Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[katie99]

Hi everyone -

We saw the heart beat!! YAY! OK, now its starting to feel like its real! I was sooo nervous and the RE was running an hr late, so I was sitting waiting for an hr getting more and more convinced it would be empty, then when it was my turn, I could hardly talk. But my RE said "theres a nice strong heart beat!" And of course I got yelled at again for wiggling to see myself (seems I can never sit still long enough for him to turn the screen for me!) I could see it flickering on the screen - oh, how great will it be when you can actually hear it? He said that everything looks "as good as you can get" and the sac measured at 18x9 and the baby measured at 5.7mm. last week when he measured it was at 12, so thats a ot of growth in a week! My DH is over the top! Oh, I did manage to completely choke up when my RE who i've seen since Oct of 08 said this is the last appt with him. I wanted him to know how much gratitude we have and I told him (in tears again) that surely any other RE would have given up on me a long time ago, and that surely his generosity has earned him a spot in Heaven - and then HE teared up too! And made me promise to keep in touch and send sono and baby pics. God, I love that man! He didnt release me, not until 10weeks, but I'll just need to go for weekly b/w until he releases me. Jeez- I was never a cryer, but boy, I tear up all the time now

Hope BFP tomorrow!!! I cant wait!

Ronda Good girl, you just delegate what DH needs to do, let him lift anything even remotely heavy - after all you're PUPO with quads!

Gi How are you doing, girl? No deranged Irish women around here, right? Hi & hugs to you & your Mam!

Lauren The last few days of the dreaded 2ww are the worst. We're here for you. How are you feeling? Just 4 more days now, you're so close!!!

Sonya Just 1 more week - you can get through this! How are you feeling?

Claudia How are you doing, honey? I cant wait until you have your transfer! How is work going? I hope your students are keeping you busy so the time passes quicker! As always, I'm sending you thick lining vibes!! - xoxo

Carolyn Aw, honey - that was so very sweet of you to take the time to wish me well! You'll get me choked up again... You have not 1 but 2 newborns at home now!!!! it touches me that you took the time for me. Hows it going, Mum? I'll bet that sleep is a thing of the past - you poor girl. try to rest when you can - I mean when you're not kissing the boys!! - much love xoxo

Positive I'm crossed that you only have happy sticks!! Good luck tomorrow at your job interview!!!

Lou how are you doing? I hope you're not on your feet all day. Those little guys need to just settle in - oh say for 8 more months or so.... - xoxo

hugs & prayers to us all - xoxo

[lou71]

HI girls... workin' like a dog today. Ugh! Good thing I've been at my desk most of the day though and not on my feet thank goodness.

I decided I'm not going to POAS this cycle. Come what may! I did the last two times and the result wasn't good. It also didn't make the "call" any less traumatic for me as I still had some hope the HPT was wrong. Even my RE said to me while my beta was being drawn "I'm not giving up until the blood test comes back negative too" after I told him I POAS that morning and it was negative. So, even though I have two HPT's under my bathroom sink. I'm not going to use them until I KNOW they are positive (i.e. after a positive beta).

Since we transferred 3 embies, DH keeps saying "what if there's triplets?" I said... "let's get a beta number first". He knows a woman at work who did IVF a number of times and is now 20 weeks pregnant with triplets. So I know it does happen. I wonder what the rate of twins is when three embies are transferred? Twins would be intimidating but ok... triplets, YIKES!

I just can't get excited about this cycle . I'm not completely out of PMA but I'm going back and forth. I keep looking at my embie pics and thinking that the quality wasn't good enough for a BFP. I know that's not necessarily the case, but I've dealt with such disappointment before, it's hard to think that I could be pregnant. I was very excited my first cycle. I had two absolutely perfect embies transferred and I convinced myself my symptoms were a BFP and that the HPT I took was just too early (9dt3dt). But it was BFN. So I guess deep in my mind I think... if two perfect embies were a BFN then my three not so perfect ones couldn't possibly work, right? Tell me I'm nuts guys, please? Tell me my logic makes zero sense.

Katie -- Good luck at your u/s tomorrow! I hope it's late enough now that you get to hear the heartbeat. Get some good pictures!

Hope -- We know you're BFP since you POAS... but... I hope your beta is a wonderful number tomorrow.

Positivethinking -- Good luck at your job interview! What kind of position is it? Don't mention anything about a possible pregnancy or kids at the interview. It's not legas to ask you those questions either.

Question to the girls doing acupuncture -- When does your acupuncturist recommend treatment around and post ET? I'm confused when to go back. I did it the night before and the day of ET and now I'm scheduled for 6 days later. Does this sound like what you were told to do too?

[lou71]

Hi everyone -

We saw the heart beat!! YAY! OK, now its starting to feel like its real! I was sooo nervous and the RE was running an hr late, so I was sitting waiting for an hr getting more and more convinced it would be empty, then when it was my turn, I could hardly talk. But my RE said "theres a nice strong heart beat!" And of course I got yelled at again for wiggling to see myself (seems I can never sit still long enough for him to turn the screen for me!) I could see it flickering on the screen - oh, how great will it be when you can actually hear it? He said that everything looks "as good as you can get" and the sac measured at 18x9 and the baby measured at 5.7mm. last week when he measured it was at 12, so thats a ot of growth in a week! My DH is over the top! Oh, I did manage to completely choke up when my RE who i've seen since Oct of 08 said this is the last appt with him. I wanted him to know how much gratitude we have and I told him (in tears again) that surely any other RE would have given up on me a long time ago, and that surely his generosity has earned him a spot in Heaven - and then HE teared up too! And made me promise to keep in touch and send sono and baby pics. God, I love that man! He didnt release me, not until 10weeks, but I'll just need to go for weekly b/w until he releases me. Jeez- I was never a cryer, but boy, I tear up all the time now

Katie -- We must have been typing at the same time. This is wonderful! I'm so glad you saw the heart beat and excellent growth. Wow, this is really REAL now. Your RE sounds like such a wonderful man too. Your going to miss him a lot, I can tell. And I can just imagine your DH being over the top... mine would be too. I'm really happy for you guys. Congratulations!

[Lauren1171]

Katie - That is awesome news!!! Congratulations!!! Your RE sounds great.

Sonya - how early did you POAS?

My test is Saturday and I am dying to know! This week can not end soon enough. I have 3 tests and I am contemplating using them Wed, Thurs, and Fri. Ah!! My DH says not to. He thinks it's way too early.

[meganlynn]

Well we got a BFP on Sunday!!! We are so thrilled to finally hear some good news but very nervous. My beta was 108 Sunday and 294 today so things are looking good. A U/S is scheduled for the 19th where we will get to see the baby and hear a heartbeat. It is going to be a long few weeks!!
Thanks for all the adivse and well wishes. And happy baby thoughts to all!!

[turtle0619]

katie yay for heartbeat!! i'm so happy for you!! xoxoxo

[sarita28]

I know I haven't posted for awhile. I actually wrote a long note with personals yesterday, and then the site had an error and I lost the whole thing. I gave up and didn't try to repost...

Congrats Katie, on seeing the heartbeat! That has got to be a great feeling! I wish you the best of luck with this pregnancy and hope next time you get to hear the heartbeat. I also wish I was as close with my RE as you are with yours. My RE is nice, but I could never see us sharing tears. (I've cried with one of the nurses.) Your RE is a special man, and I'm sorry for you you're losing him.

Hope: How are you doing? I'm excited to hear what your beta is!

Lou: I wish you the best of luck to hold out and not POAS. I said I wouldn't until tomorrow, and I failed. I hope your 3 embies are snuggled down in your lining and holding on for a long ride (or, at least one or two of them ;o) Also, as for your acupunture question; I went the morning of transfer, then she wanted me to come back that afternoon, but my doc said strict bedrest and wouldn't let me go back, so I went back 1dp3dt. Then, I went back today, on week later. She said the session today was optional, but I figured I might as well go full bore.

Gi: I admit I giggled when you said your bb's only hurt when you poke them to make them hurt. I'm the same. Mine only hurt when I poke on them to make them hurt, as well. I guess this is a good thing we've got going; less pain than expected.

Positive: Don't POAS if you can help it! I'm going to waste $25 before the week is over, and for what? It's good you're keeping busy. I'm actually wanting to go back to work! (I've been off since Feb 10th) I go back on the 8th. I never thought I'd WANT to go back to work, but I'm bored. Especially since my doc won't let me lift a finger. And, good luck with your job interview!

AFM: My PMA is waning fast. I gave in and POAS Sunday and every day since. All negative. I admit, I bought cheap-o's so they wouldn't detect the trigger, but I was still expecting a positive of some degree. I have First response ones for tomorrow and Thurs (might as well keep going) and then my beta is Friday, and I can come in any time after 7am, so I'll probably be there at 7am or shortly after.

The only symptoms I notice are peeing all the time, the sharp pains in my lower abdomen, and being hungry all the time. If I don't eat for awhile, I will suddenly get very dizzy and feel like I'm going to pass out and I have to eat NOW!

Not much has been going on. Still taking my antibiotic and drinking Gatorade (my body isn't processing water correctly according to my blood report?) I haven't been sleeping very well. I find myself waking up to my husband snoring, or sleeping soundly, and I get mad that he can sleep so soundly and I can't. I lay there thinking all the "what if's." My husband and I are fighting alot, too. Since he is Latino, he expects me to cook and clean and all that housewife stuff plus work my full time job, and not argue back at him. Well, my doc said not to lift a finger during this time off; 15 lb wt restriction, no laundry, dish washing, housework, etc. At first, hubby was ok with this, but as the weeks have gone on, he's getting irritated and we've been arguing, he's refusing to cook, clean, etc (the laundry is still in the dryer from Saturday, and I had to remind him to change the loads every time the dryer stopped.) Oh, and all sorts of other fun stuff, but I don't want to bring everyone down. There's so many happy things going on in everyone else's lives. If I am pregnant on Friday, all of this will turn around, but I am in quite the funk right now.

[Supergenius]

Katie - congrats on your wonderful news!

[dodo928]

Hi everyone -

We saw the heart beat!! YAY! OK, now its starting to feel like its real! I was sooo nervous and the RE was running an hr late, so I was sitting waiting for an hr getting more and more convinced it would be empty, then when it was my turn, I could hardly talk. But my RE said "theres a nice strong heart beat!" And of course I got yelled at again for wiggling to see myself (seems I can never sit still long enough for him to turn the screen for me!) I could see it flickering on the screen - oh, how great will it be when you can actually hear it? He said that everything looks "as good as you can get" and the sac measured at 18x9 and the baby measured at 5.7mm. last week when he measured it was at 12, so thats a ot of growth in a week! My DH is over the top! Oh, I did manage to completely choke up when my RE who i've seen since Oct of 08 said this is the last appt with him. I wanted him to know how much gratitude we have and I told him (in tears again) that surely any other RE would have given up on me a long time ago, and that surely his generosity has earned him a spot in Heaven - and then HE teared up too! And made me promise to keep in touch and send sono and baby pics. God, I love that man! He didnt release me, not until 10weeks, but I'll just need to go for weekly b/w until he releases me. Jeez- I was never a cryer, but boy, I tear up all the time now

Hi Katie, congrats to the nice strong heart beat! God is really giving his love and wisdom to your RE to take care of you and your DH! Thank you for the touchy story!

[DandMe]

Katie - That is awesome news!!! Congratulations!!! Your RE sounds great.

Sonya - how early did you POAS?

My test is Saturday and I am dying to know! This week can not end soon enough. I have 3 tests and I am contemplating using them Wed, Thurs, and Fri. Ah!! My DH says not to. He thinks it's way too early.

Lauren; I poas at 9dpo and there was a line - 10dpo it was a 'ghost line', 11dpo a faint line came up again... you can see all the pics on my blog. I wanted to test out the trigger but it never truly went away. I wish you ALL the best and a TON of baby dust!

[DandMe]

Well we got a BFP on Sunday!!! We are so thrilled to finally hear some good news but very nervous. My beta was 108 Sunday and 294 today so things are looking good. A U/S is scheduled for the 19th where we will get to see the baby and hear a heartbeat. It is going to be a long few weeks!!
Thanks for all the adivse and well wishes. And happy baby thoughts to all!!

Megan that's wonderful news! Welcome to being pregnant! When's your Due Date?

[DandMe]

Sarita; I wanted to give you a big hug and tell you that you are not alone and that we all know how you feel. I know it's easy for me to say that with a positive pregnancy test, but I went through years and a miscarriage when it seemed like everyone was getting babies by the dozen. The board has been swarmed with heartbeats and bfps lately so I know it must be pretty difficult to be left wondering and waiting. My heart always goes to the ladies who are still in the trenches!

However, I will always, always, always say, you are NOT out until that beta proves it. I see so many women getting negative hpts and then a positive beta. It all depends on how fast your body metabolizes the hormone into your urine.

Please don't give up, although I know how distressing those blank strips are. I think I am the bfn queen - major poas-junkie sitting right here typing to you!

I hope you keep coming around and letting us know how you are doing and feeling. I'll be waiting for your bfp announcement!

[DandMe]

Katie: just another shout of congratulations! Your betas were similar to mine so you've given me hope! How wonderful for you both

[sarita28]

Sonya, thank you for the words of encouragement. I keep telling myself there's a little someone growing inside me, but it's so hard to keep going. I know I'm not alone, and that really helps. I look forward to reading everyone's updates every day, and feel happy for all the accomplishments. I know I haven't been at this as long as you and many of the other women out there. I don't know how you do it! I am very happy for you and your husband, and I know you will have a wonderful u/s result when you get to finally have one. Again, thanks for the pick-me-up.

[DandMe]

Sonya, thank you for the words of encouragement. I keep telling myself there's a little someone growing inside me, but it's so hard to keep going. I know I'm not alone, and that really helps. I look forward to reading everyone's updates every day, and feel happy for all the accomplishments. I know I haven't been at this as long as you and many of the other women out there. I don't know how you do it! I am very happy for you and your husband, and I know you will have a wonderful u/s result when you get to finally have one. Again, thanks for the pick-me-up.

Sarita; sometimes I think it's a little harder at first, when you are starting your ttc journey. Honestly, after a long while, i got 'used to' being not pregnant. It's a trippy feeling to think that I'm NOT, not pregnant anymore. You'll really be okay. I told myself that a bfn was not the end of the journey, it was just a marker of a journey that hadn't yet ended.