hoping4 - CONGRATS on being PG!! That's great news! Very happy for you
Amanda - Wonderful news on your second beta. It's rising just nicely
MzTia - OMG, you felt your ER???

I'd be mortified. You poor thing. I remember none of mine. But you have some great numbers there! Good luck for a great embryo growth!!
As for me, not so good here

I woke up in pain again. I was just happy about feeling better yesterday and this morning pain woke me up. It was somewhat different than the last few days, more like right after the ER procedure - strong throbbing on both sides, more on the left.
We made it to the RE by noon and had a long conversation with him. The status of our 4 embies is the following. One of them is a 5BB blastocyst that started hatching. 2 are at the "early blast" stage, whatever that is. And one is still a morula. So we talked about our options. RE felt like it's highly likely given my PCOS and quite unusual high pain response so far is that I will develop OHSS and could end up in a hospital or at the very least have a very miserable first few months of pregnancy (if I do get pregnant). Of course, he can't be 100% sure of that, but it's a real risk. RE says that the FET success is only slightly lower and that we will only freeze good embies. Both him and DH felt that doing ET right now can bear serious risk to my health. So, we decided to freeze. They will freeze the blast today and then wait till tomorrow to see if the other 3 make it to a good stage. I feel soo very torn about this decision. My gut feeling has been telling me for the last couple of days - "if you do the ET now and get pregnant, you WILL end up in a hospital!" My whole body is screaming to me -"Leave me alone! Let me heal!" And I know it would be much less stress on my body, and hopefully no pain to do a FET. Yet, I feel like a good mother would not have cared so much about possible (not certain) risks to her health and would have gone ahead with the transfer because freezing does cut down chances. I keep thinking that what if I would have been fine? But then I remember how I felt on Friday morning, the day after ER. I had a little bloat a little pain and NOTHING was foretelling of the crippling all consuming exruciating pain I felt that same evening and continued to feel up until Monday

. DH keeps telling me that I am not the one who made this decision, that it was three of us in that room, and yet... Am I a selfish bad person??? I'm sitting here crying over this. It's soo hard...
