Started Lupron 10/31...anyone on same cycle?

[BBdusts]

Itsgottawork - I am sorry. I can understand, to be given hope then ..... Sigh....why its so hard to become a mother. I found out that people in olden days got pregnant so easily. For example my grandma had 11 children. Life is just not fair isn't it! We all have our hard times. We are all here for you. I really wish we all get what we want Just keep believing, hoping and praying.

MBG and Tina O - CONGRATULATION !!! Your betas in a very very good track. Wow, my DH told me that both of you will probably have twins.

nwquiz: Thank you for your encouragement words. I wish you good luck on your u/s friday. Keep us posted on the outcome of the u/s. Will pray for you.

I felt much better now thinking that I did my beta test before 3 days. As long the number is still rising, my embries are still there trying their best to keep hanging. They have not give up on me yet so I won't give up on them without a good fight!!!

Dancinnancy - Where are you girl?? I hope you are alright?

4ourbaby and JaneDoe -- how are you? Don't give up ladies!

Take care ladies, we still have a long way to go. Praying for you always

BBdusts

[4ourbaby]

Hi Girls...just checking in with you all!

BBDusts: You are so cute! Thank you for all the positive thoughts and prayers! I know what you mean about not giving up hope...it's all we have now. We have to keep the faith that things are as they were meant to be. It's hard to understand why, but hopefully we will continue to have the strength to get through it. It helps having caring people like you to cheer us on! I will let you know what the doctor says on Thursday 12/20.

tinaO: Yahoooooo! Great beta...even better than your calculations We are alike in a lot of ways. I'd be doing the same research if we had gotten a BFP! You are a sweetheart...always helpful to others! I am still nervous about the prospect of adoption, but my DH is so supportive and positive that it is almost impossible for me to NOT consider it! I think I just have to come to terms with my situation before I can look forward to the next step. I want to be excited for things to come! I almost wanted to take you up on that chardonnay offer, but I'd rather you save it for a celebration in 245 days!

Jane Doe: I hope you are doing ok. You haven't posted in a while, which I totally understand. I haven't posted as much either, but I have been sneaking peeks at what these other girls have been up to You have a great outlook and we all should enjoy what we have. The hardest part is really accepting where we are at now. Once we do that, I think we will be able to move on. Good luck!

MBG: Nice 2nd beta! Thank you for your prayers. My DH has been a huge support and center of strength for me...as have my family and friends. We will all get through this together. I can't wait to hear about the ultrasound on the 31st! Happy New Year's Eve to you!

itsgottawork: I am soooooo sorry to hear about your chemical pregnancy. I just went through that painful process in October with my first FET. Also, like you, I started out with a great 21 eggs and ended up with zero left to freeze. We were so hoping to at least get one FET from this cycle. Let me know how your b/w goes tomorrow and what your next steps are. After my chemical, I was really only off meds for 3 weeks before we were allowed to start again. I too thought I would have to wait so long before the next cycle, but I didn't. Hopefully you won't have to wait long either. I think I was on Lupron 3 weeks after my 2nd beta showed a chemical pregnancy. Then I got AF while I was on Lupron, and then started stimming after AF. I hope that information helps.

As for me, I started AF on 12/16. She is in full force! I've been emotionally/physically worn out and haven't done too much. I'm just hoping to feel better by Christmas. I hope you girls don't mind if I continue to post. I really want to hear all the good news and follow you through these pregnancies!

dancinnancy: Where are you?????? Please let us know you are ok. I haven't seen anything from you since Friday. I think you had b/w on Sunday. I hope you are doing well.

Good luck girls. I hope you have happy and healthy pregnancies! I'll have a few cocktails for you in celebration

Love & Hugs xoxoxoxo

[BBdusts]

4ourbaby,

I am glad to finally know that you are feeling much better and toward recovery. I am really happy that you actually pop by to see us and please do keep posting so that we will still keep in touch with each other and to share.

Just want to share with you, my DH just bought me a cd few days ago, well to cheer me up since I am still not allowed to go out just yet. Its a song sing by Connie Talbot. I don't know if you ever heard of her. Wow her voice is so amazing and crystal pure especially when she sing over the rainbow. Its amazing to know what a 6 years old girl can do. That song accompany me by nowadays, cheer me up and give me hope.

I am glad you are still fighting Thank you for giving me all the encouragements all the time. Though I may sound positive to you, still I have my down moments too. I really hope a BFP in the future for you.

Keep in touch! Lots of love and hugs for you

BBdust

[itsgottawork]

Hello Ladies!
Do you go in for a 3rd beta number or do you get a break until the u/s? I can't wait to hear your next results. You guys give me hope and I really do enjoy reading your entries.

4ourbaby - I am thankful to see your post. I feel a bit alone going through this right now. It helps to know someone else went through it and was able to get right back on the horse so to speak to try again.
I just found out that beta #3 is down to 6. I am hopeful that I will be at zero on Friday and be done before next week. I'd like a break. I haven't started to bleed yet but have been having cramps for days and that is really frustrating. I don't really know what to expect and I can't wait for this to be done. The clinic I go to insists on me having a real AF before I can start the next cycle. I assume that won't come until the end of next month and then who knows what the protocol will be after that. I had to wait another 21 days after AF this time so it could be mid February before I even start anything.
On Monday, they gave me an appt to meet with my RE on 1/25 to go over next steps. Today I was practically in tears asking to meet with him earlier and they gave me a 1/18 appt and put me on the waiting list in case anyone cancels 1/4 or 1/11. ( My RE is only available at this clinic on Fridays. He is the director of another clinic - where I go for the ER and transfer - the rest of the week). The receptionist is hopeful I will get called in earlier.
The hospital has to do a review of this cycle, put together the new protocol and ensure coverage before we can proceed. I asked if that would be done by mid-Jan and they said yes so I am hopeful that I won't have any other delays. It saddens me though as it means the earliest I'll have a baby will be around a year from now. I guess I am still really frustrated by the whole thing. I am just waiting for it to be completely over and I think this is worse than any PMS I have ever had. I am getting really irritated with little things. Tomorrow is my birthday, and I think if one more person at the clinic looks at my file and wishes me a happy birthday in the same conversation when we are talking about this failed pregnancy I think it will be really hard not to scream. I mean really, do they think this is going to be a happy birthday?!?
Ok, enough venting. I hope you girls don't mind. I keep thinking in a few more days I will be much more positive but I am not quite there yet.
So, please keep posting your good news so I can cheer up! I can't wait to hear which of you is having twins!!!

[dancinnancy]

HELLO!!!!!

Hi girls!!! Sorry I've been MIA for a few days, things have been hectic around here! I've been trying to keep up with your posts, I can't believe we're on page, what, 18?!

Lots to catch you all up on! As you can see...I've added my ticker! Yahoo! Although I've have a really bumpy few days...Friday was my first Beta, which was 86. My second Beta was Sunday, and my nurse called me to give me the results (because she knew I couldn't wait until Monday!). Anway, my b/w is testing a ton of things, not only hcg but stuff for my OHSS too. So, she started off by going over those levels first...then she says that my Beta was 77. And she said that could be one of two things, either not a good pregnancy OR a lab error. Well, I was beside myself upset on Sunday, DH has never seen me like that & all he could do was hold me close. To make matters worse, I had a head cold too. TWO hours later, I got another phone call from my nurse. She said she ran the numbers by my Dr & he insisted that the lab re-run the test. Well, they re-ran it and my Beta that time was 166! Needless to say we were thrilled, but so cautious too. I went in for an u/s on Monday for the OHSS, and they said they want to do b/w on Wednesday to make sure the Beta still rises....well it did! It hit 583! Yahoo! Which, in comparison to Tina0 and MBG is pretty low...so I'd have to say, I really think you two are having twins!!!!

[dancinnancy]

itsgottawork-
Please trust in the process and your Dr, our BFPs are proof that this works! We all know how hard this is & we're all pulling for you my dear! Much love to you and your DH!

[tinaO]

Hello all! Just a quick post to let you all know that I am thinking about you all and wanted to let you know that I freaked out a little today about my cramps which seemed to get worse. Anyway, I had a quick scan done (yes, sneaky me!) and we saw one nice little baby in its sac that already had the yolk, so we are thrilled. I guess I just need to relax. So hard to do! Anyway, I will type more later. Hugs to you all!

[BBdusts]

WOW TinaO, CONGRATULATION!!! Hahaha..... you always been very sneaky. What a relief! I think we all freak out if we feel cramps. I am thinking of doing an early scan too since I had painful cramps yesterday although not continuously.

The cramps lasted about 3-5 mins, then about 8-10 hrs it start again. The pain is at my lower abdomen and I could feel my vagina and anus in pain. I don't know whether any of you experience this or is it just another side effect of progesterone?

TinaO are you doing transvaginal scan or abdomen scan?

Love and Hugs

[4ourbaby]

Hi Girls,

I just wanted to give you a quick update on my doctor's visit today. It went better than I thought. The doctor spoke with the embryologist to try to figure out where we stand. They ran some additional tests and everything is still great with my DH. All the issues are with me

Basically, they can't really tell yet if it was just a bad cycle or if there are quality issues with my eggs. He doesn't feel that a laparoscopy is due just yet. He wants to try one more cycle and if that doesn't work, he will do another laparoscopy to check on the endometriosis and see if there are any other issues. Also, he doesn't feel that I will have any problems carrying a pregnancy because my uterus seems to be in good shape. So that was a relief.

The concern my DH and I had was that we only have one more shot with our insurance to try this. After that, we would have to pay completely out of pocket and who knows when we would be able to afford that. We've already spent around $15,000 and that's with our insurance covering the bulk of things for us. We explained this to the doctor and were completely floored by what he said.

He told us that they don't give up on their patients! He completely feels that IVF should work for us eventually. He told us to try one more time. If it doesn't work, he will do the laparoscopy and then give us an additional cycle for free....we would just pay facility fees...which is nothing compared to the full cost of IVF! Obviously, this was a relief. But even moreso was the fact that he would be willing to do this for us. He wouldn't waste his time, resources, or expense to attempt IVF again if he didn't think it could work. We couldn't believe our ears!

One thing he did say though, was not to come back until I was relaxed. He said stress is very detrimental to the cycle. I have to be able to look myself in the mirror and say, "I am going to have a baby!". So, I will have to work on this.

tinaO: Could you give me the name/author of that book you mentioned? You said that it really helped you with positive thinking. I think I could use that.

So, I don't know when we'll try again, but we'll probably take at least a full month off. In the meantime, I will try to relax and maybe work in some weekly accupuncture.

I feel somewhat relieved today as it seems I have additional options. It's not over til it's over!

MBG: Haha...I was on the other thread earlier with Edel and she kept calling you MGM...and I kept picturing the MGM Grand! What is with your name? Three little letters have caused so much confusion! It made me laugh out loud!

Hope you all are feeling well! Thanks for listening! xoxoxoxox

[nwquiz]

Well ladies just came from my first u/s and the doctor could only see a very small sac. nothing else. my hcg level not doubling like it should only at 1980 today 6weeks long. so am to have an induced abortion.
wish all the best to you continuing with your BFP.

[MBG]

4ourbaby: I am so glad to hear you had a good dr's visit. Your RE sounds amazing! (and I wanted to kick his butt earlier ) I have never heard of any dr or clinic offering to give anyone a free cycle.wow!! He does have a lot faith in you.....now you need to work on having faith in yourself......have you heard of the book "The Secret"? It is a great book about positve thinking....it might help you on your quest.

Sounds like you are on the right track my dear!

Happy Holidays!!

NWquiz: I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I don't know exactly what to say. I am just so sorry.

[tinaO]

Hello everyone!

4ourbaby - Yeah for you! I just have major positive thoughts going for you right now. I just know that something is going to work out for you. Why else would your RE be willing to invest his own money possibly to help you? You will get there!!! The book that I have read is the one MBG just mentioned: "The Secret". It really helps you to understand that you bring into your life what vibes you send out into the universe. I am starting to cry as I type this, but as much as I have tried to be so positive for everyone, I have sometimes been so very scared throughout all of this and I just had to keep listening to my husband and focus on what this book says: You have to think positive and you have to believe that this will work. So, I did! I would read the book and rub my belly and just think that it worked and I will be pregnant. The book tells you that if you are constantly sending out negative vibes then that is what you will get in return (and trust me - being such a Type A personality and being a perfectionist, I have definitely done that in the past - plenty!!) . But if you believe something is yours and you act as if you already have it, then it will happen. And if you are thinking like that, how can you be stressed, right??? I think stress has a lot to do with difficulty in getting pregnant. I exercised a lot (long walks/jogs) in the last year (partly because I ran a marathon in June) and just kept trying to focus on being relaxed and happy. I told myself that my brother & his wife got pregnant through IVF twice at this same clinic on the their first try - why wouldn't I?? I would definitely recommend exercise and accupuncture. I thought the accupuncture was weird at first, but it does help to relax you. I also think exercise is great because it gets your body into the optimal condition and is such a great stress relief! I don't know - I don't have all the answers. I know what worked for me I guess. A couple of quotes from the book I thought you might like:
"If you see it in your mind, you are going to hold it in your hand"
"Everything that's coming into your life you are attracting into your life. And its attracted to you by virtue of the images you're holding in your mind. It's what you are thinking. Whatever is going on in your mind you are attracting to you".
"All that we are is a result of what we have thought".

So, there you have it!!! You will be pregnant!!! Plain and simple!! We just have to make you think that every day!!! It will happen!!!

MBG - how you doing, girl? Have you started picking out names yet? Ha - my husband and I think we already have our names picked out. If it is a girl, it will be Sienna Grace. If it is a boy, we like Aiden Christian or Noah...but not sure on the middle name yet! I hope that stuff I sent you was good reading! Trust me - there will be more to come! I can't wait to find out if you are having one or two!!!

BBdusts - how are you??? Don't worry about the cramps! Here I was freaking out and there was our little baby already being an overachiever and developing the yolk sac and all!!! I still have the cramps, but it all looks great, so don't worry!!! You are fine! My cramps are in my lower abdomen as well. They did the vaginal scan when they did mine, checked out my ovaries, and everything. And then of course we checked out our little baby just chilling right where it should be!

Dancinnancy - Bless your heart!!! I can't believe there was a lab error!!! I feel for you!!! I am so happy for you - 583!!!! Whoo hoo!!!! Yeah!!! So excited that yours is taking off!!! Looks like a little baby is starting to get comfy in there!!!

itsgottawork - I am so sorry you are having a hard time. I remember when I would get AF after my failed IUI's and I would just get so pissed off and couldn't stand seeing it!! It was this horrible reminder that it didn't work - every day!!! Ughhhh!!! BUT!!!! If you look at is as a positive (I know, I know, hard to do), and that it is getting you one step closer to starting again and having what you really want, maybe it won't be so bad! I don't know. I know how hard it is, I just want you to have positive thoughts and hope. I mean, there are sooo many women who go through this multiple times and then it works!!! But I also know it is hard. Just know we are here for you. And when you are starting again, we will be here to support you!! It will happen for you, too!!

nwquiz - I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know it is so hard and confusing and scary and upsetting. We wish you the very best. Will you try again soon? So sorry you have to go through this at this time of year.

Ok ladies, I am off to get the house ready for the mother-in-law who is coming in tonight from Arizona and we are having all kinds of friends over for Christmas Eve for dinner. I am cooking - scary!!! Best wishes to all of you!!!

[MBG]

Hello everyone!

I just wanted to wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS!! Everyone has been through so many emotions this past month or so...I hope everyone can take the time to relax and enjoy the Holiday!

TinaO: I love your baby names....my dh and I have gone back and forth on names since we got married.....I know we both like Emory James for a girl...but the boy names are little tougher for us....I sent you a e-mail on foods and serving sizes from the What to expect website...let me know if don't get it...So many food restrictions!!!UGH!!

Happy Holidays everyone!!

MBG

[BBdusts]

Season's Greetings,

My DH and I would like to Wish all Merry Christmas. May this Christmas be filled with care, love, smile, share, peace, and joy. I know this month, we all have gone through lots of challenges. I hope we can use this joyful day to relax and enjoy.

nwquiz: I am sorry to hear your loss. I hope time will help to heal your pain and I wish all the best for you. Don't give up!! Always believe that God has His own plan for you!! Pls let keep in touch with us.


I went to u/s yesterday since I am having severe cramps and I just worried I might have ectopic pregnancy. The u/s only show a very small sac without yolk and my DH was quite happy that the doctor ruled out ectopic pregnancy. Though the doctor said its too early to judge, still I am quite worried the slow development. I am going for another scan next week, I am praying my sac is growing and showing his yolk. Why my worries never ends???

Ok try not to think too much this time I leave everything to God!!
Happy Holiday

Baby dust to you all Ho Ho Hoooo......

[BBdusts]

Well its New Year Eve, I just wanna say goodbye. Today, I went for 2nd scan and the sac is not growing. The doctor felt sorry for us. Though I mentally prepared for the worst outcome, I still cried. I just can't help it. The doctor still told us to give another week to have another scan, but I don't think the result is promising.

It's good to go for check because I can start a fresh new year. For now, I just need my DH to accompany me, hug me and love me. That is a bless enough for me.

We also have decided to give another try to conceive naturally for few months or may be IUI. Hope I can success, if not well I will go for FET since I still have 3 frozen embries.

TinaO, MBG and Dancinnancy -- I wish you all the best and keep on fighting. I hope to read good news about you.

Happy New Year Everyone. May the New Year 2008 bring us Happiness beyond imagination

Take Care