Feb/Mar 08 Cycle Buddies

[LB]

I am pretty devastated right now - RE himself just called and my cycle is officially cancelled. Apparently my estrogen levels plummeted, and therefore the eggs won't be good quality this cycle. He stopped giving me medicine so I wouldn't overstimulate, and instead it caused my estrogen to drop, even though the follicles kept growing. He claims it is his fault, but that makes me feel no better. I meet with him Monday to talk about next steps, but right now I don't even know if I can go through this rollercoaster again - 2 times now and I have not made it transfer.

I wish you all luck this cycle, but don't know if I'll be posting much for now. You are in my thoughts.

[itsgottawork]

Lisa - I am so SO sorry to hear about your cycle. I hope you get a chance to relax a bit and regroup a little before your meeting with the dr on Monday. It is nice that he called you directly and that he is willing to take ownership of the problem. I do hope he can provide you with answers and good next steps when you are ready.
My heart goes out to you and your husband. I wish you all the best for the future!

[itsgottawork]

indie_rad - I am sending you tons of good follie vibes! I hope you get great results on Friday. Last time around, I remember my ultrasounds varied quite a bit from one to next. Sometimes I think it isn't helpful to get all these details all along as we can look at them all so much. I hope all of your follies grow big and strong and at the same rate! Good luck on Friday!

[IrishHope]

Lisa - I am very sorry to have read your post! Your RE sounds warm/genuine and I am hoping Monday you have a good conversation and decide what is best for you and DH...I am sure it feels overwhelming to even think of another cycle....let yourself sort thru your emotions...all the best...

indie_rad - don't get discouraged just yet...you have time and I bet your follies grow like weeds by your next u/sound...

My nurse called w/some final instructions for tomorrow and told me to drink lots of water/gatorade after as a precaution of OHSS...my E2 level is 2843 with 14 follicles...no clue really what it all means...just want tomorrow at 330pm to be here so the E/R is over with...

thanks all for the guidance - I'll just use water on my hair, brush my teeth and nothing scented...

[JustJenis]

Indie.. I was there where you are!! Mine stopped at 10mm for awhile. But they will catch up. I started out with 7, that grew to 10 and that went to 13... tomorrow I'm going into ER with 7 eggs between 17-20mm. So untill the end of the stims.. I had no idea what would develop. They do though. You just keep doing your meds and taking it easy.. it'll work out!! I know it's sad, scarey and nerve wracking.. but it'll work out.

*HUGS* Hang in there.. you're almost through the hardest part.

[LostGirl]

RunnerKate,
Hope all goes well today at your ET. I can't wait to hear how it all went and for you to get a BFP in two weeks.

best,
lostgirl

[cathann]

Well, I talked to my doctor today (not a nurse, but the doc herself). It looks like neither of our 2 eggs fertilized. She said that I had been on the most aggressive protocol and the strongest meds, etc....that we had "pulled out all the stops". If we want to try again it will have to be with an egg donor. All this time we thought the only problem was with DH....guess we're both messed up.

Anyway, I'm going to leave you wonderful ladies (at least for a while until we decide exactly what we're going to do). Thank you all for your prayers and support. I wish you all the very best of luck....I hope and pray you are ALL successful.

Best wishes,
Cathann

[itsgottawork]

Oh Cathann, I am sorry to hear about your eggs not fertilizing. That is a sad way to end this cycle. I hope you and your DH can take some down time and think about things and see how you feel about next steps.
This is a long journey, full of lots of bumps and I wish you all the best as you cope with this cycle and figure out what to do next.
Good Luck!

[IrishHope]

Cathann - Stay strong you will be missed here!

[kbat]

Lisa and Cathann--I am really sorry to hear about your heartaches . I know how I felt after each time. Each time, I wasn't really sure if I would continue..... Good luck w/ whatever you decide. (I know that each time I was always told to go w/ donor eggs, but since that's not the route my dh and I wanted to take, I just thought I would take a roll of the dice.)

Off tonight to drive up to where they do e/r (in Lexington, MA). Due to traffic in the Boston area and the early time that we have to be there we are spending the night there. This will be my 6th and last try, and I know that whatever is meant to be, will be. I am hoping that it will work out for me, but I am finally prepared to move on w/ my life should this not work out. My dh doesn't want to adopt, so whatever happens, happens. I am hoping and praying for a good outcome, but I am ready to accept it if it doesn't work out.

I'll let you all know how it goes in a few days!!
Kara

[kbat]

Irishhope---GOOD LUCK tomorrow. The way things have been working out, I think things will go well for both of us!!! I have to be there in the morning at 7:30. We are heading up a little later on after 128 rush is over. We'll check into the hotel and then go get a nice dinner. Then settle in and try to get a good nights sleep, and head into clinic around 7:15. I am kind of excited, but really nervous as this is our last shot. If it doesn't work out it'll be disappointing, but I am prepared for whatever happens. I do plan to go back to work on Friday. It's the only cycle that I've actually had to work through, but in the past, usually by the next day, I feel o.k. Plus I sit at my job, so it's not to strenuous. When I had my lap a in Nov. 2006, I had it the day before Thanksgiving. We decided to stay home just to the 2 of us, but I really wasn't as sore as they claimed I would be.

Keep us posted.

Kara

[indie_rad]

cathann, lisa - I am so sorry to see that you wont be able to go ahead with this cycle. I know this can all be really hard. Stay strong. All the best for whatever you decide to do. Hope everything works out.

JustJenis, IrishHope, itsgottawork - thanks for all the encouragement and follie vibes.. I am going to stay positive.

kbat, justjenis - good luck with your ER tomorrow.

[RunnerKate]

Lisa, Cathann--I am so sorry for you. This is such a heart-breaking process. But, you have to remember that this is a marathon, not a sprint and you will find a way to complete your family sometime.

I had my ET today. My parents made it in time with about 5 minutes to spare. My mom went back with me and held my hand. She was fascinated with the process. I just closed my eyes and wanted it to be over and done with. It didn't hurt as much as the IUI or the HCG. I had only 2 embryos of sufficient quality....they were two 8 cell embryos, but no other information about the quality of them. I slept for about two hours after I got back from the ET and then felt 100% fine. We went for a walk around Old Town Alexandria with my folks and hubby. I ate crabs, shrimp, and salmon for dinner, which I should probably stop eating now.

DID ANYONE TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN'T HAVE SEX FOR THE 2 WW AND IF YOU ARE PREGNANT FOR THE FIRST TRIMESTER? WHAAATTT????

[JustJenis]

no sex for 3 months???? ARe you kidding me?? They told you that?

[LostGirl]

Cathann and Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles. How hard. I'll be sending you good vibes. I had my first cycle get canceled and it did set me back for weeks. But eventually I found my way out of the cesspool of negative thoughts.

RunnerKate, My doc told me no sex during the two ww and then up until the first heartbeat. It seems like a long time to wait, but hell, I went a wee bit nutty while waiting so sex was the least of my concerns! Get some rest. Rest even if you don't think you need to. And NO RUNNING.

lostgirl