Good morning ladies!!! How are all of my new friends doing?
Things here are fine. We live in a suburb outside Philadelphia, PA and our football team won their playoff game yesterday and they are now going to the championship game (whoever wins that goes to our superbowl). Well, not that you really care about that but I had people over yesterday, my dad and his wife and the neighbors and that kept my mind off things. My dh insisted on making all the food though, I would have preferred b/c then I would have been super busy. Other than that, dh back at work today and me and spencer (ds) home. Just hanging and trying to enjoy. It is so cold here so we feel like prisoners in our own home. Going to be 5 degrees this week. This is my thought, we get this horrible cold then when precipiation comes it warms up that day,,, ugh. If I have to suffer with the cold then at least give me one good storm on a day I dont' have to be anywhwere so I can get snowed in with dh and ds....Watch shows, hang, and know we cant go anywhere...Doesnt happen.
I have been so so . Late at night when the day calms down I seem to go into this panic of "will we get pg again and will all be ok" mode. It is terrible and that leads me into a hard time sleeping. Then I also go into this jealousy mode that I cant stand. Tomorrow am I to do the 50 minute each way drive to my RE office to get my bloods done to make sure my beta is back down....great right, sounds like a blast, getting up in the cold am weather for such joy. The thought makes me feel ill, but maybe it will give closure. I know it has only been a week since the loss but the thing I am afraid of is that I will remain so focused on the next treatment which is in march that I will stop really living through the next two months....that is not fair to the little miracle that I do have. It makes me feel awful about myself. Selfish!!! How can I be so selfish to not just be ok with the way things are and to want to keep going? Just rhetorical questions, I think this lies in where my dh doesnt get it. At times I dont get it, I wonder if some of you do, that something that tugs at your heart and says you arent done and keep going?
I go back to work in the next week or two I believe, I dont even know. I will be working 2 days a week for 8 weeks then back to the very "hot and cold" schedule of sometimes working and sometimes not. It is tough b/c I never feel like I am in any kind of a routine. Well, I never am is the reality. It is tough. Poor me, right, get over it Renee.
Angie , how was your bday???
Becky, if you are around, how are you doing??? I am thinking of you.
All else I cant wait to hear how you are and what is going on.
I am starting to catch on to who is who.
Grateful for someone to say hi too.
Have a great day everyone!!! Looking forward to reading what is going on in your lives?
Renee
Awaiting Treatment
good morning ladies
me=36, luf medicated somewhat successfully
dh=36, male factor (recently improved)
DS-conceived naturally 3/07
ttc # 2 since 9/07
3 months clomid=bfn
lap for ovarian cyst
4 IUI=BFN
5th IUI=BFP ended in m/c
1st IVF=3/09
dh=36, male factor (recently improved)
DS-conceived naturally 3/07
ttc # 2 since 9/07
3 months clomid=bfn
lap for ovarian cyst
4 IUI=BFN
5th IUI=BFP ended in m/c
1st IVF=3/09
Good morning girlies!
How are you guys doing? Let me catch up with personals first!
Carolyn,
I'm so sorry about your crappy weekend... wow, when things go wrong... I'm really sorry about your friend's medical condition. I hope they found out early enough so she doesn't have to go through too many treatments. What a shock...
And about your extension, you're right, it's a tricky decision now... it's too bad when you've prepared for a preoject and it just vanishes like that. I hope your week is much better!
Lee,
Woohoo about the pictures! Hehehehe looks like you're 150% part of the gang now! The ladies here can go quite crazy with glitter and piccies sometimes!
Beautiful rose! Thanks so much for sharing! I love taking pictures of beautiful natural things too! I wish I could grow beautiful roses like you sweetie! But with our climate, it's tricky. Some rose varieties are rustic and they survive winter, but the roses are not as delicate as the hybrid roses. And those, you have to buy every year because they don't survive.
Renee dear,
Don't worry about your reactions. I agree with Lee, they're perfectly natural. It would be so unfair to think otherwise! I'm glad that you were able to have an okay time there. And about your husband, well... let's say some people are not good in dealing with emotions that do not resolve in 24-48hrs. I just hope you won't distance yourself from him too much because you perceive that he's annoyed. Maybe he's just not good at talking about it right now, but he could be present for you in other ways. Even if you don't spend "us" time talking about what happen, which might make him uncomfortable, you could still feel close to each other and be there for each other by doing other activities you both enjoy?
Miracle, Angie, Angel, Becky, Shantala, Rachel, all the to others, how was your weekend?
***warning, some baby talk***
Mine was busy, as usual. I was able to sew the crib blanket and let me tell you... it was SO MUCH WORK! I was so annoyed at myself because I made stupid mistakes that took over 4 hours to fix. My whole day and evening went into it as a result. It's amazing how placing your needles to hold the pieces together right takes ages while the actual sewing takes minutes! Not to mention the two hours I spent undoing aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall the sewing I had just done because of a stupid mistake.... ah, well. On Sunday, my husband spent hours transferring my desk and computer to his office (my office is the baby's room now), re-wiring the whole thing and figuring out the furniture... it looks nice and I'm very grateful that he took care of it. Now I'm looking forward to him assembling the baby's bed; it will allow me to start sewing the padding and sheets. It's really too bad that I don't have a large table to do my sewing. I've sewn curtains lately and I've had to use the floor as a plane surface because I didn't have anything big enough. And as a result, I spend hours kneeling on the floor, hunched over the fabric and I end up with a pretty intense back ache! One of these days, who knows.. I might have a sewing room!
***warning over***
We also gave our furbabies a bath, it was quite something! Our youngest, Toulouse, is scared of water. We gave him lots of treats and we hope that he will, in time, get used to it (the water, I mean... the treats don't need any getting used to, lol!!!). My husband made a whole new batch of beer on Saturday and it's now bubbling happily in the basement. It's a fascinating process... that thing literally is alive!!!!
I'm so proud of him; his beer is really good. It's a family thing, I think... his father makes cider in France, so it runs in the family!
Okay, enough babbling for me! Take care ladies!
Sophie xxox
How are you guys doing? Let me catch up with personals first!
Carolyn,
I'm so sorry about your crappy weekend... wow, when things go wrong... I'm really sorry about your friend's medical condition. I hope they found out early enough so she doesn't have to go through too many treatments. What a shock...
And about your extension, you're right, it's a tricky decision now... it's too bad when you've prepared for a preoject and it just vanishes like that. I hope your week is much better!Lee,
Woohoo about the pictures! Hehehehe looks like you're 150% part of the gang now! The ladies here can go quite crazy with glitter and piccies sometimes!
Beautiful rose! Thanks so much for sharing! I love taking pictures of beautiful natural things too! I wish I could grow beautiful roses like you sweetie! But with our climate, it's tricky. Some rose varieties are rustic and they survive winter, but the roses are not as delicate as the hybrid roses. And those, you have to buy every year because they don't survive. Renee dear,
Don't worry about your reactions. I agree with Lee, they're perfectly natural. It would be so unfair to think otherwise! I'm glad that you were able to have an okay time there. And about your husband, well... let's say some people are not good in dealing with emotions that do not resolve in 24-48hrs. I just hope you won't distance yourself from him too much because you perceive that he's annoyed. Maybe he's just not good at talking about it right now, but he could be present for you in other ways. Even if you don't spend "us" time talking about what happen, which might make him uncomfortable, you could still feel close to each other and be there for each other by doing other activities you both enjoy?
Miracle, Angie, Angel, Becky, Shantala, Rachel, all the to others, how was your weekend?
***warning, some baby talk***
Mine was busy, as usual. I was able to sew the crib blanket and let me tell you... it was SO MUCH WORK! I was so annoyed at myself because I made stupid mistakes that took over 4 hours to fix. My whole day and evening went into it as a result. It's amazing how placing your needles to hold the pieces together right takes ages while the actual sewing takes minutes!
Not to mention the two hours I spent undoing aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall the sewing I had just done because of a stupid mistake.... ah, well. On Sunday, my husband spent hours transferring my desk and computer to his office (my office is the baby's room now), re-wiring the whole thing and figuring out the furniture... it looks nice and I'm very grateful that he took care of it. Now I'm looking forward to him assembling the baby's bed; it will allow me to start sewing the padding and sheets. It's really too bad that I don't have a large table to do my sewing. I've sewn curtains lately and I've had to use the floor as a plane surface because I didn't have anything big enough. And as a result, I spend hours kneeling on the floor, hunched over the fabric and I end up with a pretty intense back ache! One of these days, who knows.. I might have a sewing room! ***warning over***
We also gave our furbabies a bath, it was quite something! Our youngest, Toulouse, is scared of water. We gave him lots of treats and we hope that he will, in time, get used to it (the water, I mean... the treats don't need any getting used to, lol!!!). My husband made a whole new batch of beer on Saturday and it's now bubbling happily in the basement. It's a fascinating process... that thing literally is alive!!!!
I'm so proud of him; his beer is really good. It's a family thing, I think... his father makes cider in France, so it runs in the family!Okay, enough babbling for me! Take care ladies!
Sophie xxox
1st and 2nd IVF = BFN 1st FET BFP! m/c at 7 weeks. 2nd FET BFP! 3rd FET BFN
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
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Welshgirl38
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Hello Ladies Xxxx
Im back at work, so this will be a quickie im afraid....
Sara - those flowers are beautiful ... we planted ours and the buds are starting to open already, i will post a pic when they open properly - i cant wait to see it blooming...
Nothing much to report here to be honest ladies .... i want to get this next tmt over and done with already - just so i know where i stand, im dreadng it, but part of me is also excited too .... if we can get good embryos like the last time (ivf #3 was the best embryos we ever had) then i do belive it can work .... also having to think about the 'what if it doesnt' side of things too ... thats not so good, but hey ho - onwards and upwards as they say!
I hope u ladies dont think im being selfish by not doing too many personals lately - i do read but find it difficult sometimes to post. I went out here at work lunch time and bawled in the car while driving (not a good idea!!) i was just glad to get out of the office, even tho no one has mentioned anything ... was jsut nice to be on me own for a wee while ... so please dont think of me as being selfish - im trying not to be ....
I will be back in full form soon ladies, i promise u all .... but for now u will have to put up with a wee bit of the Beckster every now an then
Thanks girls .... love ya's
Xxxx
Im back at work, so this will be a quickie im afraid....
Sara - those flowers are beautiful ... we planted ours and the buds are starting to open already, i will post a pic when they open properly - i cant wait to see it blooming...
Nothing much to report here to be honest ladies .... i want to get this next tmt over and done with already - just so i know where i stand, im dreadng it, but part of me is also excited too .... if we can get good embryos like the last time (ivf #3 was the best embryos we ever had) then i do belive it can work .... also having to think about the 'what if it doesnt' side of things too ... thats not so good, but hey ho - onwards and upwards as they say!
I hope u ladies dont think im being selfish by not doing too many personals lately - i do read but find it difficult sometimes to post. I went out here at work lunch time and bawled in the car while driving (not a good idea!!) i was just glad to get out of the office, even tho no one has mentioned anything ... was jsut nice to be on me own for a wee while ... so please dont think of me as being selfish - im trying not to be ....
I will be back in full form soon ladies, i promise u all .... but for now u will have to put up with a wee bit of the Beckster every now an then
Thanks girls .... love ya's
Xxxx
1 IVF=BFN 2 IVF=BFN 3 IVF=BFP
m/c @ 8 wks 4 IVF=BFNWe must now let go of the life we had planned, to live the life waiting for us..
Adoption course starts March 19th
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Welshgirl38
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Hey Becky,
I just read your message, and please don't you dare think we'd consider you selfish! Come on, friends don't do that! At other times, you were the one who gave comfort and support, and now it's your turn to be on the receiving end! That's what this whole thread is about!
*HUGS*
It will pass, sweetie... you're in a transition right now, and it's okay to have mixed or changing feelings. Have you considered starting a new project, big or small? It's always the #1 thing that's help me deal with BFNs or miscarriage in the past. Just saying... work isn't exactly the kind of "project" that makes you feel good again...
Thinking of you and sending you lots of positive vibes,
Sophie xxox
I just read your message, and please don't you dare think we'd consider you selfish! Come on, friends don't do that! At other times, you were the one who gave comfort and support, and now it's your turn to be on the receiving end! That's what this whole thread is about!
*HUGS*
It will pass, sweetie... you're in a transition right now, and it's okay to have mixed or changing feelings. Have you considered starting a new project, big or small? It's always the #1 thing that's help me deal with BFNs or miscarriage in the past. Just saying... work isn't exactly the kind of "project" that makes you feel good again...
Thinking of you and sending you lots of positive vibes,
Sophie xxox
1st and 2nd IVF = BFN 1st FET BFP! m/c at 7 weeks. 2nd FET BFP! 3rd FET BFN
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
LADIES!!! i missed you all terribly!! am going to start by apologizing cuz it must be short & sweet on account of new GINORMOUS deadline at work 
(which i'm SO not pleased about....all has to do with cleaning up a horrid mess that a MAN made no less!!!!!)
Had a fab bday.....dh got me an electric blanky to cozy up with in the eve's while settling in on the sofa after long hard day at work!! ahhhh --- is pure heaven!!! also got my "8-10" (wink-wink) carolyn!!!! you bad girl -- your mind goes straight the gutter eh??? ha, ha, ha, ha -- like i'm one to talk!!!
soph -- that is SO cool that your dh makes his own beer!!!!! i want some!!
mir --- good weekend in yer jammies??? (i LOVE those weekends!)
beck --- said it before dear, am THRILLED to have ya back.... and just like soph said --- that is what we're here for.....you have carried us thru OUR times of need ---- and now it our turn to do the same for you
lee -- roses are beauteous my dear!!! surely a sign......and WAY TO GO on learning how to post pics!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! i LOVED my bday bunch of flowers!!!
renee -- like others said, is SO natural to get a case of the moodies when seeing babies.....there are still times that i can just start bawling - even at the simplest things like diaper commercials!!! case in point --- during the holidays pampers (diaper company for those that may not know that) had a commerical to the tune of "silent night" and showing all these precious lil ones fast asleep -------- can you say INSTA-BAWL????!!!!!! comes and goes for all of us.....and unfortunately -- is incredibly inconsistent with when it "hits" us!!! (((BIG HUGS TO YOU SWEETIE)))) hopefully you'll find a great comfort (as i have) being able to come HERE and be able to share your feelings with others who have been in your shoes....
rachel -- thanks for bday wishes.....so sweet of you to pop in.....
angel --- leaving tomorrow -- right??? well, whenever you leave --- have a FAB time!!! have a drink for me (preferrable MORE than one!!!) oh hell -- i have one for myself too!!
ok.....as i said earlier --- i apologize right here and now...... cuz my deadline is Feb 10 and i have BOATLOADS to do!!
will reduce my playtime dramatically...... 
oh well, will try to keep up best i can -- maybe our newbies can help carry us thru!!!
will check is as OFTEN as i can!!! love & hugs to all!!!
(which i'm SO not pleased about....all has to do with cleaning up a horrid mess that a MAN made no less!!!!!) Had a fab bday.....dh got me an electric blanky to cozy up with in the eve's while settling in on the sofa after long hard day at work!! ahhhh --- is pure heaven!!! also got my "8-10" (wink-wink) carolyn!!!! you bad girl -- your mind goes straight the gutter eh??? ha, ha, ha, ha -- like i'm one to talk!!!
soph -- that is SO cool that your dh makes his own beer!!!!! i want some!!
mir --- good weekend in yer jammies??? (i LOVE those weekends!)
beck --- said it before dear, am THRILLED to have ya back.... and just like soph said --- that is what we're here for.....you have carried us thru OUR times of need ---- and now it our turn to do the same for you
lee -- roses are beauteous my dear!!! surely a sign......and WAY TO GO on learning how to post pics!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! i LOVED my bday bunch of flowers!!!
renee -- like others said, is SO natural to get a case of the moodies when seeing babies.....there are still times that i can just start bawling - even at the simplest things like diaper commercials!!! case in point --- during the holidays pampers (diaper company for those that may not know that) had a commerical to the tune of "silent night" and showing all these precious lil ones fast asleep -------- can you say INSTA-BAWL????!!!!!! comes and goes for all of us.....and unfortunately -- is incredibly inconsistent with when it "hits" us!!! (((BIG HUGS TO YOU SWEETIE)))) hopefully you'll find a great comfort (as i have) being able to come HERE and be able to share your feelings with others who have been in your shoes....
rachel -- thanks for bday wishes.....so sweet of you to pop in.....
angel --- leaving tomorrow -- right??? well, whenever you leave --- have a FAB time!!! have a drink for me (preferrable MORE than one!!!) oh hell -- i have one for myself too!!
ok.....as i said earlier --- i apologize right here and now...... cuz my deadline is Feb 10 and i have BOATLOADS to do!!
will reduce my playtime dramatically...... oh well, will try to keep up best i can -- maybe our newbies can help carry us thru!!! will check is as OFTEN as i can!!! love & hugs to all!!!
:-) Angie
Hi everyone...
I am having such a horrid day. My head is splitting...quite possibly in two...I am totally annoyed with a co-worker and yet again worried about DH's job.
I have a co-worker who thinks is everyones boss. She is so freaking bossy!!! I CANT STAND IT! Not only does she think she is a boss, she thinks she is always right, nobody works harder then her, and nobody knows more then her!! I swear I wanted to slap her damn face. She is a friggen whiney baby. I am so fed up with her. Our REAL boss has been out on medical since October. It has gotten out of control with her. God forbid if anyone makes a mistake because she feels the need to point it out to you!!! Oh, and she LOVES to send emails as "friendly reminders!!!"
I tell ya ladies, I am ready to explode...
As we all know...our freaking economy SUCKS!!!! Well they laid off two people from DH's job today. LUCKILY he was not one of them. I am totally stressing about it though. What happens if he gets laid off??? There really is not any work out there! What happened to things starting to look up for us??? I mean, I am totally thankful he is still working but if things dont turn around soon I dont know how long he will be working. And we can NOT live on just my pay alone!!!! I just dont know what we would do. PLEASE GOD...HELP US!!! I hope something happens for the better and fast.
DH has been bringing up tmt. He is not sure if he wants us to start in the summer due to all the economy problems. I mean I understand his point, he doesnt want to have a baby and get laid off, but when the heck are we going to start a family. I am so bummed about all of this. He says just relax, we will see how things are in a few months. I know things can change but will it???
Anyway...enough of my venting.
Angie, so sorry you have to fix a man's mistakes. That is so annoying. Hope you arent too stressed.
Angel...hope you have a nice vaca!!!
Becky, you just hush. You know we are here through thick and thin. There is no such thing as selfish on this thread!!!! BIG hugs Becky!!!
Hiya Sophie~!!! I loved your baby talk warning...cracked me up. You shoul;d post some piccies of your work! Would love to see it!!!
Tell DH to build a sewing room for you.
Renee, man I wish we would get some of your cold weather. What time is your app tomorrow? WIll be thinking of you!!
Hi Lee...how are you?
I will check in later!!
I am having such a horrid day. My head is splitting...quite possibly in two...I am totally annoyed with a co-worker and yet again worried about DH's job.
I have a co-worker who thinks is everyones boss. She is so freaking bossy!!! I CANT STAND IT! Not only does she think she is a boss, she thinks she is always right, nobody works harder then her, and nobody knows more then her!! I swear I wanted to slap her damn face. She is a friggen whiney baby. I am so fed up with her. Our REAL boss has been out on medical since October. It has gotten out of control with her. God forbid if anyone makes a mistake because she feels the need to point it out to you!!! Oh, and she LOVES to send emails as "friendly reminders!!!"
I tell ya ladies, I am ready to explode...
As we all know...our freaking economy SUCKS!!!! Well they laid off two people from DH's job today. LUCKILY he was not one of them. I am totally stressing about it though. What happens if he gets laid off??? There really is not any work out there! What happened to things starting to look up for us??? I mean, I am totally thankful he is still working but if things dont turn around soon I dont know how long he will be working. And we can NOT live on just my pay alone!!!! I just dont know what we would do. PLEASE GOD...HELP US!!! I hope something happens for the better and fast.
DH has been bringing up tmt. He is not sure if he wants us to start in the summer due to all the economy problems. I mean I understand his point, he doesnt want to have a baby and get laid off, but when the heck are we going to start a family. I am so bummed about all of this. He says just relax, we will see how things are in a few months. I know things can change but will it???
Anyway...enough of my venting.
Angie, so sorry you have to fix a man's mistakes. That is so annoying. Hope you arent too stressed.
Angel...hope you have a nice vaca!!!
Becky, you just hush. You know we are here through thick and thin. There is no such thing as selfish on this thread!!!! BIG hugs Becky!!!
Hiya Sophie~!!! I loved your baby talk warning...cracked me up. You shoul;d post some piccies of your work! Would love to see it!!!
Tell DH to build a sewing room for you.
Renee, man I wish we would get some of your cold weather. What time is your app tomorrow? WIll be thinking of you!!
Hi Lee...how are you?
I will check in later!!
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wishfull27
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hiya .. another one of those days - did log on to read earlier and then never got chance to post
Mir - thinking of you honey .. evrything will work out just keep the faith xx
Renee - hope all goes ok tom .. hopefully it will give you some closure and chance to move on and look forward.. hugs ((()))
Becky - back at work .. arghhh hope it has not been too bad .. we are here for you whenever .. you know that xxx
Sophie - would love to see pictures of your domestic efforts - glad DH is getting all sorted for you and little baby bean xx
Ang - don't we always just have to pick up from the mess these men make !!! glad you had a good weekend .. don't work too hard xx
Lee - hope your ok .. and not working too hard x
car is sorted - some valve/sensoer thing !!, no change on friend she is awaiting to go to theatre for exploratory op - prob tomorrow now, and inbetween all this am trying to work, and get organised for Prague !!!
will try and post tom
love to all
xxx
Mir - thinking of you honey .. evrything will work out just keep the faith xx
Renee - hope all goes ok tom .. hopefully it will give you some closure and chance to move on and look forward.. hugs ((()))
Becky - back at work .. arghhh hope it has not been too bad .. we are here for you whenever .. you know that xxx
Sophie - would love to see pictures of your domestic efforts - glad DH is getting all sorted for you and little baby bean xx
Ang - don't we always just have to pick up from the mess these men make !!! glad you had a good weekend .. don't work too hard xx
Lee - hope your ok .. and not working too hard x
car is sorted - some valve/sensoer thing !!, no change on friend she is awaiting to go to theatre for exploratory op - prob tomorrow now, and inbetween all this am trying to work, and get organised for Prague !!!
will try and post tom
love to all
xxx
IVF 4 BFP
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wishfull27
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Hey Everyone!!
I just got home from hell...AKA work. Well it isnt hell...just today...
I came home to my babies...they always cheer me up.
Thanks Wishfull...I will try. I tend to be negative...
Make sure you keep us posted on your friend. I hope you arent stressed to bad. Just think...in a couple of days you will be in Prague.
Yeah, I saw that ANgie is up there. I am going to have to start posting individually so I cant be special too..
I just got home from hell...AKA work. Well it isnt hell...just today...
I came home to my babies...they always cheer me up.
Thanks Wishfull...I will try. I tend to be negative...
Make sure you keep us posted on your friend. I hope you arent stressed to bad. Just think...in a couple of days you will be in Prague.
Yeah, I saw that ANgie is up there. I am going to have to start posting individually so I cant be special too..
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wishfull27
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