Well my euphoria of yesterday was dispelled at 3am this morning when I did another test and got a negative. I have since done another one and it was negative and my period has started. Don't think its worth having a blood test (especially as its another £50.00 to be told what I already know). So I think it must have been a bio chemical pregnancy, and maybe the embryos latched on for a short while or something. That actually does give me some hope.
Having two lines show up on a hpt was absolutely wonderful (after testing every month for the past 3 years and only ever having one line to suddenly see another one - although faint - was so fantastic) It was so short lived but in a masachistic sort of way it was worth it. I now know what it feels like to have a +ive.
Have crashed and burned now though but will pick myself up in a few days time and plan to go again asap for a fresh cycle ... i think. The thought of doing it again horrifies me but I just have to. So I'm going to pack as much into the next 2 months as I can. Already booked a white water rafting weeknd for dp and me.
Thanks for all your support ...... and good luck to the rest of you testing this July. We need some more happy faces.
From Sophie-Jane
I cannot believe this is happening to our July cycle buddies..........it is unbelievable. You must be devistated.
Sounds good that you have organised some stuff though........especially things that you could not do if you were pg..........its not a hell of a lot of consolation but it is good to be able to spend as much quality time with DH before your little one arrives...........it will happen!!
Oh Sophie-Jane, I'm sorry the +ve was so short lived. As you say though, it does prove that it can (and will !) happen - it's just that now is not the right time for you. Next time will be your time.
You are doing right, thinking about taking some time out to enjoy yourselves a little - then you can come back feeling stronger, fitter etc and ready to go.
Both of you, take care
Sandra x
Me 41 yrs old - dh 49 yrs old. ttc 110 yrs.
1st cycle (ICSI)....Mar 04 -ve.
2nd cycle (ICSI)....Aug 04 -ve.
3rd cycle FET........May 05 -ve.
4th cycle (ICSI) ... Feb 06 -ve
5th cycle FET ..... Feb/Mar 11
I am so sorry. What a cruel thing it is to get that positive and have it snatched away so quickly. You have the right attitude though and that after so many years of negative results to see that faint line just for once you had that excitement which will never leave you. You know it can happen - but when................who knows????
I am glad you are not thinking of giving up and maybe we will be buddies again later on.
Have fun with your DP white water rafting. I did it with my DH in Bali on my honeymoon and it was superb.
I am truely sorry though that you happiness has been turned into sadness so soon. Thinking of you, take care.
Love Dagny xkx
Me 38 DH 40
1st 2nd & 4th IVF/ICSI -ve
3rd +ve DD Katelyn born @ 24wks & sadly died
5th +ve m/c 9wks
6th +ve Twins Sadly DD Leah stillborn @20wks and DS Kieran born @22wks but sadly died too
7th +ve - DD Chloë Mae born @38wks our precious miracle
I was convinced you were gonna get a +tive ........... I am gutted! I have been following you closely my girl and wish you all the best for your future plans!
Take care hun
Love
Nickie
1st Cycle ICSI - Cancelled before E/R due to poor response
2nd Cycle ICSI - April 2004 Negative
3rd Cycle FET - July 2004 - Negative
4th Cycle ICSI - Nov 2004 - BFP (Oh my GOD)
I just saw your bad news and feel terrible for you. I know what you mean about testing every month and just wondering what it feels like to even see that 2nd line. I really admire you for being persistent and planning to give it another go. Enjoy the months you are taking off.
Best wishes,
love,
Staci
Me 35/DH 41
TTC 4 years
Diagnosis: MF infertility
IVF/ICSI April 2004: -tive
FET Aug. 2004 (canceled due to cysts)
FET Jan 2005: -tive
FET Aug. 2005
I am so sorry for the negative - how cruel.
Your fighting spirit is admirable and I am sure this will pull you through to find your dreams.......
Love
Tracey
xxx
ttc 9 years. 38 yrs old, dh 8 hrs younger!First IVF in Aug 2002 and had ectopic.2nd IVF neg.3rd FET and negative.4th FET and positive but sadly lost our little boy at 20 weeks.5th FET and Alice Isobel and Emily Charlotte born 5th Aug 2004!
Thank you all.
Coming on and off this site all day HAS SO HELPED ME, and given me the hope that it will work for me one day.
WE CERTAINLY LEARN PATIENCE DON'T WE............
From Sophie-jane
Me 33 dp 30
me tubal damage
ist ivf Feb04 -ive
fet July04 -ive
ivf Nov04 +ive twins, but sadly one twin died at 10 weeks gestation. Freya born 21st July 2005. She's amazing!
Oh Sophie-Jane,
I'm so so sorry. I know what you mean about finally getting that second line. I had the same experience. I keet taking it out and looking at it.
Taking a vacation before starting again is a great idea. I did the same and went into the second cycle relaxed and ready to try again. I agree that getting a + gives you hope that it can happen again.
Take care of yourself.
Hope
Me - 35 Unexplained DH 37
TTC#1 since '97
5 IUIs
1st IVF 5/04 - transferred 2-neg
2nd IVF 7/04 - transferred 3-pos but MC at 8 wks.
dear Sophie-Jane
I am so sorry for you Know how your feeling
Glad your taking time out and booked a holiday exacly what I am doing even though my time out is permanent.
I will watch out for you on the boards when you cycle again and wish you all the best of luck.
Enjoy the white water rafting!!!!!!!
Jane
xxxxx