Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[hms]

NOOOO! I'm so sorry to hear about today's BFNs.

Franny: I echo everyone else's thoughts - you have a great attitude and good for you for getting right back in there. You make it so easy to be hopeful. And I have no doubt it will work for you. Besides, look at this crew you have rooting for you!

Kim: damnit Darth! I'm holding out for your next FET. And do indulge in that wine! I'm practically carrying an unopened bottle around with me all day I'm so ready to throw back. Sending a big hug.

Niki: I feel your pain most closely. while i have poor ovarian response, everything else is good, DH is good, and 4 iuis, 1.5 IVFsr, and 2 1/2 years later...nothing. this is our last planned cycle before moving onto adoption. i wish you all the best with whatever decision you two ultimately make. your heart will tell what is right. in the meantime, do grieve and be sure to take care of yourself.

Cami: hope your headache subsided and you can get outside and enjoy the sun.

Sam: naughty girl. I hope that line sticks around. (no pun intended).

Katie: Retrieval is tomorrow morning! Good luck.

AFM, so far no AF. I've got guards standing at the gate with explicit instructions NOT to let her in. if i make it through the weekend, I'll be doing my beta on Monday with Sam and Beth, is that right?

How did this cycle move so fast? Wasn't it only yesterday we were all just getting started?

heather

[DandMe]

I was crushed to see the three bfn's on the board today. My heart goes out to each of you. I really wish things had turned out differently. I can't imagine how sad you are. Many, many wishes for time to heal the sense of loss.

Happy to see that there might be a little light for Sam - A line is a line, especially if it's got some pink in it.

I really am pulling for the rest of the group - surely we will get some more good news soon.

We had egg retrieval today and got 22. It was a lot more painful than I was expecting and took longer because there were so many. I feel a lot less pressure and bloating now, but am pretty crampy as a result of all the pokes in on my ovaries. No bleeding, though. I am just trying to keep my fluids up to prevent any possible ohss - my estrogen was almost 11,000 when we triggered.

We should get a fertilization report by noon tomorrow.

[samgarkay]

Sonya-Yeah for 20!!! That's awsome and glad to hear your doing good. I can't wait to hear your fert report tomorrow, though I am sure it will be awsome! You'll be PUPO before you know it!

[msmac]

Franny, Kim, and Nikki I just wanted to send you all hugs!!! I'm so sorry to hear your news! Enjoy your glasses of wine!

[beth84]

Sam - That's fantastic! Hooray for some good news! I have full confidence that your faint pink line will become a dark line by Sunday. I do not, however, think you'll make it through Saturday without POAS again.

Heather - No AF yet! Tell her she is NOT welcome.

Sonya - 22 eggs! I'm sorry it was so painful - I hope they've given you something for the pain, and don't hesitate to take it if you need it. Also, fluids and gatorade!

Katie and Miyaya - GL today!

AFM - We are snowed in today! Probably only about 6 inches of snow, which I know is not much (I lived most of my life in the north), but here, they don't start plowing streets until it's all over, and even then they're not very good at it. We'll be stuck inside at least through tomorrow. DH made breakfast, and I'm having a real cup of caffeinated coffee. (Hoping to give my intestines a kick start - the progesterone is giving me unprecedented constipation - sorry for the TMI. I'm taking colace already - any other tips?)

[Arabsrcool]

Niki,

I am so sorry for your BFN. I totally get jumping off the rollar coaster. Its so draining, financially, physically and emotionally. I wish you the best. We will be here is you need anything.

Samantha,

Hi, my name is Ronda and I became a member of the POAS club today. My results however, were not as positive as yours. HPT was BFN. I am 9dpt. I know its still early, and not to give up until the fat lady sings, but I feel her warming up her vocal cords. I will probaby POAS again on Monday, beta is Weds. Congrats on your faint line, will pray it becomes a very dark line soon!

Beth,
start adding benefiber to things you eat/drink. It really helps me.

Sonya,

hurray for 22 eggs. You go girl!

heather,

glad to hear AF is not showing her ugly head.

afm, my PMA is in the toliet, speaking of which, I need to go clean the toliet. So I am going to go clean like a mad woman and try not to think about using my last HPT, like the result would be any different in the PM than the AM. Sigh, I am done whining. Thanks for listening.

Ronda

[T3]

Hi Ladies..

I'm on my first IVF cycle and just did my beta testing this AM. DOn't know the result, but have had 3 negative HPT, boobs are not as tender and finally feeling better from the OHSS. I had a moderate to severe case of it. I wouldn't ever want to go through that again.

Anyways, the fact that the HPT were all negative and my symptoms are improving can mean something bad for me today. I'm feeling rather depressed this morning.

I have a feeling I'm going to need a lot more the evil sticks in the future. Since everything cost an arm and leg, is there a site I can buy the sticks for cheap?

Thanks,
t3

[moorebaby]

ronda- it is TOO EARLY!!! if cleaning will get your mind off of things, then clean way. you can come to my house & clean, lol! anyways, get that pma going...you're testing too early girl!

beth- i'm so jealous of the caffeine. i have not had any in like 3 week...i miss it. so you're snowed in? i wonder if it's coming my way to ct. enjoy being snowed in with dh.

sonya- woohoo for 22! that's a great #! can't wait to hear the fert report tomorrow. is that how you'll decide whether you'll be doing a 3dt or a 5dt? if the pain is really bothering you, call the re for some pain meds. i took my dh's percocet. it helped me sleep too.

miyaya/katie- how did er go? i'm thinking of both of you. can't wait to hear the updates.

heather- yay for no af! i think she is getting the point that she is NOT welcome. just 2 more days until your beta!

niki- i'm so sorry. whatever you & dh decide to move on to, i wish you the best of luck. (((HUGS)))

kim- my heart aches for you. i hope that wine helped you sort things out & think about your future plans.

tiger- welcome!

lots of sticky baby dust all around ladies!

love ya,
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[rlk1]

Hi everyone--

Thank you all so much for your kind words. It really meant a lot! I just wanted to pop in quick to wish Katie and Miyaya all the best today! Looking forward to hearing the results of your ER!

I'll probably be lurking and cheering you all on from time to time---I hope that's okay!

Good luck to all the PUPO ladies next week. Let's see some BFPs roll in!!

-Kim-

P.S. The wine last night helped....a little.

[moorebaby]

t3- welcome! fingers are crossed that phone call will bring you good news!

kim- of course, it's okay that you pop in & visit us. we're not here just for the ride, but also for that traffic jam that sometimes unfortunately happens. (i know my analogy is corny) but seriously we're here for it all.

miyaya/katie- how are you doing? how did er go?

[samgarkay]

Miyaya,Katie- best of luck with your ERs today! You'll both be PUPO before you know it! Katie, I hope all the waiting doesn't drive you to crazy!!

Beth-Sounds like your just going to enjoy the day snuggled in at home! Stay warm. Prune juice would be my next thought for the problem your dealing with. Not the tastiest stuff but I don't mind it so much. You were right...I couldn't make it through today with out POAS. I did it again and the line was slightly darker. Enough so my DH could see it when I took a pic on phone and sent it!

[T3]

Well I got that phone call that I was dreading. It's a BFN!!! sucks. Where do I go from here? My beta was 6. I guess I'm going to stop taking all meds, get my period and how soon can I start another cycle? I have one more frozen embryo that I can use. The only way I can get through this is to look forward. I'm going to allow myself to grieve tomorrow. Can't do it now because I have to go to work and put on that smile.

Anyways.. I would appreciate it if something would let me know what I should be looking forward to and when I can start a new cycle would be great.

Thanks.
t3

[jenice]

T3 - Sorry to hear about your BFN. I had that my first cycle also. I had hyperstimmed I don't think I had OHSS but was very high risk for it. What was your E2 ? My E2 was high and my endometrium was not receptive to the embryos, that is what we figured went possibly wrong with my first cycle. I did a FET 2 months to the day, really easy cycle. I wish I had more frosties, plus your body I think isn't as stressed, I had a chemical during that cycle. But I did get preggo !!!!! Good luck and I know it is a devastating time right now for you and DH. We put so much time and ourselves into this and it feels like a slap in the face but it will get easier as time passes

[katie99]

OMG - I cant even type fast enough to get out everything that happened to me today - I dont believe it still!

Girls - please I need all the advice you can think of, my hands are shaking so much its making typing really hard. Tell me whatever pops into your heads please - good or bad

OK - so at my ER this morning - they retreived NOTHING! Not even 1
Of course I knew that my RE sitting next to me when I woke up was a bad sign already. But he had this sad look on his face, so i burst into tears before he even said 1 word! even my DH had a tough time getting me to be calm enough to listen to my RE. He said there wasnt even 1 worth anything. I knew my egg quality was questionable, but he has always been able to get 1-2 each time. So I assume he's finally decided to go to a donor since we've talked about this through the last 3 of my 6 tries. Instead he blew me out of the water entirely. He said that our chances with my eggs are less than 10% and that he has done everything he can - so the tears keep getting worse to the point I'm not even able to talk - or RE & my DH cant understand me. So my RE asks us to please go get breakfast and come back in 1 hr. I tell him I'm not hungry and to just say it already. Funny how I cant figure out why he insists we come back in an hour. I think he justs want me to go clear my head so i can pay attention - so we do, and we go back to Re's office

Well this man blew my mind and told us that a donor cyle will be around 30k - I knew this already, so here come the tears again - and I'm thinking that my mom dream is falling apart with every word my RE says
Then he tells me that he has felt so bad for me the last few cycles - but was ever hopeful that we would beat the odds and find that lucky egg
Six tries later - So by now i'm not even trying to hold back tears - i mean all of the frustrations of the past 14 months of cyling came out

My RE said that he has 4 donated blasts from a couple that looks similar to us and had multiples and is done with babies AND IS OFFERING THEM TO US FOR FREE! - I sat there with my jaw on the floor stunned
He says the only problem is that he needs an answer by tomorrow - eek!
I cant even think straight right now - My RE said that this is a true gift by way of good timing & a generous couple. I feel like my head is spinning right now - such a big offer and only a day to decide?!?!?!
Help!! What do you guys think? We are totally out of pocket already past the 50k mark, so to think of adding another 30k for a donor egg - probably wont happen - but if we take this amazing gift - then my DH gives up the genetic link also and theres nothing wrong with him -just me
ACKKKKK!!!! I cant believe we only have 1 day to decide - help!

[latrell22]

Just a quick note to Katie.
I was reading your last post and I'm sorry about today. You got bad news and in the same instance received some good. If you and DH are accepting to receiving donor eggs that will be given to you for free, I would definitely take them. But, you and DH have to be comfortable with the fact that there will be no genetic link. If you've ever considered adoption, then I say go for it. What a wonderful gift you have been offered! Let me know what you and DH decide and the best of luck to you two. Will keep you in my prayers!