Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[DandMe]

Miyaya

You are so calm... I was pretty good at first, too but the pressure got to me. How WONDERFUL that your DH is there with you and you have the day off.... I agree - it will be an enjoyable day in one way or another. I love your outlook on kids, as well. DH and I really want to start adoption regardless of whether or not we are successful. I am sending you tons of baby dust...

[DandMe]

I'm a freak. I woke up at 4:30 am and could NOT sleep. Finally I gave in and tested.

I put the test on the nightstand and turned on the television. I kept telling myself that this would be like all the other zillion times I've tested.. that ten minutes would go by and there'd barely be anything there.... But the line came up right away, and even sitting on the nightstand in the dim lamplight I could see it.... I'm 13 days past the trigger... and the line IS getting darker... nobody can deny that...

[gi]

Hi ladies,

Dandme you are a POAS addict and need to join some sort of meeting in dealing with it def. darker you are pregnant!!!!!

Moorebaby so sorry it was negative ((((hugs)))))

Karen congrats on the transfer!!!

Katie the 2ww is nuts isnt it!!! and the closer you get to beta the crazier you drive yourself!!! I really hope you get your bfp

Right may do more personnals later promise as in work!! but got the go ahead to start stims tomorrow!!! Going on the iv drip wed 17th for few hrs to seperate my killer cells, cant believe its all happening,

chat later gi xx

[turtle0619]

good morning everyone!

ester oh hun i am just heartbroken for you!! i am soooo sorry!!
i am still getting over my BFN, and its been a week and a half. take all the time you need to heal. i am here for you when you need me! ((((hugs))))

katie dont google...dont go to 2ww.com....dont give up hope!!! i am now anti POAS, but are you going to? ya know...i thought it was sooo awesome to have a picture of poopo..i put him on my bedside table and said good morning and good night to him each day of my 2ww. well now that i got my bfn....i dont know what to do with the picture. i put it away for now, but i just cant throw it away. the picture made it seem so real, and at first that was a great feeling, but now it just made it hurt so much more. so i dont know how i feel about the pictures anymore. the dish is still pretty weird though haha

sonya ummm i'm pretty sure youre preggers!!!! i think you win the POAS queen award for this board so far! of course i can imagine its a lot more fun when you see 2 lines!!

J&C this waiting must be torture! i'm so sorry you have to go through this...i am not giving up on you yet!!! grow beta grow!!!

merri my dh also rubbed my belly and talked to my embie during the 2ww...he even went and got his headphones and put "bassy" music on and put them on my belly....it was very sweet, and i knew it was something he's always dreamed of doing...it made us feel like a normal pregnant couple even just for a little bit.

to all the PUPO, and 2ww girls....hang in there....we have to get our BFP's up for this board...so come on already....no pressure...hehehe

afm so this cold is killing me. i havent been sick all winter, and i thought i would make it the whole time, but no such luck! i usually get really sick right after a very emotional or stressful time in my life...so yeah i'd say this makes sense. so great....on top of all the crying , i cant breathe.
so i tried to call my RE and cancel my hysteroscopy tomorrow because i'm so sick, but the nurse told me that if i canceled they wouldnt be able to get me in again until the begining of march cause my RE is on vacation, and by then my lining will be too thick, and they have to wait until i do this in order to put my insurance claim in, and it would be too late....so i said...ummmm i'll be there tomorrow!! so much for me trying not to pass my germs around!! hopefully everything will look good, and i wont have to worry about anything else before my next cycle. then i just have to get march to get here quicker!!!
alright...off to make myself some tea!

***much love always***

[msmac]

DandMe- I agree with gi, looks like a positive to me. Congratulations!!

[claud662]

Sonya-OK...you are totally insane but you are definitely pumping HCG through your body and there is definitely a darker line!!! Now step away from the sticks and enjoy the moment!!!!! you should just buy a digital so you can actually see if it says PREGNANT!!!

Franny-Good luck tomorrow!!! hope there is little to no pain and that you feel better xoxo

Katie-Let's see...what can you do to get your mind off of 2ww???? Go to starbucks to read a good book, walk around the mall (and maybe look at some comfy clothes to wear when you get your BFP), go see a movie (a good chick flick like Dear John), get a pedicure, clean out a closet, ANYTHING but go to crazytown!!! xoxo

J&C-beta doubling dust your way!!! Good luck and fingers crossed.

Hope-Good luck at your SnS this morning!! hope those follies are growing, growing, growing!!! (wish I had a cute graphic like you do-but I'm not as tech savvy!)

GI-YAH for starting stims and seperating those killer cells!!!

Tracy-can't wait to hear your fert report today-good luck!

miyaya-PMA girl!!! You are still PUPO and have a great chance this cycle-stay positive

AFM...I'm officially pumped full of estrogen and finishing up my AF today or tomorrow. I am being VERY cautious and really trying to stay calm at all times and just prepare for anything that gets thrown my way. This cycle has definitely prepared me for the unpredictable. I go in again Friday for a SnS and hopefully my lining will be thickening like it should be!!! I'm like a little kid because this snow storm coming our way will get me out of work tomorrow and I won't have to teach tomorrow night until 9:30 and will get a nice night to spend with DH and I will even cook a nice dinner!!!!! YAH for snowdays

[Positivethinking]

Hi everyone... It has been a long time...However I have been everyone's story.
Moore Baby: I am so sorry about the BFN. I wish you the best for the next step.
Blessed Mama: Congrats on your ET...
Dodo: I am sorry about the allergy. I just found out I am allergic to follic acid the RE prescribed me. Great what do I do now??... I went to buy the generic brand at CVS and will see how it goes. and Hopefully the hives on my faces come down because right now I look like SH*T...Great with the new donor. I am sure it will work out perfectly.
Hope: Love the story about scared to go pee in case you loose th embies...I was the same when I did IUI, I was always sure that it wuld fertilized and then for some reason the embies left me...You say we are having more snow next week??? No way... Good to know about getting an hotel in Rockville...I think it is a great idea..
JC: I am sorry to hear about your low beta, it is very disappointing but I agree with the girl, it might be just jump up by next test....
Miyaya I love your attitude, if this IVF does not work, I will go toward adoption as well.
Dandme: The line is darker...great sign, you are pregnant but this was the last one.. you have to stop testing... realax, light some candles and try your best to wait until the beta test...
Turtle: Soory you are sick... I hope you feel better
Gi: Congrats on starting stims..
katie: Friday is almost there, there is no reason it should not be positive, this cycle was went to be for you....cannot wait for Friday

Update: I went to the IVF class last week. OMG have you girls really seen this needle for the trigger... This is insane!!! My DH was practicing on the silicon they gave us and he was not doing great. He is not tuching my AS* until he get his act together... He better keep practicing on a orange...He is doing sooo good with all the other shots... Okay I give him credit, I am not the easier person to deal with when it comes to needles... Thanks god it is only 1 shot...
I also started the stim last night with 150 of Gonal F and 75 menopur...I was so happy and very positive but now I dont know if the hormones are alreday acting up but positive thinking is not so positive today. I am stuck at home with no job...bored, broke and also F***ing snow, I cannot even go out to distract myself... Okay lets refocus and have faith that everything will turn out great (eventually...) March will be the month where I am pregnant with twin and with a job so I can afford a vacation...
By the way I will start working on my taxes...May be I get some money back...
To all the girl on the 2ww waiting, you should do you taxes as well , I am sure it will take your mind off things...
I am sorry for everyone I missed but I am thinking about everyone...[/b]

[Arabsrcool]

Miyaya,

Love your PMA!

Ester,

I am so sorry ((((HUGS))).

Katie,

Deep breaths, you are doing fine, Beans are fine!

gi,

Hurray for moving forward. You are on your way to BFP!

Positivethinking,

Had to giggle when you talked about the needle for trigger. That sucker is huge and totally didn't want DH to so that either. But its an ends to a means. Quick story, when I get PG with my lst DD, DH was working and couldn't give my trigger shot. I had to beg one of my co-workers to do it (she took one look at the needle and said "this doesn't go all the way in does it????)

J&C,

I am doing my best double beta dance for you.


afm, Had f/u and baseline appt this morning. Drive was awful as usual, but according to the forecast, the WINTER STORM hasn't even really started yet. Oh Boy, anywhoo.....its a go for FET again this month. RE (God I love that man), is doing a freebie cycle and going to write off all the expenses. I have to buy my meds. We agreed to thaw all 5 embies and transfer anything that looks good (even if that means all 5). I go back for SNS on 2/19 and ET is going to be 2/24 or 2/25. So this is my last and final attempt, I sure hope this works!

Ronda

[Hope644]

Katie - hang in there, hon only a few more sleeps til Friday!! I know you must be going crazy. Thinking of you!! relax and think sticky thoughts!!

miyaya - so glad you have beta on a day off! i hate the wait for the call while at work! sounds like you are doing well hangin' in there during the 2ww. enjoy your time with DH!!

DandMe - There's no mistaking that the line is getting darker. I think congratulations are in order!!! WOO HOO!!

gi - congrats on getting the go-ahead to start stims!! u've got ur seat belt on and ready to go!!!

Franny - Sorry you're still feeling sicky And that you have to go in tomorrow or be really delayed!! Hope it goes well!

Claud662 - good luck at your S&S on Friday. And I'm with you, YAY for SNOWDAYS! Enjoy your time with DH!!! We're hunkering down for another possible 10-20" starting this afternoon.

PositiveT - Glad to hear I'm not the only one that gets scared about peeing with embies in there! I know it's irrational, but it's still there! And yes, as of yesterday, weather.com had us getting more snow on Monday... but it's gone today! Hopefully it will pass us by. I see u are neighbors with rlk1 and I... do u go to SG in Rockville?

alright, so quick update on me... S&S this morning went, uh surprising...but good. RE says she is expecting me to trigger FRIDAY... FRIDAY?@?!?! I was thinking Monday, maybe even as late as Wednesday! I have at least 10 follies over 10mm. My largest is 16 and I have a few around 13-14. She said they may need to reduce my meds this afternoon because my E2 was already over 500 yesterday... I didn't remember what was "high" or "normal" so I went back and looked at my old cycle spreadsheets and I didn't even have over 500 on this date when I was on the verge of hyper-stim the first cycle. The good news is that it will hopefully be easier for my family to make arrangements to get here to drive and take care of DS over the weekend, even though my mom is going back into the hospital on Thursday for her 4th chemo.

So next S&S on Thursday, after the next foot or more of snow makes it's way to our area. And then the last may be on Friday!! I feel a little bad tho, because I just ordered (and received) 2 more 900 IU Gonal-F pens... If we trigger on Friday, I won't be opening the last one... oh well. WHEN I get my BFP and don't need it anymore, I'll be sure to find it a good home!

hugs girls...

[claud662]

Hope-That's amazing!!!! YAH for Friday trigger!!!!! Keep drinking tons of fluids so you don't get OHSS!!!

Ronda-I LOVE your RE!!! possible 5 embies for the FET?!?!?!? Holy moly!!! I've got everything crossed for you and it looks as though our FET's will be really close together and we WILL get our BFP!

Positivethinking-my DH was SOOOOO nervous when he had to first give me the huge shots in the butt, BUT now he is an expert!!!! haha!!!

[Arabsrcool]

Claudia,

Do you have dates yet? How many embies are you planning on transferring? I know, the thought of 5 for me is daunting, but chances of them all making thaw and progressing are slim.

Hope,

Wow, you stimmed fast. Friday ER???? Hope that does work out better for child care for you.

Ronda

[turtle0619]

ok so i just had to hop on and share this with katie and i thought it would make the rest of you giggle too!!

so i just saw a local commercial for edible arrangements and it was this guy showing up at the door with all different kinds of arrangements.. "ding dong" "here's an arrangement for your birthday" ding dong, "here's one to hope you get well soon" ding dong, "here's one just because its monday" and so on and so on, and at the end of the commercial it says..."edible arrangements are perfect for any situation"
so of course i picture the commercial continuing with katie showing up at her RE's office with one saying "thanks for the embryos!!"
hahahaha ok maybe its all the cold meds i'm on but it made me laugh!!

[Positivethinking]

Just a little reply...
Franny, you are so funny, you definitaly made me giggle...
Hope...I actually go to SG in Annandale, VA but the ER and ET are in SG Rockville (45 mn drive), so if the weather is bad when time comes, I will get the hotel...Great for you on Friday, good luck...

[sarita28]

Just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. My name is Sarah, and I am a cardiac nurse living in Iowa.

We have been trying to get pregant for about a year and a half now. At first they weren't sure why I couldn't conceive on my own (but told me not to worry about it,) and then they found out that I have a crazy rare birth defect (that has only been seen twice before in my hospital - the University of Iowa Hospital and Clinics) and mild endometriosis. To add to that, my husband's swimmers have poor motility and he has a low sperm count on occasion.

I had exploratory surgery in September '09 to try and correct the problem, followed by two IUI cycles with clomid which did not result in pregnancy, and a third IUI cycle with clomid where I didn't even ovulate.

So, we're now onto IVF. I'm on day 5. Our hospital has a rule that nurses have to be able to "lift, push, or pull 40 lbs or greater" to take care of patients. So, starting tomorrow, when I start my 15 lb weight restriction, I will be home, enjoying the time off. I get to come back to work after my pregnancy test. I thought about finding a group to join to keep me company while I'm home doing nothing for the next 3-4 weeks.

[DandMe]

Sarita; Welcome to the group. We all have stories and I wanted to thank you for sharing yours... IVF is a scary thing but as you go along it gets a lot more familiar. Feel free to rant, rave, yell, encourage, cry or vent here... these ladies are amazing.

Oh, and my blog has daily what-to-expect during your cycle information on it, as well as links to some other great IVF websites and other bloggers.