
Hey Ladies, Got a call today about my beta it is a BFN
I'm OK with it though, the BFN on the HPT kinda prepared me for it a little bit. To all you ladies, I still don't advocate doing them before your beta. It was an emotional roller coaster worst than not having done it. The negative just had me think more about every single symptom, and trying to pretend or pray that the beta would still be positive. I think with "aspotofteas" story, what you should do is not do an hpt at all before beta, but if you get a BFN, then maybe do a hpt at home before stopping all meds.
I actually feel relieved to know one way or the other. The guessing game is the worst. Now I know I will get AF. Also now I can lift things again, yeah! Maybe I'll vacuum today in protest
The great news is, and what's getting me through this is that RE says I can do an FET right away this cycle. I had really wanted to deliver before years end to get the most bang for my buck from the insurance end of things. Sounds selfish, but my high deductible is met now, and it would be great to have the hospital fee be mostly paid for.
With that said, he was more than willing to let me try again, he said it wasn't a problem at all. I will stop my prog. gel and hope to get AF asap. I have an appt with him on Monday, and if my ovaries look ok, we'llget on with preparing my body for the FET.
The one thing I did ask him to do differently is put me on more progesterone, because this cycle I was cramping a lot. I feel like my uterus needs to be more calm than it was this time. I really did over do it also. I would be cleaning and doing to much, then I'd get really crampy. I also had that GI thing and diarrhea for like 3-4 days after transfer, which can irritate your uterus also. We'll never know what happened or went wrong. I already told DH that next time, he's going to hate me because I'm not going to do a damn thing but lay around...with my legs in the air... HaHa
Goodness I lost my point- anyway, RE said "I know you don't want to hear this....but I think you really need to be on POI instead of the Crinone."

Bummer

I guess if that's what's going to keep my uterus calm then I'll do whatever this time. I also didn't take it as easy as I should have, and I'm not blaming myself for this failing, but believe me, next time I will be a complete bum for the 2ww.

Thanks again for everyone's support.

Babymex, I forgot to thank you for the song yesterday, my mind was still preoccupied. It was really sweet of you to send it my way.

Now I just need to do the AF dance again
Melanie