Feb/Mar 08 Cycle Buddies

[brs888]

Maybe I missed this somewhere, but CornyBaby, did I see that you're having identical twins?! That is so amazing! After that roller coaster you were on I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now?!

Sue, just wait for the Beta...you never know...just ask Cornybaby

Congrats to all of the BFPs...and as for those orgasms??? Can't say I have been so luck

Brandy

[jen8675309]

Good Evening IVF Sisters!

Hope all is doing well tonight. I got my "official BFP" today --- 608!!! I am SO EXCITED! Of course, I was tested 14 days past my 3 day transfer, but 608 still seems high to me, does anybody know if it is?

Sue ~ Did you get your beta?? Can't wait to hear about it! Hope you are doing well....

Keita ~ How are you doing? Are you keeping busy during your 2WW? Good luck!!

KBear ~ Good for you to go away for the weekend. That will be perfect for you to help make the time go by faster!! Yeah, I'm not one to give advice about POAS! Of course I would encourage it!! I had the exact same pains that you have been having and I got a BFP! We are going to have wonderful Christmas presents this year!!

Jill ~ How are you doing?? Hopefully your 5 embies are doing well!

Mrs. G ~ How is your rash? Hope you are doing well!

Have a great evening!

[J&C]

Jen - CONGRATULATIONS on your BFP!!!!! My beta was 84 at 11dp3dt, so I would think that 608 at day 14 is perfect!

Keita - I think the orgasms at night were discussed on the Jan/Feb thread.

This is all still sinking in for me. Our next beta is tomorrow, and I'm freaked out that it's not going to be where it needs to be. This whole "being out of control" thing is for the birds. [Spoken like a true type-A personality....UGH!!] I'm just praying that it goes up, and that we can schedule our u/s. Of course, then I'll be freaked out for the u/s...hoping that everything is attached where it's suppose to be. I'm figuring out that this roller coaster never ends. *sigh*

**Warning - LONG post ahead**

Sue - I think you asked why it's taken us 5 years. Long story short, we tried for the 1 obligatory year on our own. We tried Clomid with my OBGYN, then he referred us to RE #1 who was a very small woman of about 80 lbs. [Oh - I wish I had her body structure, but I do not.] Anyway, she wouldn't do any tests and told me to loose 30 lbs.

With the PCOS that I have, it's super hard to loose weight. I saw a nutritionist and was up to exercising for 2 hours 6 days a week, and only lost 10 pounds in about 10 months. VERY frustrating. Then I switched jobs to a position where I travel a lot, and all of my good exercise went out the window.

Very depressed and a year later, I heard a co-worker talk about his wife having PCOS, so I changed to their OBGYN, and I LOVE that doctor. He basically said that RE #1 should have never blown me off and was a "dork", trying to use nice words here. We tried 3 months of Femara (like Clomid - which of course, didn't work). I started with RE #2 in November of 2007. He immediately did a hysteogram (sp? - dye test) and found that I have a blocked tube, recommended IVF and here we are.

With PCOS, it really messes with your hormones, and I think that I rarely, if ever, processed mature eggs. Plus with a blocked tube, I only have a chance every other month if it even worked. They usually treat PCOS with BCP, but you don't want to take those when you're trying to get pregnant - UGH!!!

Anyway, when we started the BCP for this IVF cycle, I literally haven't felt that good in YEARS. DH was like - whatever combination of medicine you are on now, let's get back on that when this process is over.

Anyway....that was a longer explanation that I thought it would be, but that's our story. It's really taught me to seek out good healthcare and to be in charge of my own treatment. The good thing about our 2 year desert, as I like to refer to it, is that it forced DH and I to worked through our emotional issues and really brought us closer together. So when RE #2 said let's do IVF, we were like, bring it on. We didn't even hesitate.

[Mrs. G]

Good Evening IVF Sisters!

Hope all is doing well tonight. I got my "official BFP" today --- 608!!! I am SO EXCITED! Of course, I was tested 14 days past my 3 day transfer, but 608 still seems high to me, does anybody know if it is?

Mrs. G ~ How is your rash? Hope you are doing well!

Have a great evening!

OMG Jen YEY!! What a wonderful Beta! That sounds great! Maybe you have 2 in there???

My rash is still here it lightened up some today and nauseous kicked in some more... That has to be good news!!

J&C - Im sending positive thoughts your way for tomorrow, Im sure everything will be fine! Goodluck and can't wait to hear about your beta!

[jen8675309]

J&C ~ Thanks for the congrats... Your story is amazing! You are such a trooper, and an inspiration! I am positive that your beta will atleast double tomorrow. Can't wait to hear the results!!!!!!

Mrs. G ~ Glad your rash is better. Congrats on the nauseousness (never thought I would ever congrat someone for that!) That is AWESOME and a fantastic sign!!

[cornybaby]

Jen - congrats on such a GREAT beta! Wow. Good for you.

J&C - hoping for a big number for you tomorrow!

Courtney - yay for AF! Now you can get started on the 2nd time! I'm praying for you.

kbear - how's the 2ww going? Keep up the PMA and remember the 2nd time's a charm!

BRS888 - yep...you heard correctly! It's identical twins for us! We still can't believe it. We were able to hear and see the heartbeats and I gotta tell you, it is the most amazing thing I have ever heard or seen.

Still praying for all of you, and SUE - don't let that negative HPT fool you! Mine was still showing negative even on the day of my 2nd beta...so you really never know. It could be a false negative.

Hugs to you all....

[kbat]

I know I haven't posted for a while (for some reason it won't notify when a reply is posted, even though I have it checked off), but Congratulations to everyone who have gotten BFP. that's wonderful!!!!

Anyway, I've been back to trying on my own for the next few months--just can't afford to do this out of pocket. I will continue w/ acupuncture and chinese herbs probably until the summer and then move on if nothing happens.

good luck to everyone.

[Jill_n_Mark]

Just another update...

Stimming
Jak40 - Lupron 3/7
June2 - stims

ER
Jak40 - 3/31

ET

2WW / HCG tests
AmandaM - 2/26 - BFP turned BFN
Cornybaby – 3/3 - BFP ...and it's TWINS!!!
Runnerkate – 3/5 - BFP
Justjenis – 3/6 - BFP
Kbat – 3/6 - BFN
Beaner – 3/7 - BFN
Irishhope – 3/7 - BFN
Indie-rad – 3/10 - BFP turned BFN
brs888 - 3/14 - BFP
Kimbers312 - 3/17 - BFN
itsgottawork - 3/21 - BFP
J&C - 3/23 - BFP
jen8675309 - 3/24 - BFP
Sue Hu - 3/24
phillips79 - 3/24
keita - 3/28
kbear - 4/1
Jill_n_Mark - 4/4

Good Luck to Jak40 and June2 with stims are wherever you are...please update us!

Sticky baby dust to Keita, Kbear and myself who remain in the 2WW!!!

Congrats to all those BFPs! How wonderful and Cornybaby with twins

[JustJenis]

CORNY!!!

I was wondering where on earth you've been. I swear girl you should write a book on your story. It's been such a roller coaster for you. And to think they wanted to give up.. Hope they eat those words and feel bad.

TWINS?!!! OMG!! That truly is amazing. How are you feeling??

*HUGS*
JEnis

[Jill_n_Mark]

Good morning Ladies!

I am feeling good....like my old self, finally...my ovaries are still swollen but I do not have anymore pain. As for the 5 babies...we were both ok with xferring all of them b/c of what happened last time. We thought it over, and the RE said they were not freezable, and decided to give them all a fighting chance. We would have always wondered if we xferred 3 and got BFN...what if one of the remaining 2 would have given us that BFP..so we said put them all back in where they belong.

I know this may sound silly, but I have been coaching them along...talking to my babies all the time and praying for them to make it. I know that I will not be given more than I can handle so I am leaving it to God as to how many (if any) will stick and make it!

Talk to you later and congrats again to all the BFPs

[Sue Hu]

Hello Ladies!

So, we got the official BFN yesterday. It was 'nice' to be prepared for it.. especially since I was at work. Geez, u should have seen the disappointment on all my co-workers' (all women) faces :-/

BUT, I have to tell you.. it was very nice to have my first glass of wine last night after like 2 months.

So, i just left a message for my RE to call me sometime in the next week to discuss next steps.
We are very lucky to have our insurance cover 3-4 cycles... I CANNOT imagine the extra stress of all the expenses.

Oh, and we decided to start doing acupuncture. I read some positive things about it possibly helping w/ male and/or female infertility and it helping w/ IVF success. If nothing else.. it will be a good stress reducer as DH has e VERY demanding, stressful career... that is not going away anytime soon :-/.
Has anyone else tried this?

Good luck to all.

Sue

[itsgottawork]

Cornybaby - Identical twins!!! Your story continues to amaze me! Congratulations! I am so happy to hear that it worked out so well after such a crazy beginning!

Jen8675309 and J&C - Congrats on your betas!!

Sue Hu - I am sorry to hear about your BFN. I haven't tried accupuncture but have read on this site that many people have had success with it. I wish you all the best in your next cycle!

Jill - Good luck with your 5 embies! I think it is great that you talk to them and encourage them to stick!

Things here are good. My second beta was yesterday - 1328. That's all they do at my clinic. I have my first ultrasound on Friday and then another one in 2 weeks and then I am off to the regular OB. It is going by quickly. I am excited and every step also makes me nervous.

Good luck to all! Keita, kbear and Jill_n_Mark - I hope the rest of the 2ww goes by quicky for you!

[kbear4211]

CORNY: OMG Identical twins, that is so fantastic. You saw their little heartbeats and everything. What was the RE's reaction? I'm sure your entire case is a learning experience for them. I am so happy for you.

JEN: CONGRATS ON YOUR OFFICIAL BFP!!!!!!!!! 608 seems high, but recently there have been lots of high betas with singletons. Either way, that is wonderful. I do see we have a lot of similar symptoms, but I am taking a downward turn in my PMA. When you said it felt like your crotch was falling out, what exactly did you mean?


I am having a horrible day. Along with all of the things going on in my body, I found out that a wonderful beautiful 33 year old woman I know may die today of cancer. I am saying prayers, but she has been fighting hard for a year and her kind of cancer is uncurable. It is just awful. Sometimes I wonder if my worries or heartache are justified when this type of thing happens.

Now, I went to acupuncture last night. Supposed to relax me, well guess what, not this time. When I went to this woman last week just after transfer (because my regular acupuncturist had an emergency in China), she said something like, "I can tell from the pulses (a few different ones in the wrist) whether a patient is pregnant or not, and I have never been wrong. But, when women are on progesterone, most times it feels like they are whether they are or not". Well, last night, she is feeling my pulses and shaking her head no. I asked her why, she said, "I was just losing focus, but I'm glad you asked, so you don't worry". Too late for that. The treatment was short, not near as good as the last one. It just gave me a bad feeling overall, like she knows it didn't work. My DH is upset with her that something that was supposed to relax me has now upset me, but I don't know how to control that.

My mouth is better, but not completely healed, so I am dealing with that. And, now I am having all kids of pains in my abdomen area. I have had some pressure and pains. I don't remember exactly what last time felt like, but at the end of my 2ww, I had similar symptoms. I am worried that this is just my uterus getting tired of this thick lining and wanting to escape. My family keeps telling me that I need to think positive thoughts, but they are not in my body feeling these things. I am almost convinced that this will end the exact same way last time did. I feel like my heart is breaking.

For those of you who have been through this 5,6.7 times, I don't know how you do it, because this is my 2nd and I want to be strong, but if this doesn't work, I don't know if I can do this again. This is so hard!!!!!!!!!

Sorry I unloaded, but I don't know what to think. I am trying to stay positive, but it is not working very well. Sorry for unloading on you all. But, you all know better than anyone how hard this all is.

Thanks,

Kris

[riogirl71]

Kbear- I am so sorry you are having a bad day sweetie. It is really horrible news when someone so young and undeserving gets such a terrible disease, I m so sorry for your friend. I know things like that sometimes make our worries seem small, but they are not because they are OUR worries and they matter to us. You have every right to be consumed with your thoughts since all of us here are
I am also sorry about your acupuncturist, I wouldn't go see her again until after your beta. Please don't let what she said upset you. It is her word that she can tell and it could be, and is, bogus. Believe in all the girls here who are praying so hard for you that you and DH get your BFP! I had all kinds of pulling and pains in my 2WW, at times I thought AF was coming for sure so don't let those weird pains get to you. It is hard to stay positive especially with all the hormones wreaking havoc in our minds. Try to do something relaxing or eat a treat you enjoy, rent a fun movie and please keep the PMA, I know it is easier said then done sweetie, I said a prayer last night and asked for your BFP and I will continue to pray for you and keep my fingers crossed! You are in the right place to vent!

[J&C]

I'm pretty freaked out right now. Beta #2 was today, and it is only 140. My first beta, 2 days ago, was 84. So my RE wants to do more b/w in 2 days. I'm so scared that this is going to end up as a chemical pregnancy.