I'm not so fine today-right now..- My best friend came down to see me for the weekend as she was missing me..(Its a 4 hour flight from the middle east to india.. she was here sunday and monday) Left last night and I cried and cried and cried.. my eyes are burning..
Its wierd, but I was thinking of Dh and how I miss him so much when I cried last night..Seeing her made me feel so alone here..
Dh calls daily, chats with me every evening on the net and we even hook up a web-cam to see each other, BUT IT STILL IS NOT the same as being together..
I guess I shd only count myself lucky that he can visit me at least..
And that we have this baby to look forward to, but you know something

I feel I love dh more than I love this baby...
Is that sick of me?
I mean we both want this baby so much, but...
God what a self indulgent whinge!
Please cyber-slap me!
Am planning to go take a scan tomorrow or thursday to see if baby is still ok..When I feel negative, I worry that God will take him/her away from me cause I'm such a complainer instead of counting myself lucky..
Other than that, I had a Fabulous time these past couple of days..Was a Lovely change catching up with my friend..
Thank you all for listening,
I'll be back to my cheery(but worried) self next time, I promise!
Love,
smita