Jan/Feb 2010--Cycle Group

[Stephanieford78]

I just wanted to add that I had cramping, more so with my BFP than the BFNs. They were soft, more annoying types muscle cramps, not period cramps. It scared me until I got my results. It has finally calmed down. Maybe that is the implantation cramping that they say you can feel? Maybe it is your body adjusting to the new things going on with it? Not sure, but all I know is Doc says everything is fine. So don't let cramps get you down! PMA PMA PMA

[gi]

Flying visit but POAS this am 8dp3dt and got a Positive Super Excited and oh so nervous but one hurdle over with on to the next. I was in tears when i say it cant believe i am pregant again, with the help of God i will get to keep this baby. I know its very early days but we dont do betas here so will continue to poas for next few days!!!! My Mam was in shock as i convinced her i wasnt pregnant. J is in a world of his own going around in a daze wouldnt believe me when i told him. Oh girls i really hope and pray this is it. Thanks a million for all your support will log on after work.

gi xxxx OMG am i really pregnant

[Lauren1171]

Late for work so just a quick post...I didn't bother with POAS today cuz I know AF is coming! I slept terrible last night! Woke up just about every hour with bad AF symptoms. I was sure it was here when I got up this morning, but no. I had just one tine dot. I know it's going to be BFN tomorrow and I am just aggravated at the wasted time. I have done 3 IUIs and 2 IVFs in 6 months. Gained weight since 2 weeks every month I don't work out and the other 2 weeks I an shooting myself up with estrogen. I am going to Vegas in May so I think I may quit til after my trip.

[Arabsrcool]

gi,

OMG OMG OMG!!!!! I am so happy for you! I knew the 7th time was a charm for you! Congrats!!!!!!!!!! Ok, now that you have found your PMA, did you find mine hiding with yours?? Your BFP is the best news I have heard all day!

lauren,

I feel your pain. Wait until beta, just to make sure. Maybe a trip to Vegas would be really really good for you. You might win a ton of $ and be able to have more options to have a baby. If you if you don't win big, a vaca from all this stress would be great. I am praying for you.

lou,

I wish I lived closer to you, we would go out and have a girls pampering day at the spa, eat chocolate, drink chai tea, and shop. (((((Big Hugs))))))). I cannot imagine all you have been thru and how hard it has been. I lost my grandmother, whom was like a 2nd mom to me, in 2004, when I was pregnant with 1st DD. It was so hard, and still I cry thinking she never got to see her granddaughters. However, I have to remind myself, my grandmother was a strong determined woman and if she was here today, she would be the 1st to boot me in the butt and tell me to make the best of what I have been blessed with. Thinking of you!

Stephanie,

Welcome and thanks for the encouraging story!

Katie,

don't stress about the organic issue. I agree with the girls, alot of babies have been born that momma did not only eat organic! I agree that you should tell your RE about the spotting, but chances are its nothing to panic about (I know, easier said than done). Hang in there.

afm, POAS sticks are staring at me every morning. Will try to hold off until Sunday, which would be 10dpt, then use my last stick on Monday morning. I just have a feeling this is a BFN, maybe its just my lack of PMA talking, but I am having trouble believing that I could be pregnant. Also, my dh and I have decided to hold off on vaca to TN, because his company that he works for has been bought out again, and the takeover (change over, whatever) is to occur about the same time we were going to vaca (April/May). Just thinking we should save that money and see what happens. Hopefully we can plan a trip in the Fall to TN. Sigh , sorry for the vent)

Ronda

[Lauren1171]

Lou - I feel for you! I don't know what I would do without my parents. I am glad you still have your grandparents though. I would also give you a big hug if we lived closer!
Have you used Gonal F before and it didn't work for you?

GI - Congratulations!!! I am so glad you got a positive!

Ronda - Thanks! I still have about 2% PMA left that tomorrow will be positive.

Stephanie - Welcome and congratulations on your positive!

Katie - A friend told me about a girl she worked with who was a recovering heroin addict on Methadone, who had a healthy baby. I doubt she ate organic lol! Do what you feel is right, but I don't think you need to go all organic. Obviously don't eat certain things that the doc says not to eat, but otherwise I am sure you will have a healthy baby.

[Merri_Baby_Dust]

Hi ladies,

So much happy news on the board! I will do personals next!

AFM - DH and I had our first ultrasound yesterday morning at 6 weeks exactly I think.

We saw the heartbeat!!!!

It was amazing - the most precious site I've ever seen. I cried on the examining table. DH was super-confident going in, but of course I was worried - this is the point at which before we never got to. The dr. said everything looked perfect - the sac size measured at 6 weeks and the yolk sac was visible and the baby measured at just the right size. Since the baby was so tiny, it was v. hard for her to measure the heartbeat rate - I had to hold my breath to keep still. But she managed to get it at 108 -- normal between 110 and 160 I think or something. She said 108 was great and it was just because we were barely six weeks and it was so early. We are so happy and proud of our little bambino! This was the moment I've been waiting for for almost 3 years...It was wonderful!

Merri

[Merri_Baby_Dust]

Gi – OMG OMG!! Best news of the day. I was really, really hoping for you. I know you are worried about the future, but don’t forget to fully ENJOY this great moment! You little stinker, you almost had me convinced of a BFN – CONGRATS!!! Whooooo hoooooo.

Ronda – Everyone loses PMA during 2ww – the closer to the test date the harder it is. You never know – that little baby could be snuggling in right now and making a home. Hang in there sweetie! Sending (((hugs))). I know how awful infertility is for vacation plans, and job changes on top of that don’t help!

Kerribell and Hope and Megan – YAYAYAYAY!! Congrats ladies, I’m so happy for you! Great numbers as well.

Lauren – Sorry to hear about the dot – that really sucks. You have had a really rough 6 months. I know what you mean about the weight gain – I’m so much heavier than when I started! A little break and a fun trip sound great. I’m still hopeful for you though!

Stephanie – Cramps to me always meant I was getting pregnant. The one time I didn’t cramp I got BFN. So I say, bring on the cramps! More the better. I’m 6 weeks and still having moderate cramping on and off. My sister had them all through her first trimester both times, so I’m not worried a bit. Just means that uterus is working hard for you and baby!

Lou – I never had any symptoms not attributable to PIO either and I got that BFP! I don’t think that means anything! PMA is coming your way, I can feel it. Hang in there sweetie – you are so strong and your Mom is still with you too, helping you to be strong. Sending love and hugs!

PositiveThinking – Sounds like you and DH have a lot of normal married couple issues! What is it about men and cleaning anyway?? All I have to say is – a cleaning lady has really helped our marriage! LOL.

Sarita – For my first two cycles I really felt like my DH didn’t exactly get what I was going through – so for this cycle I forced him to come with me to EVERYTHING, and record it all in our little book, etc. And it was really different this time and I felt like he finally really ‘got’ it!. I’m sure you guys will find a way to get even closer.

Katie – Spotting so scary, but you already saw the heartbeat and you know the baby is fine! It’s really normal, too! Tell that friend to stick her organic meat&veg where the sun don’t shine and enjoy your Doritos and other non-organic foods!

Merri

[jenice]

Gi - Sooooo happy for you Congrats Mommy-to-be !!!! Don't get stressed, I know this can be hard with all that you have been through. Your seeing new RE's that know what they are doin, soooo relax and enjoy being preggo !!! You made my day

[Lauren1171]

Merri - Congratulations on seeing the heartbeat!!!!! You must be so excited!!!


AFM - No I am spotting. A couple of friends did too and they got BFP, but I know it's AF. I have a F/U appt already scheduled with RE on Monday. How soon would they do a FET after back to back IVF? LOL now I am thinking maybe he will put me back on BCP tomorrow and stop AF (if I get BFN tomorrow).

[sarita28]

Well, I'm taking it better than my hubby. BFN. I got the message at 1010am. I have to call back and set-up a follow-up appointment. I talked to an RN last week about "what if," and she said if we wanted to try again after a negative, it would probably be April. So many new things to worry about. I know this next time I'm going to be the "squeaky wheel," that's for sure. So many things dissapointed me about this cycle.

Congrats to those who had BFPs. I will remember all of you and all the support you gave me over the last month.

To those that got BFNs like me, hopefully I'll see you in April!

[lou71]

Sarita -- I'm so sorry! Darn... I was really pulling for you. I'm glad you have a good attitude to pick up and go again in April. You are young and have time on your side... you WILL get your BFP. The road there is just a bunch of ups and downs. If I get a BFN next week, I will try again too but probably will be in May. I'll be checking on you girl!

Lauren-- I didn't try Gonal F. I used Follistim. I'm pretty sure they are pretty much the same thing. Could your spotting be implantation bleeding for a late implanter??? Remember, it's not BFN until a negative blood test. I'm praying for you still.

Gi --Oh, congrats honey! I'm soooo happy for you! Lucky 7 it is!

Stephanie -- Welcome! So happy you got your BFP and still decided to join us. Your shared experiences are very helpful. Thank you for your words. Today I'm 6dt3dt and having more sharplike stabs and aches in various places in my lower abdomen... making me wonder. They aren't AF like at all.

Merri-- Thank you. I hope you're right and I get a surprise BFP! How wonderful you saw the heartbeat so soon. Congratulations mommy!

Ronda-- Ooooh... I would sooo take you up on the offer for a girls day. My BF was going to plan one for us but so much has come up in her life that it didn't happen. She is a single mom with a 18 month old fighting for child support. She doesn't know I'm doing IVF... no one does. But I see her sweet healthy son and think to myself, "she doesn't know the blessing she has". Don't POAS... c'mon... take it to the end with me!

AFM -- Not much else new. Still with some cramping... but not AF like. I think I had it similar with my BFN cycle too though. Not sure if it was EXACTLY the same or not. Gong to acupuncture one more time later today then having dinner with some friends. Tomorrow I want to see Alice in Wonderland in IMAX 3D. Anyone else want to see that? Have a great weekend everyone!

[Positivethinking]

GIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I am sooooo happy for you 7th time is the charm... Ohhh I am sooo happy for you (okay I already said that). It also keep me hopeful because you and I had the same symptom. I wont poas today, sorry I know I said I would but I am so scare to have it negative. I want to keep my hint of hope and the small PMA I have left. CONGRATULATION!!!!

Talking about PMA, I think when I sent some to all of the girls and I did not keep much for myself...I woke up on the negative side today but I am trying to put the negative thoughts outside....This is why I will not poas today, I dont need more bad energy in my life right now...

Sarah, I am sorry girl for the bfn but you do sound very optimistic which is very nice to see. I wish you the best for everything in your life....

Lauren, I am still hoping for a bfp for you tomorrow. Vacations is also the best cure to any sad feeling so great for Vegas...

Rhonda: keep up the spirit, I know I am kind of down today and it is hard to be positive but until you get the offical call, there is always hope you can get the bfp...

Lou: I feel very sad for you but everyone is right, your mother is with you and will always be...I am sending you a huge huggg. I wanted to say I really admire people like you who never quit. I give up so easily (it is easier) and I wish I could have the strenght that you have. Keep it up and get ready for the next steps in your life: hopefully a BPF next week...(((((hugggss)))))

Merri: congrats on the heartbeat...This is great..I am soo happy for you...

katie: what is the update about the spotting? Did you talk to your RE? I have to say, I looove Merri comment about : "Tell that friend to stick her organic meat&veg where the sun don’t shine and enjoy your Doritos and other non-organic foods!" That really made me laugh and put my spirit up. No friend should make you feel guilty about anything....I eat organic but I drink so much tea and love junck food like everyone else and I would not change that because I am pregnant.

Update: I am now 9dp3dt. Nothing new in my life, pretty boring. I am swimming into dog's hair and I am supposed to clean but I am a little lazy...I am tired all day (which I take as a good sign) and comes night and I cannot sleep. Last night, it was 2:30am and I was still tossing and turning... (May be this is why I am tired....). I have been dreaming being pregnant but last night I dreamt I was bleeding pink... I try not to see too much into it but I woke up a little on the negative side...

[DandMe]

Flying post... I don't feel like I have much to report. Still no freaking ultrasound until tuesday and I am terrified. So few symptoms.

Gi - major cograts, kiddo you deserve it!
Sarita - I am so , so , so , sorry.... April will be your month - we'll be watchign for your progress.
Katie - Spotting news? I'm on major tp alert but so far nothing. how are you doing?
Merri - congrats on the heartbeat! Too cool as you are another of my similar beta buddies.
Lou - big hugs to you....

[Lauren1171]

Sarah - I'm so sorry! It totally sucks! I am right here with you, as now AF is here full flow and my uterus is falling out lol!!

Lou - I am still hoping for a BFP from you. But if you end up taking Gonal -F, I have 3 - 900 unit pens I will send to you. My Insurance covers them if I need to get more. I only pay a $25 co-pay.

[Stephanieford78]

Thank you everyone for welcoming me. I was looking for a good place to talk to people like me for a while. I still have questions and concerns so when I saw this forum, I decided to join. I need people to share my story with, I don't have many people to talk to about all this stuff. DH doesn't want anyone to know about the IVF. He doesn't want people to ask what's wrong with us.

It was hard to go through IVF a third time. As far as we knew at the beginning, we were both healthy and fertile. The only issue was my tubes being tied Thanks to an unorthodox dr convincing me I needed it when I was 20 (and naive), or should get my ovaries removed. (Mom died of ovarian cancer just a few months prior when I was 19) Anyway, regardless of assuring me it was reversable, she burnt my tubes completely gone. SO when they went in to reverse, they couldn't, resulting in IVF as our only choice.

DH is a Sgt in the Army and I don't work. Took a 15 month deployment and a lot of penny pinching to get enough money to do one IVF cycle. Just to find out that his swimmers don't like my eggs. No explaination from the dr and none that I can find on the interent. He didn't take it too well at all, he is only 25 and all the tests said he was perfect. Rescue icsi resulted in only one embryo to transfer but didn't make it. I had bright red blood the day after transfer and cried. Had to wait two more months to do the next cycle, icsi right away this time and it seemed to be going well. There were 2 expanding blasts that were hatching on their own, we thought this was it! NOPE!

This time we did FET and they didn't look quite as good as the first two out of the bunch that didn't make it. Not sure if it is possible to feel like it wasn't going to work but still be positive at the same time, but that is how I was. lol This time was different then the other times. I had cramps. I didn't feel it this bad the first two cycles. I thought it was my uterus rejecting the embryo. I was like, great... another BFP is going to come out of this. I couldn't wait to test at home. I went out and got a HPT and tested pos 5dp5dt. It was faint, but it was there. I know I broke the rules, but couldn't help myself. The BETA was the only thing that was really going to convince me and thankfully it said pos too.

Just goes to show that, even the 'not so good looking' embryos can make it. After all, these three frosties I got put in me were not first choice. Not to mention the cramps I experienced.

I have nothing but faith for you still waiting for BETA and who have to try again. It will happen! CONGRATS to who got the BFP, GI right? And Merri, the Heartbeat!! That is amazing! I am forced to wait till I am 8wks for my US. Not fair, but can't wait! I am scared as I could possibly be of not getting a heartbeat or not seeing anything, after all, a lot can happen in three weeks. UGH... waiting sucks!

Thanks for listening.