Awaiting Treatment

[lara312]

Hi ladies just a quicky from me has very tired was up half the night worrying over scan all went well have to go back in about 2 wks has he could not get a good pic of the heart he said everything looked ok but they like to make sure so we are having a girl i have said all along to dh it was a girl we are both very happy sorry all about me will do personels on the weekend .
lots of love Rachel x x

[squeezan]

Help! My PMA has faded today. I want to POAS
I'm trying to be positive but just can't see how this cycle's gonna be any different to the others. Still getting twinges but mostly in one side now so then I think even if its a BFP what if its ectopic?
I HATE the 2ww. It's on my mind all the time and I can't talk to anyone about it (except you guys, of course).
Thanks for listening

[shantala]

evening ladies

nimble - glad the symptoms didnt get any worse....sounds like you're holding up well...not long now hun.

lara - aawwww, a little girl...congrats hunny. i'm sure everything will be fine with the heart but i know it must be a worrying time. try not to worry too much.

JB - good to hear from you honey!

carolyn - no problem, i understand. glad the spotting has stopped and given you've had nothing on day 11 and nothing since, i'm very positive for you. i've got everything crossed for you honey. i'm annoyed as i wont be here over the weekend to find out whats happened but will be back on monday and will check then straight away. i've got a good feeling for you hun so fingers crossed! xx

pequele - i cant imagine how you must feel but all i can say is time is a healer....we're all here for you. xxx

gill - hope you're ok hun.

pumma - hope the cysts reduce and you only get delayed by a week or so. fingers crossed for your scan next week.

angel - sorry you've been having a tough time but good to have you around. you know where we are if you ever want to rave, rant, cry, laugh, etc!! hugs!

jayne - glad you had no more spotting. cant wait for your scan on monday. soooo excited!!

jen1d - your post re the football made me laugh. i showed dh and he laughed too. you're so funny!

su - dont give in hun. i know how hard it is but you're over half way there! (but if you do POAS, let us know...hehe )

welshbugger - hope you're ok honey. you're very quiet, which is VERY unlike you. thinking of you.

hi to everyone else....dh and i are going away for the weekend so keeping everything crossed for carolyn, su, jayne, and pumma over the next few days. trying to fight a cold but arent we all...lol

lots of sticky baby dust to you all

xxxx

[jen babes]

Rachel....congrats

know it must be hard for you not getting a clear pic of the heart but i guess if they were worried they would have said so. She must be some size now did you get a good pic ???? its good that you have another scan in 2wks...much love and hugs to ya hunx x x x


Shants have agood weekend away ... we are away too x x enjoy yourselves x x x

SU please leave the pee sticks alone...i have always had a neg when i have been positive cos of testing early or at the wrong time of day x x x please wait if you can as hcg is much better as a defined result x x x

Carolyn and Pumma hang in there x x x x x x HOPING FOR A bfp!!!!

janyne hope the scan goes well x x

much love to everyone else hi to allx x x

we are away the weekend...the moto has come back from repairs and are off to Aviemore to a christmas Fair weeeknd with lots of hot wine ansd cinnamin pies to eat x x x maybe get some chrissy pressies too x x have only 2 to get and to fill up DH's santa sack with bits and bobs x x

so hope you all have agood weekend x x am hoping to come back to celebrate some BFPs

love jen b
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[nimble]

Hooaaaryyy its the weekend and we sneaked off from work early...hee hee hee

Seems that everyone is away for the weekend so looks like its going to be fairly quiet on here....probably be chatting to myself - but thats nothing new

Rachel - hey thats fantastic news, a wee girl - its good that they are keeping an eye on you.....

Shantala - have a fab weekend - going anywhere nice??

Jenb - uummm yummy, hot wine and pies to eat - how lovely. Is there snow yet at Aviemore?? Hope you have a fab weekend...sounds very chrismassy

Su, hang in there - I know its hard to keep the PMA up for 2 whole weeks, but keep away from the POAS - they are dangerous , but if you must..... Not long to go, you can't tell anything from symptons, they could be something they could be nothing so don't read too much into them.

Boy, if I did, I would be in the nutty house - except that I haven't got anything !!

Jen1d - sounds like good news from IM, atleast they have no worries about you or DH, which I know you find frustrating, but it is good.
Have a chilling and relaxin weekend.

Gill - how are you - hope you are ok?

Everyone is a little quiet today

hugs
nims xx

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Jen - Know what you mean, i would love to continue every month but i have to stop this stress and heartache somewhere. I'm not sure yet but think after the FET then we will probably go for adoption--think. There is only so much the body can take and why throw away money when i can use that for a child we adopt. I would prefer my own child but this has already been taking away from me so wont ever experience that, which is just awful and hearbreaking everytime i thing about it but i hav a fab hubby and if we get to experience it with a baby, who cares if its not ours---its will be---still so confusing and upsetting though.
Enjoy your trip to Aviemore, hope you manage to relax.

Carolyn, Su and Nims - Stay strong girls, thinking of you. Will be around tomorrow afternoon and sunday for you all, so type away if you need me. Your doing so well

Rachel - Glad the scan went well, great news

When i emailed the s/w for the application form she told me i have to be patient and do all the things that a couple want to do but wont have time when they have a little one about. Made me annoyed telling me to be patient----does she not know that ivf people are patient. I wanted to scream that we have been patient for 6 years trying to get pregnant so another 6 months is a doddle---silly cow.

Going to town with dh, sis and Mum in the morning to get some pressies for my aunty then out with friends for an Italian meal and some drinks.

Sunday we will be doing some cleaning then over to my mums for tea then back to work monday. i am cramming in so much studying just now and MIGHT finish it by Xmas---2 months before its due---am desperate to get it out of the way before treatment and adoption stuff. I am just trying to finish off some legislation and theories------yuuucckkkkk.

Was giong to go to the cinema tonight but its freezing and i have developed a cold since yesterday and feel all heady and hot, so staying in for a chill out.



Love Jen x

[beachbaby]

Hi Ladies,

Rachel, congratulations on expecting a girl, and a bonus 2nd scan as well!!
Hope your feeling better now the weekend is here, try to rest up, must be tiring carrying all that extra weight around.

jenbabes, enjoy your weekend, sounds lovely, have a glass for me.

Shantala, hope your going somewhere nice? enjoy.

Su, hope you manage to avoid the evil pee sticks, i managed to keep my willpower in place, i'm sure you can manage the weekend.

Carolyn, all the very best of luck tomorrow, i have everything crossed for you.

Nimble, hope your hanging in there, wtat day do you test? As you i will be stuck at home all weekend, but even worse i have to work tomorrow, although its usually quite quiet so should get to log on and chat.

Hope everyone else is ok. baby dust to all.

As for me, nothing much happening here, just counting down the days to my scan, both excited and scared, excited what we will see but also very scared there will be nothing there. Been sleeping badly as i'm so worried, stupid me.
jayne

[squeezan]

Don't worry Nimble you won't be talking to yourself - I'm around all weekend too. Prob going to a xmas food fayre tomorrow - anything to take my mind off POAS. Yes, I've resisted so far but they're sitting in the drawer waiting for me for Tuesday. The thought of getting a BFN is what puts me off testing early.
Hope everyone has a good weekend whether at home or away
Su x

[pequele]

Hi ladies

Thanks for all the love and support! I want to catch up on personals because you all deserve it! I love you guys! You are the best board I belong to

Su: You are my POAS hero....you have the will power I don't! I can't believe the manufacturers across the pond can stay in business without a girl like me! You all have so much control!!! Not many sleeps at all and that BFP is on its way! Don't worry bout the pings and tings...my doc said it is normal the 1st trimester to feel like AF is coming, so BFP is on the way for you!!!

Jayne- waiting for the 1st scan is like waiting for Christmas as a kiddo! UGH, soon it will be here though and you will get to see the little bean/rice spec/tadpole/bugger I bet it will be waving at its mommy...watch the screen closely cuz they are pretty tiny at that age

JenD- You bug the crap outta that SW!!! Can't they fax it to ya or email it to ya? Damn postal system....probably hanging out with my last month's satilite bill at the bottom of some sorting bin!!! Have fun shopping this weekend! I actually finished my family's in CA...all that is left is my parents (at least I don't have to mail them theirs tho haha) oh and Italian food!!! MMMMMM I wish there was a good place around here for that! However, you can keep your cleaning...I hate it...I want a maid . What are you studying for...obviously I missed something. I wish you luck though on finishing it! Oh and fantastic news...no more tests to do for treatment! That is awsome!!!!

Nimble- dashing outta work early...naughty naughty hehehe. Did you throw yourself a mani and pedi as well

JenB- have a wonderful weekend!! So jealous of all your Christmas fairs across the pond...unless you count stores here opening at 4am the day after Thanksgiving to start the Christmas shopping season a fair??? More like a zoo really!

Shantala- another one off for the weekend! Where you going??? Don't keep us in suspense!!! I know I know preggy brain made you ferget right hehehe

Rachel- yippeeeeeee a girl!!!!!!! Any names on your mind yet? I wouldn't worry about the heart, you know if he was concerned he would have kept you there longer and done everything to get another look now, he also wouldn't wait for 2 weeks, you know you'd be back immediately! So get some rest, sounds like everything is wonderful!

Carolyn- almost test day as well. Glad to see they got the spotting to stop. You are almost there. On many of the other boards I am on, you'll be happy to know SO MANY women report spotting and have had MANY healthy babes! You will be one of those lucky mommas!

Hi Angel- I don't think we met before. I hope you can get the meds sorted out. International scripts are hard to deal with (I'm a pharmacist in the states and live close to Canada and have quite a few patients from Bermuda...or is it the Bahamas...where ever, I hate them for living on some tropical island haha). Can you have the scripts transfered from the pharmacy that doesn't have the drugs to the one that does? Good luck really, I hate to hear this is a huge stressor for you, you don't need that!!!

As for me, my head is still in the shitter of course. The last few days the physical pains have worsened not to the point where I felt like I needed to call the doc, I'm just a wuss with pain and don't usually get AF cramps so I think anything will make me feel like crap. And every physical pain brings the mental pain...it SUCKS! TMI to follow, but a few hours ago I had really bad cramps but after passing a bit of stuff ( I thought they took it all damn it!) I actually feel a million times better. I just don't wanna feel this over the weekend...I have to go in for my 11 hr shifts Sat and Sun cuz they couldn't find anyone to cover I am just hoping that was the last of the physical pain so I don't bust out crying while at work. It will be good though to get me out of my jammies and off the couch, though I could find a LOAD more funner things to do than go to work

The last few days has given me lots of time to think though. I really figured I'd wait til after I got a new job in May to try again, then I calculated that I wouldn't qualify for Family Medical Leave til I have been on the job for 12 months plus I'd need the paid time off I would have accrued from vacay and sick time and short term disability to have the baby. That would mean I couldn't start til after August 08!!! Who the F^@* am I kidding!!! I don't wanna wait that long! So I will have to eat Top Ramen, not do any home improvements, no extra anythings, stop buying POAS in order to just be able to afford having a baby without those securities, but it would be SOOOO worth it!!! I may not be able to afford to take the full 12 weeks off after baby is born, but I just don't care, I WANT A BABY!!! And I have decided I don't want to wait! I am going to jump back on the wagon as soon as my body heals (the doc said I can try again after having 1 normal cycle) and that is what I am gonna do!! It's what my heart and soul needs...now physically heal body damn it!!

Steph

[Jen1d]

Oh Carolyn

I wish there was something i could do to help. I know only to well the pain your going through and am here for you anytime.



Have sent you an email

Love and hugs

Sorry girls, no more writing today, this is just such a sad day for the IM girls

Jen xxxxxx

[Jen1d]

JS200632...
July 3rd - Beta 780...
July 9th - Beta 6915...
July 20th - Scan - Saw 1 perfect heartbeat...
Latest Scan – 3 perfect Heartbeats!! Fantastic news!!
Aug - Very sadley lost 1 beanie - so sorry JS

Rachel/Lara312...
Natural BFP ... Woooo Hooooo!
How fantastic is THAT!!!
Midwife Appt – Friday 24th Aug
First Scan ...13th Sept… 1 Perfect Heartbeat
Second scan ... 22nd Nov
Due date … 14th April

Shantala...
23rd Aug ....BFP Wooooooo Hoooooooo
Beta ....343!!
First Scan ...6th Sept.... 1 perfect heartbeat
Second Scan .... 20th Sept ... 1 Perfect Beanie getting comfy
Third Scan .... Perfect features - its a baby lol xxx
Due date....26th April

Pequele
First Scan ... 13th Nov
Due date ... 8th July

beachbaby
12th Nov ... beta 565 ... wooohooo
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Squeezan ... testing 27th Nov

Nimble...testing 30th Nov



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Lady's having Treatment...



pummalaema ... on bcp ... starting lupron 14th Nov ... stimms 24th Nov

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Lady's Awaiting Treatment...


Wishful27... Waiting for next tmt to start
ICSI Girl…. #2 IVF/ICSI in jan-08....start bcp's in december..
The Beckster... On NHS waiting list for IVF
Andreak60... On NHS waiting list for IUI
JackieG...Dec….Start Cycle
AuntyPebbles... Taking time out to GET BETTER
Angel505... Nov appt at Big B
Gill … Waiting for next tmt
Nickyz ... On waiting list
Miracle08 ... starting iui March 08
Jen1d ... FET Jan 08
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In our thoughts and prayers

Jenbabes... So sorry for the loss of your little beanie thinking of you xx

Carolyn...Sadly BFN, Big Hugs, Thinking of you xx _____________________________________________________________________________

For Aunty

Last but by no means least, i thought we should have a section for our dear friend Aunty ..... Debz we are all thinking about you and praying hard for you ...



You know you can beat this .... I'm always here for you hun, take care Xxxx
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[CarolynB]

Thanks for updating Jen1d. Never a happy job.



One for each day like today we have had. How many -ves do we have to go through????????????

Dh was even crying/sobbing just now. That never ever happens. It hurts so much that I cannot give him a child.

Thanks for all your support.

Don't know what I would do without you. Don't know whether we will carry on or not...................feels like reaching the end of the road. Went to visit the life after treatment board for the first time ever & lots of the ladies there decided to call it a day before the point that we have got too even now.

Have written lots of questions to the clinic. Will need some answers before we can decide whether it is worth us making a 6th attempt.

Enjoy the weekend girls. Thanks for listening.

Lots of Love
Carolyn
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[Angel505]

Oh Carolyn, hugs to both you and DH.

((((((((((((((((((( oo ))))))))))))))))))).

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out for you. I had tears when I read your post too. I know that no one can say/ do anything to make you feel better at this point. You'll be in my prayers and thoughts. Give it some time before you think about making any kind of decision. Take care of yourselves.

[lara312]

Carolyn i'm so so very sorry you deserve a baby so much you have so much love to give you must be truly devastaed i am sat here crying for you to hun massive {{{hugs}}}for you and dh you have always been there for us now we are here for you
lots of love Rachel x x

[wishfull27]

carolyn - sending hugs and lots of love to you and DH - you are both in my thoughts xxxx

carolynx