Awaiting Treatment

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Gill - Have a fab holiday, you really deserve the break---oops excuse the pun---hope there are no broken legs.


Have fun babe.

So how is everyone else. I do read the thread but am feeling a bit strange at the moment and a bit all over the place with this time of year and still no child.

Just waiting and waiting, the same old story.

Put adoption papers in a few days ago and the s/w is saying there is no resourse worker available so they will process it in the New Year. Also when she visited she said our adoption classes would be in Jan, now she is saying Jan or Feb. Its just so typical of s/w, they are just a bunch of lazy idiots and treat people as bits of paper.

Got a letter from the hospital yesterday to say that my op all went well and there are no abnormalities---knew this already. I have an appointment with my Consultant to talk about my last op. Already know that she will just say---all is fine and just have to keep trying---but i'm sick of hearing this.

Meant to be going to IM for frosties in Jan but will see how i feel.

Jayne, sorry but the pma is not round my area---its disappeared just now

To be honest, i'm just a bit tired and fed up seeing bfp's and they are never mine. Sorry if that sounds selfish but its the truth. I am so sick of waiting for a baby and have half given up on my frosties already, just hoping we can get the adoption through fast next year-----------but-------well its not 100% what i would want from life. I suppose i'm still grieving for my own child and i think this feeling will never go.

Sorry girls, i know its Christmas and i should be full of happiness and thankful for what i have but its just so hard. I'm not unhappy just tired and fed up.

Think of you all lots and hope your feeling ok.

Got a busy weekend. I'm off work until Monday late shift, so will get to be with dh. THen have a girly party with my work colleague, so that is always a laugh and will hopefully put me in a festive mood.



Love Jen x

[pequele]

Oh Jen- I hear ya girl! Everytime I start to feel happy because of the season I sit back and think...I should be 9 1/2 weeks along...but I'm not Christmas day was supposed to be the end of my 1st trimester/beginning of 2nd. How I am supposed to be HAPPY that day It is usually a fluke,but I am so scared...what if it isn't??? What if that is all my body can ever do? Why won't my numbers come down so I can get going again?? Why does my body still have all these aches and pains? The belly pain is gone, but now my back is hurting again by my kidney...is it a stone, do I bother going to the doc and paying $$ to be told I'm NORMAL and nothing it wrong, it is all in my head??? Besides, not like they can do anything for a stone anyways so why waste money on that when I need it for my IUI, etc! I doubt it has anything to do with having the MC since it is no where near my uterus! Then there are the headaches...are they hormones, are they stress....is it from my damn job from hell??? I am feeling twinges near my left ovary...could it be??? No my luck, I probably just gotta poop! Nothing seems to go right for me Got my 1st Christmas card in the mail the other day...from my friend who had a baby this past year! It was a pic of their new family! Why do I suck so much??? I really am happy for the ladies with their BFPs! I am just so jealous too...I should be there! It hurts so much I know jealousy is such an evil monster, but I can't help it, I suck!

Steph

[pequele]

oh sure and what comes in TODAY's mail???? Another Christmas card from a friend who had a baby in Oct AND another damn pregnancy book from the insurance company!!!! Wow it is gonna be a total crap weekend isn't it

Steph

[ICSI GIRL]

oh you poor dears i'm so very sorry that you're feeling BLUE..........hopefully you'll be able to snap out of it soon cuz ya both (jen1 & steph) have your BFP's waiting for you..... timing may be off from you hoped ------ but never stop believing where is my damn M*A*G*I*C* W*A*N*D when i need it???

seriously girls...........our times are coming...........jen1 -- don't give up hope on your frosties -- they NEED you steph --- throw all that crap you're getting in the garbage and don't look back!!!

sorry i'm kinda out of my "element" this week and next girls ---- am working on big deadline here at work and simply don't have my normal "play time"!!!! i'm thinking of you all...........and i do make time to pop in and READ --- but must admit i'll be out of the loop for thru atleast next week (SUCKS) i'll be checkin' in on ya'll!!!

********** LOVE & HUGS TO US ALL!! *************

[Jen1d]

Oh Steph, its just crap eh.

You sound as fed up as me. I have been finishing doing my Chrismas cards today. I have come across a few that were couples last year and now there are 3. Its just so unfair---i'm sick of hearing myself saying that and hearing everyone telling us we will make such great parents---doesnt seem like its ever going to happen.
I can sympathise with you completely and am here if you need a chat. Keep smiling babeour time has to come one day soon.

ICSI - Thanks babe. Please find that magic wand soon

Have a good weekend, will check in tomorrow.

Love Jen x

[wishfull27]

Hi guys

Steph/jen - I feel exactly the same too - its just so diifucult - and no one else understands except you guys -like iCSI says we just need to keep the faith - these things happen for a reason - although I don't know what f****** reason at the moment- our time will come - ICSI you must find that wand and pretty sharpish - 2008 WILL be our year

Off up to Yorkshire for weekend delivering christmas cheer - no one knows what going through apart from parents so friends always say whens it your turn ?? - just fob them off with I am a career girl - god how I would love just to jack it all in for a little baby

Anyway enough doom and gloom at such an early hour

Love to everyone and especially our BFP ladies

Much love

Carolyn xx

[squeezan]

Hi Ladies
Sorry I've not posted much lately, I've got a bad cold and am feeling pretty crappy, been thinking about you all though. This is the second cold I've had in 2 weeks and its starting to get me down.
I saw a good friend and her new baby yesterday. She knows what I've been going through and when I told her I was pregnant she said 'it's about time'. I know she meant it jokingly but it still upset me 'cos she only has to look at her DH and she's pregnant, and she was jealous that I'm not feeling sick yet. She's obviously forgotten all my wingeing about the side-effects of the meds!

I'm sorry to moan, I know I should be excited and I am but I don't feel pregnant and I'm so scared there'll be nothing to see at the scan.

Su x

[Jen1d]

Su

Hang in there babe. Sorry if i missed it but when is your scan?

Well i finally had the courage to put up the Chrimbo tree--only because dh wanted to do it. Just cant face it this year. So sick of being without a child to share it with.

Got a letter from IM today with a file full of info about our cycle so far and the outcome---as if i need reminded about that at this time of the year.

Anyway lets hope 2008 brings better news for us all--or i might lose the will to live

Love Jen x

[pequele]

Su- I'm sorry you are feeling under the weather!!!! It sucks cuz you can't take anything!!!! Saline spray for the nose to flush it all out that is about it! But don't worry about not feeling anything, it is early still....morning sickness doesn't usually start until week 6-8 and some women don't even feel anything! My mom was one of those...and a coworker who is preggers now with #2 is another! PERFECTLY HEALTHY KIDS (well, maybe not ME, but I have all my arms and legs haha) When is your scan again?

Carolyn, Jen- 2008 is our year damn it! Until then I say lets eat chocolate! Hell I gained 2 pounds this week (is that like 42 stones or something?) I'm supposed to be on a diet! Failure all the way around as usual But that will all change I am determined!!! Of course I need stupid AF to show up granted it is about as annoying as this stupid tick I have in my eye right now!! AAARRGGHHH It is so annoying I am ready to take a muscle relaxer because it is still going even when I close my eye...I'm POSSESSED!!!! Spawn of Satan is alive in my eyeball!!!

Now I'm cold!! Man I am just a cranky PITA tonite huh

Steph

[squeezan]

Jen - well done on putting the tree up - I haven't done mine yet (maybe next weekend?) My scan is Thursday pm.

Steph - I looked at saline sprays and couldn't believe the price! I've just permanently got olbas oil under my nose instead - I feel so attractive
BTW just carry on with the chocolate I say. Isn't that the true meaning of christmas, to eat as much chocolate as you can without being sick. Pity I can't taste it at the moment but I'll be right with you as soon as I can

Su x

[lara312]

Jen sorry you are feeling so down i really hope and pray that 2008 is going to be your yr

glad you have put your tree up i done mine last weekend

Steph and Wish i really hope that 2008 is going to be the yr for all your BFP's i wish you could all get a lil miracle like i got

Angie dont work to hard

Su hope your feeling better soon

Carolyn thinking of you has always

Hope everyone else is busy doing things to get ready for christmas

Well me still feel crap think i will have to see the doc tom has my glands are now swollen so dont think i will be wgoing to work tom

lots of love Rachel x x

[Pummalaemma]

Su: hang in there girl, i am so excited for you and pretty soon you'll see your little precious baby on the scan, but i know how scary the wait can be.

Jen, Carolyn: i know how you feel, i have been there and i guess i am still there. don't know what to say, except that this board has helped me a lot, since no one can ever imagine what it feels like. so, i hope you'll feel better soon; i guess everything happens for a reason, even though it is hard to believe.

as for me: i'll have my hcg shot tonight, with ER on tuesday and transfer probably on friday. i had a bad night last night, since my dh was complaining about having to take time off on tuesday for the ER and no one ever asks him; we'll i don't get asked either, but it just really hurt, so i am trying to find someone who can drive me home after retrieval and spend some time with me makes me pretty sad, that's he only does all this because i want it and not him. oh well, i guess it could be worse, if he would not want to do it at all. anyway, sorry about being so down ... i guess it's the hormones. i better go now, ...

Pumma

[squeezan]

JS200632...
July 3rd - Beta 780...
July 9th - Beta 6915...
July 20th - Scan - Saw 1 perfect heartbeat...
Latest Scan – 3 perfect Heartbeats!! Fantastic news!!
Aug - Very sadley lost 1 beanie - so sorry JS

Rachel/Lara312...
Natural BFP ... Woooo Hooooo!
How fantastic is THAT!!!
Midwife Appt – Friday 24th Aug
First Scan ...13th Sept… 1 Perfect Heartbeat
Second scan ... 22nd Nov ... It's a girl!!!
Due date … 14th April

Shantala...
23rd Aug ....BFP Wooooooo Hoooooooo
Beta ....343!!
First Scan ...6th Sept.... 1 perfect heartbeat
Second Scan .... 20th Sept ... 1 Perfect Beanie getting comfy
Third Scan .... Perfect features - its a baby lol xxx
Due date....26th April

beachbaby
12th Nov ... beta 565 ... wooohooo
Saw 2 perfect heartbeats
ITS TWINS!!!!!!
baby A = 6weeks aby B = 6 weeks 1 day
Wooooo Hoooooooo

Su:
BFP BFP BFP BFP BFP!!!!!!
Congratulations hun Xxx
First scan ... 13th Dec

nimble ... BFP!!!!!
Congratulations
First scan ... 18th Dec
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Lady's having Treatment...



pummalaema ... on bcp ... starting lupron 14th Nov ... stimms 1st Dec ... ER 11th Dec

Angel505... starting stimms 1st Dec

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Lady's Awaiting Treatment...


Wishful27... Waiting for next tmt to start
ICSI Girl…. #2 IVF/ICSI in jan-08....start bcp's in december..
The Beckster... On NHS waiting list for IVF - prob July/Aug 08
Andreak60... Startng IUI Feb 08
JackieG...Dec….Start Cycle
AuntyPebbles... Taking time out to GET BETTER
Gill … Waiting for next tmt
Nickyz ... On waiting list
Miracle08 ... starting iui March 08
Jen1d ... FET Jan 08
pequele ... waiting for AF
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In our thoughts and prayers

Jenbabes... So sorry for the loss of your little beanie thinking of you xx

Carolyn...Sadly BFN, Big Hugs, Thinking of you xx _____________________________________________________________________________

For Aunty

Last but by no means least, i thought we should have a section for our dear friend Aunty ..... Debz we are all thinking about you and praying hard for you ...



You know you can beat this .... I'm always here for you hun, take care Xxxx
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[stephjim]

Hey there all. Hey Squeezan. I am waiting to do insemination again. I got canceled last month and just waiting for my cycle to start. I hope this Thursday. We are doing one more insemination at the same level of 100 mg of Clomid and then I am insisting after that we move to IVF.

Does anyone have a timeline of IVF or know a website I can go to? I want to be able to plan for it at work as much as possible and Iwill need to do my schedule as if I am doing it because I won't be able to change it.

[nimble]

Evening ladies, how are we all - did we have good weekends?? Very quiet on here but can understand why....

Jen1d - can really understand where you are at and how difficult it must be to see everyone get BFPs - I know it is difficult for me to say as I am one of those, but i still find it hard to imagine that I will get through the 7wks and as i seem to fall at the first hurdle and wonder why me.

Your time will come and don't forget ICSI girl is around with her wand spreading that baby dust for you girls in the new year.

Steph - hope the bloods went ok today - well that is, if you managed to get out of the house. Hey, i've already started the 'lets eat all the chocolate' campaign for christmas...... sod the diets, its not worth it at this time of year, thats what january is for !!

ICSI - don't work too hard - all work no play makes a very dull ICSI girl!!

Carolyn - how was yorkshire - did you manage to spread some good will cheer up north??

Lara - bless you're not having a good time of it at the mo, hope you are being pampered and cared for by hubby.

Su - oh so can relate to you at the moment - I'm going through everything your going through with the fears of the pending scan - I'm a fine one to talk but try to relax (this is the woman who got up at 7am yesterday to do another POAS just to check - thats the 3rd now!!) for the very same reasons.

Having a cold is a nightmare as there isn't much you can take for it, so stay in doors, wrap up and look after yourself.

Pumma wow your already doing your shot - congratulations. Good luck with your ER on Tuesday - lets hope you get many eggies!!

Stephjim - there are 2 types of cycles - short and long protocal - a short is approx 4 wks - long is approx 6wks (from start to finish ET). It is a bit difficult to plan for as normally the start is dependant on your period (AF) and she can be pretty unpredictable when you're waiting for her...likes to be fashionably late to the party!! I found on here that each clinic is slightly different there fore the length of IVF can vary depending on what type of meds they give you too - again the UK and US are different so may be worth getting different views.....

What do others think???

Well one week to go for the scan - totally stressed out about the outcome however trying to be positive and think 3rd time lucky..... hormones are raging so either PMT or the pg !! Put up the christmas tree at the w/end so getting into the chrimbo spirit.

Hope everyone is doing ok - big hugs xx