hi ladies...
JDC- nice to see you back

..it's hard for us to resurface after a disappointment and i'm grateful you're back with us. it'll be #3 for me this time too. when you said 'short cycle' did you mean you don't down-reg? (like me, straight to fsh)
jenn- so sorry to hear of your painful surgery. ouch

it's awful what we have to go through sometimes.
babyhope- well mthrf@#er! what an ironic name for your issue@#$ !! WTF is right. i've not heard of it and am hopeful you'll find any info you need to navigate around this roadblock. sounds like there's options.
kas, sounds like a wonderful enlightening experience you had with AP. that's lovely and i believe in it although i've not experienced it myself.
adjec. hope you're doing well since transfer. sounds like you made the right decision for yourselves with 1 embie.
wonder- i can't comment on the E2 level as i'm not sure. in the past i just trusted when my clinic said 'you're level is good'.
natasha, it's great to hear about donor eggs...i may end up there someday myself and in the past 'donor egg' has hurt for me to say or think about, but when that's the reality, we need to move towards it and celebrate it. i'm happy to be here with you to celebrate that. and..get any future advice i may need too. to answer your previous question- i had a miscarriage, so no baby. hope for next time.
gina, i'm so sorry to hear your struggles lately and SOOO relate. i've been hopeless, discouraged, anxious, depressed, and just a nut case especially this last week and off and on for a LONG time around IF. i saw a counsellor today who has decided she thinks it's best to help me with my 'negative thought patterns'...at first i wanted to discount this as the best way to go- thinking that's a poor direction to take things, -then, HA HA- as that's such a 'negative thought pattern' i had in response to her..anyways, i'll see her again and hope for the best. i hope you find our group here and other's in your immediate life supportive. for me personally, telling some supportive coworkers and friends and being able to just cry and talk with them has been invaluable. i wish i could give you a big hug right now.
well, surprise developments for me- i got AF 3-4 days early TODAY which means
i start stims on thursday. YIKES. i'm freaked out. i'm starting to have more PMA, especially after talking to a counselor today and having mirrored back to me my hopelessness. she said i contradicted myself by saying i was a 'strong' person..she's right. i am strong, i guess very sad and scared has taken me somewhere dark lately.
love you all, hi to everyone else that i didn't mention, sorry for the long post. karen