Welshgirl38 wrote:Thanks ladies,
Now i know why i love u best lol ... xxx
- ummm........no, remind us, why do you love us Queen Becks??? 
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sorry girl -- i'm here.......but just as you said -- working my ta-ta's off!!! (well - not really, cuz that wouldn't be very cool if i worked them off!! ha, ha!! atleast i haven't lost my sense of humor!! that seems to only be entertaining to me anyway -- ha, ha, ha, ha!!!!!!) i'm so pissed though --- one of the people helping me w/ this project is out sick today and NO i don't want him here if he's sick --- but doesn't he know we have deadline????!!!!!!! just makes it feel like MORE pressure! so my nose really been to the grindstone........
i do however need to ask ya'll something......and is altogether possible that i am makine a deal out of NOTHING......so today is CD 18 for me.... i got my smiley (that ovulation was coming) on CD12 (last thursday).... we BCABB on wednesday night (remember - just trying to prep for good fresh super swimmers)....and then again on friday/saturday per doc's orders........so that brings us to today....i get to work and have to pee like a race horse and when i wipe - i have brown discharge/spotting (i know - TMI --- sorry)........so here i am MID cycle and i can tell you that i have NEVER in my life "spotted" between ANY of my cycles....NEVER-EVER..... so then i get to thinking of last couple days like "OMG - i have been just mentally and physically exhausted.....quite literally falling asleep on the sofa before even making it to bed!!!" (which is very unlike me)........ so my mind has been racing to think what the hell is going on w/ my body???!!!!!!! i dare not even THINK of the possibilities.......but wanted to be able to talk about my mental outbreak.......in fact -- is probably nothing more than good old fashioned STRESS!!!!!
beck --- i'm thinking of you........just know that we are here
i do however need to ask ya'll something......and is altogether possible that i am makine a deal out of NOTHING......so today is CD 18 for me.... i got my smiley (that ovulation was coming) on CD12 (last thursday).... we BCABB on wednesday night (remember - just trying to prep for good fresh super swimmers)....and then again on friday/saturday per doc's orders........so that brings us to today....i get to work and have to pee like a race horse and when i wipe - i have brown discharge/spotting (i know - TMI --- sorry)........so here i am MID cycle and i can tell you that i have NEVER in my life "spotted" between ANY of my cycles....NEVER-EVER..... so then i get to thinking of last couple days like "OMG - i have been just mentally and physically exhausted.....quite literally falling asleep on the sofa before even making it to bed!!!" (which is very unlike me)........ so my mind has been racing to think what the hell is going on w/ my body???!!!!!!! i dare not even THINK of the possibilities.......but wanted to be able to talk about my mental outbreak.......in fact -- is probably nothing more than good old fashioned STRESS!!!!!
beck --- i'm thinking of you........just know that we are here
:-) Angie
Hey Angie,
Good to hear from you. Thought that you were going to do a disappearing act too.
In response to your question, it sounds very promising. Implantation is usually supposed to happen between day 6 - 10 after ovulation which sounds like its about now. The only difficulty with natural cycles is that you can't be precise about what day you actually ovulated. I think its too early for any symptoms yet, so don't try to read too much into everything otherwise you'll drive yourself crazy (if its possible for you to be any crazier
).
Its too early for you to know anything either way. Keep up your PMA and try to avoid things you would if you were on your 2ww with IVF. You never know, this may be your time. I really do hope that it is.
Just a thought, but how about checking your temperature? Its supposed to stay slightly elevated after ovulation if implantation happens (you can tell that I try everything..............still stay hopeful before AF is due hoping for a miracle).
Good to hear from you. Thought that you were going to do a disappearing act too.
In response to your question, it sounds very promising. Implantation is usually supposed to happen between day 6 - 10 after ovulation which sounds like its about now. The only difficulty with natural cycles is that you can't be precise about what day you actually ovulated. I think its too early for any symptoms yet, so don't try to read too much into everything otherwise you'll drive yourself crazy (if its possible for you to be any crazier
).Its too early for you to know anything either way. Keep up your PMA and try to avoid things you would if you were on your 2ww with IVF. You never know, this may be your time. I really do hope that it is.
Just a thought, but how about checking your temperature? Its supposed to stay slightly elevated after ovulation if implantation happens (you can tell that I try everything..............still stay hopeful before AF is due hoping for a miracle).
Angie.....I should have added that while I don't want to appear negative, please try not to get too excited as yet. If it turns out to be what we all think it may be, then you can get on your rooftop and scream, but until then try to be neutral. I know its an impossible task, but do put your energy into other things, like work, or playing with us.
Get reading the secret again.
Get reading the secret again.
believe me when i say i'm SO not getting excited about it.....i've become extremely guarded when it comes to all of this stuff -- as i think we all have a bit.........it was just very curious to me!! and quite frankly - even if i were to talk to my bff (in real life) - she wouldn't begin to understand the potential significance and i would probably just sound like a freak show blowing something WAY out of proportion!!!
that being said --- thanks for your thoughts!! i really do appreciate even just knowing that your listening ya know its funny cuz up to this point - i've not given a second thought to the fact that it's "technically" my 2ww........and now my mind just starts doing flip-flops!!! is almost easier to believe that its all a result of STRESS than to think of any other possibilities..........ya know???
and i would read the secret again ----except that i paid it forward to my younger sis (7 years younger) --- she needed it more than me at the time
that being said --- thanks for your thoughts!! i really do appreciate even just knowing that your listening
ya know its funny cuz up to this point - i've not given a second thought to the fact that it's "technically" my 2ww........and now my mind just starts doing flip-flops!!! is almost easier to believe that its all a result of STRESS than to think of any other possibilities..........ya know???and i would read the secret again ----except that i paid it forward to my younger sis (7 years younger) --- she needed it more than me at the time
:-) Angie
Yep, you are sooo right. Its stress. Sorry about reminding you of the 2ww.ICSI GIRL wrote: that being said --- thanks for your thoughts!! i really do appreciate even just knowing that your listening
If your mind starts doing flip flops again, just try to think about all your bathroom antics the past weekend
And ya, I know we call you crazy and all sorts of other names, but you are so NOT a freak show. Totally understand all thats going through your head right now. Believe me, I still go through it most months. But like you rightly said, our real life BFFs would think we've completely lost it.
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LADIESSSSSSS
Havent caught up on whats been said this afternoon yet - will do soon - but had to come and tell you ......
WE HAVE AN APPT AT 11.30AM ON TUESDAY!!!! Yes THIS Tuesday comming .... thats like 6 days away!!!!!!
OMG ........
I know we wanna wait till ive lost a few lbs - but cant belive we got in so soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Havent caught up on whats been said this afternoon yet - will do soon - but had to come and tell you ......
WE HAVE AN APPT AT 11.30AM ON TUESDAY!!!! Yes THIS Tuesday comming .... thats like 6 days away!!!!!!
OMG ........
I know we wanna wait till ive lost a few lbs - but cant belive we got in so soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 IVF=BFN 2 IVF=BFN 3 IVF=BFP
m/c @ 8 wks 
4 IVF=BFNWe must now let go of the life we had planned, to live the life waiting for us..
Adoption course starts March 19th
beck that is FABULOUS news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! somebody "up above" must be watchin out for you!!! i remember how EXTREMELY excited i got when i was changing clinics and was able to get next appt w/ my new doc ------ so i know exactly what you're feeling and it's AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as (somebody) says --- LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED!!!
i remember how EXTREMELY excited i got when i was changing clinics and was able to get next appt w/ my new doc ------ so i know exactly what you're feeling and it's AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as (somebody) says --- LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED!!!:-) Angie
BECKY - That is fab news. Someone is sure looking out for you. I know it usually takes weeks to get an appointment even when you go private. Hope you are getting all your questions ready for the day. And isn't it a great feeling to have something to look forward to?
CAROLYN - Today is the day you start stimming, right? Am doing the follie dance for you
Did you watch the Apprentice yesterday? I wish he's also gotten rid of Helene. I think Claire has a strong chance, although its quite unpredictable. I was getting a bit irritated by Alex hapr on about his age though
ANGIE - You tell your bosses that your cyber BFFs have demanded that they let you play for a bit. We need you more than they need you, but then you need that paycheck more than you love us...................
I'm sure you'll find a way to make us all happy.
Its a lovely day out here today, although its gonna be raining later. Pity I'll be stuck indoors in meetings all day until the afternoon. Have a lovely day everyone.
CAROLYN - Today is the day you start stimming, right? Am doing the follie dance for you
Did you watch the Apprentice yesterday? I wish he's also gotten rid of Helene. I think Claire has a strong chance, although its quite unpredictable. I was getting a bit irritated by Alex hapr on about his age though
ANGIE - You tell your bosses that your cyber BFFs have demanded that they let you play for a bit. We need you more than they need you, but then you need that paycheck more than you love us...................
I'm sure you'll find a way to make us all happy.Its a lovely day out here today, although its gonna be raining later. Pity I'll be stuck indoors in meetings all day until the afternoon. Have a lovely day everyone.
good morning my sweets!!! another day in paradise awaits us all!!! (and my friends across the pond have already been enjoying this lovely day!!!)trying to put a positive spin on my workload for the day.........UGH!!! still crazy-busy..............only couple more weeks til my deadline and then i should be able to play more!!
carolyn --- BRING ON THE STIMS GIRLFRIEND!!!!! thinking of you today as you start your journey.......well - actually just CONTINUING at this point, but you know what i mean!
beck -- how you doin today hun?? need some more (((((((((HUGS)))))))))??????? cuz i got tons more where that came from!!!!!!!!!
angel -- hi honey!!! i am real sorry 'bout my lack of play time lately..... i would gladly choose you guys out here than my work -- if only i could figure out a way to still get my paycheck!! i'll have to start thinking on it.... ha!! i am pretty resourceful!! (but not sure how i'd manage to pull that one off!!!) weather over here is starting out muggy and warm w/ the sun wanting to peak thru -- but supposed to have heavy thunder storms later on -- bummer dude!! actually kinda helps my attitude as far as not wanting to skip out of work cuz is so beauteous outside!!!
now me.........so yesterday (as i think you all know at this point) -- i had some brown spotting when i can honestly say that i have NEVER EVER in my life spotted between my cycles........so i'm all wtf????? last night i've come down w/ sore bb's (although - that is one of my classic symptoms when it comes to AF -- but timing seems a bit off??!) and between yesterday and now today - am having icky cramps!! not really painful -- just "ick".........i notice them -- ya know??? anyway......am SO trying not to make a deal about it.........and think i'm keeping pretty level-headed about it at this point...........i just can't afford (emotionally) to allow myself to get excited -- ya know??? sounds silly -- but is oh-so true.....SO -- back to what i first said --- preparing for another day in paradise!!! will be back to check in -- but will most likely not be til lunch time'ish!!!
carolyn --- BRING ON THE STIMS GIRLFRIEND!!!!! thinking of you today as you start your journey.......well - actually just CONTINUING at this point, but you know what i mean!
beck -- how you doin today hun?? need some more (((((((((HUGS)))))))))??????? cuz i got tons more where that came from!!!!!!!!!
angel -- hi honey!!! i am real sorry 'bout my lack of play time lately..... i would gladly choose you guys out here than my work -- if only i could figure out a way to still get my paycheck!! i'll have to start thinking on it.... ha!! i am pretty resourceful!! (but not sure how i'd manage to pull that one off!!!) weather over here is starting out muggy and warm w/ the sun wanting to peak thru -- but supposed to have heavy thunder storms later on -- bummer dude!! actually kinda helps my attitude as far as not wanting to skip out of work cuz is so beauteous outside!!!
now me.........so yesterday (as i think you all know at this point) -- i had some brown spotting when i can honestly say that i have NEVER EVER in my life spotted between my cycles........so i'm all wtf?????
last night i've come down w/ sore bb's (although - that is one of my classic symptoms when it comes to AF -- but timing seems a bit off??!) and between yesterday and now today - am having icky cramps!! not really painful -- just "ick".........i notice them -- ya know??? anyway......am SO trying not to make a deal about it.........and think i'm keeping pretty level-headed about it at this point...........i just can't afford (emotionally) to allow myself to get excited -- ya know??? sounds silly -- but is oh-so true.....SO -- back to what i first said --- preparing for another day in paradise!!! will be back to check in -- but will most likely not be til lunch time'ish!!!:-) Angie
Just got out of my meeting marathons, and am tired, hungry and have a massive headache .
You know what Angie, by the time you finish your project, I'll be getting right into mine. That sucks. Maybe we should get our bosses to co-ordinate the projects so we have deadlines roughly the same time. After all our well being is important to them, right?
One of the big bosses, who is new is here today. He'd expressed an interest in having an informal meeting with some of us individually. I've got the perfect opportunity, and am well scrubbed today but just can't be bothered to. Or maybe I'm just shy.
Say Angie, are you charting down your symptoms? This may be significant, you know How long has your DH been taking those super vits?
. You know what Angie, by the time you finish your project, I'll be getting right into mine. That sucks. Maybe we should get our bosses to co-ordinate the projects so we have deadlines roughly the same time. After all our well being is important to them, right?
One of the big bosses, who is new is here today. He'd expressed an interest in having an informal meeting with some of us individually. I've got the perfect opportunity, and am well scrubbed today but just can't be bothered to.
Or maybe I'm just shy. Say Angie, are you charting down your symptoms? This may be significant, you know
How long has your DH been taking those super vits?-
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Haaafternoooooooooooooon Ladies
How are u all today???
ICSI: Now i know u dont want to get excited, and im not pushing u into getting excited - but - when exactly are u due on?? Im sure u will know why i am asking this question - but understand if u want to completly ignore it and carry on with ur day as normal - earning ur paycheck and not playing with us over here! It all sounds a bit 'exciting' to me - but am not gonna say another dam word until ur willing for me to .... so i shall stay tight lipped and carry on earning my paycheck - gawd thats another 3 weeks away yet and im nearly in the red already lol ....
Sorry i missed all this chat yesterday - feel a bit bad knowing that u was/are going thru that and i ignored it - im not normally like that, just got so excited about my appt - ive clamed down now and have caught up. I hope ur not reading too much into it all as Angel says - but if ur anything like me - ur mind will be racing and wondering and also dreaming - but then again, im a dreamer and i also come down with a bang and i dont want that for u honey .... take ur time, rest and relax when ur body is telling u to and hang on in there until AF due date - then get peeing on those sticks sending much love Xxxx
Angel: Hello my lovely, how are u? You know ur a very well balanced lady and very sweet and honest person - i like that in you (soprry, just had to say that outloud) thank u (again) for ur kind words, u really know how to explain summit as well as u do .... ur right about everything - i told DH how i was feeling and he admitted he was being strong for me too, and i cried and he did too - we got it all out in the open and are now 'back on form' altho still obvisouly sad about things that have happened and not getting our hopes up too high about more tmt. He said if ever i need to talk or rant or cry - then i should always go to him - and if he can do anythign for me - he will. Im silly really, i know he was always there for me, i was just trying to be brave and not show too much ... funny how we react to certain things isnt it?
Anyway ladies - i am fine - im slowly becomming a remote controlled helicopter widow - Brian got a big proper one for his 40th off his brothers (boys and their toys) and Brian cant get off the dam thing lol .... still, its nice to see him engrossed - even if it is with a helicopter and not me
Xxxx
How are u all today???
ICSI: Now i know u dont want to get excited, and im not pushing u into getting excited - but - when exactly are u due on?? Im sure u will know why i am asking this question - but understand if u want to completly ignore it and carry on with ur day as normal - earning ur paycheck and not playing with us over here! It all sounds a bit 'exciting' to me - but am not gonna say another dam word until ur willing for me to .... so i shall stay tight lipped and carry on earning my paycheck - gawd thats another 3 weeks away yet and im nearly in the red already lol ....
Sorry i missed all this chat yesterday - feel a bit bad knowing that u was/are going thru that and i ignored it - im not normally like that, just got so excited about my appt - ive clamed down now and have caught up. I hope ur not reading too much into it all as Angel says - but if ur anything like me - ur mind will be racing and wondering and also dreaming - but then again, im a dreamer and i also come down with a bang and i dont want that for u honey .... take ur time, rest and relax when ur body is telling u to and hang on in there until AF due date - then get peeing on those sticks
sending much love XxxxAngel: Hello my lovely, how are u? You know ur a very well balanced lady and very sweet and honest person - i like that in you
(soprry, just had to say that outloud) thank u (again) for ur kind words, u really know how to explain summit as well as u do .... ur right about everything - i told DH how i was feeling and he admitted he was being strong for me too, and i cried and he did too - we got it all out in the open and are now 'back on form' altho still obvisouly sad about things that have happened and not getting our hopes up too high about more tmt. He said if ever i need to talk or rant or cry - then i should always go to him - and if he can do anythign for me - he will. Im silly really, i know he was always there for me, i was just trying to be brave and not show too much ... funny how we react to certain things isnt it?Anyway ladies - i am fine - im slowly becomming a remote controlled helicopter widow - Brian got a big proper one for his 40th off his brothers (boys and their toys) and Brian cant get off the dam thing lol .... still, its nice to see him engrossed - even if it is with a helicopter and not me
Xxxx
1 IVF=BFN 2 IVF=BFN 3 IVF=BFP
m/c @ 8 wks 4 IVF=BFNWe must now let go of the life we had planned, to live the life waiting for us..
Adoption course starts March 19th
Awww…..thank you for the compliment Becky. I'm so glad that you and Brian talked about it, hopefully you both feel better for it.
I know that most of us find it really difficult to deal with the emotional roller coaster. And its very annoying when others just say that we should be stronger, or deal with it, or its not the end of the world……etc. My DH is always there for me too, and I realised that keeping things to myself stresses me out, then I turn into
and pick on everything anyone ever does. Now when I feel sad, I just let him see it. In a weird way, its actually brought us together. Its like our secret in our little world.
Are you both excited about your appointment. Would you go for another cycle starightaway or take a break?
I'm so glad that you and Brian talked about it, hopefully you both feel better for it. I know that most of us find it really difficult to deal with the emotional roller coaster. And its very annoying when others just say that we should be stronger, or deal with it, or its not the end of the world……etc. My DH is always there for me too, and I realised that keeping things to myself stresses me out, then I turn into
and pick on everything anyone ever does. Now when I feel sad, I just let him see it. In a weird way, its actually brought us together. Its like our secret in our little world. Are you both excited about your appointment. Would you go for another cycle starightaway or take a break?
