Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[DESIRE_270]

Hello ladies,

Just wanted to give you all a quick update on me, after getting my BFN on Wednesday I was so heartbroken. I cried for an entire day and I felt so bad inside but I feel great this morning. A co-worker of mine wrote me a two page letter which by the way just had a baby and I went through her whole pregnancy together. About how I have something she wants and she has something I want. The whole point of this is that we (people) always want more or want something someone else wants and sometime we have to take in what we have and let the other things come on their own. She wrote explaining that I have a perfect husband and she would give the world for her child to have what I have at home. A house and a great family but (without the baby). She has a little baby 6 month boy which has no father (looser) and she would give anything to have someone to help her out and worry with her. So the point of my story is that I have something that I didn't know someone else would admire or need. I am truly blessed to have a great hubby that will support me and love me regardless... In good and bad... To the ladies that got BFN, You are truly blessed, remember when you start feeling bad or you start to wonder why not me, just stop and see what you have and appreciate all you have all around you. This has made me feel so much better and I know god's will give me a true blessing when the will of god comes my way. Love & God Bless..... To the ladies that got the BFP, I’m so happy for you really happy honestly..!!!! Love Tania

[Miracle08]

Desire,
I just came across your post....WELL SAID SWEETIE! My eyes filled while reading your post. As hard as it is to see what we have when are given a BFN, you did it. I hope you get your BFP real soon!!!! XOXO

[turtle0619]

katie right now you are on your way to find out you're pregnant!! OMG i cant believe it!! they better hurry up and call you asap today!! i can not wait all day to celebrate with you!! **love love love love love**

miyaya ahhhhh stupid AF!! WTH?? did you call your clinic? i know mine still has woman come in for betas even if they say they have AF because they say a woman can still experience what she thinks is a full-flow AF, and still be pregnant. so it is important to continue PIO, and still go in for the beta. i dont want to give you false hope because i dont know how much of that i believe, but why would they say it if it hasnt happened before?
i'm so sorry...this just sucks!!

sonya your pregnant hun...why are you so worried?? i would be shouting from the rooftops if i saw the lines you did, and got that beta # so early. BE HAPPY!!!!!! look at our list...you are 1 of 5 that got their BFP's so far....please take the time to enjoy the good news that all of us BFN's would kill for!

claud and lou i also love the gym!! well i love going after its over haha! ive only been there once this whole year because ivf was cycling the whole month of jan. and now i got this terrible cold...its driving me crazy because i have all this anger and stress that i need to run off!! i'm hoping i'll feel better by monday to head back! oh even though i go to the gym everyday there is noway i would be able to pull off a bikini!! haha more power to ya!!

afm my cold is going away...slowly...its driving me crazy. i'm heading down to a concert tonight at the house of blues in boston, and i'm soooo excited!! i hope i can stay awake for it damnit!! maybe a vodka and redbull will do the trick haha. i'm leaving this afternoon when DH gets home from work so we can make a fun long night of it so you beta girls better be posting good news before i leave!!

i hope everyone has a great weekend!! what is everyone doing for Vday? anything fun and exciting? i am making DH red velvet cupcakes with creamcheese icing from scratch tomorrow so i hope they turn out good (if they suck i'm going to say they are from the dog haha) i also got him this awesome LOST hoodie that has the darma logo on it that he saw someone on TV wearing a long time ago and flipped out about. i know he will love it (we are huge lost freaks here haha)
DH got me the concert tickets tonight so i'm not expecting much else...sunday we will probably go to our favorite lil diner for breakfast and then go to the movies.

***much love always***

[Arabsrcool]

Desire,

Thank you for the reality check, all of us need that, especially after a BFN. Your positive attitude and belief are inspiring.

Katie,

I am on pins and needles.......I cannot stop thinking about your beta today. I am praying for a big 'ol BFP BFP BFP!!!!

Lou,

15% body fat, holy cow girlfriend....that is outstanding! I must say I am envious, as I am 10 lbs heavier than when I started the whole IVF journey, but hope after I am done cycling, I can start working out again (that is my line in the sand anyway!)

gi,

Thanks for the prayer, I hope it works for everyone! How goes stimming?

dodo,

sorry to hear you have having a hard time. I hope things start going better for you, you have a cycle goin' on!

dandme,

awesome test!! I am so happy for you!

lauren,

I totally understand getting a IVF call while you have a client/patient with you. It totally hinders your ability to say anything other than ok, fine. I hate that!. I always have questions and hate when I cannot ask them. Hope the "new nurse" gets more on-board, or you get a different nurse next time.

Hope,

sorry you gotta go back to work, but HURRAY for ER being this weekend.

Miyaya,

I am so sorry ((((HUGS))). I know it sucks.

Bethany,

Hope you had a great ET! cannot wait to hear how it went.

Sorry for all I missed, supposed to be working!

Ronda

[ashleyncsu77]

Just wanted to pop in and wish Katie and Sonya good luck today!

Sonya - it looks like you are definitely pregnant - can't wait to hear the number today.

Katie - you have been through so much and have remained so strong. I have everything crossed for you that this will be YOUR time.

Busy week at work. For all of you that asked, I am feeling much better and the spotting is still very minimal and brown in color. I am pretty nauseous and can't get enough to eat. I think those are both good signs so now I just have a little over a week to wait.

Ashley

[jmt]

Hi I am going for my transfer tommorrow..It is my 4th cycle..I did have a laproscopyand hystercopy 2 months ago .I am hoping this one works after that. I have heard good stories about getting pregnant right after it. If someone has stories i would love to hear..I am brand new and just needed to vent today. Its been a long road,and I know people on her understand. I am 38 and my husband is 34.


So....it may be too early to start this thread, but I was wondering if anyone was going to cycle in Jan or Feb?

I'm tentatively scheduled to have an FET on January 15th. I have a DS from my 2nd IVF cycle and am hoping to give him a sibling!

I would love to hear from you if you're about to start an IVF or FET cycle (for your first, second, third....child). I joined a thread when I was cycling in the past and it was so helpful to have the support of other IVF girls (and boys!).

Have a nice weekend![/quote]

[Lauren1171]

JMT My friend was trying to get pregnant for 2 years on her own. Decided to do IUI after having a laproscopy. Got meds and was waiting for AF but it never came because she ended up pregnant on her own. Lucky! I am taking meds now for IVF and I hope my ER will be next week if all goes well.

Katie GOOD LUCK TODAY!!!!! and Sonya too!

[katie99]

Hi everyone -

So I went for my b/w this morning at 7:30ET - I'm not expecting to hear anything til the afternoon And I've already started the phone stare
You know when you keep checking to make sure it works? - like every 5 minutes? UGH!! Call please!!!

Dodo -I'm so sorry, honey! That must have been really frightening for you. I really hope that your allergies can be under control soon! I've taken reclipsen many times - I've never had a problem with that one either. Hoping you 're feeling better - xoxoxo

Cheeky -Thanks, hon! I miss you! Any decisions yet on when your FET will be? xoxo

Miyaya -Oh, honey how much worring can you do? Its just not fair! I completely agree with Franny you have to call your clinic, we've all heard the stories of heavy bleeding but a continuing pg - I'll keep you in my prayers!

Gi -I love the prayer! thank you for posting it! How goes your stims?

Claudia -Hope your SnS went well! lets go already! I know how ready you are!

Tania -You have such a beautiful outlook. Thank you for sharing that story with us - it helps put things in perspective

Franny -I attemptted to make red velvet cake once (DH loves it)
but it came out kind of blah - good luck on those! I think your Valentine's day sounds sweet! I'm guessing that ours will be dependant on the phone call I'm desperately waiting for - RING ALREADY!!!
much love right back atcha! - xoxoxo

Ronda -OMG me too! Why isnt the phone ringing? Dont they know that by 1 oclock I'll be pacing most likely?? xoxo

Ashley -thanks hon! I'm so glad to hear that your spotting was brown - isnt it the funniest thing how we know that brown spotting is allright - but cant help but flip out anyway? Hungry & nauseous? Cant get enough to eat? Hmmm thats because you're eating for at least 3! When is your u/s? Dont they realize that it cant be soon enough?

Latrell -Yay! I missed you Cinderella! So glad that you had a great time getting to feel like a princess for the day! With a castle included!
Will you start stims on day 3 of AF?

Roshaunda -Whew! girl, you aint kidding! these girls DO type in their sleep! How are you feeling? Any new symptoms? Dont work too hard! You let those boys do the lion's share of chores, please! xoxo

Hope -Waiting patiently to hear if you're going to trigger today - I now have an image in my head of your poor DH in a small pink gown, ready for needles ( in the worst spot for a man ouch!) on Valentine's Day
Of course I hope they push you back a day so you two can have a V-day date instead!

Merri -thanks, hon! Hooray for you being down to a 1ww - How are you holding up? its awful to get through, isnt it?

jmt - Welcome! Did you mean that you're doing a FET on FEB 15?

[to_have_fun08]

Katie - FX'd for you. OH I so hope you get a BFP today.

Desire - I totally agree with you. I have a friend that got a BFP in Dec. Yes I am happy for them and am jealous but also I know in other ways I have things better. Hubby and I have a great relationship. We never fight we are conscious of each other feeling. This other couple have had issues and hadn't even had sex for 2 months before she conceived. She did IVF so they didn't even have sex to do that. They are doing good now because of the pregnancy but eventually the bliss will end and they will be back to the same old problems. I wouldn't trade my DH for anything.

Chris

[Positivethinking]

Hello Everyone, I was reading the posts without planning to write back because I have a huge headache today. However after ready the post from Desire270, I wanted to say Thank you. Your post made me cry and I think you are totally right. We all have something that someboday else wants and it reminded me to be grateful for what I have.

I went for Sns yesterday, my estrogen level was low at 45.6 and they doubled my dose of Menopur from 75 to 150 and gonal F from 150 to 225. I started to have headache went to started to stimm and today I woke up with a yet another bad headache. Did anyone had this type of side effect from the stimms??

Sorry I am not doind any personals today. I am thinking to all of you.

[lou71]

Katie -- Quick note to wish you the best of luck on your beta today. Today is your day. I really prayed hard for you to get a great number on that beta today. I will be checking back frequently to see your results.

Franny -- I hear ya on not hitting the gym as much with IVF. I would soooo gladly trade my six pack abs for a baby bump any day. I really hope I get to do that. And I love the LOST hoodie idea! I love that show, even though DH does not...lol.

Ronda -- I've gained 3 lbs so far but I don't weigh myself when on the injections or during the 2ww. I'm definitely "softer" since IVF. But I really don't mind. I hope you get the "no vacation and a BFP" that you're asking for. Your FET looks like it will be a few days before mine. I'm expecting ER around 2/22 and ET possibly 2/27 if I get to do a 5dt.

J&C -- Good luck with your discussion with DH. I hope you both agree on a decision that makes you both happy.

Sonya -- Congrats!!! I think that's a very good number for an early beta!

Karen -- How are you feeling? When is your beta?

Tania -- Well said! Thank you for that. Tell Celene Dion.

Hope and Lauren -- Have you triggered yet? Good luck! May you have many wonderful eggs to fertilize.

AFM -- Start stims tomorrow... yay!

Anyone see People Mag's story on Celene Dion's 4 failed IVF attempts? I read it and they made the injection process sound even more traumatic than it is with "daily injections leaving bruises on her thighs from needles going deep into the muscle". What? Except for the PIO, my injections are just subcutaneous and aren't a big deal. Event he PIO isn't a big deal. And "frequent painful tests". Umm... the SnS and blood draws aren't fun but are far from excruciating. Anyway... just thought this process didn't need any more drama than it already has. Celene, toughen up sista... you're not alone in your journey. There are many of us experiencing this heartbreak over and over. We just don't get to be on the cover of People Mag and say "America feel sorry for me".

[claud662]

Hi Ladies,

Katie-OMG!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR BFP!!

Sonya-Your line looks amazing and I hope you get the beta numbers you are hoping for today!!!

Lou-I didn't read that article yet but do you watch Guilianna and Bill? They are going through fertility treatments and during her HSG test she made it seemed like it was a piece of cake and I wanted to pass out during mine!! That was the one thing through this whole process that killed me!!!!

Hope-hoping you get the ok to trigger tonight!!! Keep us updated

positivethinking-sorry you have a headache I had bad ones a few cycles ago from the Lupron and I find that closing my eyes with those aroma pillows over my eyes helped the most and massaging the pressure poing between your thumb and pointer finger worked. Feel better and hoping the upped dosage makes your e2 get higher.

Desire-you are sooo right. It's hard to sometimes appreciate what we have when IVF consumes our lives. My DH wants his old wife back and I really hope that we get the BFP we have always wanted so we can get back there!!!

dodo-sorry hon that you had such a bad anxiety attack the other day. my heart goes out to you and hoping this new BCP will do the trick for you and you can get your body to be ready for your transfer!!!

miyaya-sorry about the AF. I agree with the other ladies that it CAN still be a BFP even with a period....so I am still holding out hope for your cycle but it seems as though you have PMA so I know you will keep marching on no matter what happens!

AFM...went in for SnS and I have some fluid around the lining (which I had also last cycle) and the lining is about a 3.4. I go back in Wednesday and they just upped the Estrogen so the hormones will be officially raging!!! My RE is then having me come back in the following Monday 2-22 and based on my lining will schedule the FET for later that week. I am thinking it will happen Friday the 26th or Saturday the 27th!!!

[miyaya]

Desire~ you are spot on! It is very true, its very easy to get wrapped up in the process and forget what things we truly are blessed it have. I think that is why during this process this time around my outlook is a lot better. While I want another baby to complete my family, I know I am blessed so much more than some folks whether it be b/c of my DS, my DH or just because of choices I have made. Sometimes I think that people think my outlook towards IF is negative....I would not classify myself as a pessimist or an optomist....just a realist...I know I have my miracle (Ds Sawyer) and if that is all I am ever blessed with....I STILL am a blessed woman! Thank you for reminding me of this:)

Katie! Ring ring! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I can hardly wait.

Sonya~ I agree, that is a good first number. With DS, I had super low beta's....and he is perfect...if I do say so myself!

So I called my re's office....the let me go for beta today. I just got back. They did not even try to give me the whole...some women have full AF and are still pregnant bullshit. While I am sure it happens, I know the odds....again, realist:) In the meantime I am busily working on my next steps....I ordered all my medical records from every doc I had....got post cycle consult scheduled on the 24th, got a second opinion scheduled for the 3rd and a 3rd opinion for the 8th. DH and I think we might go back to basics (well if you can call it that) and do a few injectible cycles while we decide where to go for IVF again. It cannot hurt...I mean afterall, we conceived DS on clomid....who knows....plus it will give them a better idea on better protocols for me. Afterall the next IVF is really is our last chance. After that, I assume put the $$ towards adopting a child.

Well I will let you know what the lady tells me when she sings....ha ha.

[katie99]

ARRGGHHHH!!! Is the nurse trying to kill me? She just called to say that she wont have an answer for another hour or two.But she IS bugging the lab for results! EEK!! Guess she didnt notice that I answered the phone sounding like I was having a coronary?

Chris -thanks, hon! I'm going a little batshit crazy myself right now
But oooh, thank you for the info on egg banks - I've been snooping around at info & prices -Just in case!

Lou -thanks! Yeah, I do have to give Celine 2 points for admitting to ivf (what like its some deep dark secret?) I guess she's just a drama queen,(Although, I'm with you - toughen up celine, Jeez! but at least better than j lo's stupid comments last month on how her twins werent ivf ( OH, NO! suuuure we all believe how you just lucked out with twins at 41 naturally) Ummmm... after years of infertility? What by magic? Then she went on to say how her religion wouldnt approve of ivf and family is SO important to her. Well. I'm Catholic too, and guess what? they also dont believe in divorce ( how many times has she been married now? 4? PLEASE LADY!

Claudia -More estrogen? Bring it on! You can take it! (I'll cross my fingers for your DH though!) Hooray for a tentative ET date!!!

Miyaya -I'm still crossed for you, but I totally get loking for a back up plan - I've been looking into DE all week myself. You are too strong to back down! You WILL get there! xoxo

[to_have_fun08]

Katie - Your clinic is driving me nuts too. Come on already!!!

Can't believe you didn't POAS...