angel -- you crack me up!!! "why else do i come to work?!!" silly girl!!!
beck -- thanks for your words of encouragement -- don't apologize for not being out and about yesterday........we ALL have those days -- and like i said, i'm trying not to make a deal of any of it --- so it just is-what-it-is!! but to answer your question --- i'm not due for AF til around CD28 (NEXT saturday) -- today is CD 19 for me..........so the whole spotting thing is most definately WAY out of character for "me"....never happend before... and dont' get me wrong -- i am 'secretly' excited.....but just been let down so damn much that i remain guarded.....as we all know ALL too well!!
Hey Becks, think of CD in terms of an IVF cycle.
CD 1 - CD 15 (roughly) = stimming, ER and ET.
CD 16 - CD 29 = the 2ww
So Angie is kind of on the equivalent of her 2ww.
Hey Angie, I'm really not such a tosser at work you know. I had an early start today. Left from home at 7.15, got in to work by 8.10 and was in meetings from 9.00 to 2.00. Didn't have breakfast today as I had to leave early, then didn't have time to have anything when I got in. So I'm hungry and the meetings were intense, and my tiny brain can only take so much.
Ok, now WHY on earth am I explaining myself???????????????? Really need to go home.
oh beck -- you crack me up!!! and i DID see the picture by the way!! (before it got sensored!!!!! )
ok --- sorry for the "CD" talk.......AF is not scheduled to arrive til next saturday(ish) -- June 14......whats funny is that i started out this cycle saying "not gonna POAS - just gonna let AF arrive/or not - but i refuse to make myself crazy over it!" -- and yeah, that's all changed now!!! mostly because it's the saturday before FATHERS DAY --- what better fathers day gift could anybody possibly give????? .........and i have ALWAYS been clockwork --- every 28-30 days and AF makes her way into my life again!!! So i'm thinking that next friday (june 13......OMG - friday the 13th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) i will POAS............
Ok, so tell me about any more changes that you feel. You know after having gone through IVF many women become more sensitive to the slightest of changes in their bodies. I think I have become more attuned too. Did you take your temperature?
girls, girls, girls!!!! (maybe just girls, girls -- only 2, not 3...atleast right this moment!!)
sorry for confusion......the pic has NOT been sensored -- was only saying if it WERE going to -- that i got a sneak-peak before it did!!! you remember beck -- i think it was my bday that you put a nice piccie out here (think naked man w/ balloon strategically placed!!! ) --- remember how that got taken down about as quick as it got put up?? was just thinking back to that......
anyway.....beck --- did you follow my last post of when AF is to arrive?? if not - let me know
doc ---- changes.......hmmmmm....well -- does being more exhausted than usual count??? cuz i've been having that all week too.....and extra cramps -- when cramping for me is usually pretty much "notta"..... least not the time leading UP to....now when she's actually FLOWING -- then i have some mild cramping -- but still nothing major.....i've been feeling cramping since yesterday too (same day as mysterious spotting)..... oh who the hell knows??!!!!! i'm such a big talker with the whole "i'm not going to get all jacked up about it" --- WHO THE F*#@ am i kidding???!!!! as i sit here typing -- i realize i'm a week away and it might well drive me crazy between now and then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (damn good thing i got you guys! )
Im all returned from the bank - i tried to stick em up, but the girl just laffed at me ... so i returend here tail between my legs and still in the red at my acount!
Anyhow ... now u might kick me up the arse for saying this ok BUT ...
U know i was telling u about my friend who got pregnant with IUI - she thought it hadnt worked as she was complaining about ...
1, Sore boobs (as she always got these when AF was due)
2, Headaches
3, She was exhausted about a week into the 2ww - she put it down to tmt and stress ...
4, Cramps (which she STILL gets)
5, And she could smell a bag of crisps and tell u wot flavor it was fromo 20 yards away!
(i can do that too ... but thats cos im greedy LOL)
Oh and she still gets every mth when her AF wud be due - MOOD SWINGS!
Ok - im excited now .......
1 IVF=BFN 2 IVF=BFN 3 IVF=BFP m/c @ 8 wks 4 IVF=BFN
We must now let go of the life we had planned, to live the life waiting for us..
my dear beck - why on earth is your account at the bank in the red???? (rhetorical question)........i'm an accountant by "degree" and let me just tell you that my check book balances to the PENNY every single month!! the thought of my account being in the red makes me crazy...... in fact - i won't allow my younger sis to talk about her accounting skills when it comes to her banking cuz she's OFTEN in the red and it quite literally drives me bonkers to hear her speak of it -- so it is now a topic that is off limits w/ us!!! ha, ha, ha, ha!!!!
oh good god woman -- you just HAD to tell me those things, didn't you?? all i need is encourgement of my madness!!!!! thing of it is --- i'm quite certain that i'm actually HYPER-SENSITIVE to all the twinges and cramps -- which makes me second guess the "validity" of it all to begin with!! you know -- as in, have i completely lost my mind???!!!!! (don't answer that!!)