danica's nitemare (warning, long post sorry)

[Sand]

Hi Randa - I was prescribed antibiotics after EC, but not before ..

Amers .. I wouldn't worry at this stage. Presumably if you had picked up an infection you would know about it by now. Lots of PMA !!

Sandra x

[LittleP]

Amers

I certainly had no antibiotics - I was on the injections instead of the pessaries

So, don't worry stay positive

Little P

[BelB]

Danica (my little Aussie friend!),
So sorry to hear what you went through, what an absolute bloody nightmare..
I agree with what the other gals have already said, take time to get strong, and think lots of positives for your frozen embie (FET worked for me!!).
Take good care love
Belinda

[danica]

hey gorgeous girls,
thanku thanku thanku for all your support, this site is just the best!!
im getting there but i must say i have bad days, today is a bad day so yes i definitly need counselling but its that initial phone call that i just cant seem to make... i think it might be the fact too that ivf counselling is at the hospital where it all happened and picturing going there is making me squirm... maybe i'll look into other councelling options....
one good thing thats come out of this is that ive lost almost 10kg! yes, i can think of better ways of losing weight but it is a bit of an incentive lol!
yesterday i rang the dept of human services re adoption - im wrapt coz theyve waived the age limit... the cut off was 35 which we thought ridiculous... im 34 but DH is 36 but now its given us more hope... shes sending us paper work to get the ball rolling... we decided to keep our options open plus i think its really hard to adopt these days and takes years but we thought we'd try... as for the embryo - dunno yet... i used to be able to picture us as parents but that vision has totally gone - what if its really not meant to be? omg, im going nuts!! im sorry to whinge but of all ppl i guess u guys understand so thanku all so much again
luv,
d
p.s... thanks for giving me feedback too, re the antibiotics - i remember my specialist saying that it is soooo rare to get an infection that
they just dont prescribe antibiotics anymore as it is a 'waste' well, this
comment has really hit me now and i must say my blood is boiling...

in the back of my head i'll always wonder that IF i had taken antibiotics b4
and after would those little embryo's have survived???????

[LittleP]

Danica

If there was such a thing as a virtual hug, I am sure by now you would be fighting your way through the amount you would receive.

Don't torture yourself, you did nothing wrong

Stay as positive as you can - there is a new light shining your way

As other people have said where there is a will there is a way.

Little P

[danica]

thanx littlep, i dont know whats happening to me! you're absolutely right, where there is a will, there IS a way!

thanks for knocking some sense back into me
d xox

[taylorjools]

Danica
I've just read your story and my heart goes out to you. It's not fair that such a thing could happen. I am a spiritualist - my Gran was a medium - and I believe that you came back to your body because of the love from dh and all around you, and you are meant to be in this life now. Give yourself time to heal, maybe even if you are not religious, you could talk to a priest/vicar whatever???

When my depression started I was so desparate and suicidal and when I came to the depression clinic I had great comfort from the rector there. It made me realise how precious life is and that my life had meaning even if I couldn't have children.

You are in my prayers

Love BigJxxxxx

[danica]

hello bigj,
thanku for thinking of me and including me in your prayers, thats gorgeous!
sorry i havent been on here for awhile! i am dying to pick someones brains about what i saw - it was really amazing but the one thing that i dont ever want to forget is the feeling i had - words cannot explain it - it was the most beautiful, peacefull, fulfilling moment but i just wasnt ready to go... i couldnt leave my dh...
i do go to church everynow and again, actually, we went a few days after ET to find that our parish priest had been rushed to hospital and had been read his last rites - a few days later was when i was admitted and i actually saw him somehow - in my dreams? i have no idea (freaky i know) luckily he too recovered, my mum went to church and altho he didnt give the service (he was still a bit weak) he got up and said 'heaven is a beautiful place'! im dying to talk to him so i think i might take your advice and see if i can have a chat with him!
wow, i cant believe ur gran was a medium - doesnt that usually pass down generations? how exciting!! have u felt anything?
keep in touch!
luv, d

[Nolan]

HI, Danica wow you have had some experience. I'm so sorry it all went so wrong, but TG you're recovering. Best wishes to you and lots of hugs xxxx

[ogr1]

i dont understand about meds..
i thought all docs gave them..
i had anti for the 10 days before ec and the 10 before et..
to make sure we didnt get a infection..

i thought that all docs did that. i was told anytime before any type of surgery you should go on anti.

give yourself time and i understand about counsleing.
the fisrt step is always the hardest. is there any way you could get someone to come to your house?

please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers
and am sending you hugs a hopefuly a little sun..
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[randa2006]

Danica,
I still have a hard time believing you went through such a horrible ordeal! I guess we can never get too comfortable with current medical technology and practices - no matter how modern, it can still go very wrong!
I hope time is working its magic on you and you are healing. The fact that you can discuss it says a lot about how strong you are.
I hope something equally fantastic happens to you to offset that nightmare - you deserve it!
All My Best,