how stressful it was to have "something" on hcg, but nothing conclusive. What is your REs recommendation? I'm pretty sure it is still possible to have a healthy pregnancy even with that low number. Any chance the machine was bungled? Don't lose hope. Sending you tons of prayers.
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Hi Susan

Have been trying to get here all day but 1st day back at work after 2 weeks away and I literally just finished work (1/4 to 9).

Could not finsh without checking on you.

I am so sorry that it was not a higher number for you. Will cross everything for you and hope that there is doubling by Wednesday.

This is so very very hard but may be you had late implantation.

Don't want to give you hope falsely but so hope that there is a miracle for you & James.

Sending you huge hugs. Thinking of you.

Lots of Love
Carolyn
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Post by jen babes »

Susan

just popped in to give you big hugs. 2ww is bad enough without you not getting a confirmation on your BFP. yes it is a low level but then again mine didn't show up on htp for 3 days after AF was due. Hope you get a confirmation soon, as carolyn said it could be late implatation.

sending yu much love
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Hello sweetie,

So sorry I wasn't there for your 2ww this time, but I did remember your test date. I had many thoughts for you today and came here when I had a second. What an awful situation! Ambiguity during IVF cycles is awful! I particularly emphasize with you, given that it's your last attempt. I'm still keeping everything crossed for you, and sending lots of comforting waves.

Many hugs and kissies,

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Hi Susan
It must be awful to be in this state of uncertainty. I have everything crossed for you.
Thinking of you
Tracey x
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Post by CarolynB »

Susan - so hope that your numbers are rising.

Sorry to say I don't have good news. D11. Been to loo and spotting has started - AGAIN. 4th time. It is like a really bad movie where I have seen the ending already - too many times. I did not even want to get out of bed today as knew this would happen.

My heart is broken.

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Carolyn
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Post by gbnut »

Carolyn i am so sorry hun but is it just spotting or full flow???? Hope it is just spotting. Thinking of you and keep resting.

Tracey how is the 2ww going???? What you been up too????

Thank you all for your messages it means a lot to us all. Today the symptoms have been really intensified so really think my body is playing tricks on me. this is so unfair. Hopefully tomorrow will be able to see which way the levels are going. my dr thinks they have been higher and are coming down.

Susan x
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Post by Jovigal »

Susan, praying for you...
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Post by cwrj00 »

Carolyn
You have been so supporting to all of us on this board. You always tell us never to give up hope - I am hoping and praying that you are just one of the many many women who spot during some or all of their pregnancy.

Susan
Good luck at your beta today. When are you going?

This 2ww is awful. I did an early HPT this morning. Negative. I am 11dp2dt . I know I shouldnt have done it but it has gently introduced me to the fact this may not be my time.

Thinking of both of you
Tracey x
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IVF #2 Gonal-F 225 May 22, ER 5 June: 5 eggs
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Post by CarolynB »

Susan - so hope that it is real and not tricks. I shall try to check later for your news from work or may be later from home

Tracey - Those things are evil and often wrong. Try to keep up the PMA if you can

Afraid for me it has now really developed into pretty full flow. Carbon copy of other 3 attempts. Dh and I had a good talk last night and we will probably go the donor egg route next. Hard but better to focus on the future than what might of been.

Lots of Love to you both.
Carolyn
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Post by AMck »

Hi Ladies, popping in to send PMA to all.....

Susan, what a difficult time. Thinking of you. Any news on your beta level? Hang in there. I have everything crossed. Hugs x

Carolyn, so sorry to see the news. If you need to talk about ED please do contact me, happy to help in any way I can. x

Prayers and hugs to all on 2ww

Anna x
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Post by CarolynB »

Hi Susan

Wondering if you have any news.

Thinking of you.

Lots of Love
Carolyn

PS _ Anna - thank you - may well take you up on your offer and PM you
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