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Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Sun May 25, 2008 12:06 pm

Ladies,

Ive started spotting this morning we are praying to god that its implantation, but deep down ladies, i know - i know my own body and i know my AF is about to come - she will be here by 2mrw eveing if not sooner ....

Im trying not to cry, but its dam hard - this was our last go - im so angry at the clinic cos we only got 1 dam egg - i fee sick with worry - just dont know what to do ... i just wish this dam AF wud hurry up an arrive so i can get on with things and have a dam good cry

Has anyone had implantation bleeding, please tell me what it looks like - what can i expect - i dont know if i can go on like this wondering no more ... is it too late really for implantation? Please, be honest with me ladies .... i wud rather have the truth ....

Thanks

Ems1971 · Post by **Ems1971** » Sun May 25, 2008 12:31 pm

Becky, honey. I don't want to get your hopes up too much but I have to tell you that I was due to test on the Thurs, and on the Sat before I started spotting. I was convinced it was over as you know, especially because it had happened about the same time on the previous IVF. Anyway, it was a browny red colour and stayed around for a couple of days then disappeared. On the Tues morning I woke up and was spotting again, it was the same colour, but this time there was a lot more of it. I was convinced it was AF coming, so to put me out of my misery I did a test, and hey presto....BFP!!

So, don't give up on that PMA! Hang on in there, its not necessarily over yet. I was told mine was implantation bleeding. So, that's what it could be.

I am praying hard and keeping everything crossed for you. God, I know what you're going through!!!

Love Ems xxx

Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Sun May 25, 2008 2:25 pm

Thanks Ems xxx

Its hard to explain what its like - when i went to the loo this morning and i wiped - it was like goo, thick and stickey - but only a tiny bit of blood in it, when i wiped again, the toliet roll just looked stained - no traces of blood, just a stain.
Each time ive been back to the toliet (and trust me, there has been a lot of knicker checking going on) it hasnt got worse, sometimes there is some there - other times there is nothing - last time i went i poked about (sorry tmi lol) and wot came out was like (oh god, sorry for TMI) snobs, but a brownish colour with one spot of blood on it????

My period pains are really bad and im sure this is the start of it all, im not getting my hopes up tho, cos im frightened to hold onto any hope, incase i come down with a bang.

I really appreciate u telling me Ems, cos ur implantation would be the same day as mine (today = 5 days to go till test) so i have that in the back of my mind, i suppose i will find out in next 24 hours if AF arrives, if not i think i too will test on Tuesday - just to put me out of my misery u know ...

Thanks again hun, i really do appreciate all ur help and advise ...

Xxxxx

Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Mon May 26, 2008 11:47 am

Nothing there today ... so am praying that its stopped and that it was what im praying it was

Still have bad AF pains on and off tho!!!

Xxx

Where are you all ladies ........

nic4 · Post by **nic4** » Mon May 26, 2008 12:09 pm

Hi Becky...

When i nfinally got my BFP with Jack,i had exactly the same pains id had on my previous 3 BFNs..Id promised Derek id do no HPTs that time,but on the Saturday (i was due to test Tuesday) Id totally had enough,my stomach n back were killing me,cramping,pains, bloated,the symptoms of my usual AF,so i bought one of the digital ones and crept to the bathroom on sunday morning at 5.30am,i needed to get it over with as i was convinced it was another BFN,and the stress of not knowing was killing me...I'll tell you this i was HONESTLY totally shocked at the positive as it was truly and totally unexpected with all the pains id been getting.

So my point is this,do not let the AF pains bother u,I think you have a really good chance of that BFP,ur little embie is a wee fighter..

GOOD LUCK and i hope ur time is here...xxxxxx

Love,Nicola..xxx

Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Mon May 26, 2008 2:29 pm

Hi Ladies,

Thanks for all ur encourgment

xxx

I have to admit, i gave in about half hour again and poas - it was a first response make, tells u 5 days b4 ur period is due if ur pregnant or not -

Im not!

I havent cried yet - i think im numb ...DD's are at home today and i dont want to upset them either. I promised DH i wouldnt take a test, but im an addict (we all been there lol) and i couldnt help it!

Im 12dpo - and 10dp2dt

I still feel sick tho, and a lot of saliva will gather in my mouth making me gag, as if im about to vomit - but never do! I have never noticed feeling like this so close to AF before - but know it can happen, so am not getting excited about the symptoms either .....

I know im on a downer and im trying not to be, and im really really sorry if ive made any of u ladies feel crap when u've come on (so crap that u cant post - where the hell are u??)

Nic, thanks for ur support and im really glad u got ur BFP

i do hold on to the hope that im still gonna get mine - but it doesnt look like its gonna be this time .....

Becky Xxxx

sonu911 · Post by **sonu911** » Mon May 26, 2008 4:14 pm

Becky...

Sorry for sneaking in but couldn't resist posting to the Queen.

Don't give up, dear!!! Its yet not over.

I had brown spotting exactly on the 10 and 11th day of my transfer and got BFP a week later.

Keep up the hope and your chin with a big smile

Hugs

Ems1971 · Post by **Ems1971** » Mon May 26, 2008 4:20 pm

Becky

Please don't be disheartened. Its not over yet! Stop this POAS missus!!! Its no good for the PMA!

I also had gaggy feelings and another thing I experienced was a feeling like pins in my boobs.

Please don't POAS any more until test day. Its no good for you. Promise...?

I'm still praying...

Love Ems xxxx

wishfull27 · Post by **wishfull27** » Mon May 26, 2008 5:34 pm

Hi Becky - you have to keep up the PMA - thats half the battle - stop using them HPT's - you meed to wait till friday - from what others are saying it sounds very positive - and the nurse and I think Ghost said do not POAS before Tuesday did they not ????

Sending you some PMA - make sure you pick it up

In my thougts - lots of love

carolyn xxx

PebblesUK · Post by **PebblesUK** » Mon May 26, 2008 8:57 pm

Oh Becky keep up that pma! If your spotting was implantation bleeding then it's far too early to be testing. Just think, if this was someone else posting what would you say to them??

I'm sorry but when you do IVF you can't judge any symptoms at all. We all know AF and a postitive show the same symptoms, also, your overies are still the size of gratefruits so you're going to be experiencing pain (AF type pain).

Best of luck to you and keep away from the wee sticks (says someone who went through 17!)

xxxxxxxxxx

Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Tue May 27, 2008 8:04 am

Good Morning Ladies xxx

Well - the fat lady played a live concert at my house at 3am this morning - its well and truley over for us - im full flow now and in agony - not just physically. Im heartbroken, but i cant cry yet - i dont know when that will come .... soon i hope ... Thanks for all ur support ladies, u really are amazing ....

I dont know where to go now, im not inbetween cycles - and not Awaiting treatment anymore - this was our last chance, no more goes, thats it .... have to face life without being able to give DH a child of his own .... how on earth am i gonna live with that ????

ICSI GIRL · Post by **ICSI GIRL** » Tue May 27, 2008 12:41 pm

oh beck.............

don't even know what to say my sweet pea

except that you have been such an inspiration and an angel to so many of us out here...... that have been down and out.....and then out again........and it is true for me as well.......in some of my darkest moments --- you made me smile

so if there's ANYTHING.........ANYTHING at all i can do ---- just say the word...........cuz i don't know many people like you ----- and that is ONE AMAZING WOMAN......brian is a lucky man to have gotten such a wonderful woman......................and your dd's ------ couldn't dream of having a better mum

Charity · Post by **Charity** » Tue May 27, 2008 5:33 pm

Becks...Hate to barge in, and not sure if you remember me, but have been watching your cycle, and saying cyber prayers for you. I'm so sorry hon...I know the devastation of feeling like all hope is lost. Out of curiosity, is there any possibility of doing IUI? I know it sounds odd, but look what happened to me. Had zero fertilization with ICSI, and the very next cycle of IUI, we got pg with twins. (m/c later, but still the first BFP we've seen). The RE can only explain that my eggs are "sensitive"...You may have moody eggs, too?:lol:You take care of yourself, and snuggle up to that dh of yours. The reason he married you was because of YOU...And I think I can speak for everyone that you've touched, and say that we think you're pretty darn great, too! Take care, hon...

Ems1971 · Post by **Ems1971** » Tue May 27, 2008 6:25 pm

Becks,

I am so sorry honey. I have been keeping everything crossed for you. Nothing can make you feel any better at the moment but I am thinking of you.

Love Ems xxx

wishfull27 · Post by **wishfull27** » Tue May 27, 2008 7:49 pm

Becky and Brian - in my thoughts - not a lot more that I can say that will make you feel any better - just big hugs(((())))

lots of love

carolyn xxx

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