Oficially in the NUT HOUSE

[meleson]

Rotobay,

One other thing I forgot to tell you, no it was not first morning urine. Not at all. It was this afternoon and the line was a little faint, but definitely there.

Misty

[Rotobay]

Rotobay,

One other thing I forgot to tell you, no it was not first morning urine. Not at all. It was this afternoon and the line was a little faint, but definitely there.

Misty

M- Yes I was totally confused on your cycle....must have been mixing you up with someone else.

Anyway, the trigger is long gone from you system. And even tho you boostered on the 22nd, there is no way that's still hanging around, esp using a urine sample during the day.

I am betting that you have twins. Although frowned upon by many, the HPTs are in fact VERY reliable (I've done my research) so I strongly believe your positive is the real deal. Can't wait for your official beta numbers (so I can prove that I'm right ). I think congratulations are in order!!!

[piggypebs]

Any news?!! I'm waiting on hands and well...I'm just waiting.... Hope you have some great news to share.

Ronnie

[Rotobay]

Well Ladies,

Its official, my beta was 2

I thought I was prepared for the news due to all my negative HPTs, but I think somewhere in the back of mind I must have been clinging to a little hope because it really hit me hard.

I'm trying to follow Piggypebs example and have a positive attitude, but I'll move on to that after mourning this loss.

Thanks to all for all your support and wishes!!

I'm hoping and praying for those of you waiting for your betas!!

[piggypebs]

Rotobay,
You know what, my beta was a 1, but for some unknown reason I have this feeling in the bottom of my heart that our beta was done too early, (even though everybody else that has super pee that detected at an early postive on the stick!) I found out from my clinic that the majority was boarderline postive. Then I read somewhere that a couple of ladies on another board that was 16dpt 3dt and 15dp5dt that had a beta of 22 or less and they had a healthy baby 9 months later, and another one that was a 5 beta and she stop all her meds and two weeks later she found out she was 6 weeks pregnant!. I tested 11dp3dt, I spotted a whole 10 mintues yesterday. I know it's a long shot but I thinking about asking for another beta in the next couple of days just to have closure. Don't get me wrong I'm still looking forward to my adoption process, but this feeling about my beta is pretty strong..I know I"m cukoo

[Bean]

Rotobay I'm sorry for your
you woudn't belive I was thinking about you all day long,cheking if you post or not.May be Piggy is right that you can have another beta .Who knows?

This is so stressful and exhausting .Hope that you would feel better tomorow
Take care.

[meleson]

Dang it Rotobay, it's not fair I do hope Piggypebs is right though. I tried to look up some stuff on Beta numbers online but it just confused me. Was that your final beta test?

Misty

[Babyb]

I was so sorry to log on and hear of your beta Rotobay. Is the 2 from your trigger shot or is there any shot that you have a very very late implanter? I've been crossing my fingers for days now and am so saddened by this news. Will you try again? Is this a possibility?

Meleson: good luck with your test on Sat.

[meleson]

Thank you Babyb I'm trying to stay positive but it scarier as the day approaches! I'll be so glad to get this over with... the anticipation is killing me. I guess if it doesn't work, I still have 6 potential babies waiting for me. How are you feeling these days? Is your tummy bloated from the shots and retrieval?

Misty

[Tris]

Hi Rotobay! firstly thanks for all your advise on the HCG & SPOTTING and I noticed youve been such a wonderful support in this chat! Im so sorry to hear about the levels of your hcg but hey as what piggypebs said, youll never know...I also heard so many storied that the hcg level was so low and then suddenly it was up weeks later which surprised many women who delivered healthy babies!!! I dont know if youve read my story on the message board entitled IM PREGNANT TOO!! for me PRAYERS really work!!!! Before the lab test I started to bleed, did an HPT which had registered a negative....but DH and I just prayed and prayed and prayed...I literally begged God and am still praying I was sure it was a negative already then to my surprise, I got a BFP and on day 14 my hcg was up 640.

So dont loose hope! Can you do another cycle? If you can just go on and do it...this is a 100% fact in IVF that EVERY CYCLE IS DIFFERENT!!! Yes its like the lottery but IVF has more chances and as you do it, your doc can normally find ways to make it work since he would know how your body works by now...In spain a 55 year old just gave birth through IVF, in England last year a 60 year old gave birth to twins!...and more! the possibilities are endless so dont worry....theres HOPE! stay positive always always....

[Tris]

Piggypebs...have you thought of surrogacy?? I have a friend who really couldnt have children because of thin lining or something worse, she didnt explain it, but that not even IVF would help cuz she couldnt carry period... so she went to the states and came home with triplets!!!! Her egg and her DH sperm! Their kids!!! would you believe??? She mustve spent a hell of a lot of money with the entire process but it was worth it! At least in the US there are more options....here in europe "paid" surrogacy is prohibited unless you use a volunteer like from your own family, etc. I mean even gay couples have children through surrogacy and so many nowadays...an Option???

[Rotobay]

For those of you still in the 2ww: Please don't read this. Its a downer and you need to stay in a positive mindset!!!

Hi Ladies,

It's 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. Thank you all SO much for your words of comfort. I can't believe how hard I am taking this. I KNEW it was going to be negative, but for some reason I think subconsciously I was still hoping against hope.

But on a bright spot, I spent much of the evening clinging to my daughter. She is three and is so full of life, I am in awe of her. She is clueless and completely oblivious to this whole process as she is so young, but at one point I had a tear streaming down my face and she wiped it off with her little finger and said "Mommy, did you get an ouchie? Want me to get you a bandaid? I'll get you one with Dora (the Explorer) on it." It was one of those "Out of the Mouths of Babes' moments. I am so thankful for her.

But after saying all along, this is the LAST time...I am now thinking of maybe trying again (hubby wants to). Right now its hard to think about since I'm so emotional and dont want to think about any more dashed hopes and heartache. But I'll take some time to think thru our options. I really want my daughter to have a sibling.

You ladies are wonderful. Truly the only people who really understand how I'm feeling. I am usually a very upbeat and cheerful person and my friends and family don't know how to react to me being down. So I've been avoiding everyone--and they've all been calling to hear the news. I know it would make them uncomfortable to have to deal with me like this since I am usually 'the glass is half Full' and 'look at the bright side' type. I think I just need to grieve this loss, then move on to next steps. The drugs arent helping either. I can't wait for them to be out of my system. I also got AF...and she's come on like a tidal wave. Can't help but thinking of my 5 little embies in there.

Sorry all for being such a downer, I just had to vent and I know only this group would understand.

I know I'll get thru this (I have no choice, right!!) and will have a more positive outlook after I get a good night sleep, which isn't going to be tonight.

[wishfull27]

Rotobay

My heart goes out to you - I know exactly what you are saying - I too got a BFN yesterday and was devastated - I had done 2 HPT which were both negative but was just holding out for them being wrong - but heyho - life goes on

Just got to be strong - easier said than done i know - I was wondering where all these tears come from

Time is a healer and I am sure we will both be cycling again when the pain subsides

Take care and spend time with DH

carolyn x

[Rotobay]

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[Rotobay]

Hi Ladies,

Believe it or not, after a horrible nights sleep and major AF cramps, I am actually feeling BETTER. I know that many of you have been thru this same heartache which is evident by your compassion and that does give me solace. Also, I know that somehow, some way, we will have our second. Whether it's thru adoption, donor eggs, or another ride on the ivf roller coaster, I don't know. But we WILL have our second and give our daughter a sibling to travel thru life with her (see, Piggypebs, I knew it was only a matter of time that your attitude would rub off on me!!).

As for you, piggypebs, I will be hoping and praying for you. Luckily, your unpredictable history with hpts and betas might just work in your favor. I've got EVERYTHING crossed for you!!

Wishful: you are so right. It really is just a flip of the coin sometimes with ivf. Sometimes you''ll get heads, and sometimes you'll get tails. It doesnt mean that you'll ALWAYS get tails and never get heads. So once these hormones are out of my system (and I can start thinking like a rational person again) we will decide what to do next. The funny thing was, this was to be my LAST try....no ifs ands or buts....but after reading of so many other failures followed by successes (including my own) I am reassessing things. We'll probably take a break until after the holidays due to travel etc, but I will keep everyone updated.

Bean: I'm a little foggy, but when is your test???

SciT: Please let us know when you get the US. I cant remember exactly, but I think it was at 4 weeks when I first saw a hearbeat. Its an amazing thing...looks like a little flash on US but awesome none the less. Keep us informed so we can live vicariously and celebrate your joy!!

Meleson: your big day is almost here!! I cant wait to hear your beta numbers!! I have no doubt you'll be positive since Ive never heard of a false positive hpt in your circumstances. Please post them right away so we can all have the joy of guessing how many took.

Tris: In my delerium of last night, I think I missed your post. OMG!! 640!!! Was this a day 14 beta??? If so you are definitely carrying multiples and may even be joining Babyb in the triplet club!!! Keep us posted on the numbers!

Babyb: I am not exactly sure why my beta was 2. After my last unsuccessful cycle, my beta was also 2...could be some minor inaccuracies in the test...I'll look into it because thats a good question (and I do have a med background, so this mystery cannot go unanswered!). But I am definitely not pregnant. No question about that. Also when do you get your US?? I feel sure its trips but you wont know for sure until US...when is the big day?? ANd remember if its trips, you owe me $5. I realize you never agreed to the bet, but since you didn't publicly refuse it, I say you're locked into the debt

Anyway thank you again everyone. If my typing and grammar are off, I apologize and plead "lack of sleep and way too lazy to go back and read what I just wrote". Hopefully it makes sense, but if not, what can I say? This IS the nuthouse and you read at your own risk. Cant wait to hear everyone's outcomes. It gives me inspiration to keep on trying. So keep posting those BFPs! We ALL need to hear them!

XOXOXO