Well I have come to terms with my crappy e2 numbers and accepted the fact that I won't be cycling soon, and it could be a while. RE did call me around 5:30, and he knows I am mad. Of course he answered my questions and made me feel a little better, he has a way of doing that. He is such a nice guy and truly cares about his patients, and how could I be mad at him when he gave me my little miracle Ella.
He said that he is increasing the lupron just to see if I am a rare case that may supress with a higher dose, but he said there is no prrof that 10 units is better than 5 or that 20 is better than 10 and so on. He said if my insurance didn't cover the lupron and it was costing me a lot he would keep me at 10 units, but since I am covered, no harm in trying the higher dose. He said it is more about the time on lupron than the amount of dose. He said obviously I need to be on it for a good while for it to work. He said my brain is ignoring the signals from the lupron and my ovaries are doing their own thing, but he said eventually my body will give up and just supress. He said the plan is to try the higher dose and do u/s and bw in 2 weeks and bw every week after that until I am supressed. He said it could take many more weeks, but it will happen.
I do hope the higher dose will work, but I am done hoping for the best. I am now expecting long delays so I don't get my hopes up only to be crushed. Every time I get a delay I obsess about missing that months cycle and immediately want to know my next goal date, I am done with that. I am not going to ask the plan until it is ready to happen, I will take each appt one at a time and when I get good news, then I will plan for the next step.
So I guess for now I will stick around and be a knowledge giver, your cheerleader and the "list master." And hopefully after you all get your bfp's and move to the pregnant side of the boards, you will come back and check in on me.
