Awaiting Treatment

[Miracle08]

Hi ladies!!! i am sorry I havent posted sooner. As you all know, it gets so crazy around the holidays!!

Becky, I did check on you!!! Like the others, I was so hoping you would see a sweet HB. But that is ok. I will take the news of the growing bean!! I hope you and your family had a wonderful Christmas. Good luck tomorrow with your scan. Please let us know the heartbeat per minute asap! HUGS!!!

Sophie! How was your holidays? Did you last "couple" Christmas go as planned?? I hope you and DH enjoyed every moment!!

Chriss...so sweet of you to pop in and wish us a Merry Christmas! Hoping yours and Dh was awesome!! Hope you were spoiled!!


Shantala!!! Merry Christmas to you too!! I am sure you had a very special First Christmas with your sweet baby girl!!!

Hi Rachel! How was your First Christmas with your baby and DH? Oh, and cannot forget baby "in making!!" Who would have thought that this year you and DH would be having Babies First Christmas and be celebrating the miracle of your 2nd pregnancy!!!

Hiya Angel!!! How was your Christmas love?? I hope you and DH pampered yourselves. Have been thinking of you two.

Nims, Beach!! Hope you two also had fabulous FIRST CHRISTMAS with your little ones!! Please share the details!!!

ICSI...miss ya girl!!! hope your holidays were a blast as well!!!!

I will write more later...have to get some things done before I leave work!!!

LOVE TO ALL!!!!

[ICSI GIRL]

HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god i miss you guys when i'm gone for awhile!!! this is quite literally the first moment that i've had to log on.... has been insanely-crazier than usual this holiday season!!

mir -- sucks that you had to work today....i took vaca day as i KNEW i was going to need the recouperation!! have been watching HOUSE marathon on USA....i LOVE HOUSE!!! (for anybody that doesn't know - is an hour long program that has a diagnostic doc who thinks/acts like he's GOD.......and he's a real prick -- which makes me love it like i do!!!)

soph -- did all of your fab food turn out as wonderful as it all sounded???

chriss -- always so sweet to see you girl....

beck -- our newest mummy....how you feeling lady?? when are you scheduled for next scan????? i'm sure your lil one is fine and dandy.... big HUGS to ya while we wait!

shantala ---- did you ever get things sorted with your work??? big hugs to you too girl.....

carolyn --- still resting at home??? when do you leave for round #2 clinic??

angel -- my dear sweet angel....how you hangin girl?? have you enjoyed the posh holiday gatherings??? and indulged to your little hearts desire???? i sure have!!!! good-god....one might THINK i was with child the way i've been eating for TWO!!!!!! (except that i can whole-heartedly confirm that i am NOT with child.....AF arrived today in fact.....full tilt boogy!!!!!)

as for my craziness.....have endured 2 major snow storms on top of extreme cold/bitterness....was worried the weather was going to be bad for all dh's family traveling to our house on christmas eve for holiday celebration (they all live about 1.5 hours away...just drive in for the day)...rec'd call from dear mum saying death in family (a distant cousin that i didn't even know) - but that she and step dad needed to stay w/ us as the funeral is nearby and she lives 10 hours away from me...they will be at my house on monday eve by time i'm home from work... great... and then sis calls saying mummy dearest had invited her to MY place cuz they were going to be in town unexpectedly....fine....and then on tuesday morning - baby sis invited to my house (while i'm madly trying to prepare for wednesday gathering of 20'ish people of dh's family).....fine.... so i get them all shuffled out the door by noon.....start cleaning and sorting w/ youngest dss --- fricken water pipe BURST in the basement -- in a matter of minutes - was standing in LOTS of water.....like i needed that!!! and wouldn't ya know that dh wasn't home at the time.....FORTUNATELY - youngest dss had the wits about him to turn off power to the pump which did stop the water pouring in!!! finally get ahold of dh - he instructs me to call a plumber and all i can see are dollar signs flying out of my arse when we have NO MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! was lucky enough to get plumber to the house w/in the hour...and only ended up being a little over $100.00......phew!!!! party back ON again.... long as the weather holds out and all dh's sisters were calling "oh what will we do if weather is bad and we can't drive out there" --- i was in NO mood and said "well -- then i guess we're going to have a whole lot of food to eat!!!" ha, ha, ha!! don't think they appreciated it much -- but seriously -- WTF???!!!! what did they expect me to say?? finished preparing on tuesday eve.....wed came, weather was FINE - party went off w/out a hitch.....crashed and waited for "santa" to come that night... of course now that dss's are older now - they stay up WAY later than i'd care to!!! and of course santa can't come until the kiddies (ages 15 & 17) are in bed!!!!! so we finally play santa and get all the pressies under the tree.....and go to bed!!! christmas morning - up and at 'em!!! opened all gifts, played w/ all our new stuff and around noon - sent the boys off to their mothers.........time to relax!!!!! i showered, put my jammies back on and quite literally say my arse in front of the tv for the entire day!!! today has been much of the same - although, i did get my kitchen completely back in order and all of my holiday dishes cleaned and packed all back away until next year.........

i suppose i've TOTALLY broken the "etiquette rules" in posting a book... sorry if i've offended (not really.....i know it's long....what can i say - had some catching up to do w/ all my bff's!!!!!)

so there ya have it....and now we rest!!! hope ya'll had a very merry christmas!!! i have to work on mon and tues next week - but then have rest of week off for another REALLY long weekend -- woo-hoo!!!

love and hugs to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss ya!!

[Miracle08]

ok...I had a blonde moment.

Becky, I know your scan is Tuesday...Today felt like a Monday for me. Sorry for the mess up. Can you tell I totally need a vaca after the holidays???

Angie!!! WHOO HOO!!! SO good to hear from you. I hear what you are saying about missing the girls. Same here!!
Oh my gosh, you had a very eventful week. You surely deserved today off!!!!!!!! I am glad everything worked out for you in the end!!!
I work Mon, tues and half of wed. then off the rest of the week!!! Cant wait!!!!

Ok ladies...Love to you all!!! Miss you girlies too!!!

[Angel505]

Hello all, did you have a good Christmas break, with lots of yummy food and nice pressies???

Angie, wow!!! Talk about an eventful holiday. I hope you did manage to catch up on some much deserved rest. And there are no ettiquette rules with your BFFs here. Talk as much (or as little) as you please.

Miracle, you looking forward to having a loong loong weekend? How was your Christmas? Actually I just realised that you girls only got Christmas day off. Over here, we get 2 days off, 25th and 26th. And a huge number of people have taken this week off so that they get a long break. My office is so quiet, there is a handful of us in at work. With the tmt and sick leave I have had to take this year, I couldn't possibly ask for any more time off.

Becky - how is you and the bump? What did you get for DH? Keeping everything crossed for tomorrow. The little one is probably just teasing you.....

Carolyn, bet you're waiting for your appointment in Prague. Does that clinic have long waiting lists too? How was your Christmas?

PMA - How was your romantic Christmas meal with DH? Did you enjoy yourself cooking and doing the zillion things you seem to be doing?

Shnatala and Lara - hope Ellie and Ruby had a wonderful time over their 1st Christmas. Did they enjoy tearing off the wrapping papers?

We had a lovely time too. We had all my in-laws over for Christmas. Then went around to my family on Boxing day. I have been a right glutton (I think I am way past the indulging bit). But I have cleared my fridge of ALL the festive food by giving most away yesterday. So I am determined to be healthy from today

Did all of you go to the Christmas sales? I haven't been yet, just can't seem to find the energy or inclination to do so.

Anyway, hope someone is around today to play with.

[Miracle08]

Hey there Angel!!!! How are you lovey??

I am glad you had a great Christmas. Mine was very nice. I am exhausted from all the hussle and bussle but I wouldnt change it. My Dad and his girlfriend came to my home Saturday to do Christmas with us. I made my homemade sauce boiled some pasta, made a very yummy salad and garlic bread. YUMMY!!! It came out very good. We all had a great time. Sunday was a low day! I took a nap from 2-4:30!!!! I was shocked. I work today, tomorrow and half of Wednesday. Dh, me, my sis and a friend are going camping of new years!! We are taking our furbabies too! i am so excited. We are going to Blue Springs in North Florida. There are nature trails, canoeing (SP???) and tons of other stuff. I cannot wait to take the dogs on the nature trail. Can you tell I am excited!!!

So, do you and hubby have anything planned for New Years?

OK ladies...anyone else around? Or is it just us hotties???

[Welshgirl38]

Well Ladies,

Our worst nightmare came true ....

No HB at 3rd scan - an baby hasnt grown since last week

I dont know what im supposto do now .... they want us in for a scan next Monday but when i asked is it cos there might be one by then - she replied no, its for your peace of mind before we ask you in to have it removed.

Removed!!!

I dont want it removed ... i want it to grow, i want to hold it in my arms .... :bawl:

She said that i can expect a heavy period in the next few days!! I dont understand what happened .... last Monday we measured 6 weeks an 3 days ... an today we measured 6 weeks an 1 day ... how can that be?? Dos it shrink?? And if it died last week, why hasnt it come away already? Why is life so cruel, why did my baby die inside me ....

When we got outside the clinic i leant up against the wall an sobbed .... DH is as wonderful as ever an held me ... an i know i screamed but i couldnt help it. Donna, the nurse at the clinic came an hugged me too ......

I just dont know what im supposto do now ....

[Miracle08]

Becky...

I have been on pins and needles waiting to hear how your scan went. Well, now that I know, I dont know what to say.

I am so sorry Becky. I wish I had some kind of answer as to why this happened. I am sure you are feeling angry along with your grief. I wish God could somehow tell us why we are given these paths in life. I get so angry thinking what us ladies go through to have a baby.

You have a wonderful DH. I am so glad he is so supportive and caring. Lean on eachother during this difficult time. I will be praying for both of you and your little one.

Hugs to you Becky!!!!!!

[ICSI GIRL]

Beck.....i'm so sorry hun.......am SO very sorry You know exactly where we are when you're ready...will keep you and brian in my prayers.....

[Angel505]

Becky,

I am so sorry about this. I'm not sure if there are any words which will provide you with any comfort at this point. I don't know why you have to go through this. But Mir is right, you do have a lovely DH and you are the only two people who will feel each other's pain right now.

You know I have been wallowing in self pity thinking life was unfair after my BFN, but to have got a BFP and then have that taken away from you is cruel. I can only imagine your grief and hurt. I really wish there was something we could do for you. But I hope you do know that we are and always will be here for you.

Lots of hugs
Ang

[My2LnT]

Ohhh Becky I am so very sorry. I know there are no words that will take away any of your pain but know that there is a board full of people here that love you and are here if you need us.

HUGS!!!!!!

[hrobinson]

Oh Becky....I am so sorry to read your news. Take all the time you need. Know that we are always here for you, and will keep you and dh in my prayers

[nimble]

Becky - my heart sank when I saw your text earlier and wish you were around the corner so I could come round and give you a big hug. I don't know what to say, no words can make the hurt go away or make sense of what has happened or why it happened.

You know where I am if you need to talk / cry / vent or just ramble on.

lots of big hugs
Jackie xx

[Welshgirl38]

Hi Girls,

Well i started to spot this morning - not much, but its there when i wipe. I was holding onto the hope that maybe, just maybe this wee one was a slow starter an that if we went back for our scan next Monday - it wud still be there, grown an with a healthy HB ..... sadley thats not goiing to happen
This 3rd IVF was so different from the other 2 - we were so mch more positive, an the outcome was out of this world. We couldnt belive that it had worked an was so happy .... it was given to us in one had and snatched out of the other ... i wish i hadnt gotten pg, wish at the end of my 2ww it was a negative .... a negative is so much easer to deal with.

It was our last go ... no more chances left, no more funds - im 41 in Aug ... too old, too tired ... too hurt to go thru this again.
At 12pm tonight - no good seeing the new year in saying 'this is our year' cos its not going to be ..... its never going to be our year no more, an that hurts more than anything, not being able to try again...

DH cried in my arms like a baby this morning when i told him i was spotting, he cried like a baby cos i wa losing his baby an there was nothng any of us can do about it ... why is life so cruel .... to see the man u married, the strong loving supportive man cry in my arms cos his only child is being taken away from us ....... how do we go on after all that

[Miracle08]

oh my gosh Becky. I have tears streaming down my face right now.

That was such an emotional post. I just dont know what to say. Please forgive my ignorance, but dont they pay for your IVF over there?
I know I have no idea how you are feeling, but I dont want you to give up. I dont want Brian to give up. I mean, you got PG this time!!! They say it takes 1-3 for a successful IVF. I wouldnt count your 2nd time as one time. That is screwed up from the start. If you can financially do it, I think you two should try one last time. Who cares you are turning 41!!! If this little bean didnt grow wings, you would have been preggo at 41 anyway. What is a few months?? If you are just done emotionally then I understand. But take some time before you and Brian decide what to do. I am terribly sorry Becky. I am so sorry. Sendng you big hugs Beck, to you and Brian.

[lara312]

Becky i also have tears running down my face it is so horrible to have it given to you then snatched away thats how i felt after ivf 2 to be given a baby then for it to go is so hard like you said its so much eaiser to deal with a negagtive at least you know then that there has not been a lil live being inside of you i so wish i could win the lotto to give you the money to carry on i was really ecxited for you both and now i feel so numb this life is so unfair i wish there was something i could do for you right now but i know that no words will help and 41 your still young please dont give up you have so much to give to a child thinking of you and brain and sending big hugs for you all

Ladies happy new year hope this year starts better for you all than it has ended hugs to you all

lots of love Rachel x x x