Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[WeHaveHope]

Ladies,
Thank you for all of your continued support. It means the world to me

I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow with my pre-op appointment and with the college advisor.

[blueeyedreamer]

Seriously! You are not gonna believe this. We enjoyed our evening in Portland, slept in a nice warm bed, and checked out to find someone had busted out the driver side window and broke in our car. Then my bro goes to get his rental which had a flat tire. To top it off we don't live near there. We drove to the coast and then home in what sounded like a jet engine. We had to duct tape plastic to the window. OMFG. The bad luck needs to be over.

[leorira11]

I'm feeling a bit better today. Not sure why. Last night, I really had the feeling that I was failure - I'm failing to get pregnant, or failing to carry to term, or failing to adopt. I'm just failing at parenthood. <sigh> Somehow, feeling more optimistic today...

Neffi - thanks for your outrage Makes me feel so much better! I post this disappointing piece on news on FB (no IVF on FB, but other things. But generally, I keep my FB out of this struggle) and SOOOO many people chimed in that this was ridiculous. Lots of my friends asked if they could call and give testimony for me International adoption is a possibility - we've met with an agency that works with Russia/Ukraine. We could have a 6month old baby within a year --- but.... the agency fee is $50,000 up front, and that doesn't include travel and other expenses (at least 2 trips for both of us to Russia). OMG. We can't afford that. My in-laws could easily afford it (ie, write us a check and never notice the 50k is missing), but they are against the idea of international adoption on the basis that "those kids have issues and you guys have gotten so close with the IVF. You should keep doing the IVF". Grrrrrrrr....

Surrogacy is another option - but the government won't pay for the IVF if we use a surrogate. We don't have the money. Maybe we can do another fresh IVF and then (sneaky sneaky) transfer the frozen leftover embryos into a surrogate if that doesn't work. But that means at least one more IVF for me. <sigh> A friend actually offered to surrogate for us. She has 4 kids under 5. She loves being pregnant, but her DH said no more kids. So she is pursuing being a surrogate in general. She would do it for us for free/cost. That is an option too....

Amanda - that scene a few seasons ago (which turned out just to be Sookie's dream) where she was with BOTH Eric and Bill? AWESOME! And Jason? And Alcide? how many hot guys can they put in a single show?

I like your idea of half donor/half yours. I asked if we could do an IUI with BOTH my husband's sperm (super super super low count) and donor sperm. That way, if I got pregnant, we wouldn't know for sure if it was my husband's or not (without a DNA test). We were told that wasn't an option at all. Oh well.

Samantha - I'm sorry the HPT was negative! That's so disappointing. I'm hoping for a BIG FAT SURPRISE BFP today!

Maria - good luck with the pre-op! It's great that they can do all those things at once. I had them all done separately (but was awake for the hysteroscopy and endo biopsies). Congrats on doing well on your evaluation and getting a raise! That's a great feeling!

Julia - I totally get you. I've been there. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. It's so hard to be 99% sure it's negative, but totally hold onto that 1% hope, even though you know odds are against you. This is NOT your fault. I hope today gives you some answers.

Blessed - thanks for thinking of me. How are your pee sticks? Still a super BFP? Can you be obsessive and take pictures of them and post them? I love HPT pictures! I'm so strange!

Gina - glad to hear you are feeling better. I have a huge time difference with my mom and it's super important for me to remember not to call her in the middle of the night, even for something silly, because she freaks out when she gets middle-of-the-night international calls.

Ninde - I thought "PS I Love You" (book and movie) was super depressing. I don't think I would want my husband to set up something like that. A little weird and creepy... You KNOW there won't be a happy ending, because he's already dead. Civil Rights is a huge joke here - Israelis have no concept. Technically, there are laws, but no one cares. Privacy and individual rights don't exists as concepts here. In that way, things are very "Middle Eastern". --- soooo.... bootcamp workout AND cupcakes? My kinda lady! (did you know that PhotoBucket has a whole special section called "cupcakes"? Weird)

HopeThisWorksM - fingers crossed for you! I hope that u/s goes wonderfully!

Christy - thanks for your kind words. How are you doing? I know the feeling of "another" BFN... that sucks so much. I was really hoping this would work for you. How is the IVF Attain application going?

Blue eyed - duct tape? wow! That's ingenious of you I'm sorry you are having more bad luck. Will the insurance cover a new window?

AFM - Getting super antsy. I'm remembering how much I hate the icky mess from the progesterone. I call tomorrow to schedule the timing for the FET. GAH!

I have a countdown clock on my phone. I love countdowns -- so now I'm counting DPO -- today is 3"dpo"! Only 9 days until I start POAS!

Fingers crossed sooooo much that our embryo makes it to transfer!



Also - I'm usually really good about cutting our caffeine before a transfer -- but I'm LOVING the cappuccino machine at work. I can't have enough frothed milk in my life I'm having one latte/day (ie, one shot of espresso with some steamed milk). That should be fine, right?

[leorira11]

[leorira11]

(blinkies mean I'm in a a good mood!)

[blessed143]

I'm laying in bed awake just praying that I get a bfp today. I'm on my phone which makes writing harder to do. Leora I posted a pic. I ran out of hpts and dh said no more hehe. I'm praying for us all who have betas today and thinking of you all. Does it matter what time I go to get the btea done?

[fruit]

Hello Everyone,
sorry i've been MIA for so long, i tried to catch up as possible as i can, but i know i have a lot and lot of reading to do.

Wehavehope - Sunshine - Blueeye - Amanda - and all the ladies with BFN and the ladies with angels babies - im so very sorry about the sad news and all what u've been through, i know there is nothing i can say to ease ur pain, but i know that im on the same boat as you are and im not giving up, at least not now and i know that as long as we have each other to understand and suport each other we will achieve our dreams in a way or another....

Leorira - glad to know that ur FET is finally here, i wish u all the luck with a Big BFP!!!

Anton - hope u r doing fine, waiting for ur news. take care.

JenMink - CONGRATS on ur BFP!! i was so happy to hear about , u deserve it soooooooooooooo much. Good Luck my friend.

To all the Ladies here, who i know from previous cycles and who i dont know, i wish u all BFPs with all my heart.

afm : will b doing a new cycle in january or february.....

[WeHaveHope]

Fruit-thank you for your kind words. It's really nice to hear from you. I'm glad you'll be doing a new cycle in the new year. Hopefully we will both cycle together, get our BFP's, and bring home a happy healthy baby. Stay in touch.

Blessed-praying for your BFP today.

SamanthaRae-praying for your BFP today.

Julia-I'm still praying for you. Please stay strong.

[fruit]

We - i'll be more than happy to cycle with u and i was so happy to see ur pics, u look so happy and u have a beautiful warm looks just as u have a kind and beautiful heart

[WeHaveHope]

Fruit-thank you I look forward to cycling with you in the new year.

[Sunshine1576]

I look forward to cycling with you ladies in the New Year too! 2012 will be OUR year!

Blue, that's just awful hearing about your car getting broken into, people like that should be shot. I hope they didn't get anything valuable. Remember you can replace things. but you cannot be replaced. ((Hugs))

Leorira, it's always good to explore options, but I'm glad you have a FET cycle coming up and it will be less hassle without all the meds. I agree I don't like the messy progesterone tablets, could you go with the PIO shots instead? As for us, we have a conference call with our RE this morning and will go over our next steps. We wanted to get his thoughts before applying for the IVF Attain Program. The application is very easy though, they fill everything out and they send us an approval letter along the financing and final cost to us in the mail. Should be around 21,000.00 for 3 IVF and 3 FETS. This does not cover the meds which would be around 1,500-2,000 per cycle. This is why I have held onto doing IUIs for so long. A regular IVF for one cycle would be 11,500. before meds....oh well I look at it this way- people out there spend this kind of money on a boat or car all the time, this is just something we would have to finance.

[Julia73]

Nurse said its 50/50 when bleeding like this. At least that's not a no. waiting waiting waiting now. Blessed and sam? Anything? I won't hear until like afternoon and it is 11 am cst now.

[blessed143]

Julia- I am thinking of you and I am praying that you get a bfp! I am still waiting... If I dont hear from them in a few hours I will probably call. I am in est... SO its only 12 right now... ahhh... waiting is such a long thing... I hope that you get some good news!

Hey Ladies... I am just waiting and waiting. I am hoping that they would give me a call soon. The wait is such a hard thing. I am laying on the couch resting and trying to stay calm. Thank you for all the good wishes and prayers. I will try to catch up. cant seem to get myself to calm down enough to really read... Thinking of you all.... Samantha and julia praying for bfp!

[LauraN]

Julia- I've been thinking and praying for you. Please post as soon as you know...the waiting is a killer everytime.

Blessed- same with you, please post as soon as you know.....keeping my finger's crossed for you.

Good luck to anyone else I missed.

[Gina1976]

Hope you ladies hear something soon! Sucks I'm 6 hrs ahead of Est but hopefully you get your BETA's before I sleep.