Awaiting Treatment

[wishfull27]

Just a qucik one .. so much going on it takes me all my time to read...

carolyn b - good luck for trip to Im hope all goes well for you and Dh x

jen -hope the beta is doubling - when do you get next results?

Icsi - mad - mad - mad - i would not be tempted to buy drugs friom elsewhere - there is enough that you stress about with IVF without worrying if the drugs are cosha!!!

Su - just done a little follie dance and chant for you

Steph - at leats Su is now keeping the POAS manufactureres in business - LOL - how you feeling?

Jen 1d - lots of (((hugs)))

Welshgirl - great to see you posting - it will take time to build confidence back in boards - we are all here for whenever you need to rant xxx

Hi to all those I have missed x

Horrible meeting in london tom - meant to be looking at train times but got distracted - not that that's so difficult - got to stay over and be sociable with people don't really want to socuialise with - hey ho - then just got to work thursday then holidays!!!!!

love to all

carolyn xxxx

Pumma - welcome to the maddest of mad threadsx

Beachbaby - hope you taking it easy x

[pequele]

OK --- again time for the all about me read………….need to ask you guys --- have any of you purchased your meds from somebody other than PHARMACY???? Reason I ask is that I have found another place out here on the net where gals buy/trade ivf meds…..and I’m SERIOUSLY considering for next round…….my meds for round #1 were $3,500 CASH – out of pocket…..and all of the meds out on this other site all advertise as “being sealed – in original packaging” and also do “COD” (cash on delivery) so that I go to pick up, I can open/inspect package before I hand over cash………..your thoughts?????????????? Have I gone mad??? The part that scares me off a bit is that I don’t “know” them like I feel I know you guys…….i would buy/trust ANYTHING from ANY of you guys….. anyway……guess I’m just looking for some feedback from people that have experienced the expense of these crazy-meds!!!!

****** LOVE AND HUGS TO ALL ********

Angie DON'T DO IT!!! Please please pleeeeaaaase!!! As a pharmacist, while the packaging might look great when you get it, you have no idea if the person stored those meds properly! Like something that needs to be refrigerated...they kept it on the counter...or worse in their HOT car!!!! You certainly can see something like water damaged packaging on most occasions but sometimes excess moisture can hide in the oddest way. I know it really is something that can save a ton of money, but technically you would be (as wel as that other person) breaking the law by exchanging meds...and if that was across state lines, it would be considered a felony! Careful!!

I have a few websites to check out that may help you shop for pricing...
http://www.freedomdrug.com/
http://www.villagepharmacy.com/
http://www.fertilityplus.org/faq/drugs.html#us

just to name a few...I googled fertility pharmacy.

be safe!!!
Steph

[pequele]

ooops thought that was a PM...oh well. Now the world knows my thoughts hahaa

So Angie- you know where I stand now on the meds haha. And of course I am jealous of Su and her sticks!!! You forget obi-wan that I have a full box of 7 OPKs upstairs if I get bored

Su- you pee girl!! PEEEEEEE!!!! Whatever happens, getting a surge or an answer from your scan, I send you TONS of baby dust and I command your follies to GROW!

Pumma- big howdy! Yup the ladies are mad...but in the nicest maddest way I'm a sparkle virgin myself...pretty sad I know, thinking bout starting a support group for it!

Jayne- you rest up!!! I think it is awesome you caught that guy in a lie haha...gotta love it don'tcha!

Carolyn- have a wonderful trip and rest up as much as possible! Give those embies plenty of rest to snuggle in!!! Just a few more days!!! Copious amounts of baby dust!!!!!!!

Jen- numbers??? WHY do they make you (us) wait so long???? BRUTAL!!!!

Ok that is all I can read in my "review" window....the hard part of the waiting forever to reply...sorry!!!!

Had a total crap day at work....got yelled at, sworn at, pi$$ed off by a customer....the BA$T@RD! Got my blood boiling of course (I am SOOOO type A!!) I got to thinking I really need to learn how to take the "I don't give a $h!t attitude cuz I know I don't need to endanger the beanie. Plus I don't need high BP cuz of my stupid job that I hate so much haha. But I was soooo ready to walk out today....too bad I need my benefits and the time off I will have next year or I was SOOOO outta there hahaha!!

I have 1 more beta tomorrow. At that point the nurse said they should be high enough to schedule my 1st US which should be MONDAY! I may get to see the blob on MONDAY!!!! It may be too soon to see a heartbeat, but I will feel better to see it not being anywhere other than my uterus! I have no reason to think it is, but everything is scary.

I need a nap, this time change is killing me!
Steph

[Welshgirl38]

Peq, u made me smile with ur 'i dont give a shit attitude' (Quite rightly so too) so i got this earlier and thought of u:

THE MOST FUNCTIONAL ENGLISH WORD

Well, it's shit ... that's right, shit!
Shit may just be the most functional word in the English language.

You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit,
and tell others to eat shit.

Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference
between shit and shineola.

There are lucky shits, dumb shits, and crazy shits. There is bull shit, horse shit, and chicken shit.

You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, or duck when the shit hits the fan.

You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle.

You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit.

Some days are colder than shit, some days are hotter than shit, and some days are just plain shitty.

Some music sounds like shit, things can look like shit, and there are times when you feel like shit.

You can have too much shit, not enough shit, the right shit, the wrong shit or a lot of weird shit.

You can carry shit, have a mountain of shit, or find yourself up shit creek without a paddle..

Sometimes everything you touch turns to shit and other times you fall in a bucket of shit and come out smelling like a rose.

When you stop to consider all the facts, it's the basic building block of the English language.

And remember, once you know your shit, you don't need to know anything else!!

You could pass this along, if you give a shit; or not do so if you don't give a shit!

Well, Shit, it's time for me to go. Just wanted you to know that I do give a shit and hope you have a nice day, without a bunch of shit. But, if you happen to catch a load of shit from some shit-head...........

Well, Shit Happens!!!

Hope that made u smile it did for me lol

Becky Xxxx

[pequele]

Becky I LOVE IT!!!! If it was a little shorter, I'd make it my signature

[Pummalaemma]

thanks everyone for welcoming me; this will be a lot of fun, if i can keep up with all the reading i'll need to do. my husband just came home and told me heard something on NPR about a woman whos hcg levels did not go down after i guess a chemical pregnancy for about one year. i am shocked!!! i hope that's not normal; i have to go back tomorrow to have mine checked. last wednesday it was 19, after being in the 30s, 20s and 10s; my fet was on 9/28. anyone any thoughts ... i want to do my next cycle so badly .... i think my docs, yes i have two, one that does the monitoring and one who does the actual ivf, are considering either methotrexate or a d&c, but i just had one in may this year ... i don't want another one. anyway, enough of that, i better go now and let you ladies know tomorrow what happened to by beta levels.
much baby dust to all of you.
pumma

[Jen1d]

GOODBYE

SAFE TRIP

GOOD LUCK

HUGS

TX ME

SEND XXX 4 MY SNOWBABIES

WILL BE THINKING OF YOU

LOVE AND HUGS

JEN X

[Pummalaemma]

hello everyone again, after i sent off my message last night i reread my message and i wanted to make sure that everyone knows how excited i am about being part of this thread, since i wrote "keep up with all the reading i have to do", hope this did not sound like i have to read, rather than i am looking forward that there is so much going on over here. does this make sense, i hope it does. so again, i am all excited and hope we'll get a lot of bfp in the next few weeks and months.
pumma

[ICSI GIRL]

hey pumma --- don't think anybody misinterpreted your excitement not to worry......out here --- ANYTHING goes!! and fyi --- i think it took like 4 weeks for my beta/hcg to FINALLY drop back down to 0 (from 15) w/ my chemical bfn.....not that yours will be same --- but thought i'd share MY experience....let us know how your numbers come back today

steph (MOM) --- OK-OK no buying meds from unauthorized locations --- i get it you did bring up an interesting question though ---- so if you're a pharmacist -- -do you get a discount on your meds???? do you work somewhere that i can order my meds thru YOU????? or not-so-much?? i hate this whole buying meds process -- just SUCKS.....(oh and so sorry you had such a crap day at work.... but you're SO right ---- you have a beanie to think about now ---- don't let the a$$-holes of world suck you into their world of DOOM that baby is depending on her momma to take good care of her -- and that includes PMA )

becky --- shit*shit*shit!!!!! absolutely could not have been posted at a better time cuz that COMPLETELY describes my day thus far......and don't see it getting better any time soon!!!!! so i'm thankful for the smile that you put on face

wishfull ---- gotta tell ya, your read sounds FAB to me "have meeting in LONDON tom" ---- that's like only something you see on TV!!!! it's soooo cool that i "know" somebody that has a "meeting in london" --- he,he,he! my advice to you on socializing w/ people that SUCK ---- DRINK HEAVILY --- helps EVERY time!!

so now for my shit day.......don't know if i told you guys -- but we happend across a stray kitty this past friday...she was very sick - eyes sealed completely shut from crusty-ickys, and was just a bag of bones!! brought her in, bathed her, fed her -- didn't know if she'd make it thru night, but she did and on saturday morning - took her to vet (pet doc) - ran a bazillion tests and other than being COMPLETELY malnourished - she was "ok"....doc figured her to be about 4-6 mo's old....should weigh in around 8-10lbs ---- she weighed 2.2lbs (so sad).....so we bring her home, with open arms, go and buy all this "stuff" for cat (food, litter, litter box, etc) -- the whole bit.....and she seemed to be coming along well......but this morning - she left for kitty heaven i know she's in a better place and i know that she atleast had the VERY BEST last few days of her poor/miserable life -- but still very sad would have LOVED to have called off work today -- but have meeting today that i must prepare for..........dh just called to check on me and here i sit in my office w/ tears coming down my face.....need to SHAKE IT OFF!!!!! anyway --- as always, thanks for listening.......

********LOVE & HUGS TO ALL**********

[jen babes]

Hi buddies

sorry that i have some heart breaking news, my beta has dropped...Its sad that its all over for this little embie....little one Loved and lost...

the next step is to stop the meds( already done) and Af should arrive in 3-4 days .If not will need a scan then D&C. The clinic said that i should bleed ok as only 5 wks gone, they also said we have been unlucky...
yeah I know that script already. As we have been through this twice before....The only consolation ( spelling???) is that this has been lost at 5 wks and not later on where i know it can be more heart breaking ( as those who have had m/c know only to well x x x)

we have decided to wait until DH's busy schedule at work is over ( Nov-dec) and go for FET in Jan.
the only good thing to come out of this is to say at least i did get preg and I gotta hold onto that...

but as you all know Grief hurts like hell...and time is the only way to mend my & Dh's broken hearts. We have each other and that is a Blessing.


unfortunaltely ,my Parents in law are due up tomorrow for 4 days. Nightmare to have to be so vulnerable to them but Will need to tell them as i will be in floods of tears for a few days...

will catch up with you all soon...

much love to you my buddies my friends my support network . thanks for being there for me

much love to you all as always
love jen
xxxxxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Jen

As i said before via tx, i am gutted for you and cant stop thinking about how much you must be hurting. Take time with dh and have lots of hugs.

Am so sad for you, this is just so unfair. Makes me mad as we all had so many hopes and dreams about IM.
Am here for you anytime you need a cry, vent or chat

Love Jen x

[Pummalaemma]

hi angie- i am so sorry to hear about your kitty story. yes, you are right, she has had the best few days of her live with you and that should be very comforting for you. perhaps you can go to an animal shelter and get another poor little kitty and bring it home if it helps with the pain. we lost our dog 3 years ago and she had a hard time at the end, but she did die in my arms which was the best thing we could have done for her.

jen babes- i am very very sorry about your loss, words can not describe how one feels, you have to have been there are most of us have.

Pumma

[beachbaby]

Jenbabes, I am so sorry , take all the time you need to heal, we are all here for you when you feel ready. Hope the weekends not too bad and your in-laws are supportive. Huge Hugs to you.

Pumma, welcome. sorry your having a bad time with your numbers, never had this personally mine always drop within a week. Hope they settle soon and you able to start again in January. At least you'll be able to have a few drinks over the holidays.

Steph, hope your numbers are still rising nicely, sorry your having bad days at work, sounds like you really hate it there. I find some days are just full of moaning customers. Hows your leg?, hope its all fixed now.

ICSIgirl, so sorry about your kitty, what a lovely thing to do, it was probably the best days of its short life, Hugs. I have two cats which are spoilt rotten. DH and i run a shop selling printer cosumables, paper etc, we have had the business for 5 years now, we started trying for a family at the same time. And whenever i seem to cycle a member of staff always seems to pull a sicky. At least juggling my treatment is easy as i am the boss, and DH always comes with me.

Jen1d, hope your doing ok, and starting to smile again. Not long until your first adoption meeting.

Becky, loved the shit poem, just what i needed, as was having a very hectic day. Hope your feeling better and are getting ready to make us all laugh again.

Wishful, hope your meeting and dinner weren't too bad, and you ready to start winding down for your holidays. Where ar eyou goiung? hope its somewhere hot and sunny so you can relax.

Hi to everyone else, got to go dinners ready.

Jayne

[gill12]

Dear Jen

I am so very sorry for you and DH , you have been through so much. To have such joy taken from you is so cruel.
Babe we're here for you when you feel ready, please take care.
{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}} to you both.
Love Gill xxx

[ICSI GIRL]

jenb: when you're ready.....you know where to find us......

((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))) ..............

and that's all i have to say about that.