1st IVF in August - Any possible cycle buddies?

[ceiba]

Oh, RMSM, I'm so sorry. My heart is aching for you! And I also hope that you were in your DH's arms not too long after you posted. But julianna is right that the odds get better each time. When your doctors get back from vacation (and by the way, they have some nerve going away at the same time and leaving you alone at a time like this!!) they can review your whole cycle and make adjustments so that next time it will work. Don't lose faith!

jill and snowseven, congrats on getting through the ER. You'll be sore for a few days, but the news of your embies tomorrow will make it all worthwhile. Let us know how many you've got!

kbat, good luck tomorrow!!

And BTW, my pg test is Aug 30- only 10 more days!!

[meggs1012]

RMSM IM SO SORRY TO HEAR THE BAD NEWS-I WAS SO HOPING THAT YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO COME ON HERE AND BE SO EXCITED-BUT REALLY, IN DUE TIME I WILL HAPPEN-SUCKS-I KNOW-GOD KNOWS I DONT KNOW EXACTLY HOW I WOULD REACT SO VENT IF YOU NEED TO! THATS WHAT WE'RE ALL HERE FOR! HUGS TO YOU!!!!!!

~MEGGAN

[RMSM]

Thanks so much, Meggs. The reality of it all really sucks and you can't help but think of how unfair it is. I have a lot of good things in my life right now to get back to, so I'm focusing on all of that and just enjoyed my first cup of caffinated tea this morning in 6 weeks. I don't think anything will fill this void, nor do I know when enough will be enough, but I'm just gonna try to make another plan to do it again and not give up hope. I can't tell everyone on this message board one piece of advice and myself another. It's time to go shopping and spend sme money on something other than IVF drugs!
Good luck to you and lots of baby dust your way. I'll continue to write on the board and check in with everyone. Thanks for reaching out!

[ICSI GIRL]

chriss & snow: DO NOT BE DISCOURAGED BY LOW FOLLIE COUNT!!!!! i had only 4 follies.......doc said "no worries --- you have produced exactly enough to do the job we set out to do!!" and i too always felt there was a certain level of "safety in numbers" and once doc said that, it's like all was good in the world!! HE WAS RIGHT!! we are soooo lucky!!!

RMSM: so very sorry dear not many words that can help ya get thru this......so just know that we are ALL here for you ---- LEAN ON US! and when you're ready, you can share your next plan of attack! ((((((((((LOTS & LOTS OF HUGS TO YOU GIRL))))))))))

ceiba: just you wait!!!! the 2ww hasn't really "set in" yet for you -- ha, ha, ha -- and i mean that in the nicest, dearest possible way!!! i am currently 9dpt (testing on the 24) and on day 7 (this past sunday) -- i was an emotional WRECK!!!!! came out of nowhere -- i've not had any emotional swings (other than being excited thru the process) to speak of throughout....until sunday!! you'll be happy to know that today i'm feeling MUCH better......in big part thanks to all of YOU GUYS OUT HERE!!!!!! as i've said before --- you guys are incredibly theraputic for me anyway ---- SO MANY GOOD LUCK wishes and hugs your way....... keep us posted!

aliann: yep ----- TESTING ON THURSDAY ---- 24th........and you????? same day???????? are we testing buddies?????? i remembered we were close - but couldn't remember if SAME day or not???? but then again - you've already got your BFP!!!! regardless, make sure and confirm for all of us out here waitin'!!! (when you get the news)

to all i've missed ------- lots of baby dust and love to all!!!!!!!!!!! i can't get you guys out of my mind!!! i'm even DREAMING about you guys now! and we all talk to each other (in person) using all of our silly (well, mine is) screen names!! isn't that a hoot!!!

[kbat]

rmsm--
I am really sorry to hear that it didn't work this time around This whole process is sooo emotional. When my others didn't work, I wanted to know all the reasons why, etc, and in the end it doesn't seem like they really know why it doesn't work--which really didn't satisfy me at all. I like to have concrete answers, but I guess sometimes they just don't know why things don't work. I was usually a basket case for a while afterwards and contemplated as to whether I should proceed or not after each failed attempt. I know some of it is just sheer disappointment and you try to prepare yourself just in case there's disappointment, but for me I was just one big basket case whenever I got the bad news. By the time you go for your follow up, you might be in a better position to decide what to do next. By then the drugs that make the emotions worse have worn off, you've had some time to think about what to do next and you'll have a follow up w/ the doctor. and you might be able to think a little clearer what you want to do. (If you do decide to go on, they will probably try something a little different, so that you can get a better response. Sometimes, people need a little break from all this madness. I am sure whatever you decide, it'll be the right decision for you and your DH. We took some time off between our last IUI (october 2005) and our first ivf cycle (had the ivf consult around aug. 2006 and had first ivf in Jan. 2007--did some new testing & took care of the blocked tube issue between August & January). If you decide to go on, it has to be on your time when you are ready. LOTS OF HUGS TO YOU AND KNOW THAT WE ARE HERE FOR YOU!!!

I had my egg retreival today. Went down last night to stay in hotel and went out and had a really dinner--didn't sleep that well--Woke up during the night and really wanted a drink, but of course I couldn't have one. I was expecting about 3 eggs. The doctor came in before had and said that from the last ultrasound it looked like there would be about 2-3 eggs that were mature, but once she got in there, she would see if there were more. She did say that in the end it only does take one. I was expecting about 3 based on the u/s and my previouse history--usually 3 or 4. When I came out they said they managed to get 6. I know that some of you have gotten lots more than me, but from my point of view this has made me excited and hopeful because out of the 3 other tries ), the most I've ever gotten was 4 w/ 3 fertilizing the first 2 times and today's got the best results at least w/ the number. don't know what the quality is & I don't know how many will fertilize (hopefully at least one this time 3rd attempt none fertilized). Just think that the nurse called me one week ago today to say that she thought they were going to switch it IUI!! At this point, looks like I'll go back on Friday if all goes o.k.

[Aliann09]

Oh ladies, so much going on in such a small amount of time ard to keep up!

RMSM still thinking of you today, I hope you are finding some comfort.

ICSI, I don't get to test until the 25th they say 12 days pt but dont count the first day until the day after transfer!

KBAT, I am so excited for you that is great news about the additional eggs.

I will check in later lots of baby dust!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ICSI GIRL]

aliann: for what its worth......i did ask my nurse erin at last bw (last week) "so if somebody were to take hpt, when would soonest be for accurate results" --- of course she says "we do not recommend hpts" -- well of course you don't!!! but IF you did --- WHEN would be ok to test?? she told me "probably 9/10dpt"............SO --- all that being said, i don't remember when you last POAS -- but if it were 9/10 dpt -- i'm guessing it is what it is........BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Aliann09]

ICSI that is awesome news my DH and I were wondering about that and yesterday whenI tested would have been 9dpt or 8 the way the Dr. counts. I do have one test left from the box of 2 so I think I am going to test again on Thursday and see what it says? I am staying positive I am very regular with AF usually a perfect 28 day cycle if its off I am usually early. Yesterday would have been the day that AF should have visited and I still have not seen anything yet. I can't believe that anyone can make it the full 2w without testing I think you guys ROCK! I also had some sort of melt down on Sunday it was the weirest thing I was just super B&*#$y I didn't want to be around my DH or his kids, I started crying for no reason while I was driving down the road it was so bizarre! That's the day I tested

[townncity]

I think I'm gonna loose it my beta is tomorrow and I can't sleep at night. I have this bad feeling to expect the worst and already making plans in my mind on what to do next. How do you know what day of your cycle we are on ? I had my retrival on the 10th.


tia

[Jill_n_Mark]

Good evening ladies! I got the call today...we have 15 embryos

I am even more excited now that I know how many embryos we have. RE changed my transfer from 3-day to 5-day blast Saturday. That's even better, right? From what I've read on these boards and other sites..blasts have better chance of implanting, right?

Well, I am not feeling too well today. I probably shouldn't have gone back to work, but I did. I don't have too much time to use, so I am saving that for next week. My stomach is really sore and I guess that's from the retrieval. I am going to go rest some.

Wishing us the best---BFPs!!!
Talk to you all later.

[ceiba]

kbat, that's fabulous!! 6 eggs is great! Will they do ICSI as originally planned? You should get good fertilization with that. What a relief after all that worry and bother last week!

And jill, congrats on your 15 embryos! You should have plenty to freeze for the future- you can probably keep going on these for a year if the first try doesn't work!! And yes, I've heard that day-5 blasts are more likely to implant too. I had 2 transfered on Sat, and now I'm scared to death we're going to have twins. Although any BFP would be a blessing- I'll take whatever I can get.

Aliann and ICSIgirl, you're right that I don't think I've begun to experience the depths of the 2ww yet. So far I am just really enjoying feeling somewhat normal again after all those stims and the discomfort of the ER. Every so often I do have a little moment of wonder at the fact that I might be pregnant right now, or I have a moment of worry about whether picking up the laundry hamper just knocked the embies loose, and things like that. But I'm sure by next week I'll be just like you two, and bursting with emotions and anxiety! Can't wait to hear about your betas this week!

[ICSI GIRL]

aliann: YOU CRACK ME UP!! i know what you mean about AF being so timely -- mine too.........however - i figure all bets are off this time around w/ so damn many meds in my system!!!! i don't think i've seen ANY stories out here that have said "BFP when POAS.....then BFN beta" ----- YOU HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!!!! you better have names picked out --- you're gonna be a momma!!!

towncity: WELCOME!!!! good luck w/ your beta test today!!! hoping for a giant BFP!!! let us know.........

jill: WOW!!! sounds like dh's little swimmers having a grand ol' time w/ your eggies!!! if that's not a great sign -- i don't know what is!!

ceiba: think PMA my prediction is that long about 7dpt you'll be about ready for the loony!!! is soooooooooooo important, now more than ever to keep coming out here to post, read, just lurk --- whatever you need to do, but is so very theraputic and supportive!!! and believe me when i say that you WILL need it!!!

as you all may (or may not) know --- i'll be testing tomorrow.....seem to be emotionally "with it" right this moment, but we'll see what the rest of the day brings!!! i bought myself a good "smut" book (probably will only get me all worked up into a tizzy to the point of wanting to do the deed w/ dh -- which for the record --- i'm soooooo missing right now --- my RE doesn't "allow" it during 2ww!!!!!!!) in hopes it would take my mind off tomorrow's much anticipated BFP!!!!! i'll post as soon as i can.....but lab results not available til after 3pm (EST) at my clinic - so i may not find out til after i leave work......and we have plans for afternoon/evening --- so there's a chance i'll not be able to check back in here til friday morning

take care everybody.......hugs, love and babydust to all!!!!

[kbat]

I was happy w/ the 6 I got. I think they were going to do ICSI because that is what we were going to do before all the ups and downs from earlier in the week. Got a follow up call from the nurse just to see how I was doing & she reconfirmed that they would be calling me tomorrow about coming in Friday. At this point, I am not postive how many have fertilized, but I am confident that at least one has. #3 resulted in no fertilization, and I got the call around 10 am the next morning from the re to let me know. So, 24 hours have lapsed & no news is good news purely from the fertilization part.
Had my first prog. shot last night (in the past i usually took the suppositories--#3 I only used about 2 of them so had a whole bottle left that I won't be using). It really wasn't so bad. I think the needle looks worse than it ended up being. Of course, not seeing what my dh was doing was quite helpful. Must admit putting the heat on for 10 minutes then massaging it and then getting up to walk around and repeating this for 1 hour was different. But whatever it takes at this point.
ISCI girl. good luck w/ your testing tomorrow and in the meantime, enjoy all the smut you can get.

[Cocoa]

Hey Kbat... I am excited for your ET on Friday. I don't know what it was but I went through this whole cycle as calm as if nothing were happening. (the cramps did keep it real though) I just kept my appointment days/times on the calendar, showed up and answered the phone to get my next steps like it was just an ordinary day. Had to have been the peace of God. The only day I was nervous was today after 12 noon because I had my Beta today and they usually called me about 2 to 2:45 with all my bloods.

I just know you are getting close to a HHP!!! It only takes one...

Baby dust to you!

Cocoa

[kbat]

Hey Cocoa!!
It's about 3:45 and I hope they called you by now!!! It's maddening, isn't it? Hope you get good results!! Will be thinking of you!! Baby dust to you as well.
Kara