Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[beth84]

Just wanted to tell Sonya - I took a look at your blog, and really enjoyed it. You are such a good writer - and that picture of you and your hubby is GORGEOUS.

[DandMe]

Beth, thank you soooo much for the wonderful compliment. I love blogging and have a lot of non-ivf friends who are really interested, so the blog is an easy way to answer questions and explain what's going on. Thanks again!

[claud662]

sonya-I also just checked out your blog and LOVED it!!! I also was deeply fascinated by the pictures of ovulation (and slightly disgusted at the same time!!!) It is always so nice to put a face with a name.

To everyone who had such kind words about my small argument last night with DH-THANK YOU!!! We made up first thing this morning (we can't stay mad at each other for more than like 5 minutes!!!) so the venting definitely was needed but now we are back on track and trucking forward!!!

Catch up on personals tomorrow.

[misocial]

Good evening ladies,
I have been offline this weekend trying to self absorb in mind numbing tv shows. I needed an ivf break. DP and I only discussed it twice when her mom called to check on me. My phone I ignored because I didnt want to have to explain to anyone what had happened, its bad enough I have to figure out what I am going to tell my boss tomorrow when she asks why I fell apart and left work on Friday. I think I could have better handled thisif i had known there was a possibility of being cancelled. Well enough of that. I am still taking my prenatal vits before bed cause they make me sick as a dog otherwise. Counted up my med and needles, stacked up the ivf books next to "colby dog" ( stuffed dog i got from wife that speaks to me when i take a shot, he says don't be a puss, just do it.) colby is needed due to my fear of needles. So I am ready to go with our next plan of action.

NO MORE EVIL LUPRON $%^&*%#$#%^&**&

This morning I got up took a hot shower, put on my new valentine jammies made french toast and according to my DP, returned to my old self again.

So to all I am not going to do personals today ( cause I could not possibly keep up) but rather I will send out a very heartfelt hug.

May today find you on the path of your dreams and I wish you all a big belly.

Marci

[DandMe]

sonya-I also just checked out your blog and LOVED it!!! I also was deeply fascinated by the pictures of ovulation (and slightly disgusted at the same time!!!) It is always so nice to put a face with a name.

To everyone who had such kind words about my small argument last night with DH-THANK YOU!!! We made up first thing this morning (we can't stay mad at each other for more than like 5 minutes!!!) so the venting definitely was needed but now we are back on track and trucking forward!!!

Catch up on personals tomorrow.

Claud thanks a million... it means a lot. yeah, aren't those photos just .... freaky amazing? I mean, just fascinating. I can always feel ovulation and now I think about that photo. Now imagine 10 of those suckers popping off each ovary!? LOL

So happy that you and dh are on the right track again.

[lou71]

Hi ladies,

Lots of pages to catch up on! I've been working way too much. 65 hours last week, so I'm really exhausted. Another week or so of this. Ugh! So this is a quick update from my phone before I go to bed.

Thank you all for the hugs & support after my BFN last Friday. It really sucked. But I will move forward and try again.

I've got everything crossed for all the PUPO girls. Looks like there's going to be a rush of BFP's at the end of the month!

Franny I'm so happy your one little embie was perfect and you had a successful transfer!

AFM - I feel AF coming on so I'll have to call the clinic to find out what's next for me. RE is going to put me on a Ganirelix protocol next. Anyone else on that med? I just need to decide if I'm taking an extra month off or not. I don't want to waste time but at the same time I feel like my chances will be better if I give my body a little rest. I've been cycling nonstop since Sept.

You're all in my thoughts. Good luck on ET/ER's coming up!


Lou

[hms]

franny: no idea why my beta is so late! yes, i was a 3dt. esp after i told the nurse i always get AF 12 days after my treatment - she still went ahead and scheduled my beta for 15 days later. oh well.

missocial/marci: I'm glad to hear you're coming back to your old self. Lupron is evil, but it's people like DP and Colby dog that will help you get through the next go round (lupron or no lupron). your time is coming, don't worry.

claudia: the fights, the fights! yes, how can you NOT fight when you both have such high levels of anxiety and fear and only each other to release that onto. i think we all (except Katie) have pregnant friends or family around. My SIL is older than me and had both of her children during the time we were trying. sometimes I just don't want to go see them (in NJ, btw) and pretend I'm the best aunt ever, 'cause i feel like the worst aunt. And you're right, when they cry and act all bratty i get a small sense of satisfaction that I get to walk away and go sleep 8 hours w/o interruption. That's wrong, but these emotions are all so irrational to begin with - you can't reason with it. Of course I wake up all sad again and wishing i had someone crying for me! Did you guys ever do Resolve or counseling? Did anyone? I asked my DH about it earlier in the year when we were having a really hard time fighting and deciding what to do. I felt like if our marriage was suffering then it could get no worse. Things evened out - i think actually doing this last round and coming to terms with the possibility of adoption helped us relax w/ each other.

samantha: so the nurse confirmed i'm doing the estradiol right. it's vaginal, even though it looks oral. let us know what the count is and how recovery goes.

Beth: awesome on a dozen! can't wait to hear how your lil guys did and who's going back inside the den.

katie: I need DH to massage me longer, i guess. I'm really sore this morning, too. he did it for about 5 minutes, but sounds like 10-15 is more like it.

dodo: did your donor get AF yet?

laurie: enjoy your last day before work. no shoveling. how is Boston faring snow-wise? it's gorgeous here in nyc, feels like spring could be coming.

es: what are your symptoms like these days? i think my co-workers are going to get suspicious as my 'snack drawer' is slowly filling up with random junk that i'm shoving into my face all day while sneaking updates on the board. i at a huge thing of dark chocolate yesterday but now i think i should switch to milk chocolate 'cause there's less caffeine. i'm crazy, i know.

best wishes, all!

[gi]

Hi girls,

Dandme i am jealous you are in hotel room relaxing but not that you are on your own. Good look tomorrow. update on me: i have to get a polyp removed by day of stims or my cycle will be cancelled.

turtle your dh sounds wonderful remind him he needs to continue this for next 9mths!!!!

Cami, beth and samgarkay best of with your EC's and ET's cant wait to see your names added to the PUPO list!!

Sorry no more time for personals as i am in work besides i am still catching up since wkend!!! but good luck to all you stimming ladies it sounds like i am gonna be one of the last!! At last i finally got an appointment (fingers crossed they wont cancel me) so i got a call from my gynae in the public ward (this means you dont have to pay for it) and she said they arent doing any more procudures for forseeable future as there is a vomiting bug there (felt like saying sure i am doing that already ) so i rang the gynaes private ward they said they were booked up for 6 wks and couldnt fit me in, so i got upset ( i can cry easily!!) and told her my long sad story so she squeesed me in!!!!! Have to cough up another €1200 but it will be worth it, have a consult this friday and getting it out friday 29th....i am sooooo excited ....sad arent I!!
Have to scrub my doggie tonight...he's about to lose his virginity at the grand ould age of 49 (doggie yrs!) my sister wants to breed, personally i couldnt do it as i would have to keep all the puppies (feck the money)...sorry mindless info.

chat later
gixxx

[claud662]

quick update-I had my u/s this morning and there was some fluid around my lining which the RE said was normal since it's still early in the cycle and I was at a 3mm which is pretty normal for me at this time. They upped up my Estrace and I go back in for a SnS on Saturday!!!

Thats all folks!!!

Catch up later

[PatyPaty]

Ladies - Thank you so much for your advice on my friend - I think I'm going to see how things progress & eventually we can have a conversation. But I think for the time being I'm just going to surround myself with positive people

update: I had a sonogram yesterday & my RE said things are progressing well. I only have 4 follicles on my left ovary & approx. 3 on my right ( he said there may be more, but I have a large endomeotria that's blocking the view).... I know it's not a lot, but all I need is one good egg to fertilize, right?? I have another appointment on Wed. morning & then I wait for my call to trigger. My ER is scheduled for this Friday - I'm almost there! WOOHOO!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day!

[Riley baby maybe]

To all of my PUPO sisters and everyone else who has been PUPO...is it normal to cramp? I'm having period cramps today (2dp5dt) and I can accept a BFN if that's what this means...I just don't know! Anyone????

[misocial]

Good Morning all:
Another day back at the grindstone...grrr... I could have so easily stayed in bed. I think my crime shows caught up to me last night, did not sleep a wink. At 1130pm heard a noise like something scraping the wall in the bedroom, at 1207 power went off then back on turning on the bedroom light, at 109 phone alarm went off for no reason. I spent the rest of the night in bad dreams. Now of course this did not happen during the weekend but on the night before work. I think I will try cartoons the next time I am looking for mindless tv. So far no one has said anything to me except my boss asking if I was "better". I am ready to get on with the show, although I could use a big fat nap!!!!! Waiting for call from RE with appt time so we can plan our next ATTACK

gi glad you found a use for your tears happy you got in.

claud I dont know anything about your med but if it makes you happy.... and its not evil lupron......yea for you

[CamiWB]

Jacqueline (Riley)--I don't know if this helps, but I wanted to tell you that I had terrible cramping during my 2ww the first cycle--and that was when I had a chemical pregnancy--so the embryo was starting to implant and it was trying to work. The second cycle, I didn't have ANY cramping and that one was a BFN (I was actually a little worried that I wasn't cramping), so this is just me, but I would think it's a good sign if you are having cramping? Other people might have other experiences, but in any event--that was mine. So I'm going to keep my fingers crossed for you that it is a good sign and the little bean is trying to stick!!! Think sticky thoughts!! XOXO Cami

[rlk1]

Hey all--

See what happens when I don't check in more often---I get pages and pages behind!

Merri: Let us know what they say tomorrow. Did they tell you that you might be cancelled, or are you just worried that might be the case. I REALLY hope things go as planned at tomorrow’s visit!! BTW, I see you’re in DC, are you cycling at Shady Grove (just curious, since that’s where we go!)?

Laurie: Yah, I will definitely POAS before my Beta. I’m thinking of POAS as early as Thursday (I’ll be 6dp6dt). I don’t know, that may be too early (a whole week before our Beta). If I don’t do it Thursday, I’ll definitely POAS on Sunday (9dt6dt). Ahhhhhh…this is torture!

Beth: Congrats on so many eggs---woo-hoo! Do you know yet if you/your clinic are leaning toward a 3dt or a 5dt?

Katie: DYING to hear how things go today at your appt. I’m thinking of you! Fill us in when you can!

Jacqueline: Hooray for being PUPO with little Viggo! Are you feeling better? Ugh. Your ER experience (and days after) sounded pretty brutal! For what it's worth, I have cramping too (noticed them on and off since Saturday). But....CamiWB's story gives me hope!

claud662: Vent away, that’s what we’re here for. Glad to hear you and DH made up. For what it’s worth, I think you handled the situation very well given that you had to sit there and act pleasant while your SIL and mother were discussing everything baby-related. Me…..I find myself glaring at pregnant women these days!

CamiWB: Not to laugh at what you had to go through to get that extra medication Sunday night, but I could totally picture you answering your door at 1am for that syringe. Oh the things we’ll do for that BFP!! GOOD LUCK tomorrow!!! Here’s hoping you get LOTS and LOTS of eggs!

Sonya: I haven’t had a chance to look at your blog, but I plan to immediately after I finish this post. Let us know how your SnS goes tomorrow. I’m thinking of you and have your sister in my prayers.

Gi: SOOOOO glad that they were able to squeeze you in to remove the polyp. YAYYYY!!! Does this mean you’re still on track for a FEB cycle? I really hope so!!

Franny: Sending sticky vibes out for little POOPO. Hmmm….your embaby is POOPO, Jacqueline’s embaby is Viggo. I’m thinking Laurie, Heather, and I need to come up with names for our embabies!

Heather: So you have symptoms? I’m guessing with the dark chocolate story that hunger may be one of them! No symptoms here….I guess that’s okay, though. Right?

Samantha: Good luck today!! Looking forward to hearing how it all went!

Paty: Friday will be here before you know it!! So exciting!! Grow follies, grow!

AFM.....I'm going to have to be Debbie Downer again....I feel like this little embryo never had a fighting chance. Not only was it dark and ugly when they transfered it (but still loved by us all the same!), but I haven't really been able to rest. My DH did the best he could....managing our one-year-old and me....but I had to help from time to time. The most distressing part for me is that the discharge papers say not to lift anything more than 25 lbs. Well, my DS is 26 pounds. What can I do? He's only one...it's not like I can't lift him (I absolutely have to for naps, changing diapers, putting him in the high chair, etc.). I hope my venting isn't taken the wrong way. I'm so blessed to have my DS, but I just wonder if all the lifting is jeopardizing this cycle and/or future cycles.

[gi]

rlk1 dont give up on your little embie it aint over till AF shows her ugly head!!! Come on find the pma you are still PUPO!!!

Riley baby i have had 5 2ww's in total including 2 fets and Always had cramping even before ec!! On my last 2 cycles i def. thought it was all over, on constant nicker watch as the pains were bad at times (extremley like AF ) and i got so fed up had a glass of vino during 2ww, after 11 days said feck it do a test early as it was wrecking me head i was sooo shocked it was positive!!! Dont worry its normal and could be your little baby burrowing its way into your uterus!!!

gi xx