1st trimester friends

[JACKY JONES]

hi joanne
i hate backed beens and peas aswell ha ha
fave tv prog~~holbycity and casualty
fave singer~~celine dion
fave auther~~virginia andrews..mandasue heller...martina cole
this list is going to get long with all us girls thinking of things

sorry ur not feeling to good cheryl just relax and put ur feet up for longer....i wonder when the blooming feeling starts??? cant wait for that gotta be soon ..PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ha ha

iv chopped a fresh pineapple and melon up today so eating that thru the day its lovely to just go grab it from the fridge and much without having to prep it up...think its time for another fruit fix actually ...
x x x x~~~jacs~~~x x x x

[jamato253]

Hey girls,

Hope everyone is feeling well!! Sorry I haven't posted....This past weekend was scary with spotting and all but my OBGYN sent me for another scan on monday (even though I had just had one friday am) to ease my mind and there was my little peanut just beating away, I felt so much better!!! THey said everything looked normal and the spotting can be anything from a broken capillari since we have about 50% more blood corsing through us than usual....Things have been better but I am so tired and OMG the hungry horrors!!! It seems I can't get through two hours without feeling like I am starving....The other fun one is feeling like my bladder is going to pop for just a little tinkle....BUT I LOVE IT ALL!!! 9 weeks already and only a couple more to go!!! before I am out of the first trimester, then I can worry about everything in my second trimester!!!!!

Ok enough babbling, I want to play:
fave food~~ Really depends on mood, day and time of day!!!
fave drink~~ Ok pregnant it is cranberry juice, after baby captain and coke
fave film~~ Wedding Crashers - SO FUNNY
fave holiday~~ Halloween/Christmas
fave place~~ right now my bed
fave animal~~ ALL
pets/names~~ 2 cats, Amber and Binx
ambition in life~~ Be a good mother, build a strong family and continue on in a career that provides satisfaction and challenges
things that make u cry~~ Right now? Some commercials, weddings, etc
where u live~~ Massachusetts - 35 minutes out of Boston
kind of house~~ right now 2 bdrm apt, moving oct into 4 bdrm house
fave thing in ur life~~ My DH and music
best friend~~ Kelley and DH
family life~~ Oldest of 2, I younger brother
hobbies~~ music/vocals, swimming, painting
most hated thing~~ PEAS
fave baby names~~ Connor and Briana
fave colour (s) - Blue
fave tv programme - The 4400, Rescue Me, Law & Order SVU, CSI

[Joanne104]

Hi girls

I feel so down today - can't stop crying. Am so scared then when I get to the scan they are going to tell me there's nothing there.

Thing is my clinic don't do bloods to measure HCG levels - they give you a test to do either at home or you can go there and do it. If you get a +ve then they say that's a good enough indication for them to assume all is good.

I know right now I should be happy (and I am deep down) but is this normal???! Guess my greatest fear is going to see the midwife who turns round and says "what are you doing here, you're not even pregnant"!

Had horrible dream (oh it's all coming out now.......... ) last night that test was wrong and it was the progesterone keeping AF at bay.

Have just spoken to DH who says nothing to worry about, I'm tired, boobs are sore (even having tingling sensations in them now!), I'm very emotional which like he says are all good signs. SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Help me girls, let's face it I need it

Joanne
xx

P.S. Sorry about the "me me me" post - how are YOU all feeling?
x

[LittleP]

Joanne

Don't worry - you sound like us when we were all waiting for the first scan. Honestly, there is nothing wrong with feeling the way you do - it's natural. You've got through a huge milestone in your life - you're pregnant - but there's a side of you that's scared somebody is going to take that away from you. Hey, guess what I was exactly the same and I'm sure a lot of the other girls will confirm that they felt that way.

Try really hard to focus on the little one growing inside and developing - look forward to the scan and seeing confirmation that all is well. Your DH is right, all the symptoms you are experiencing are good signs, try and enjoy it.

Take care of yourself

Little P

[Joanne104]

Little P

Thank you, I know it's crazy. I always assumed that getting those 2 lines would be the end of worry when in fact it just opens a up to a whole new set!!!

I always said (and in future with keep my big mouth shut!) that I would enjoy every day of being pregnant if I ever achieved it and yet here I am right at the beginning acting like a complete idiot!!!!

You are right though - am terrified that someone is going to take all of this away from me. I am trying to just take one day at a time and think that every day i don't bleed is a step towards our goal and think I am just going to have to TRY and continue along that train of thought!

Am not going to ask if this gets any easier cos I think I know what the answer is! If I had a choice (ha ha) I would just like to get to a stage where I can enjoy being pregnant.

How are you feeling now - do you still like potatoes?!?!

[JACKY JONES]

joanne
if u look back at my posts im feeling exactly the same
i also only did a test at home and nobody has actually said congrats ur pregnant...so im very tearful and keep wondering wot if the test is wrong and im not and all these syptoms are in my head
cheryl is almost to the same date as me and shes had 1 scan and due to have another when i have my first so all clinics are diff i just wished id of had one by now to reasure me that i am preggas
all i keep thinking is if i wasnt id of had af by now so surely i must be
keep ur head up hun and try to think positive .(im a fine one to talk who keeps crying all the time)
when is ur first scan????
do ur ticker it really does help to look at that and its a little confirmation that u are
x x x x~~~jacs~~~x x x x

[LittleP]

Joanne

I'm fine - still waiting for those bl**dy results - wish they would just call and put my mind at rest (I know the longer they leave it, it could be good news, but hey I just want confirmation now!!)

I still love potatoes and fruit - gone off Chinese completely and most Indian food I can't stomach but I do love this feeling. It's like a daily adventure game of discovery!!!!

Trying to eat all the things they say to eat as often as possible - like eggs, fish, certain meats, fruit and veg, etc - it's difficult though because your body kind of dictates what it wants - hey ho!!

I hope you are feeling slightly more confident - I know it's difficult, but try and believe in it if you can.

Big hugs

Little P

[Joanne104]

Jacky

I can TOTALLY relate to how you were feeling (have just had a read of your posts) cos that is EXACTLY how I feel. I did the test at home but have had no bloods taken to reassure me or anything else!

I started wondering this morning if I was imagining it all, but it is reassuring to hear I'm not the only one!!!! Not long now till your scan, I still don't know when mine will be , have to ring up end of next week - she said it will either be 26th August or more likely some time the week after (but not the Monday cos of the bank holiday!) so if it's the end of that week I will be nearly 8 weeks!

I feel so up and down today it's unreal, before this I have to say I've just felt overwhelmingly tired. In my next life I'm coming back as a man

LP - think I would be climbing the walls now waiting, deep down you must be reassured that they haven't been in touch by now but it would be nice to hear them say it!!!! Do hospitals actually realise how much doing things like this affects people?!?!?!!?

I am totally off food too, had some broth last night which I just left, I just dunno what I want to eat

Thank you once again to you both for all of your kind words, they mean so much, going to try and banish these negative thoughts and think positively (I said try )

Joanne
xx

[LittleP]

Good on you girl - PMA

I like the idea of a nice bowl of hearty soup too, but when it's there in front of me I go completely off it - aren't pregnant women fickle

Big hugs to you all

Little P

[Smita]

Hi everyone,
Looks like we could all do with some cheering up..
dh isleaving tomorrow morning and the tears have been flowing since afternoon..its just that I'm going to miss him so much..it WAS a lovely 3 days, but do I hate it when he leaves..
Now have to wait for a month and a half till he can come again..
Jacs and Joanne, dont worry, you are in my prayers..you'll soon be reassured..
P,what is it with your clinic??
Take care, you all..

[Joanne104]

Smita

Sending you lots of hugs - that must be so difficult for you. Hopefully the time will pass by really quickly till he is home again to be with you

This has by far been my worst day yet - having pains really low down (sorry TMI), not bad pains or anything like that, and not constant, sort of like a dragging sensation.

Enjoy the rest of time with dh and I hope that I have stopped being a miserable c*w tomorrow to help you!

Joanne
x

[LittleP]

DH spoke to hospital and they said that they do all the priority levels first, so as we haven't been called yet it is probably a positive sign that the levels are reduced. She couldn't guarantee that they weren't borderline, but has said that she hopes we will know by the end of tomorrow.

Ah well, just another 24 hours and hopefully an end to yet another wait.

Can't complain though, the hospital are absolutely fantastic and really thorough - I would rather they took time and thought about it than just rushed a decision, so I guess I should learn a little patience!!!

Smita - I'm sorry DH has to go again tomorrow - big hugs and have a lovely evening together tonight.

Hope all you others are doing ok.

Has anyone heard anything from HM - I know she was resting a little while ago, but just wanted to make sure that she is ok.

Little P

[JACKY JONES]

hi girls
no news from cheryl today i hope shes still not having a crappy day like yesterday
iv had a friend here today thats really cheared me up her little boy is 10 months old and such a delight
she has gone thru everything she could think of to tell me from early stages to having the baby to him now ... wot a laugh weve had
im so tired now tho going to get the paper and go lie on the bed for a little while gosh this entertaining does take it outta you ha ha
x x x x~~~jacs~~~x x x x

[Smita]

Hi all,
Back again- just got back from the airport..Kept trying not to cry.. can blame it all on the hormones..Anyway, am feeling better now except my eyes are burning and red, so will probably go get a nap..

Jo, dont worry abt the pain too much.. I used to have this af like pain all the time in the beginning and run to the bathroom to check if af started or something.. I still do that at times cause I have some spotting .. though its reduced consederably..
It feels like a dream sometimes and that some one is going to wake me up and its all going to be over..Can't thank God enough for what he has given us till today..
Hope everyone has a great day today!

[Joanne104]

I fear it may all be over for me - I've had bleeding and quite bad cramps during the night, it did stop for a few hours then started again. It's not heavy but too heavy for me to think it could be a "show" - sorry if that's TMI!!!

Head is all over the place, need to ring the clinic to let them know. I fear this is the end of the IVF route for me, am not sure that I can go through this again.

Hope the rest of you are feeling ok

Joanne
xx