Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[claud662]

Just a quick check-in from the blackberry...

Gi & Ronda-congrats on being PUPO!!!

Lou-fingers crossed for the 3 embies!

Riley-spotting is always scary so I'm glad you were able to see all is well on the u/s and hopefully the bleeding stops

Katie-r u still on a high from yesterday? Yes-us Jersians definitely drive too fast! Where is your RE located?

Afm...braved the snow storm this morning for my acupuncture apt and I have my SnS tomorrow am! Hopefully the office will be open and I get good news!! Even if my lining doesn't increase I hope they will schedule my FET and I start PIO tomorrow night!

Xoxo
C

[DandMe]

Will try and do personals later - yay for all the good news!

Okay... got ticked and demanded my RE order an ultrasound (I am 700 miles from the clinic) from the local lab... and they agreed "just to ease my mind". I went in to get the ultrasound and was surprised that the woman would NOT do a transvaginal ultrasound.

She was annoyed and dismissive about my concerns and said "You'll have more questions than answers when you leave here." She said she would not do a vaginal ultrasound because "there was no reason to 'distrube' anything".

I'm thinking... what are you going to do, come charging across the room with the thing, using wild stabbing motions? I put suppositories up my vjj three times a day - I don't think your ultrasound wand is going to really do any damage!

She said she would not see anything, certainly not a yolk sac or a heartbeat. From what I know these early ultrasounds are always done vaginally b/c they are so much more powerful and closer to the baby.

She was insultingly quick, but the gestational sac was there, very obvious and I think it measured about 12mm. I think I am actually 5w6d pregnant. She found it, clicked it, measured it from three different angles and said okay, clean the gunk off yourself and you're free to go. I felt stupid.

I do feel better about seeing the gestational sac, though! And I feel okay about waiting until the 9th for my 7.5 week ultrasound. I had one last beta done and find out the results tomorrow. Wish me luck, ladies.

[Lauren1171]

Sonya - I'm glad you got to do an u/s to ease your mind. Your vjj comment made me lol!!!
I can't wait til you get to hear the heartbeat!

[Hope644]

Gi! PUPO-girl with some major drugs goin' on! Your post cracked me up! Extra drugs for the ET is just another bonus Congratulations on all 5 embies making it!! That's wonderful news! But soon you're gonna have to figure out what to do with those other 3 cos 1 & 2 are gonna make it!! LUCKY # 7!!


Ronda - 4 little embabies home, safe & snug! Congratulations, sweetie! I kind of know what you mean to have that relief, yet sadness. TTC becomes a weird part of you - I don't know, maybe, for me at least, it's partly the adventure of seeking a child... I can't describe it, but at least I think I get it. but certainly it is a relief to close the chapter and hopefully look forward to opening a new chapter with a little one (or four in tow. Here's to the 4!!

Lou - congratulations on your three beautiful little embies!! I had four when I got my DS. And by 3dt, I had 2 good ones and 1 ok one. I am convinced it was God's plan - we don't need tons of embies, just ONE perfect one. You'll be pupo soon, yay!!!!

Moorebaby - I'm so sorry for all the frustration and confusion they have put you two through. I'm sure you will get to the bottom of it... but it's just not right. Thinking of you, sweetie.

Riley - I know you are scared, but keep up the PMA, the first u/s is a great sign that baby is doing just fine and that all will continue to go well. Let us know how the 2nd U/S goes. Keeping you and baby in our thoughts & prayers.

Meganlynn - my doc/nurse say not to POAS too... primarily, i think for the risk of false negatives. but after my bfn, i have tested in advance every time. it makes some people nuts, it keeps me from pulling out my hair, eyes & teeth. seriously. i am a basketcase waiting for that call. and i'm terrified that i'll be somewhere that i don't want to receive the bad news (if it is bad) and then have to manage a way to get home (my car was practically parked at a diagonal in my garage, and i had no recollection of parking it, or driving it home) SO, basically, POAS for me, is a safety precaution - my safety and the safety of the other drivers on the roads --- so you're not alone being impatient!! Is your beta on Sunday?!

katie - let that stupid snow fall and leave that stupid shovel alone. pay a neighborhood kid or something. they need the money. now QUIT! No more!!

Claudia - good luck at acupuncture tomorrow & S&S!! Come on 8+!!! You will be pupo soon, too!! YAY!!!

I have acupuncture in the am too, but i am thinking about cancelling... my niece is coming in town unexpectedly tonight (flight got diverted out of Boston - thru NY to DC) - so she's coming here instead of going to NC, where DS and I will be going tomorrow for my great nephew's (yes, i said great, geez that makes me feel old) first birthday party. So my niece (27) is going to ride with us. (My family ages are all crazy, I'm the youngest of 5 girls and I'm closer in age to all my nieces & nephews than my sisters. So I'm kind of sandwiched in between the two groups.)

So with the weekend travel, i will be away for a few days... but i have to tell you, i will most likely give in to the POAS monster in the morning. who am i kidding? I will totally. I know it's early, based on the info that Katie provided, but it's the same day of the cycle (12DPO) that I got a + with 2 pregnancies before... so I'm gonna give it a shot. If for no other reason than to see if it works 3 times in a row on the same day I left my blackberry charger at work, so I doubt I'll have bberry access and i don't know if i'll have a few min to sign on while away or not, but i'll let u know how it goes

be safe, all of you in the snow-nado.

[Hope644]

Sonya - I'm sorry, I didn't see your post until after i'd sent mine.

UGH> i'm so frustrated for you! what a &itch! My center does transvaginal as a rule at 6 wks and again at 8wks. She is full of crap. unless she just doesn't know what she's doing and trying to play it off (in which case you don't want her up your vjj with any wand anyway!) then there isn't any reason she would DISTURB anything!! AND I saw the heartbeat both times at 6 weeks. she had know idea what she's talking about. stupid woman.

but, i'm at least glad u got to see the sac and it is measuring on schedule!!! Now you can relax for a few more weeks!

funny thing, tho, when i read your post - about her coming at you with the wild stabbing motions, i couldn't help but think of my ob/gyn at my DS 9 wk appt - first visit with them, she does a transvaginal. Dh is in the room and as she moved the wand, the baby was moving, so she sort of started digging around a bit, trying to get him to move more... it was very odd and awkward considering it was sort of around and around and even a bit in & out - I was like, um, it's ok, i don' t think we need to see him move just yet. ... anyway, as weird as that was, she certainly wasn't worried about disturbing him!!

[Hope644]

oh my gosh, i totally can't believe i forgot to mention this to you guys.

You know I'm a little concerned about my frosties - even though i realize full well that we may end up using them ourselves, I have serious concerns about what to do with them if we do not choose to have more children. DH and I are in agreement that we do not want to donate them to research or allow them to thaw and die.

And as we've discussed and Katie is a prime example, donation is a wonderful alternative.

So I have been looking into Snowflakes Embryo Adoption Program with Nightlight Christian Adoptions. They allow the genetic and adoptive parents to sort of select each other with choices and preferences about the family up front. Each family says what they prefer and they match you and you get to choose if you agree or not. They also have choices in contact during and after FET - from as little as nothing to picture updates to phone calls to in-person visits. I'm not sure what I would choose here, but I like the idea of having that choice, and of course, both sets of parents have to agree to the terms, whatever they might be.

Anyway it seems like a viable option for anyone who might have frosties left over - check out their website if you want more info. http://www.nightlight.org/adoption-serv ... fault.aspx

[ktelise]

Katie99 - I am also on PIO and just broke out with a rash or hives on both sides of my tush that I have been using for the injections. So, they just switched me from ethyl oleate to cotton seed oil and I start these injections tonight. I am curious to see how I do with these injections. They are not fun but I hate the vaginal gel and prefer these any day! Keep me updated how you do with the sesame oil.

[claud662]

Just got back from sns and STILL a solid 7 but my RE feels confident moving forward so I'm just waiting for the call early afternoon for instructions and when the transfer will be!

[Lauren1171]

Just a quick note to Hope I have been thinking the same thoughts as you! I don't think DH cares about the 5 frozen. He does not want to do this again (if it works). He has a DD from a previous relationship so he is fine with just having one more. And I don't want to do this again either. I would be happy with twins...a one shot deal. But if it's one, that's fine and I may quit. I think of the 5 as possible babies and I think destroying them is terrible. Yet I don't want to donate to some white trash family (DH said the same). That program you mentioned sounds great. To be able to choose who they went to and keep in contact would be great. I am not sure what I will decide, pending if this works and how everything goes. Who knows maybe I will want another! This is all assuming this works and I don't use them myself. But I feel like it's going to!!! Speaking of which, my uterus area was killing me this morning at 6AM! And I was unable to eat even a whole pop tart for breakfast. I hope those are good signs! Well have to get some work done now.....

-Lauren

[Hope644]

Just a real quick note... DH is literally packing the car for our trip today.

I poas'd this am... and got 2 lines! Hoping it continues to get darker and have confirmation of beta next Wednesday!

Sorry for no personals, i promise i will when i get back.

[Positivethinking]

Hi everyone...My bed rest is over, I had very good friend coming by to keep me company....
Ronda: I understand you are nervous about the IVF and emotional. I am the same as you...I hope you feel better better we need to relax and be stress free for the embies...
Hope: Great with the nausea, I think you are pregnant. Let us know the result of the HPT. Donating your eggs is a great ideas, I wanted to do that since day one but at this end, I did not have any to donate to freeze....CONGRATS, you are pregnant...great for the 2 lines...
Dandme: I cannot believe you nurse. She is such a B*tch, I cannot believe it, what is up with her...Well at least you had what you wanted and this is the most important...Great for the u/s, at least no stress or worry for the baby.
Lou: 3 eggs fertilized, this is great. How many are you going to transfer?? Good luck and enjoy being Pupo....
Katie: Great on the u/s I am so happy for you, now relax…
Lauren, How you are ?? Good idea to donate your eggs as well...Cannot wait for your beta test...I cannot believe I have to wait until 3/11
Claud: I am glad they did you cancel your cycle, GL on the transfer...
Gi: How are you now that you are pupo... when is your beta??
Sarita: where are you girl?

Update: well, everyone say I should be happy to be pupo but honestly, I am stressed out of my mind. Only today I am back to normal, hoping for the best with PMA. Yesterday I could not stop crying, sure that my embies already left me....I was so depressed. I am only on 2dpt and I am going crazy. This is sooo not good for the embies....But I dont feel anything, no cramp or anything so I am freacking out... I know you understand exactly how I feel....and I have to wait until 3/11..sorry but this is F*cked up...I cannot believe I was so happy and positive for two weeks and I am breakdown now when I have no shot to take or anything to do but wait....Well today I am going to visit my neighbor, at least I will think of something else...have tea and relax with her...

[Merri_Baby_Dust]

Hope - CONGRATSSSS!!! BFP - Whoo hoo!! I am so excited for you and DH. Enjoy it!!!

PositiveThinking - You poor thing! PUPO is so stressful - there is no doubt about it. But your instincts are right, you should try not to stress or cry and try to connect your mind & body in a positive way. It's not easy!! I had two REALLY bad days early in my 2ww (crying and depressed) and I had to really snap myself out of it. You REALLY so CLOSE to being pregnant! Think about it, IVF controls for alll factors humanly possible - you really do have a great chance.

Infertility is full of so many disappointments it's so hard for us to hope - to allow ourselves to be hurt again. But try to honor the fight that those little ones are going through inside you right now and give them all the support you can. I did guided meditation recordings and found those the one thing that helped me keep sane. Sending you big big hugs! Hang in there sweetie.

Merri

[Tiger04]

I see. well, at any rate, sounds like a fishy situation and everyone is right...get some answers!

[Positivethinking]

Hi Merri, thank you so much for your kind message. It really makes me feel better and that I am not crazy...I would love to know the name of your guided meditation so I can go buy it... I tried to meditate on my own many times before but my mind is all over the place. However, if it is guided, looks like it might work for me. Thank you

[gi]

Evening ladies,

Riley baby i am glad the bleeding has stopped i know that awful feeling when you 1st see the blood but for now everything is fine, take it easy and i will keep you and the baby in my prayers.

Dandme what a total cow of a nurse, how bloody rude!! On a better note at least you can relax for another while xx

Positivethinking just keep reading my messages and you will slowly see me turning into a deranged Irish woman!!! Around 4-5 days after transfer i always convince myself its all over and how in the name can i face another cycle (Dear God dont make me go thro. an 8th!!!) These feelings are all natural as we know the end is coming and we will eithe be over the moon or in grieving.

Lauren Love your PMA you will get pg this time!!!!

Hope I just knew it!!!! Oh big Congrats girl i knew you wouldnt stay away from them sticks for much longer, enjoy the few days away and best of luck with beta xxx

Ronda Whoo Hoo 4 babies on Board!!!! I too would love to end my infertility journey 7 yrs ttc 7th time lucky????? I hope so.

Karen Congrats on seeing 2 sacs!!!!! Scary but fantastic i pray both will be safe xxx

Claud fingers crosssed 7 is a lucky number for both of us good luck tomorrow

So doing some "couch rest" till i go back to work on tues, just getting up to eat, bathroom etc. Finished my rug today so may find something to entertain me tomorrow!! Have a tiny bit of dark brown spotting mixed in the crinone discharge (sorry tmi) but i have had it for last 2 days and its only about once a day but i know its just old blood from ER, unusually i didnt bleed after ER ok so this is TMI but j said he was also surprised as the bed usually looks like a massacre has been carried out....sexy eh??

chat later ladies,

gi xx