Hi Ladies <mwah!>
Totally lost on this site, so much going on - the last time i logged on i was on page 309 or summit, and now its like page 328

- so am just gonna go back as far as my topic review will let me, and apologies if i have missed anything important - im sure u ladies will keep me informed!
jen babes wrote:Congratulations waiting for Mia and Pequele ...on your BFP's... hope betas keep rising x x xx x x [/color][/b]
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STEPH - OMG Steph - did u get a BFP - oh shit i didnt even ralise it was time for ur test yet - oh im soooooooooooo happy for you

I cant belive i missed that!!!!!! Wooooo Hooooooooo
ICSI GIRL wrote:
new chris ---

!!!! so where in MI are you?? and what clinic you going to??? only asking cuz i also live in MI as steph said.....as all the other gals said --- we ROCK -- the best thread out here -- by FAR!!!!! you've come to exactly the right place!!! nice to have you on board!!!
Jeeze - who is New Chris - what happened to the old one lol -
Hello Chris <waves> i'm not normaly this s l o w - but i havent been here for a few hours (lol - ok a few days - but sometimes u can get page after page in just a few hours here lol) Anyhow, welcome - u have deff come to the right place, ladies here are wonderful

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ICSI GIRL wrote:
SO -- new clinic......TOTALLY FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not going back to old clinic.....nope......(i was afraid this might happen) new RE (LOVE, LOVE, LOVE HER) says "you don't need a gestational carrier.....this is not about YOU.......it is your HUSBANDS SMOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (nice)........says the carcinogens (sp??) directly affect the dna make up of little spermies and that causes them to be fragmented ------ which causes embies to "start out good" -- but just not be able to hang in for the long haul..........says she needs him to quit for 72 days --- thats how long it takes to make new swimmers....... that he can smoke himself dead after we get what we need, but thats what it will take at this point.....she's CONFIDENT that this is the issue based on my history and prior med protocols.....she doesn't think is "implant failure" issue at all..........YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she also discussed donor sperm --- just saying that IF there was an ounce of interest in going this route --- that she'd switch me to IUI cuz wouldn't need IVF ($$$)..........AND -- she's SO confident that this is the issue that she's willing to go to bat to get us into the refund guarantee program!!!!! unfortunately - dh did not go to this appt w/ me.....and i honestly don't know if he can/will stop (???) so i have some more bridges to cross, but i'm real excited about the new direction!!!!! i'm SO glad you guys talked me into setting up appt at new clinic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wooooo Hoooooo - sounds like a great clinic hun, am so happy that YOUR happy - thats all that matters. Now get DH off the ciggies (bluch!) and get his taddies up to scratch and away to go

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Jen1d wrote:
Girls
This is going to sound very selfish but i dont know if i cant come onto the site much longer. I am having real problems and feel so low and am just so unhappy. I just want to have some good news and unfortunately that is never going to happen now. Having my Own baby was stripped from me after cycle no 4 and i cant deal with the pain any longer.
Yes i have a chance of adoption but although i'm sure it will be great---doesnt feel like it just now----i cant help grieve for me and dh's own child.
I feel visiting the site just now is too painful. Might feel different about this in a week, 1 month, 3 months who knows. Hope you understand.
Just to let you know i passed all my stuff and was accepted for the police so have that to focus on and have the social worker visiting weekly to do our forms for the Panel, so i'm hoping this will keep me busy and try to help heal the pain.
Good Luck to everyone
Love Jen x
Totally understand where u are comming from Jen, i am so sorry that your feeling like this and wish there was something i could do to take it all away and make things better - i dont like to see you unhappy, i think that given time you will feel a lot better that how u feel now - is there any sites for adoptive parents where u can go and chat about how u are feeling - these are all normal feelings and no one can blame u for feeling like this - ur a wonderful person who has so much love to give - i pray that one day you breath a sigh of relief and move on with your adoptive baby, cos u are gonna make a fantastic mum. My love to u and ur DH xxx
Hello to everyone else, hope ur all well
I have a strange question ladies, will give u a bit of warning tho - it might be a bit TMI - u have been warned!!
Remember a few weeks back when we were discusing 'ovulation' and knowing when u were ovulating. Well i got my AF on 31st Jan so my time for ovulation would be around 13th/14th/15th Feb. 3 days ago i knew i was ovulating because i always get the dull period like pain below, when i go to the toilet, i wipe and its a clear discharge, like egg whites! So then on Tuesday evening driving home from work i had a really sharp pain in my left side - it happened twice and both times lasted for about 30 seconds - the only way i can describe it, was like feeling my egg 'pop' out of my ovary! I didnt hink nothing else about it, but when i went to the toilet later on, i had spotting (brownish color) on my panty liner (i still wear panty liner every day cos of my bum problems) i tried not to think nothing else about it, and put it put it out of my head! Then last night i went to the toilet because i thought AF had started cos i felt all wet, there was brownish blood on my pany liner again, but this time - when i wiped there was a red blop of blood!
Hav any of u ladies have had this happen to them when they are ovulating. Today is back to normal, the clear egg white discarge is going but i still have slight AF achy aches! Anyone shed any light on whats happening? I do remember many mths ago getting the same thing happen (without the pain) and my AF was near on 5 weeks late - i did all the tests and everything was normal - negative etc - im praying that his isnt gonna make my next AF late - as i want to start tmt on my next one (she due 28th)
Sorry for that being a bit TMI - but i have no one else i can ask!
Work is mega busy i havent been able to get online at all as i am having training - i will say tho, that its much better there, and i can put my hand on my heart and say - im glad i stayed
P.S - Im watching American Idol - u have a woman from Dublin on there (with tattoos down her shoulder) she bloody brilliant!!!!!
Anyway, ive babbled on again enuff tonight - please any help with the ovulating i would appreciate it .... thanks
Becky Xxx
PPS - Steph - still so bloody pleased for you my dear

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