Awaiting Treatment

[nimble]

Carolyn, I am truely sorry that it hasn't work for you and can only imagine the heartache you are going through at the moment. It's good to have a plan, thats how I deal with things. I'm glad the clinic aren't that heartless that they are allowing you to move yr test date a day earlier and then you can have the weekend to take some time out without worrying about taking the drugs.

Shantala - really pleased that the visit went well with St George's - I can't believe we canx our appt with them !! If the next IVF doesn't work, it is def the route we are going to take. Really pleased that you appt went well this week and you are officially d/regged! Not long to go hun

Becky, what unearth.....you poor thing - how does a cold manage to affect yr shoulder?! Well I hope that you are being well looked after and not in too much pain.

Gill - good luck tomorrow and hope it all goes well for you in Barcelona.

Jen - its only natural to feel the way you are feeling and really hope that you get your counselling sessions soon. Bummer about the jury service - someone at work was on jury service at the old bailey but because the trial was to go on for apprx 8-10 wks she pulled out for work reasons....me I would have been there all the way!!

Aunty hows things with the house - it is sounding absolutely fabulous!

JB - really sorry to hear about your bbq break down - you must have been bottling it all up and perhaps seeing yr friend just brought it all to the top without you realising it. It sounds like yr DH is a rock and so supportive. Sometimes, I find, I feel so much better once it is all out.

as for me, not much happening, nearly 4 wks now so I guess AF should show her ugly head soon. It must be something in the air at the mo, as I feel I have been the ***** from hell to dh, he can't anything right at the mo, i have no motivation whatsoever to do anything and I can't find a bloody bikini for my holiday that I look half decent in I tried on a tankini and it looked horrendous. I'm pissed off with my parents as they have decided that my brother ought to know my situation, WHY !! My dad said, that my brother had commented last time he was down about me being pg and felt that he should know that the situation had changed.....why the F*&£ did they confirm that in the first place - I specifically said that we weren't telling people until we knew we were out of the woods (which obviously we didn't get off). Then, to make matters worse, it's my mums birthday this weekend, and we were planning to go away for the weekend just to take some time out, however my dad said it would be nice if we were around for my mums birthday so we postponed - then I rang to find out whats going on and my mum said, she didn't want to do anything - how annoying is that!!

Sorry that is my whinging session over - I know in the scheme of things it is all petty but I feel it all starting to build up.

phew....sorry

love J xx

[Jen1d]

Hi

Jackie - You seem to be in the same place as me at the moment----down in the dumps
I say youdont have to do anything you dont want to do, stuff your brother and your Mum, dont they knw what you are going through------family who needs them eh
You and dh need time alone, go and rebook your hol and have a nice weekend, tell your mum the decision has been made

Becky - Sorry to hear you have had such a rough time with your shoulder, hope you feel better soon.
Thanks for keeping our lovely list up to date, the pictures always cheer me up.

Love Jen x

[CarolynB]

Hi All

Just to let you all know. Got blood test out the way this morning. Just had call from clinic. She sounded more upset than me. I told her that I already knew. At least I can now stop the drugs and injections. At work so just trying to act normal.

Popped into clinic after bloods taken this morning and have already arranged follow up which is next Friday afternoon. Only a week to wait which is amazing and at least then dh and I can go home for the weekend afterwards and digest. Seeing gp on Monday evening to see if we can get tests done for Barcelona so at least by the end of next week we might have a plan.

Will catch up properly with you all at the weekend.

Gill - really hope that all went well in Barcelona for you & dh.

At least it is the weekend.

Much love
Carolyn
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[JackieG]

Carolyn,

So glad that you will have a plan soon.

That is great that you can have the follow up as soon as next friday!!

Take some time away with DH and enjoy eachother. That what you need right now is eachother!!

Take care,
JackieXX

[CarolynB]

Warning _ long post coming on ladies as I try to catch up properly with you all!

Gill - so hope that everything went well for you in Big B. Cannot wait to read your news and all about the clinic. Hope that it is all +ve

Shantala - cannot believe that you are already onto stimmies. That is when it gets exciting. Grow follies grow. What stimmies do they have you on this time? Are you on puregon pen or mixing? Have read quite a lot about natural ivf and St George's. A friend tried it - in France, not the UK. Think that it is good if you are younger (as you are) but less good if you are older (like me) as you need to be prepared to try quite a few times as you just produce the 1 egg each time. By my age lots of the eggs are duff. Think that having tmt without all the weird drugs must be better for the body. You will not need it though wil you!!!

Becky - thanks for changing the board. You can move me from 2ww when you have the time. How can a cold effect your shoulder. That is so weird and sounds really bad. So hope that you are felling better now

Aunty - you must be in your new home now. Hope that it is fab and that you have internet soon. We miss you

Pequele - I never ovulate to D18/D19 so can be a long wait. Hope that you do not have to wait that long and that the strong line appears very soon for you. Totally agree that it is intrusive that we get asked all these questions when a 16 year old druggie can get up the duff and not be asked a single question. ARGGGHHHH

Rachel - so hope that you had a great holiday and that you were not effected by all the floods. Hope that the funeral was as ok as these things can be. Miss you

JS - Any news on your next scan and blood levels. Thinking of you and hoping that everything is going well for you

Jen1d- It is great that you have councelling this Monday. Hope that she is able to help you to start working through all the issues. Hope that she is not too breathless!!!! It is awesome that you now have an idea of when ET might be. Can you give me an idea of how long from your initial contact with Big B to 1st appointment and to now tmt. Just want to know when we might get to that position if we start collecting the test info now. I would love to do Jury Service too. Never been asked! Wonder why! But think about it hun. Jury service versus ET. No competition! Have a nice weekend with S.

Jackie/Nimble - families. I know they try to understand but bottom line they don't. As Jen1d said, we have to be selfish and do what we want to do. Tell your brother what you like. We have not told my sisters. We have told friends but I don't want my sisters flapping around me. My parents feel it is difficult that they know and my sisters don't know. I am like - just deal with it! We have enough to deal with at this time. Really. You must be off on hols soon. Focus on that. It is going to be awesome I am sure.

JB - Know exactly what you mean. It hits us when we least expect it. Think that it is the strain of keeping it all inside when you were with your friend or when I have been at work this week. You try so hard to be 'normal' when your head is in melt down that something small can then tip you over the edge. Adam sounds a real rock for you. I just burst into tears last night at the supermarket because dh told me that I took too many yoghurts as they were on special offer. Everyone was looking at me. In the end, we were both just laughing and crying at the same time. I walked away thinking how funny it was. People must have thought that we were mental. Makes you realise that you have no idea what is going on in peoples lives behind the facade that we all put up. Anyhow enough twaddle, so hope that you have good time in the motorhome this weekend and then a fab trip to Big B. I shall be asking lots of questions when you get back hun

Jayne - what are you up to this weekend?

Hugs to everyone else. Hope that you are having a nice weekend. Jackie - thank you for your kind words of support hun

I am fine 90% of the time and then for 10% I feel that my world has fallen about and lie on the floor like a whaling banshiee. Feel like I have put on loads of weight, all my clothes are tight and cannot be bothered to go on a diet so stuffing my face and making matters worse. My AF is truely awful. Cannot recall it being like this after previous attempts - may be it is now that I have come off the 'new' drugs that they had me on. TMI coming up - needed 4 knicker changes yesterday and glad that I was in black trousers (in dry cleaning already) otherwise I would have had to go home from work. Now I think about it, it went mental as soon as I stopped the drugs yesterday morning so guess that they were doing something for me - just not enough.

Anyway, gp appointment on Monday to see if they will do the necessary tests for Barcelona. Jen1d, Gill & JB - did your gp get all the tests sorted for you? Follow up on Friday. Unless they can tell us something very different that they would do for us on try #5 then pretty sure that it will be Barcelona for us. Feel that we will be old parents already and don't want to be really old so just need to give it our best shot asap!!!!

Having a massage this afternoon as a treat. Dh not going to play golf (wow - miracles do happen) tomorrow & he is going to take me shopping and for lunch. Might get a (large) dress as we are going horse racing - Glorious Goodwood on Wednesday with friends.

Enjoy the weekend. Thanks for helping me through the hardest weeks of my life. You are amazing.

Lots of Love
Carolyn
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[beachbaby]

Hi ladies,

becky, hope your shoulders getting easier, how bizarre, take it easy and rest up. get those girls of yours to do all the jobs and let it be you getting spoilt for a change.

carolyn, your having a bad time of it with your AF, mine is always heavier/ more painful after treatment, hope its better for you soon. enjoy the maasage. I am at work today, but very quiet in the shop so catching up with you all.Hope you get some good news next week, you are so strong. take care.

shantala, how you doing, if you want freaky!! in 2001 i lived in laverstoke in hampshire, near Overton about 30 minutes from reading, used to go shopping there regularly. DH and i were a bit nomadic, up until 5 years ago when we came back to start our business (and a family) we have lived all over the Uk, and also worked in the US. we freak out occassionally being in the same place for so long.

jackie, ooh families they drive you nuts, I eventually told my mum a year ago due to nagging about going to the drs to see if anything is wrong (made the mistake of telling everyone we were trying ), I cracked up it was only about a week after my BFN, so a bit emotional, told her not to tell anyone,she told my sister the very next day!!! DH went nuts him and sis do not get on. i wish i had never mentioned it, as i feel more people know. hindsight is a great thing but she got me at a bad time. Hope you maneged to still get away this weekend, if not hope you are having a fun time with DH.

racheal, hope you have had a great time, and the funeral went ok.

pequele, those damn sticks, i used to use a whole box a month trying to get the days right, good luck to you, not long now and you'll be on your way.

Jen1, good luck on Monday with the councelling hope it goes well for you.

Gill, How you feeling, hope your not too sore and allwent well in BB.

Well as for me, DH's uncle died early hours of Tuesday, so funeral for us on Monday, its also my BIL birthday (poor soul)having to go to a funeral on your birthday, not nice. Also DH having accupuncture for his bad back, and since he went on Tuesday he's been crippled in pain, so going home tonight to cut the grass for him as he cannot walk straight, and its my fertile time, so he has to play along, he says i'm trying to kill him!! haha. Go for my 2nd accu on Wednesday, and now less than 2 weeks till my results.
sorry to all i've missed, i am thinking of you all.
anyway i'd better go do some more work. take care ladies.
jayne

[nicolamark]

Hi everyone!!!

Just posting to say that Jenibabe has left off and is sorry she didnt get chance to post before she left shes touring in her moto this w/e and then they are off to spain....her flight is thursday and appt at IM on friday....she will post as soon as she gets back, but wanted to wish gill good luck and becky happy stimms....she said send my love to every1......

[gill12]

Hi Girls

Shantala- Great to hear that you are officialy downregged! I hope the injections are going ok, not long now till your scan. Sounds like your clinic is looking after you very well. Thanks for thinking of me too.

Jen- I emailed the clinic today with a list of questions as long as my arm, I would imagine it will take them a good few days to get back to me! It would have been so much easier to have seen the Dr while we were there, but I should know by now that nothing is easy on this rollercoaster ride.
Good luck on Monday with the counselling I really do hope it helps.

Pequele- To answer your question, I am going for treatment in Spain because I need an egg donor. I have been on the waiting list in this country for over two years since our last tmt failed and am still nowhere near getting a donor .We decided on Spain for the reason Jen said, there are no waiting lists.Hope that has helped.

Becky- Sorry to hear about your shoulder , I hope it is getting better. Thanks for thinking of me, the appointment went ok everything looked fine which is the main thing, just waiting on the biopsy results now.

Aunty- Hope you have moved in and are enjoying your lovely new home.

Carolyn- Hope af is easing up a bit now for you , it must have been all those blood thining drugs you were on to make it so bad. I hope you get some sense from your gp, we had all our tests done through our gp for free, we were very lucky! I hope that you are the same. Im glad your follow up isnt too long to wait. Thanks for thinking of me, the appointment went ok but the hysteroscopy I found to be bloody painful!! I was so relieved when it was all over.

Jackie- Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time at the moment , you have been through such a lot, you need time for yourself, you shouldn't have to be worrying about family etc. Thanks for the good luck wishes.

Rachel- Hope you had a great time on holiday and that the weather was not too bad for you . Hope the funeral went ok too.

JenB- So sorry to have missed you before you went away, but I hope you get a chance to go on the internet somewhere to let us know how you get on. I hope you have a lovely few days holiday and I wish you all the luck for your appointment at the IM for the 3rd , I will be thinking of you.

Jayne- Sorry to hear about your dh uncle and I hope his back is better soon . I am feeling better today after the appointment,the hysteroscopy was painful and I think the traveling on top had just exhausted me, but feeling more myself tonight.

Nicolamark- Thanks for letting us know about Jenb Im just sorry I missed her before she went off.

Sorry that I haven't posted sooner,but I have been feeling emotional and exhausted since the hysteroscopy, by tonight I am much more myself.
The doppler went well everything looked fine with the blood flow, I was then given some tablets to take before the hyseroscopy and was taken accross to the main hospital for it, I found it very painful and extremely uncomfortable and was relieved when it was all over, but at least the doctor said everything looked ok. We have to wait for the biopsy results which will take 10-14 days.
The doc said I was to stop the patches and pessaries on Sunday, I will then have af within 2-4 days and on day 1 I'll need to start taking the pill until they phone me and let me know when to start the patches/pessaries again, we are looking at et in about 6 weeks if everything goes to plan.I think that between the traveling and the painfull hysteroscopy it all got a bit much, but who said this was going to be easy!

Sorry to those I have missed, hope you are all ok.
Take care
lots of love
Gill xxx

[lara312]

Just a quickie from me
Carolyn i'm so sorry i really had hoped this was your time life can be so cruel my heart is breaking for you {{hugs }} for you and lots of them from me its good that you are planning for the next 1 if anyone deserved this you did .

Well had a good holiday ate to much but what the hell no fureral yet tuesday but wont be going has i had hells delight to get hols so will cant see them giving me the time of dont feel like going anyway have come home from hol and have a lump on my left side in between my breast bone and navel if not gone tomorrow will phone the drs has it is a bit sore sorry to whinge has soon has i get back have missed you all and will catch up in the morning hugs to everyone
lots of love Rachel x x

[js200632]

carolyn: hello dear... i have been reading the posts everyday but i didnt have the courage to write anything ..i just want to say that its sad...terrible....but as long as theres light at the end of the tunnel...its all worth it....lots of hugs

to everyone else..i didnt reply to ur messages....coz i was so worried abt the slow FHR last time i have been thinking abt it all the time untill today i started having spotting...brownish discharge...DH took me to the ER...they did a sono and guess what.....they saw three hearts...125,145 and 175 FHR...so i guess that makes it tripple trouble...lol...i m on bed rest now...still have some pain down there but hoping for it to stop...i need a ot of prayers and guidance now from all of you...and trust me...i m gonna through one hell of a sticky baby dust towards all of you..thank you for being there...love you all....i have another sono in three days...lets see what happens

[CarolynB]

Rachel - Good to have you back. Thanks for your words of kindness. I wish it for all of us. Sorry that you have not been to the funeral and that you think that work will not let you go. May be it is best that you cannot make given all that you have going on right now. So sorry to hear about the lump. Sure that you are concered. Best thing that you can do is get to the gp asap and get it checked out. Hopefully he will be able to put your mind at rest. Fingers crossed that all is well. You take good care babe

JS - Sometimes it is hard to know what to write. Sorry that you had to face the worry of the dischrage but THREE heartbeats. That is totally amazing. So hope that everything is well at the scan this week. You must be so excited and over whelmed. Congratulations. Congratulations and Congratulations again

Gill - really good to have you back with us. I am sorry that the hysteroscopy was painful for you & you could not see the dr. I was reading lots about IM yesterday and read that they give you painkillers but that you would be awake during the procedure. I was knocked out under sedation. Sorry if I lead you to believe it would be ok and it was not. The main thing is that it is over with. I thought of each step as another tick in a box/checklist. Sure that they wil come back to you if you set the questions out in an e-mail. Was the clinic nice, clean, were the staff friendly? It is great that you are now firmly on your way and you have a plan of attack. Sure that you will be able to focus on that over the next few days and it will start to lift your spirits

Jayne - so very sorry to hear about dh's uncle and on your BIL's birthday. Made me laugh about your dh's back and it being the right time. So much for when they say it is us woman who make the excuses Are you waiting on results from acu or other tests? Sorry if you mentioned and I missed it but just curious what tests you are waiting on the results of.

Jen1d - so hope that the counselling tomorrow is helpful for you.

Shantala - hope that your follies are doing nicely. What does are you on this time?

Hope that everyone else is enjoying the weekend.

Did a lot of research yesterday about ED and places overseas. Just want to be sure that we are picking the right place for us to go. Compiled a long list of all the tmt that we have had so far. WOW. Made me realise what I have put my body through in the last 20 months. Sent all this info off to Barcelona. See gp tomorrow. Not my usual lady as she is off for a month so hope that I get a good 'egg' and they will help us with the tests.

Off out now with dh. Need to go get showered and ready as still in my PJs. Some shopping and lunch together in the centre of London. He is missing a golf competition for this so must think that I am in bad shape and in need of some serious cheering up!!! Hoping to get a new dress to wear to Goodwood racing on Wednesday. At least I only have to work 4 days this week. Plus can leave early tomorrow for gp and Friday for follow up

No hols since Xmas so the prospect of a few days in Barcelona suddenly seems like a good option

Love to you all.
Carolyn
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[lara312]

Afternoon ladies
Becky hope your shoulder is getting better and your feeling more like you the list looks fab

Aunty hows that house of your now hope you are all ship shape

Shantala how is stimms going hope your growing loads of follies grow follies grow

Jackie familys really get on your nerves sometimes dont they you desreved to go away after what you have been through hope you find your bikini soon how long till you go

Jen hope the counselling session went well it will be good for you to talk and get it all off your chest it wont be long till your babies will be home with you

Carolyn how you doing today hope you got something nice to wear to the races and had a nice lunch hope your gp appt goes well and he will do some tests for you to save you some moneys have a good day on wednesday hope you win some money

Gill glad it all looks good sorry that the hyseroscopy was uncomfortable but it out of the way now and it will soon be full steam ahead for you

Jen b hope you have a nice couple of days away before flying of to the big b hope all goes well there good luck

Js 3 heartbeats you must be over the moon congratulations

Jayne sorry to hear about dh uncle hope the funeral goes ok has it can do hope dh's pain in his back is easing for him 2 weeks till your results thats good you have been waiting a long time i bet it cant come soon enough for you

Hi to everyone i missed
Well i just been to the gp to see about my lump(or has ive been calling it my alien ) and he said it nothing there to worry about but if it swells up again or the pain returns to go back so at least my mind can be put at ease now and i have put 4lbs back on since holiday so need to get back to it
lots of love Rachel x x

[Welshgirl38]

JS200632...
July 3rd - Beta 780...
July 9th - Beta 6915...
July 20th - Scan - Saw 1 perfect heartbeat...
Latest Scan – Saw 3 perfect Heartbeats!! Heartrates - 125, 145 and 175 Fantastic news!!

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Lady's having treatment...



Jen1d... Started Tablets June 26 untill 6th Aug, wait for AF then start patches
Shantala... 26th July….Start Stimms…Scan 3rd Aug
Gill12... 26th July Flying to Barcelona for Doopler & Hysteroscopy

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Lady's in Waiting...



Nimble/Jackie...Appt…7th Aug …. Holiday to Mauritius…. Sept
JB(Jen)...27th July - 3rd Aug in Barcelona
Rachel/Lara312... On Holiday
Geckogirl... Nov/Jan - Donor egg
AuntyPebbles... Moved into new home … 25th July
Welshgirl38/Becky... Aug AF
ShazB...Sept?
Karia …Aug AF
Melissa112... June Start Clomid
BabyBlue (Kim)…Waiting for Donor…June?
Green... July
BeachBaby …Appt Aug 7th
Charlie78... August
Nannybear...August
Sassynlv...August
Pequele...I.U.I - Oct
6Yrs (mom20)…Jan 08
Angel505... ?
Curlydoo...10th May..AF Due?..do we dance or sing?
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In our thoughts and prayers

Nimble/Jackie... Very sadly lost her beautiful beanie thinking of you xx
CarolynB... Very sadly AF has arrived, BFN So very sorry – thinking of you xx

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[CarolynB]

Really quickie as supper is in the oven and dh waiting. So sorry no personals this evening.

Gp very helpful. Young lad. Think that he was scared to have such a hormonal lady sat in front of him. Done all the tests for me and dh at local hospital so that saves a little £.

We had an e-mail from Barcelona saying no 1st appointment until mid October. Sent back a pleading note. Said we would go any day of the week. So she came straight back and offered us 19th September. Seems better.

Altered ticker. Look forward rather than back.

Jen1d - thinking of you and hoping that the counselling helped hun.

Hugs to you all.
Love
Carolyn
xxxxx

[Welshgirl38]

JS200632...
July 3rd - Beta 780...
July 9th - Beta 6915...
July 20th - Scan - Saw 1 perfect heartbeat...
Latest Scan – Saw 3 perfect Heartbeats!! Heartrates - 125, 145 and 175 Fantastic news!!

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Lady's having Treatment...



Jen1d... Started Tablets June 26 untill 6th Aug, wait for AF then start patches
Shantala... 26th July….Start Stimms…Scan 3rd Aug
Gill12... 26th July Flying to Barcelona for Doopler & Hysteroscopy

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Lady's Awaiting Treatment...



JB(Jen)...Starting pill when AF arrives
Nimble/Jackie...Follow up Appt…7th Aug …. Holiday to Mauritius…. Sept
Welshgirl38/Becky... Aug AF
Karia …Aug AF
ShazB...Sept AF
BeachBaby …Appt Aug 7th
Charlie78... August AF
Sassynlv...August AF
CarolynB...19th Sept … Appt in Barcelona
Pequele...I.U.I - Oct
6Yrs (mom20)…Jan 08
Rachel/Lara312... On Holiday
AuntyPebbles... Moved into new home … 25th July
Angel505... ?

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Where are you ladies…....

Melissa112... June Start Clomid
Green... July
Nannybear...August
Curlydoo...10th May..AF Due?
Geckogirl... Nov/Jan - Donor egg
BabyBlue (Kim)…Waiting for Donor…June?

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In our thoughts and prayers

Nimble/Jackie... Very sadly lost her beautiful beanie thinking of you xx
CarolynB... Very sadly AF has arrived, BFN So very sorry

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