Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[karenthescorpio]

Katie- OMG...what an amazing outcome to such sorrow. I swear...the universe really does bring to us (even in unusual ways) the things we really want. You and DH are going to love your child just as much! I know you would rather it be your genes, but somehow you know it's going to be ok.

To all other ladies....just way to many of us to do personals. Let me just say, that I really enjoy reading everyone's updates. This process is so crazy...it's nice to read how others are doing!

AFM- got the official go for trigger tonight at 9pm. So Tuesday is my ER! wooo whoo. I feel so good about this cycle. I just know I'm going to get pregnant this time. I just know it!

Wishing everyone peace and BFP's (however they come to us!)

[moorebaby]

j & c- oh yeah, duh, you had family visiting! i knew that so much for my wonderful memory
i'm glad that all of 4 made it. great news! i've been on pretty much on bedrest since thursday also....just getting up here & there & walking around for a bit to stretch my legs & butt. i called out of school & emailed my subplans for tomorrow...i thought what's 1 more day? i completely understand where you are coming from with adoption. i'm open to pretty all of it...adoption, donor, whatever. dh is not. he is stuck with the gentics thing, which i do understand. however, he is supportive of continuing with ivf until it works. hopefully this will be a success for both of us & all of the ladies on this board.

lots of sticky baby dust all around ladies!

love ya,
es

[hms]

hi all: 14dpt and just got a BFN on one of those evils sticks. i held out yesterday and didn't test, but just wanted to today on the off chance...i think it's over for me, I really do. ugh, how do I prepare for the phone call when I'm at work? I don't know how I'll handle it. please send me good vibes for getting through the day.

xo
heather

[lou71]

Katie -- I'm so happy you had a good sleep and woke up this morning calm and with a clear head. It shows you both feel good about this decision. I'm praying for a BFP for you. But I'm with you.... three sounds like a lot to me too. Triplets aren't only scary because you'd be outnumbered, but could be quite a dangerous pregnancy for everyone! Why not two and save the other two in case you need them later?

Lauren1171 -- I'm so sorry. It really stinks when that happens. (((hugs)))

T3 -- I got AF 3 days after stopping meds on my last two tries. Now I'm back up and going again without a break... whew! This better be it!

Karen -- Good luck with ER tomorrow!!!! I'll be thinking of you.

miyaya -- I think 9 is a good number! My clinic grows them to 5 days if there's more than 4. Otherwise they do a 3 day transfer, or rarely a 2dt. I hope your embies all make it and are doing well so they can change you to a 3dt and have a good pick of the lot! Good Luck!!!!

J&C -- I'm praying for your BFP. I hope this is it for you too. Best wishes.

Heather -- Oh, I know that call at work too well. I did the same thing, tested just before my beta. I guess it helped to be prepared. But the call still sucked. No way around it. I just tried to keep busy. My fingers are crossed that you'll be one with a negative HPT but positive beta. Good luck.

I know I didn't get to everyone... but you're all in my thoughts!

AFM-- OK, this is almost too much... but AF is STILL here. 14 freaking days. When is this going to stop? Pretty soon I stop the BCP's and will bleed again anyway. Ugh! Leaving Weds for my ski trip... gotta start packing.

[DandMe]

Hi Girls! Just too many people to do personals - but I thought I'd keep anyone who is interested updated... All 15 of our embryos are growing!! There are two three cell (the nurse said it was just a little slower dividing into four) and 13 four cell embroys from 'average' to 'very good' in quality.

Clinic is pretty sure we'll be doing a 5 day transfer... DH just left for the airport and I am alone again - even more lonely than before he got here! Sigh.

[Hope644]

Wow. this is not the time to miss a day or two on this thread! So much going on. I was just looking at the number of betas we have this week!! wow!

Katie- you have had quite an emotional journey - thru ttc, but in one day alone! I cannot imagine your sorrow and joy all in the course of 24 hrs. I am so, so sorry that they could not retrieve any eggs. I know you haven't really had time to think about that, but that is probably best. God is at work and He does do amazing things. There is a reason for everything... everything. Praying that these donor embies are perfect little babies just waiting to call you mommy! Transferring all 4, I see. I can understand why that would be concerning. I don't know how valid it is, but we considered transferring 3 in our last cycle and my DH flipped because the RE said it would be about a 5% chance that we'd have triplets. DH thought even that was too high, so we opted for 2 instead. If I'd had to to do over, I would have pushed for 3,... but you never know. Does it have anything to do with how they are stored? frozen together? I don't know anything about frosties, we've never had any, only frozen sperm.. Anyway, thinking about you and sending you lots of love & frostie dust!!

For Beta Girls tomorrow - HMS, Ashley, Chris, & Beth...

hms & beth - don't let the evil sticks get you down and please don't give up hope. I know how hard it can be to wait for the call at work. thinking of you dear and sending you lots of PMA!

Thinking of you all...

Lou - 14 days? 14?? oh honey, I'm so so sorry. She is really beyond wearing out the welcome. Go away already! Hoping she leaves long enough for a break before the bcps make her come back!

DandMe - sounds like you have quite a selection to choose from for transfer!! congrats!!! So glad they are all dividing and growing well! Sorry DH has to go and leave you alone that sucks! will he be home in time for transfer?

Karenthescorpio - congrats on triggering!! Tuesday will be here before you know it! Here's to lots of perfect juicy eggies just waiting to be "hatched"!!

J&C - Congrats on all 4 frosties making it to transfer!!! That's wonderful news! Praying that this will work for you and you won't have to worry about adoption or more ivf options!

moorebaby - congrats on being pupo too!! glad to hear you're taking some extra time for yourself and staying off your feet!

Lauren - I think I must have missed previous post? Were you waiting for beta? Did I read your post correctly?

miyaya - 9 fertilized embies is a very good thing! I can't imagine why they would have you do d2t either?! I am so sorry they aren't giving you any info. I know how frustrating that can be! Can you demand to talk to a doctor tomorrow? Well, here's hoping they give you a call EARLY enough to not be down the road already... and tell you to wait for day 3!!

ok, i know there are more out there, but I can't remember anymore!! Sending you all lots of

afm - on day 3 of lupron. went to bed at 7:30 last night and did not want to get out of bed at 7 this morning. I really feel more blaa than tired... wondering if the bcps are causing me to feel depressed? ugh. well, tonight is my last of those things, at least. hopefully the blaas will soon depart. maybe i'm just feeling overwhelmed because i can't get my house straightened up (trying to organize and clean my dining room which has become a scrapbook room ) and have no time to do it and no clue where to start) and trying to keep up with life in general, you know.

my mother is going thru chemo and she lives 5 hrs away. my 4 sisters are there to help her out, but i feel badly that i'm not there... plus i know my DS brings such joy to her and we don't get to visit as often as I'd like (say, every week!) we get down about once a month, but it just doesn't seem like enough. My whole family lives there and I feel like they are missing out on my son's life and I'm missing time with my mom - and not helping out. the good news is that my mom's last PET scan was good and her tumor is noticeably smaller and she is showing no other signs of cancer in her body! answered prayers!! hopefully she will only have 3 more rounds and she'll be done. She is actually improving daily - oddly for chemo - but she is recovering from full back surgery (shoulderblades to tushy) and has enough hardware in her to set off all kinds of alarms at the airport. so after that pain, chemo is actually a bit of relief, but that's good news.

ugh, 'nough about me. better get to sorting out stickers and embellishments for a few more min before bedtime.

Wishing you all

[Hope644]

ha.... i just googled my bcps - first side effect listed? depression. ugh. is it worth calling my nurse about it now? I only have 1 left... not that it's going to make any difference... i'm going to take it in less than an hour!

[turtle0619]

hi everyone
i just wanted to hop on to say i am home. i just walked in the door. it's been a long hard weekend and i'm ready to crash.
just skimming the past million of pages since i got my BFN i have a ton to catch up on, but i cant even see straight right now.
katie...we will talk in the A.M. but i am thinking of you! amazing story for you...i'm so sorry i wasnt around to help you when you needed me!
to all the beta girls tomorrow....good luck!!!

to everyone who got a BFN....how long does it take to stop crying? how long does it take before the fog goes away, and you can think again?
this hit me harder then i thought, and i am heartbroken. i dont know how to stop the tears or how to stop my heart from hurting.

ok well i gotta get to bed.
i am thinking of you all always...i just dont have the words right now to do personals....thank you all for your sweetness when i announced my bfn.

**much love always**

[ktelise]

Hello,

I am new to the group and am happy to share my story although it is not yet one with a happy ending. My husband and I have a 5 year old son that we conceived naturally. After TTC for 2 years I was diagnosed with endometreosis and had surgery. In August 1009 we did an IVF cycle and the transfer was cancelled due to possible hyper stimulation. However, 12 - 5 day blasocyts were frozen. In Septt. 1009 I had my 1st FET - BFN. In October I had my 2nd FET - BFP. However, I miscarried on November 30th at 5 1/2 weeks. This was my 2nd miscarriage and my 1st miscarriage was in October 2008. After many tests the reason for the 2nd miscarriage is unknown.

I am looking for any success stories as well as encouragement as I approach my 3rd FET in a couple of weeks.

So, you see...my story does not yet have a happy ending.

[jenice]

Katie - Sorry, to crash in but couldn't resist. It sounds like a IVF fairytale, if there would be one this is it !!!!! FET is awesome and I think it is easier for the little babies to implant. You and DH deserve this soooo much, you have gone through so much. I have a DD and if I had to adopt I would have. I couldn't imagine life without my DD. That is why I am still here and will continue on my journey.Your RE is awesome and has a heart of gold. Congrats again, soooooo happy for you and DH

[Lauren1171]

Hi everyone!

There is a lot to keep up with on here an I am still a little confused with some of the abbreviations. I noticed a lot of people take Lupron....what is Lupron? My RE started me on the birth control pill on the day I got my negative Beta test from my first IVF and AF (January 15). Today if my last pill so AF should be here by the weekend. I start the stims on 2/5 or 2/6 and my estimated ER is 2/20. Good luck to everyone and I enjoy reading all of your posts! I thought I knew alot after 3 IUI's and an IVF, but I am really learning alot on here from everyone. And so sorry to everyone elso who had a failed BETA. I took a home test 2 days before my blood test and AF came later that night. I think that made getting the bad news over the phone a lot easier.

-Lauren

[jenice]

Turtle - So sorry to hear about your BFN, it sucks. I had a BFN first cycle and was crushed, never thought I would be so upset . It takes time to feel better try to do some fun things with DH to distract yourself or you will drive yourself crazy. Then I did FET had a BFP then had a chemical So, I figure pretty much have done all the IVF outcomes It has to go our way soon Keep your chin up and take time out to take care of yourself. Hope you feel better soon

[latrell22]

Well I just got in from my ultrasound and there was NOTHING....big ol zero...the doctor said that I am a poor responder to the meds. So he told me to stop everything and wait until the end of the month for AF and then I will start all over again with a higher dose of Menogon...6 ampules this time versus the 3 I was doing. I'm so hurt....back to waiting on AF.

[gi]

Ah laterall so sorry hun sending you a big ((((((hug))))))) i wish there was more i could say to make you feel better but know i am thinkin of you xxxx

[beth84]

Latrell - I'm so sorry! I hope AF comes soon and you get a better response on the next round.

Lauren- LUpron is used to suppress ovulation before and during the cycle. There seem to be two main protocols used - Lupron, then stims, or BCPs then stims. Some women respond better to one than the other. I've done both, much to the same effect.

ktelise - I'm sorry about your losses. You'll find lots of support and encouragement here.

Franny - hon, I'm so sorry. I've found it different every time. My first BFN I just plowed through to the next cycle, and then when I got my first chemical, I definitely lost it for a while. Since then, I think the losses have gotten a little easier. My best advice is just to let yourself feel the hurt. If I try to put it off, it just gets worse. Take care of yourself and get your DH to take care of you too.

Hope644- You have a lot going on right now, and it's not surprising that you're feeling depressed. Even without the BCPs, I'd be surprised if you weren't reacting to the stress. I hope your mother continues to improve.

Sonya - That's great that your embryos are doing so well. Are you going home as soon as the transfer is done?

Lou - Two weeks of AF? Unbelievable. You must be getting excited for your trip!

Heather - I'll be hoping for the best for you today. Yeah, that phone call sucks. Like Lou, I just try to keep busy until it's time to go home.

Es - It sounds like we're in similar situations with our DHs. It's hard to think that we might just never be parents, when there are so many other options they won't do.

I managed to get out and get my blood drawn this morning. I'm so glad we dug the car out of the snow yesterday, or I think it'd be impossible today. On the bright side, everything (including work) is closed, so I'm doing some work at home and waiting for the dreaded call. Good luck to my other beta sisters today!