Thank you all for the words of support. I feel calmer now about whatever happens with my cat. Mostly I want answers before I just put him down. Some of his symptoms could also be indicative of a stroke, especially since my vet is not able to see anything on the x-ray. But I also don't want to be suffering. I know a lot of people take a different view of veterinary care, but I am not one to spend thousands of dollars just trying to prolong the life of a cat or dog by a few months. He has had a really good run with me since November 1999, in spite of peeing on a lot of my stuff through the years.
suzyq - Thanks for the poem and kind thoughts. I agree, it's good to know we aren't the only ones living in this crazy double-life kind of world.
Tawny - As you probably already saw, I have had a headache for pretty much the entire going on 4 weeks that I have been taking Lupron. I hate this stuff. It's totally evil, and your reaction was definitely not a coincidence. Thursday should be my last day, good lord I can't wait!!! That is so horrible how bad your headache was. I hope it doesn't keep up like that and your body gets used to it. Not sure how much mock transfers help, my first mock went great then for the transfer they ran into this kink in my cervix and it took about 5x longer than it should have...
kiwi11 - We do early scans too, I go in 7:15 Thursday. It would be better if I didn't live so far away and Boston wasn't absolute HELL to drive into at that time of day. Fortunately I managed to finagle my way into working from home that day without my boss knowing a thing since I have to do some online training anyway.

And yes I have a fantastic amazing wonderful sister who sped to my house, then to my office and left it on my desk while I was in a meeting, then had to race off to pick up my niece at summer camp with probably about 5 minutes to spare. She is off buying wet kitten food for my cat right now. Basically: she rocks.
Ninde - I have to ask what the happiness ratio workshop is??
In other "AFM" news that doesn't involve a dying cat, the birthday party for my Nana went great. She is 90 years old today! Funny story: Randomly at the nursing home yesterday my Nana says, "You're going to have another one." We all kind of froze. My mom asked her what she meant and she said, "Another baby. She's going to have another one." It gave me chills, just felt kind of prophetic coming from out of nowhere when she doesn't even know I'm trying right now.