Awaiting Treatment

[waitingforMia]

Miracle I have had so many BFNs in 8 years of ttc, I will be fine with one more. BUt I think the site says in order to make it here by VDAY I have to order it before 12 noon EST I am 30 minutes late. Hmmm...

[Miracle08]

I hope you know I am not trying to be a "downer!" I just know that would be really hard.

Well that sucks!! That was a really good idea!!You could always get a shirt or bib that says I love my Daddy!

[Miracle08]

http://www.cafepress.com/buy/ivf/-/pv_d ... pt_/c_666/

I love this one too!!!

[Miracle08]

Have you seen the one that says, From injection to Conception!! How cute.

[waitingforMia]

I went ahead and ordered it. It might make it. I know you aren't being a downer. Everyone reacts differently to BFNs - I am sad for a day, but then I know being sad won't help and I just keep pluggin along. BUT this time I will get my BFP Hopefully the shirt will come in on time.
Yeah I like the 5 things tshirt also!

[Miracle08]

Hey guys,

I am bummed. I found out that a girl I know is PG again. She just had her first baby four months ago, and now she is expecting again. The thing is, she doesnt even realize how lucky she has it. I am so tired of everyone around me getting pg. I dont want to hear about it, I dont want to hear how happy they are, I dont want to know how bad you have it. I just cry now when I hear someone I know is PG. I try really hard not to. My DH doesnt seem to get it. I think he tries to comfort me, but I think he thinks I am over reacting. I am so jealous and I know that is wrong. I hate it. I know I probably sound like a childish brat but that is how I feel. I know all you girls have been through this and you all have been through so much more then I have. I am sorry for sounding like a brat. I am just so stinking tired of IF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I shouldn't but I am starting to
question God. How does he chose the ones to go through this terrible journey?

[chriss]

Hi Miracle,

I think we all feel that way at one time or another. I too find myself crying and jealous when others are pregnant. It happens over and over again. Then I try to pick myself up and think of all the things I am grateful for. I think about all the times things did go my way and I thank God for those things. Then I keep praying that this too will come my way. Faith is believing when the eyes don't see it yet. So hang in there. One of the things that I am grateful for is finding this message board to help me with the ups and downs of IF. I am thankful for you.
-chriss

[waitingforMia]

Miracle I know how you feel hun. Most ppl have no idea what a miracle getting pg is!It is natural to be upset, we all go through different phases at different times.

ABout God... If you ask me when sin entered the world, so did sickness, that is a result of sin. God does not go around choosing ppl to be sick, it is a natural progression. Thankfully God has allowed medicine to go to great lengths to bring us or miracles

And you don't sound like a brat IF SUCKS! no doubt about it!

HUGS!!
MP

[pequele]

Steph, Plus, all that progesterone gives ya false symptoms. DO you fell anything? When do you test? Is it blood or PEE-PEE?

chriss

yeh I have heard some people getting their progesterone levels checked too. Thank GOD that is one less thing to deal with. Makes me wonder why for iuiers they can use a vag suppository of progesterone but ivfers have to stab their arses! Makes no sense.

I feel twinges though I'm not trying to read too much in to it only cuz I thought I felt like this the last time too and that turned out to be crap I just think at this point I am so hypersensitive to everything too. It is only day 5 after so I kinda feel like there is no way the things I am feeling are actual symptoms....it is all in my head haha. I did poas again this morn to see if the trigger is all out...nope not quite yet but alllllmost there!

Ugh...why can't I have my bfp now

Steph

[waitingforMia]

Ugh...why can't I have my bfp now

Steph

DITTO!!

[chriss]

Steph, I want my BFP now TOO. For me it's day 8 post iui. I too am making up some symptoms in my head. We are hyper sensitive. My boobs have been sore for a few days, but that's common for AF and Pregnancy. I think IVF requires progesteron shots because when they go in there to get the eggs, they compromise the follicles. The ruptured follicles are what signals the body to produce progesterone. During IUI, the follicles are not taken out so most likely, the body produces the progesterone on its own. THe suppositories are probably a milder form of progesterone. Now do I sound impressive?

How do you do the quote thing? It's probably very easy, right????

[pequele]

Chriss: I feel nothing but the need to pee a lot.

oooo that sounds promising!!!!


you have such willpower, too! I actually love to poas! Well actually that is my only choice anyways cuz my doc doesn't do bloodwork unless you get a bfp on the hpt, I have no choice. POAS is addictive like crack and i'm their whore

Steph

[Miracle08]

Thanks Chriss and Mia. You girls are right. God didnt "give" this to us. I just get so upset and sad. Now I have to go apologize to GOD.

I just hope all of us girls get our BFP this year...

[stephjim]

Hello All!! I am back and just in a little shell shock between them poking at my uterus and sitting down with the IVF nurse and then sitting down with the financing person. Of course my office does not offer any type of financing. You would think that if they were rated #8 in the country by Child Magazine that they would have some sort of financing option, right?

So just working on how we are going to pay for everything. The big chunk has to come on the 5th of March. So here is my timeline right now.

I continue taking BCP until Feb 29th. They gave me two extra BCP so I would not have to buy a new pack. On Feb 29th I take my last BCP and then start Lupron once a day. I got a nice surprise and for some reason my pharmacy insurance covered that so instead of 199.00 it was 13.00 but that and the Progesterone shots are the only thing I found to be covered. So it saved me a very small amt compared to the over all bill. Then on March 5th we go for our IVF appt and on that day I will also start my Bravelle and Menopur. That is the day I officially go really a lot more in debt. With that the retrieval will probably fall somewhere around the 18th of March. We are doing ICSI as well as Assisted Hatching since I am over 35 and older and since he has a low number of good boys.

The mock transfer was uncomfortable because as I think I told you guys before I have a very narrow opening to my cervix so they had to dilate it. FUUUUNNNN!!! It felt really weird when he put that fluid in me almost like an enema. HEE HEE.

I also got my HIV/HEP test today and DH goes for his Thursday.

I am really scared and I am trying to stay really positive about it all. This is a lot of money but it will be worth it right????

Hope everyone is doing well. I am waiting on dinner to finish and am talking to the bank right now.

I will check back in in a sec.

[pequele]

Stephjim: b/w for me. But I might POAS while I wait for the nurse. I'dlike to be prepared.

What do you girls think about lifting heavy things during the 2ww? I picked up my god-daughter (3yrs) yesterday w/o thinking. I know pg ppl lift heavy things, but I read that the strain can tear the placento from the womb or something. I am sure nothing happened yesterday, but I want to be careful...

I wouldn't stress over it. Think about athletes or other strenuous lifestyles of women who get preggers and don't even know it. Heck look at all the druggies who get pregnant at the drop of a hat and don't take vitamins or take care of themselves! Don't you think that if picking up a 3 yr old is detrimental to pregnancy everyone would be a single child

Steph